《One Sided Love》 Chapter 1: chap1 Chapter 1: chap1 Chap 1 Kate My name is Kate and I''m 23 years old and I belong from The Evans family one of the richest and noble families in town but l don''t truly belong here because of my mother who was the mistress of Ryan Evans apparently he is my father but he doesn''t love me at all and never ept me as a daughter because not being only a disgrace for the family n bastard but I resemble alot to my mother with having her pale skin to ck hair .... my resemnce with my mother is a constant reminder for my father that he faced embarrassment n trouble in his marriage . You were thinking then howe I became a Evans well my grandfather Leo Evans was a honorable man n when it came to his knowledge that father has a illegitimate child for 5 years n my mother die in a ident .......He Belongs to (N)?vel/Drama.Org. immediately told my father to ept his responsibility n bring me to Evan mansions.... but my father made this clear from time to time im just a burden n shame that he has to bear in order to avoid any scandal .... I still remember his words he said to me : ''Listen you girl.. You¡¯r just a mistake like your mother I have no love n respect for you .... Are looking at this picture this beautiful blond girl is my only daughter n this is my wife Mona Evans not your third ss mother .... you got it'' Those words are still freshly registered in my mind n each time it filled my eyes with tears. Chapter 2: chap2 Chapter 2: chap2 Emily is 3 years older than me .....she n me by looks n personality were totally different she has blonde hair with beautiful tan skin ... we both share our father eyes but thats is only simr trait we have .... in ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . personality Emily is confidence out spoken , keeps her views n in same time a very lovely n kind person .... me on the other end is introvert , shy, always keep opinion to my self , never spoke freely so that I dnt hurt or disappoint my father n my step mother whom I called mom too because of appearance sake but I deep down I love her no matter what she thinks about me.. Emily n me really get along because she thinks its not my mistake that father cheated her mom but she tell me she is very happy to have a sister.... she is the only reason that makes me happy n enable to survive in this family . Chapter 3: Chap3 Chapter 3: Chap3 Alexander Robins is the new hottie in our town he is 5 year older to me n he is the most handsome man I have ever seen in my whole life ... I have met him for the first time in the wedding anniversary party of my parents.... Well my father was not happy that I joined this party because it brings bad memories by looking at me but my mom (Mona step mother) told my father .... ''Ryan dont spoil the moment let here other wise it will look suspicious'' Mom usually dnt speak to me nor shee between me n my father problems but sometime I think my abandonment issues n deprived of parents love make her pity me .... So I was telling you that how I met Alexander aka Alex well I was standing alone in the corner so no one talks to me n those society girls can''t make fun of my shyness n my illegitimate status... secondly my father advice that I should never disappoint him other wise the result will not goid so being quite n awkward is much better for me but all of a sudden I felt im not alone... When I turn I found a very good looking man with blue grey eyes n light golden hair is standing beside me n talking on his phone about some business deal but my main focus was in him and I felt some electric effect on my body ... I cant even exin that attraction level that I felt ... He was ignoring me as he was busy n almost shouting some one n all of a sudden he take a step back n he press my foot with his expensive shoes ... I yelped n looked shocked to the voice he said '' what the hell.... hmm... who are you n what are you doing in the dark'' I replied '' nothing ... im .. im sorry ... if I have disturbed you''.. I turn to move from there but he stop me by holding my arm he said '' stop ... look its ok im sorry for scarring you .. I didn''t know you were there I hope you are ok'' His sudden soft tone rx me I replied '' yes thank you im ok its nothing '' He reply ''ok.. my name is Alexander Robin... dnt mind but what a pretty girl like you standing at the back you must in the dance floor or in the front'' No one has ever said to me im pretty n I was so overwhelmed by his words that I remember I never replied to his question.. ''hmmm.. I dont dance '' cant tell him that its one of my father great speech about my behavior in social gathering is not to dance and embraced him but in truth i know little bit to dance but never had the confidence. Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. ''okkk... so can you tell your name too or you dont tell'' he said mockingly. My face became red '' im sorry where are my manners my name is kate evans'' He raise his eyebrows '' oh you r ryan evans daughter '' I replied '' yeah '' short n simple After my reply he said something that shocked the hell out of me .. ''well kate since its your parents anniversary dnt you think you should be in front or dance floor ... or if that make youfortable I can be your dance partner in this way not only you can dance but also I will feel better for my early rude behavior. I dnt know what to say a gorgeous guy who was showing a little interest in me who im to say no '' I will really happy to do that if thats ok with you'' I replied ''it more than ok ... some people r lucky to dance with a pretty girl like you'' .. he said while flirting with me . We were going to the dance floor all of a sudden emilye infront '' katie where were you I was looking for you everywhere... n who is this handsome man''...she said confidently I look towards Alex who now was aww stuck n looking my sister that a man look at some precious gem ... there is no doubt emily is beautiful with kind heart but looking alex responding to my sister the way previously I was responding to him was a gut wracking moment n emily was looking at Alex with simr interest n there I felt like a third wheel who was totally ignored like always.... I replied Emily this is Alexander and Alexander this is my older sister emily''.. I said with a smile in order to avoid my embarrassed face. ''oh nice meeting you n you r exceptionally beautiful '' he said bluntly ...'' n you can call me alex '' For me it is Alexander but for Emily it is alex ... I dnt know why im bing so sad n jealous. Emily replied with a grin ''ok weplement each other so let see who can dance better n then Alex replied with sexy smirk '' well I really like that idea'' Smashhh!! N just like that Alex forget that he already made promise to dance with me n out of now where my eyes where filled with unwanted tears Emily said '' very well join me.... oh katie I forget mom needs you in kitchen'' When emily said my name Alex remember that moment he made themitment to me first he was about to say something but I stop him because I know If alex told emily that he promise the dance to me first she will feel bad for me n won''t enjoy the party n I won''t do this to my only good friend n my sister. ''Sure emily ... n Alexander its nice meeting you'' I said with a smile so that he do not pity me.. n feel that im ok with this. Chapter 4: chap4 Chapter 4: chap4 Kate I start counseling myself by saying katie get over with it .. it was just a dance offer nothing else its better this way what if you made fun of yourself while dancing ann disappoint daddy . Also you should feel good that in whole world a handsome guy offer you a to be his dance partner n also called you pretty two times...n what even he found emily more beautiful n graceful than you because its true you r just awkward. I try to block all my alex moment n enter the kitchen to look what mom need ''yes mom you called''.. I said She briefly looked at me n said ''kate I want you to look after all this food serving process I dnt want any mismanagement every thing should be perfect n make sure every guest get cocktail time to time'' I feel so happy that moment that mom trust me with all this I replied mom I won''t disappoint you will be very happy at the end of the night''... I said Brightly. Mom just look n said ''ok we will see'' So all this night I make myself busy n some how forget about alex but then the society girls came to take cocktail from the waiter n look at me with a arrogant look n said '' oh look girls its our half evan doing serving job'' they allughed loudly . BITHCHES! The waiter give me embarrassed look n I just ignored all of them... then out of