Chapter 20: chap20


    ALEX


    I feel like shit... what did I do.... I should stop that moment when I saw her yelled in pain but I was lost


    in my lust n in her sweet tightness .... n then I full filled my need n totally ignore hers ... I feel ashamed


    she was fucking pregnant ... I can also hurt her ...n when I saw her body covered in marks because of


    my rough fucking I just want to kill myself ...she looks so devastated, scared n numb ...I enter in my


    office n made myself a drink..n lost in my work so that I can work n try to forget what I did.


    It was almost 8:00 when there was a knock in the door I looked n saw it was kate ... she has changed


    to some brown dress n looking so fragile...


    She said in a small voice without looking in my eyes '' Dinner is ready do you want to eat here or in the


    dinning room''


    I was quite for a moment looking her ... n checking her if she is ok ... then I


    I replied '' iming ''


    She left quietly .....when I reached Emma was sitting in her rocking chair and Kate was sitting far away


    from my side... I try to avoid looking at her but all I can saw how quite she is now, never lifting her head,


    looking so sad and weak...slowly eating her food , which was still fulled... why she is not eating properly


    .. she should be more hungery she doesnot eat properly during breakfast, lunch n now dinner.... may


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    be it is because of me ,,, i thought in guilt.


    After dinner kate put tes in the dishwasher n take Emma for a bath and then to bed.


    All this time i was thinking how to apologized to kate ... because looking at her so broken was killing me


    ... i need to clear this bad air..


    I went to her room and saw her in sleeveless  night gown and she was talking to some one


    She said " sir I know .. but i have to resign ... n dont worry about the project it is already done and send


    to your mail I was working on it today... Im so grateful you want me back but i really need a break from


    work ... now im married n have a 2 year n unborn kid to take care ... so plz understand.... sure sure sir


    when Im looking for job again NYPH will be my first choice... ok goodnight''


    I feel more guilty she was really finishing her project and have left her job because of me... when she


    turned n looked me .. she flinched


    Kate


    When Alex left me in room broken... i went to washroom to clean my self ... when i looked at myself at


    mirror my arms n back and neck was covered in marks... n some where a little painful... looking at


    those i remember all that and I cried heavely....


    After bath i went to check emma n smiled for my angel and cooked dinner... i was wondering should i


    called Alex for dinner... if i didnt he will get angry again ... so with little courage i called him


    After dinner i went to call my boss where i told many lies to understand why i need to resign ... then


    after called i turned i looked it was alex standing outside my door... i get scared... did i do something


    wrong again.


    I said in a scared voice" Hmm Alex... you.. you need something''


    Alex


    Her scared voice too much for me.... she was looking so vunerable .. i try to rx her n said '' yup


    everything is fine... I just want to talk to you... can I ? .... If you want to sleep ... then I will talk to you


    She confusedly looked n said '' No you.. you can talk ''


    Ie closer to her n I saw that her stomach was looking more bigger then previously may be it is the


    gown but .... she was looking fucking beautiful ... I try to focus on why Im here ... I picked her hand n


    set with her in the bed


    I said '' Im.. sorry ... im so sorry I can''t even tell you how much ... I just lost control some time when im


    angry... there is no justification for what I did ... but let me tell you I can''t control my attraction that I


    have towards you ... you bring something inside me ...I ... just forgive me plz''


    She looked with me teary eyes '' I didn''t know that you were attractive towards me.... I won''t lie yes I


    was scared... you make me feel like some cheap wh##r ... you... ne.. never kissed me.... but now you


    apologized I can forgive you... but plz don''t hate me... I can''t tolerate this''


    I picked her face with both hands n said '' im a jerk ...a heartless bastard... but I won''t do this again... let


    me rectify this''


    I slowly put my lip to her n kissed her ... I stop for a moment to look if she is willing or not ..... but she


    just closed her eyes like she was saving this moment in her memory.... I kissed her more passionately


    n gracing her body with my hand ... I was so lost in a moment that I know in any minute I will undress


    her n lost myself in her.... I fondel her breasts. which are bigger than before


    I asked '' Are you sure kate... you can say stop if you dont want it''


    She smiled '' I want it...''


    I didn''t wait for any moment again ... I passionately kissed her every body part ... n slowly n gently


    enter her...n kissed her neck... kate was very responsive n she was softly moaning which was making


    me lose control a little but I make,sure she is satisfied first... for a moment my hand touched her


    stomach n I stop... it look so real... kate opened her eyes n looked little hurt ... but I try to focus on a


    moment.... I fasten my speed n finallye....we both were sweating n I looked kate ... she has the


    most beautiful blush n lightly grace her face then I fell in sleep.