know where alexe Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. take a ss n said my name. ''Kate is it... hmm... look Im sorry that I forget about that dance moment although I should not because we were clearly going for a dance but still im so sorry'' he said I just smiled shyly '' its ok Alexander im really ok n secondly it was better I didn''t dance because clearly I must have embarrassed you with my dancing skills'' Iughed Alex doent n stare at my face '' but still it was rude n its due on me that I will dance with you at simr asion like that n its my promise to a very pretty girl'' he smiled n kissed my cheeks lightly and I just felt butterflies in my stomach with that smile. I blushed because of that kiss. Maybe he likes me Chapter 5: chap5 Chapter 5: chap5 Alex full fil his dance promise to me pretty soon well .... I dance with him in his wedding .... yeah you heard it right his wedding with my sister emily..... it prove that in wedding anniversary of my parents they both fell in love n start dating pretty soon although emily told me everything about her dates but she never told me about alex n me as a fool keep living in my bubble where I start falling in love with alex day by day.... Alex is owner of big IT firm so he used have some business deals with my father visit and heplement me .... tell me he really like my coffee n some time my interest about books that I used to carry around.... but all this time he never came for me but for Emily , where ording to them there true love story starts... I feel hurt that emily never told me about alex so that I cant stop thinking about alex n move on but now its toote I just fall in love with him n I will never fall in love with any other person... emily told me she doesnt tell me because she think it was not serious but with time alex charm her n one day propose her n she cant say no to him.... Now im in green grown watching my sister getting married with the love of my life but I told myself I love my sister more than anything so I will not act like bitch but truely be happy about her wedding Next was the speech that we have to give to the married couple my father was first to give n said '' Emily my precious gem n my only daughter who has given me true happiness in whole life .... when even I look to emily I forget all my worries , my mistake n my regrets that are still living with me .... she is the reason I can be called as proud father b/c she never disappoint me unlike some people'' At that time my eyes cant stop my tears to fall down because not only my father embarrassed me in front of every one but also consider me a regret that is still living with him n a disappointment .... I decided I should go before people look at me... I went to the garden area to get some fresh air n dnt know how long I stay there but after some time I heard some voices n one of them belong to alex '' Man I cant believe yoy are married ...n what a catch dude hats off''.. his friendugh while puffing a cigarette Alex replied in anger '' watch your words emily is my wife n I loved her truly'' His friend said ''ok rx dude I was just saying.... by the way I was thinking why not Emily younger sister... well you were talking with her first in Evans party'' Alex replied ''have you lost your mind kate is just a boring awkward little thing , she has zero confidence with zero respect ,cant you see how her father indirectly called her regret in front of everyone..... I want my wife to be confidence, with some social standing and all these things belong to my beautiful emily ... these were the thing that I loved about emily n make me marry to her not a girl like kate who just blush n shy everything I say to her'' Ouch! It looks like my heart is broken into tiny tiny pieces after listening alex that he think abouy me in such manner it truly kills me n make me angry towards me that how can I think about alex can like something about me im just a in jane with no social standing ... damn my own father cant ept me as her daughter in public n private how can I think Alex will think some think different. Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. At that moment I decided I will not make my father love me nor I wille between any affairs of Evans n Robins . Chapter 6: chap6 Chapter 6: chap6 Alex Fuck I cant believe im married to the most beautiful woman in the world its only a week of my marriage n I can''t even get enough of her I truly love her .... well after my wedding ceremony things were little awkward n tense because of Emilys father speech I try to console her but she was angry n upset she said'' Alex I know I shouldn''t act like this in pur honeymoon but seriously but daddy did was so cruel . How can say katie is a regret in front of everyone ... Kate will never said a word but I know it trurly broke her'' she said with tears in her eyes. Fuck! I cant see her cry ... n also feel ashamed because I also donot say kind words about kate to my friend shawn but still I cant spoil my honeymoon thinking about kate n making emily more tense . I said '' look babe I know you r upset but you have talk to her she said she is ok so rx a little ... when wee back to Manhattan you can talk to her again'' She replied '' I know ... n im sorry for spoiling our honeymoon '' I said with a grin '' babe you can make it better right now '' N then we get lost in each other body. HELLO GUYS. I KNOW THIS ONE IS TOO SHORT BUT IN UPCOMING CHAPTER YOU WILL GET DETAIL ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . CHAPTERS WITH A TWIST SO STAY TUNE .... N POSITIVES S TRULY APPRECIATED. Chapter 7: chap7 Chapter 7: chap7 Kate '' hey kate r you busy tonight ... we were thinking to hangout in a bar'' olivia said. Olivia is my best friend in my office... I start working in NYPH (new york publication house) as a assistance .... well getting a job was a big step for me because I know I will never get love n respect from my father so I should start standing on my own it happen in one evening I enter my father office He looked at me n said '' ''what do you want'' I replied ''hello daddy I bring your coffee... n... I want.. to ask something from you'' He looked n said '' I dnt have whole day to wait speak fast'' I said nervously '' daddy I need your permission actually....when daddy looked annoyingly I said immediately '' I wanted to work in new York publication house'' ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . He was surprised by that '' oh so now you have gain a self respect to stop wasting my money well thats a first good thing from you.... so I can imagine you r here for the reference .... well I dnt waste my references like that but if you will be out of my eyes then I will do it in a seconds'' I looked to my father in again my eyes is filled with tears n but I replied bravely ''No daddy you dnt have to do that at all for me... I have final interview tomorrow n I just need your permission thats all. N secondly emily has a friend whose apartment is near to the office n her friend has agreed to lent me that apartment ... so if I got the job I will immediately shift there I hope its fine with you'' Its the longest I have talk with my father n he was so quite that I thought he will never respond n keep looking me with different emotions in his eyes that I can''t even predict what was it But he said ''well you have figured out everything then good luck'' So thats the story of my job and this is my almost 2-year and I loving it. I replied to Olivia '' Nah I cant I have to Fitch my neice from day care n meet my sister in her house today is our sister day'' I said with a smile. I always try to avoid going Emily house because I know alex might be there n I still cant forget his words from the past but when emily told me she wants me to pick emma my 1-year old niece n meet her at her home then we will go to coffee house to chat I be so excited its after a long time we are meeting ... when I reach emma day care I was so excited to see her I love her to death she is so beautiful she has alex eyes n Emily''s hair n she is a bundle of joy I love her so much n when she looks me she start giggling n my heart expands more while looking at her I hold her I said'' hey beautiful girl today aunty is going give a ride lets go'' When I reach alex mansion he was the first to open the door , his house is also big like Evans house n decorated beautifully , he looked annoyed that I was holding emma n I dnt know why I felt so hurt when ever he do that ... I dnt know why he acts so strange n some time rude to me like im some bad guy here. He said '' helloe n give emma to me'' Emily was ready by the time I reached her n she greated me but I felt she was tense with something When we reach the car she will drive I asked '' Emily what''s wrong you r tense'' Emily replied ''not know katie.. we will go to the bar there will be talk'' I said '' Emily we decided to our old coffee house... bar is not a ce we should go right now because you r upset about something n you will be drunk by the time you told me your story. I said with augh But emily has already made up her mind n she said we will be not that drunk n promise with time we will at our home ...I said ok Emily told me she had a fight about alex regarding emma that he donot want emma to be in day care n Emily should stay at home and look after the house Emily say '' how can he ept that I should cut my social gathering n look after the house at a same time ... Im also involved in this huge charity work for young mother n im damn busy but he is so stubborn jerk never listen to me'' I replied ''Emily I shouldn''t probably say this but why dnt you cut a little bit of work I mean you can work 3 days in week n other free time you can manage house workload in this way alex will be happy'' Emily looked annoyed ''now you r taking his side I cant do that im damn busy n I will not stay a home n act like a trophy wife now im independent women no man will control me'' Well by the time emily told me her story she was drunk n I never get drunk but she forced me to try so after a 2nd ss I was super drunk ...... n emily said to me that she will drive cause she has high tolerance then me n she can drive safely but I suggest her to take a cab or called alex but she get angry n said she will manage. During drive she was non stop talking about how she expect things to be n how it should not be but all of sudden a truck came n she cannot control the car n we both screamed after that we both be silent n dark was but I saw. Chapter 8: chap8 Chapter 8: chap8 Alex Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I was in my office by the time both sister left I was already in a sore mood because of fight with Emily n when I saw emma with kate I got angry because my daughter should be in her house with her mother not with her aunt .... I know my behavior towards kate is not eptable but I always thought kate has feeling towards me n I should not appreciate that so acting strange around her is much better so she doesnt get any idea.... some time I think she is just like her mother who trap rich people well that thought came into my mind because of her father once told me ''look son im very happy you married my daughter emily but make she stay away from kate she is not good influence in your marriage avoid her at all cost ..... her birth was mistake n her mother was a bitch who ruined my life ... kate not only look like her mother but she is just like her'' I dnt know who to believe cause emily think her father cant love kate because she remind but he lost n kate is nothing like her mother n sometimes I believed that because kate never shows that kind of feelings nor she behave in such way that it look suspicious ... I busy in my thoughts that I received a call from unknown number ''Hello Alexander Robin speaking '' ''sir this is police... your wife had an ident she is in xyz hospital'' the caller replied At the moment I know my life is going to take a drastic change. Chapter 9: chap9 Chapter 9: chap9 Kate When my eyes opened I saw that im in some other ce the white walls n the the beeping sound of machine tell me that im in hospital ..... by then I remember about the truck ... n ident.... emily.... oh Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. my god emily.... I have to go to her.... when I try to move from bed my body screamed with intense pain n my head was covered in bandages but I know I cant stay here and wait... by the time I move a nurse came n she try to stop me I told her about emily she told me that emily is in operation theatre .... fuck operation.... I asked her if she is ok she said emily is under observations n her family is waiting for her..... by family I remember the news must be given to them but howe no onee to see me.... but then at that moment I remember emily is more important ... n I really hope emily is fine . After I slept whole day when I woke I asked the nurse plz take me to my sister she look me sadly but doesn''t reply when I insist her she put me in wheel chair n take me to the family waiting area where my father was looking so old , tired n his eyes for the first time in my life was filled with tears n mom was heavily crying n then Alex was standing there looing so pale n broken ... Alex mother was silently crying while Alex father was consoling her.... I cant stand this scene.. what the fuck .... I finally made a sound n every one looks at me so strangely, Alex was looking at me like at any moment he is going to kill me , where daddy stand n walk towards me I asked ''daddy what happen? How is emily? Plz tell me daddy I cant stand this silence'' What I got for an answer was a tight p on my face .... It was so hard that my already aching head be to ache severely ..... I was so confused that why he did that n tears were falling in my face rapidly I say ''Daddy'' Father said '' just shut up up you ungrateful bitch! Look what did you did you ruined me just like your mother you take my reason to live you killed my daughter , you are emily killer'' But..what ... he said Emily is dead.. no ...no no no no... its not true .... I try to say something but I cant say any thing n what my father means I killed her... I cant do this ever he also know that hasn''t he? Mom came n try to take daddy aside but she stop n said '' I always thought that you may not be like your mother but all was your act isn''t it ...where you show your fake love n concerned towards this family.... but I forget like mother her daughter also destroyed me again ..... why tell me why.... Alex came n said ''look it you still acting the innocent one ... fuck.... I cant even believe it you were that fucking careless that you let yourself drive in your drunk state n fucking killed my emily .... who can you be so careless... or was it your jealousy that what she had you cant have that n it was all deliberate action.... fuck fuck I should believe everyone from which kind of blood n morher you belong to otherwise I will let emily ever go with you nor my daughter.... fuck emma... my emma is motherless because if you'' I was shocked they have a misunderstanding that I was driving i should clear that I said '' please believe me I didn..didnt do..do this plz plz believe I was not driving it ...(I was crying heavily that time) Emily was ... she said I m drunk n she has high tolerance but she can manage'' Alex face was so red he said '' ofcourse you will say this that emily killed herself because she is dead n can''t defend herself'' Alex was shouting so much that whole hospital can hear him by the time doctor came n he try to rx him but hE was so angry and then police came n said ''Mr robins plz rx we can understand your emotions but you are ming the wrong person ... in actual it was your wife who was driving n she was drunk miss kate Evans was in the passenger seat'' Every one was so shocked by the police report n I still cant believe emily was dead. Chapter 10: chap10 Chapter 10: chap10 After 1 year (kate) Today was emma 2 birthday n Im so happy my baby is getting bigger day by day after emily dead evans n alex family was devastated and when they know the truth that I have nothing to do with ident they were very embarrassed ...my father left the hospital n never talk about the incident but alex parents came to me n say sorry about their n alex behavior n about the ident ... after some ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . months my parents be civil for appearance sake n never mentioned about the incident , about the p ... but I really want them to so that I can believe they do not consider me Emily killer but father never said a word he start ignoring me n mom was in her own world...... After few months I got a call from alex mother that she need me , I immediately left everything n enter alex mansion when I saw emma was ying with her doll I took a relive breathe... after emily dead emma be more close to me and I felt she holds a major part of my life... When alex mom saw my expression she told me to rx she just called me so that I can look after emma for few hours so that she can visit her doctor ... I said no problem I love to spend any time with my baby.... after few hours I was so lost in emma that I didn''t listen Alex foot step when I looked to him he has very intense expression in his face... I nervously told him that his mother has an appointment n left me to look after emma but I can go if he wants Alex said '' no you can stay actually I want to talk but,after emma sleep we will'' After I put emma for a nap I went to kitchen to find alex he was looking outside the big Window n was in deep thinking when he felt my presence he offer me drink I said no . He said ''ofcourse no drink.''... when he notice his tone he apologetically looked at me n said ''sorry'' I said... ''its ok ... hmm.. what you want to talk about'' He said'' I don''t know where to start from.... but lets start with my behavior towards you at the hospital im sorry I should never said that what I said n you dnt deserve any of this but at that moment i need someone to me , some one to hold responsible for emily death but,,, never mind im really sorry'' A tear fell from his eyes. I feel so sad n hurt when I looked at him he look so broken n so innocent like a child need a hug I dnt know what happen but I give him a hug He was so surprised by my gesture but he never push me but hold me more tightly I said '' Alex plz dnt say sorry I can totally understand it was an misunderstanding N im not angry with you ... I cant even tell you how much it broke me when ever I think about you ,emma n what you lost '' .... I was crying so much I lifted my head to look at him .... n dnt know what happen alex hands were on my face he bring his lips to my lips .... fuck... what was happening ...alex is kissing me... he open my mouth with his tongue n start kissing me heavily .... Alex was so good that I can feel my legs to be shaking n my panties were wet ... fuck it was first time... then alexy me in the kitchen counter n start opening my blouse n start sucking my nipples so hard that I moan .... I dnt know what happen but may be it was my moan that made alex to stop what he was doing...he looked at me with a angry expression n said loudly '' ''FUCK''!!!!! I lie there where I was n was so embarrassed that I was making out with Emily husband .. Alex... I try to stand n said ''Alex listen.. Alex stop me ''shut up ... just get out from here'' ... i was crying at that time fuck I ruined everything he won''t let me see emma after that ....so I try once again but he stop pick me roughly ''look katie im just this close to lose my temper so its better just get out from my house''. I left alex house with tears in my eyes n with tension that he want let me see emma again. But after few days alex mother called me again that emma is crying very much n she need me ... I went alex mansion immediately n hold emma n let her calm her ... alex mom told me that she was so worried then alex told her to call me .... I was amazed that after everything alex suggest me... well I feel so relieved that I can still meet my baby. So today is my emma birthday and I picked her dora cake went to Evans home since my parents has arranged the bdy party in their home I was reluctant to go their because still I was not a favourite person for my father but I do it for my emma I can do anything for her ... when I went there the party was almost started ... my father was holding emma and wasughing what ever she was bubbling in her baby voice ... I went there to greet them ''hello daddy n happy birthday my baby girl and look it you... you look like a little princess'' I kisses her Father interrupted my moment n said ''so you havee... n how is your job...i believe you still a assistance there'' I looked my father n said ''yeah daddy everything is good thank you for asking.... n how are you daddy you look,a little tired'' Cause he really looked tired ''well im ... I lost my only precious thing in this world so yes im very tried'' I really understand my father emotions I really do but why cant he ept me as his daughter I failed to understand. ''daddy take care of yourself'' I smiled to him I try to ignore alex during the party but I saw him giving me glimpses After party I was giving love n gift to the emma when alex mom came and said ''hi kate I hope im not disturbing you... but I need a favor alex has left the party after the cake was cut n he seems very upsets n now emma is here I would love to keep her but tonight we have go to london so can you drop emma there n keep in check with alex im quite worried'' I replied '' no problem I will give a bath to emma n put her in bed then after checking alex I will text you '' I give her reassuring smile. Chapter 11: chap11 Chapter 11: chap11 ALEX Its almost a year ... a fucking year when I lost my wife.... she should be here celebrating her daughter birthday but destiny has other fucking ns for us.... and there was Kate... fuckst time I make out with her n I still can taste her .. her pale skin n those pink nipples damnnn she was fucking hot lieing there....I try to ignore her afterward but today she looks exceptionally pretty with her pink flowery dress n curly long ck hair gives me a feelings which I dnt want to have .... I try to block her image by getting drunk ... then I felt some one was knocking my door... who the hell can be... when I open my bedroom door it was kate standing there.... I was speechless for a moment I thought im dreaming but when she talked I came back to my senses Kate said '' Alex ...I just dropped emma n put her in bed ...your mother told me that you looked tense so I thought to check on you '' she was not looking at me ... she seems to be very nervous around me n why wont she.... because I always say shitty things to her without thinking n she said she drop emma... emma fuck what kind of father im how can I forget about my daughter who is the only thing that keeping me alive ... I said '' I fine just little tirede inside I was just drinking .''... she followed reluctantly n say '' I think I should go you must be tired n im too so bye'' I hold her hand n said '' I told you to say ... I know you hate me but please I need somepany''.... She replied '' alex I never hated you how can you think something about this... I just dnt want to upset you more '' ''haha upset my whole life is upset pretty girl n you r not the reason'' I said to her ''im sorry you felt this way but you have to move on for emma sake and you have to find your happiness in your life '' she said to me while sitting with me I replied '' fuck my happiness ... I dnt know how to do this n I feel so much anger towards everyone that I can''t control my self '' I say to her while holding her waist n bringing closer to me.... n her flowery perfume gives me erotic vision of her n her mouth ... damn her mouth is the most perfect mouth things I like to do with her mouth. I dnt know what happen what I cant control my self n bring my mouth close to her n kissed the hell out of her... next thing led to undressing her.. but she stop me in mid way She said breathing heavily '' Alex you r drunk ... you will regret this ..n I dnt want things be strange between us'' Looking her in hercy white bra n panties my all moral teaching went to the open windows of my room ... I know that moment that I have fuck her n take her out of my system other wise I will not survive I replied '' look if you dnt want then I won''t touch you but I know you want me n I can feel it... and im so depressed all this time I need something to forget about ..so plz give me yourself to me for one night please.. She stare at me for long then say ''if I can make you forget about your pain then im all yours'' she said with teary eyes'' And like a animal I start attacking her I kissed her lips bite her nick that I know leaves mark , she try to touch me but I hold her hands because I know its too much if she touch me I will lose control .... I was undress by the time n start preparing my self when she look my cock she yelp a little .. I internally grin about my size .... After that I touch her ... her whole body flinch with my single touch ... I told her toBelongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. rx ... may be she react this way ... I started fingering her but she was so damn tight n her moan show she was ufortable so I y with her slowly to rx her... when she came I know she is ready... when I climb towards her body her pale skin was pink n damn her face was glowing ... I know I can''t control myself so I enter her ... I told her ''kate just rx ok! You are so damn tight baby.. let me get inside you more... how long it is for you'' But I didn''t let her answer that because with one trust I was inside of her ... it was total heaven... but what shocked me most were her cries n the barrier that I felt.... I stop n looked her tear covered face In shocked that she was fucking virgin . I asked '' why the fuck.... you never told me you were virgin .... I could have seriously hurt you'' She try to respond but I told her that it doesn''t matter because seriously at this point i cant even control my self .... so I try to make it better for her .... I fucked her slowly then increased my speed ... at some point I found her tightening her walls around my cock n I touch her down to get her off n then she came and I followed her after three thrust n said fuck so loud. .... n then I fall on top of her n dnt know when sleep came. Chapter 12: chap12 Chapter 12: chap12 KATE I woke up when I felt lightsing from therge window.... at first I was confused where the hell I was because this is not my apartment.... when I try to move my whole body is sore .... n then I release I was with Alex.... shit... I remember our night very clearly right now n Im so scared that how im going to face him....when I looked at him he was sleeping so peacefully n I smiled when he said he just need me so much n was attracted to me .... I dont know how long I keep looking at him but I decided to move from the bed but Alex was suddenly awake by my movement n he looked so confused when he saw me naked with him , but then his expression change n I knew he remember everything He said Wtf! Kate .... what the hell did you do this.... fuck (he stand n start moving here n there in his room).... fucking tell me why the hell you didn''t stop me. I replied: Alex plz rx ... you have to listen to me , I didn''t do anything we both did with our mutual consent .. He stop me n said: just shut up .... you fucking know I was drunk ...n you try to seduced me with your pretty dress so dnt y innocent you should have stop me but you seduced me ..... (he stop n looked at me) It was deliberately done by you didn''t it ...you were always attracted to me ... n you were jealous that what Emily have you should always had that so try to make a move on me I replied : now alex you r just being cruel to me... I try to stop you .. I told you things will be strange between us but when you said you need me for one night I can''t say no to you'' Alex When I looked kate crying heavily n defending her.... n her exposed body make me turn on so much ..that I be angry with myself that how can I be turn on by this so I take my anger on her... I said: you know what! our one night is over so better get lost from here..... n dnt put all me on me you r more responsible here..... you look at this room .... this was emily n mine room n this bed were we have sexst night was where emily n me used to have passionate nights not like our ones ... so r you ready to face the shame what you did with your dead sister who always supported you n loved you more than your own father....Now I think everyone was so right you r just like your mother a fucking whore who trap rich people...... so help me god n get the hell out of here '' I know what I said was so mean n cruel but I cant stop myself I was feeling so guilty what I did n I take my anger on her.... I looked her n in front of me I saw a brokenpletely shaken women, who just can''t say any thing Kate slowly moved without making eye contact picked her clothes n went to washroom ... she came back after a minute looking so miserable that I felt I should go give her a hug n apologized but I knew I won''t do that ... i can''t... may be she is like that what everyone says She was limping n I realized than I was her first may be that was too much for her ... she stop in mid way n I said something which I shouldn''t but I have to make her understand that im not at all interested at her I said: Don''t you dare to tell anyone about this... unlike you I have some fucking respect in the society ... n I don''t want you to unting our little nasty mistake to everyone'' When she turned and looked at me with her lifeless eyes that were filled with tears She replied: Dont worry ... I won''t ... sa..say a word but please... please .... forgive me ... it was never ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . my intention t.. to hurt you'' And just like that she was gone. Chapter 13: chap13 Chapter 13: chap13 Kate (After two month) I visit emily grave n put some flowers in her grave.... I sit n remember our time together n what she will do If she was in my condition I said '' hi Emily how r you... well im so sorry for being a horrible sister .... I have already apologized to you about what I did with Alex but now I think you will never forgive me for this ... but I really want you to forgive me because you r the only one whose going to support me otherwise I cant live like this .... plz emily forgive me n pray that today I can do something '' With that I left graveyard n drive to Alex mansion. I kept my promise to Alex that I won''t tell any one.... two month ago when Alex throw me outside his house ... I feel so guilty that what I did with emily... I made up mind that I won''te back here but after few weaks I start missing emma so much that I know if I dnt met her I will die... alex mom told me that emma is also missing me n always asked about me... I decided I have to meet her.... so I asked alex mom where is alex .. she told me that alex is in the office n he usuallye early in the night to spend some time with emma .... so I make sure to visit emma at those days where Alex was not around....I was thinking so much about emma that I forget that I have already reached Alex home. Alex ''Dadda! Dadda... horsey.. horsey....'' emma said to me in her cute baby voice Iughed n picked her n said ''you want me to be horse what about flying like superman ....'' I start flying emma like a superman n she start giggling that put a smile in my face. Emma was the highlight of my days ... she kept me so busy with herself that I forget about my worries .... I said '' now its foody time ... so lets see what we have'' I start looking at fridge n found some rice n chicken ... since emma is taking hard meals so I decided it will looked good... I put food in front of her n said eat but my baby was distracted by the birds she saw in the kitchen window... I said '' emma baby eat '' Emma said ''Dadda ... birdy....(while eating her food n then she start bubbling about other things which I dnt get but then she she Kate name) EMMA: aunt katie .... emma need aunt katie dadda .. Everyday emma talks about kate .... I know she meet emma when my im in office n always cooked meals for us n always go when its my time toe home.... honestly speaking I feel like shit what happen between us but I tell myself that was important but I did .... I never saw her after that night n she has kept her promise about not telling anyone ... but everynight the shes of kate flushed body with her swell lips always came in my mind but when I saw my emily picture in my bedside table I feel so guilty that im betraying her... I was lost in my thoughts that I hear a bell ring since all the staff is working outside so went there to open the door when I did... I saw kate standing nervously in my door '' kate'' I dnt know what my tone was when I said her name but she flinched n looked me with her feared eyes ''can.. I.... Ie in please '' she said I didn''t say anything n open the door for her toe in... She looked so weak n fragile that first thought came into my mind was she sick... She said '' I know you dnt want me here but I want..want to talk to you about something'' I was still shocked she was here I said '' ok ... but emma is in the kitchen after I put her for nap we will then'' After hearing emma''s name her whole face lighten up n she started to walk towards kitchen when she stop n looked at me nervously '' if you dnt mind... can .. I meet her plz'' They way she said it totally break me ... clearly she miss emma alot n her love for emma is quite evident I said '' I don''t mind. ...she was also talking about you'' She went directly to the kitchen n said ''Emma!!! My beautiful baby girl .... I miss you so much .. She picked emma n kissed her faced Emma was so excited to see kate she started giggling n keep holding kate neck n told her she miss her too '' Aunt katie ... emma want no eat... emma want dolly'' ''Aww my baby you eat then we will y with dolly ok I will feed you''. Looking at both of them make me realize it should be emily who should be feeding emma not kate n it was a gut wrenching moment for me to look at them n I felt so angry towards me n kate . Alex ... Alex...'' kate hesitantly said my name I replied angrily '' what '' She flinched ''your phone is ringing '' I looked at my cell it was from Dubai... a deal I was having now a days Without saying anything I picked the call n when to the office. When i came back after a 2 hours kate was sitting alone in the living room looking at the wall a picture of my wedding day where Emily n I was standing in our wedding dress ....Ie towards her n sit in a sofa n looked at her ''im sorry it was a important call... wheres emma?'' I said She smiled '' After you left she n I start ying with her dolly n then she was so tried , so I put her in her bed n stay with her until she was fully sleep ....'' ''Thanks ...you didn''t have to do that '' I said She tiredly looked at me ''Emma is very important to me I love her ...that was nothing '' She looked very tired to me ...she has ck heads under her eyes n looked very thin I asked '' Are you sick... I mean you looked very tired n thin ...'' She replied '' im absolutely ok ... look (she was very nervous about something) Alex I want to tell you something .... its about that night ... I stopped her '' Kate I don''t want to talk about that night .... it was a mistake a big mistake .... I told you very clearly Im not interested in you I still love my wife ... I know my way was very harsh and im sorry for that but thats reality .'' Kate replied '' Alex I totally understand but im not here to talk about that night but what im going to tell you about is rted to that night .... Alex ... Im ... I don''t know how to say this ..... Alex im pregnant'' Fuck what the fuck she said totally blow my mind. Kate I looked at his expressionless face ... I expected shocked , anger, any emotions that shows that my pregnancy news matter to him but he looked so dangerously calm He said ''congrattions then... so who is the father...or you just came here to help you to find him'' I was so hurt by his words that I can''t control my tears I said ''please dnt say this .... you very much know that you''re the father of this baby ... so don''t cheapen this.... I know you''re shocked n you are reacting this way but you r my first n after you I never slept with any one'' Alex replied ''How can I believed you... who knows you slept with whom .... unfortunately for me I may be your first but im not will be yourst ... you can''t fucking trap me'' ..... I said ''Alex believe me or not but this is your baby im carrying .... n im not trapping you.... you deserve to know this so that''s why im here n if you don''t believe me then we can have the dna test'' He stop me said '' I don''t fucking care ... I don''t want this damn baby n im fucking serious about it..... emma is the only child i have n no one will take her ce'' he looked so dangerously angry that I was little afraid ''Alex this baby is not going to take emma ce... because this Will have his/her own ce in your life ...please think about it He stop me n said '' I don''t want to thank about it I already made up mind n why the fuck you r doing this... you r young you, unmarried, you don''t want to tie with a thing which will cause problems in your life'' I know where he was going but still I can''t believe he meant that He sat beside me n said ..''look kate ... I cant never ept this baby nor your family well its very important for you to not have this think... you r more jeopardizing your rtionship with your family...n so have an abortion ...no well know about thi n will make sure all the expense of hospital , doctors , your medicine will be bear by me....im going to give you some money also ... so this problem can be Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. solved in split of a second''. I was so fucking angry that how dare he .... how can he say something about ending our baby life n giving me money but he thinks im who''re .... I stood immediately n re him n said ''Alex you know what fuck you n fuck your money.... what do you think of me im kind of some slut n a greedy bitch who is going to end her baby life.... im going to have this baby with or without you .... so good bye'' I started to move but he hold my arm so roughly that I know it will leave marks n said '' if this is some kind of trap then let me tell you im not a man to y with ... I will never ept this baby nor you ept anything from me in return ... I will make sure everyone knows it was you who seduced me n you r responsible for this mess'' I said '' do whatever you want to do... is not like everyone is already favour me ... so go ahead n put the me on me but you also know whats the truth'' I move to gallery where I saw alex parents standing I don''t know for how long ... Alex mother looked sympathetic to me n I know they heard everything .... alex mom try to stop but I said not know n leave that ce. Chapter 14: chap14 Chapter 14: chap14 Alex Pregnant fucking pregnant with my child Damn what mess im in... What I said to kate was sort of true no one will take emma ce n I don''t want a child with kate ... I feel ashamed but its true I can''t love that baby a father should love ... Emma will alwayse first n why not she had already lost her mother n im not ready to share myself with another baby ... emma needs me more even that babye to second I don''t fucking care ... I was so lost in my thoughts that my parentse in view n looked me very disappointely .... n I remember theye to have dinner with us .. I said ''Hi dad , mom when did youe... mom step forward n said '' im so disappointed in you what did you say to that poor girl... whats your problem with her ... how can you say something about your unborn child ... if we have never heard your conservation with kate, we would never believed it was your own words'' I said '' so if you guys were eavesdropping then you have heard properly that I don''t love her nor that baby ... emma is my first priority right now n im not gonna distract myself with some mess'' My dad loudly replied '' that mess is created by you Alexander .... n we taught you well enough how to deal with your mess .... you should never on first hand involved with kate but know you have to take responsibility for that.... you have to marry her'' I looked my strangely like he lost his mind or something ''Dad im not going to marry kate... I still love emily n no one can take her ce n especially kate ... she is just like her mother .. the bitch My mother came n said '' shut up just shut up how can you talk about kate like that she is nothing like her mother ... looked at her after Emily death she never make feel emma deprived of mother love .... she looked after your daughter when you were grieving ...... your father is right you should marry her its not also right thing but I this way emma will get a mother too'' '' I dont want her to be emma mother she is emma step aunt n thats all'' I said My father looked at me '' Alex you have to marry her if you care about our family name n reputation n more importantly it is good for our business also... ryan evan is left with only one daughter that is kate.... after emily death 70 percent properties n shares will be hand over to kate after ryan retirement or death n emma will get only 5 to10 percent share of her mother assets .... if you marry kate not only her honor will be protected but emma also get her mother maximum share n kate share will given to your unborn child'' I replied '' I don''t fucking care about money that she can keep her money with herself ... I have tons of mine but I will not marry her'' Dad angry said '' That money is our old family money son .... you will get that money when I want you to .... dnt forget I still own thosepanies n if you loved emma n wants her to have a bright future then Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. you will marry kate '' I was shocked what my father said.... I was looking at the chance that how can I royally take care of my daughter without using family money but I saw chance was zero .... I worked my ass to reach where im ... I cant lose this because of kate so I replied '' I will marry her but in my conditions'' Chapter 15: chap15 Chapter 15: chap15 Kate I was so tired of this morning sickness that I have to take a leave from the office ... n now im sitting In the floor of bathroom throwing all the content eaten in the breakfast.... doctor said it is normal during few months ... after I told Alex about my pregnancy n his reaction left me so shaken that my health was decreasing day by day .... I seriously meant that I will have the baby in any case but after Alex words keep surrounding in my mind but if the my baby is left like me deprived of father love.... what if my father me me for all this n my little baby... n how will I survive the expense .... my job is good but I already have lots of expense..the apartment rent... my student loan since my father start saying I should work on my own to achieve higher studies...n now my medical bills... I know I Will manage some how but till when I don''t know.. I was so sleepy right now I thought I should take a nap... I don''t know how long I slept what I feel some one was knocking my door loudly ... I see the time its 8o''clock pm who it can be. I looked my appearance in the mirror n boy I looked like a zombie but I don''t care about that some one was very eager to meet me I open the door to see who it is ... I saw it was none other than Alex. He said ''Are you ok? What the hell is wrong I went to your office n they say you r sick n taken a leave n then I was fucking knocking your door for half an hour but you never replied I be sick by worrying'' I looked him with shocked '' Alex im ok ...but whats wrong... is emma ok... oh my god tell me emma is ok'' Alex rx me'' emma is fine she is with my mother '' I replied ''then I why are you here'' ''can Ie in '' he said I replied '' ok...but if you here to change or in your way to warn me about my baby then you can go from here'' Alex looked me arrogantly '' can Ie in or not... I have a proposal for you'' With that he enter my small apartment n looked around ''so here you lived... I thought your father might have provide you with good living'' ''since it is provided by me not my father so yes im living here... alex plz talk what ever you r here for ... I not feeling good so please tell me what do you want'' He looked at me strangely ''yeah you not looked good.... ok.. the thing is after you exploded the pregnancy bomb on me my parents heard everything about us n they want me to marry you'' I looked so shocked what marry alex ... yeah may be im hallucinating ... no he said marry him... What are saying alex ... I can''t marry you ... when you.. I mean we don''t love each other Alex annoyed with that n said '' I know it is true what love has nothing do with this marriage ... I still love emily n no one can take her ce but I have think about this a lot ne to the conclusion in order to avoid any mess n controversy we should get married'' Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. I replied '' Alex I will not marry you ... n for your mess you don''t worry about it at,all I won''t say anything now just go. I looked to him angrily He said'' What is your problem... I thought you should be happy about it... n I really don''t care what do you feel... I have to marry you otherwise my father will disown me n emma ... I don''t care about money but I do care about my daughter future her needs ...n marrying you is one option... n it is good for you too.... if you want this child to live afortable n honorable life unlike you who always consider a bastard ... so do you want your child to be called a bastard'' He had me there when he mentioned emma futures n my baby future ..... but still marrying him well not solve my problems .... but it looks like it will solve Alex , my precious emma future n my baby future too.... look like I have to make a decision. I replied ''what you don''t want this baby .... then why you r marrying me'' He said '' I still don''t want this baby but it looks like this thing is jeopardizing my emma futures so I have to think about it..... im still not going to ept you my wife n this baby my child .... I will give you n this baby a name, honor, n every luxury of life but except my heart n love ... those only belong to emma n emily n no one... n these are my demand'' I don''t know what happen but I start crying '' how can you say something like that I get it you don''t love me ... then don''t but plz don''t do this to our unborn baby what his fault ... hate me all you want but please give some love our baby too plz'' He facial expression change when he looked at me but with that he again be a heartless man '' these are demands kate... if you loved emma n wants her to have a good future n with your baby name not to be illegimate then you have to marry me...'' He was emotionally ckmailing me he knows how much i loved emma n will do anything for her i said ''ok ... i will ..( i sniff) ..marry you'' He looked a little surprised '' very well we will be married in a week'' i said '' what about my parents.... who will tell them .? now i have another tension about my parents how they will react to my marriage Alex said'' i have lready talk to them ( i looked shocked that with out telling me first he talked to them) Dont look me like that i wasn''t sure you will ept my proposal so i have to keep a n B'' I said " so your n B was to be ckmailed me by my parents'' He said smugly '' well dont give them that credit ... they are not happy with our marriage as excepted... they were more than willing to ept my marriage with any other girl then you, but i told them im marrying you because emma'' Im so hurt that my parents think so low of me that they are willing to marry Alex with anyone except me , I said '' you dont t...tell them about my pregranancy? He repiled '' They.... well how to say that ... your parents were actually hurt by this news natually you r taking their daughter ce, so telling them about the baby will might cause some more issues.. but after we are married they have no say in this ... they will think that baby is concevied after marriage'' I don''t know i should be grateful that he save my baby from beingbelled as bastard by my family. After that he left n said he will meet me in legistrate office soon and there is no need to bring any friend he has already arranged the witnesses ... it is going to be very private wedding. Chapter 16: chap16 Chapter 16: chap16 (After one week) Kate Today is my wedding day ... unlike every girl wedding n mine was just so dull..n I have no wedding gown... no bridesmaid... no one happy for my new journey... n a groom who wish to be any where else than here .... my own father is not welling to fully participate in this day nor he has given me to Alex... n what exactly I was expecting I will have a proper wedding day with cake n celebrations....im sitting in a marriage office in my white chiffon summer dress with peach flowers n Alex is waiting for his friendwyer Shawn to drawn prenup before the wedding..n it hurts he thinks so low of me but ording to him I trap him so it might be his precautionary step. Shawn came n give documents to Alex ... Alex read carefully ... n then he pass it to me... I read those documents n it said if some how we get divorce ... I will entitled with not a single penny except the child allowance till he or she turns 18 well not a surprised there but what surprised me that it is mentioned that the our unborn baby will not get any ownership in any Robbins property n assets ... I thought it might be wrongly type..Alex won''t do that ... so I asked '' Alex I think there is a mistake it is mentioned here that if some how our marriage does not work out our baby will be not entitled to any assets n property of Robbins'' He arrogantly looked n said '' why love aren''t you satisfied that your getting married to me .... well I can assure you there is no mistake in this document ... your unborn baby will not considered as heir to the Robbins even we do get divorce or even we r married in any case he or she will get monthly allowance that will cover his need...only emma is entitled to all.'' I looked so shocked n depressed with the news that... only tears wasing n no words ... how can he disown his own child...like me my child is also unloved n unwanted .... I protectively put my hands to my little bump n promise that I don''t care about money but my baby will be loved n I will do anything to make Alex love him or her.... I looked to the shawn n asked where should I signed he looked apologetically n give me a sad smile. After signing the prenup shawn told us that with in hour ... our wedding will be started n he left the room. Alex was quite n was involved in his own thinking.... may be remembering his n emily wedding day.... I feel bad for him because he truely loved Emily n he has lost her... Alex looked to me n said '' there is something I want to talk about ...after marriage you have to leave your job andpletely give your time to emma... you should not be that involved in your pregnancy that You neglect emma for one second ... if I ever felt you are giving your time to your baby n forgetting emma then you have hell to pay''... he looked angry I said '' I don''t even know that you can be so cruel... I loved my job ... n for emma I loved her more than my life but I also love this baby too... what if this baby be sick or he needs me then what? '' He looked a little embarrassed n upset but he ovee that n said'' kate these are my demands '' I said angrily '' ok my lord then should I signed another documents for this'' He grabbed my face roughly n said '' careful pretty girl but dont you dare to use this tone in front of me ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . otherwise you will not like the consequences'' Our faces was so closed that I thought in any minute he is going to kiss me but then his expression changed like he was disgusted with the idea of kissing me so be pushed me ... I suddenly hold the coffee table to hold myself otherwise I can seriously hurt myself n my innocent baby... Alex realized what he did n he was horrified n immediately try to pick me but I push his hand because I was so afraid of him right now n then I went directly to the door... Shawn looked confused when he saw my teary face n try to ask me but I don''t wait for him n went to rest room. Chapter 17: chap17 Chapter 17: chap17 Alex - Fuck.... there is seriously something wrong with me .... I can''t control n lust n anger when ever im with kate... she bring the best n worse in me .... but still if something happen to kate by my action I would have never forgive myself ..... she looked so scared of me like im going to kill her baby... damn those feelings kill me ... Shawn enter the room n looked a little disturbed n said '' what happen to kate she is not looking good may be you should...'' may be he looked into my expression n realized im the one who upset kate He said '' man! What the hell is wrong with you if you hate her so much then dont marry her... but fucking realized that she is pregnant with your child whom you are clearly abandoning before the birth.... you r such a bastard'' I looked to him '' shawn dont fucking start I know what im doing n you r mywyer so fucking support me'' He said '' I wish I wasn''t yourwyer.... the fucked up thing do did in prenup is beyond uneptable n how can you fucking disown your unborn child .... what''s the baby fault dude.... for god sake looked at your actions n think what r you doing to this child'' I replied '' I don''t want this baby ... I never wanted this ... emma is my only child she deserves everything .... Emily was my world n I lost her but emma is only thing left of Emily I will never fucking share myself with other baby .... she is my first priority not that baby '' I know im acting as a cruel bastard but that truth I can lose emma . Shawn looked disgusted with me n said that its time to look after the marriage thing When I enter the office I looked kate father''s was there n having a word with kate... welk honestly it was looking he was using kate again about something the way kate was listening with broken expression ... at that moment I felt to go n defend her but I stop myself n thing its not a moment ... when I wss closer to then I heard kate father''s saying ''good riddance'' '' whore of a mother'' '' a disappointment '' .... by looking at kate I can imagine that it was truly killing her... never understand why can''t he ept kate his own daughter ... n then I thought this is exactly i was doing with my unborn baby. The next hours was blur we got married...signed some documents ... kate father''s hug me npletely ignored her.. my mother telling kate to eat something ... then kate n me were sitting in the car and going to fucking home sweet home. Kate I was so tired with today happening that felt I sick... after my incident with Alex .. I try to keep quite in the car n looked outside the window ....Alex was also tense but I don''t know about what now ....so I didn''t bother him ....when we reached home I stood awkwardly in the lounge no idea in which room we r going to stay.... Alex want to cab n made a drink for himself n keep looking me very strangely ... he came closer to me then slightly run a finger in my cheeks by then he looked behind me n his expression changes and he be again heartless angry man ... when i looked behind what he saw that makes him so angry ... it was therge picture of Emily n Alex wedding day disyed in the sitting area .... he said '' your room is ready it is two door next to emmas .. go n have rest ... the maid will do the unpacking of your stuff tomorrow'' I was little confused he said my room does he mean he will still stay at his old room not with me.... will sometime I really want tough at my thoughts that why would he want to share a room with me... im just an unwanted wife... a disappointment like my father said Alex said '' dnt stand here like that , look Kate today my emotions are every where so plz dnt test my patience '' I moved to my new room , without my husband... so that''s how I start my new journey. Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. Chapter 18: chap18 Chapter 18: chap18 Kate Next day I woke around 7:00 am , when I heard emma was crying in next room ... I went to her room pick her n bring her back to my room ... she looked confused why was I here .... any way I hold emma and start calming her... after putting her in bed I just quickly take a shower n put a navy blue dress n apply some liner n gloss ... till that time emma was fully awake She said... ''aunty katiee ... emma want foody'' Iughed n said '' my baby wants foodyy ... ok lets make some pan cake'' I went to kitchen put the coffee in machine and start making pan cake while was sitting in her child protection chair Alex was still sleeping may be he was very tired ... I was putting thest batch of batter when I heard Alex foot steps in the kitchen I shyly said '' good morning ... I making some pancakes... I hope you like that ..but I can make something else'' He looked differently to me '' nah its ok... pancakes are fine..'' Then he picked emma give her kiss on her forehead ne to me I thought he was going to kiss me the way he was bending but then he stop n looked shocked but he was doing... then I realized that he was actually thought I was emily... I hurt not only for me but for Alex too... He moved quickly pour some coffe n start eating pancakes I quietly sit n helped emma to eat her pancakes. He looked n said '' you r eating just one pancake... have some coffee'' I said '' no I cant have coffee until it is de cafe... n im really not hungry ... I feel little nauseated at this time'' He looked little annoyed but noded to me. After breakfast I didn''t know what to do.. so I decided to do some dish washing then I will write a resignation letter n mail it to NYPH , as it is one of the demands of Alex to leave my job n be a house wife. Alex All night I can''t sleep , images of kate shes in my eyes whenever I close , all the yesterday event of prenuptial agreement , kate expression when she discovers her unborn baby is not considered Robbins heir, her scared expression when I push her, her father harsh words , they way she was looking when I told her that she is not sharing a room with me n damn my incredible lust for her when she was looking so fucking beautiful in her white peach dress , all I wanted to do was drag her n fucking undress her n I lost in her body, but then I looked at Emily n my wedding portrait n I felt im betraying her again but damn today in the morning she was looking so innocently so stunning in her blue summer dress , she was looking like a proper house wife a man can desire, thats why I try to kiss her but stop when I realized what I was doing, I was so turn on that I know I have to move quickly otherwise she will knows .... now I was thinking I can''t forever avoid kate charm now I have a taste of her... n I have a right on her I can have sex with her like normal couple have but there will be limitations in order make this only physical need satisfaction n she doesn''t get any other idea because still I loved emily n I cant give my heart to some one else... I moved to kate room to tell her about this n work on any agreement... when I went to kate room she was in bathroom sitting in a floor of the flush n was throwing up... I straight went to her n help her stand I said '' kate .. fuck.. are you ok .... you look awfully pale... should I call the doctor. She weakly smiled n said '' No im okay ... its morning sickness I have in this time... don''t worry I will lie down on bed n have some crackers n tea then I will be good'' I replied '' ok... I will get you something'' I went to kitchen n made her some tea n thought its not the right time to tell her.. may be some other day... I remember emily never face this kind of morning sickness nor she was so pale n weak.. even her appetite was also increased then why kate was facing that... I feel ashamed I was doubting her ...but I don''t know who to believe or not. When I went to her room she was looking little better n was working on herptop ... if she is ill then why she is working ... I tell myself dont doubt her... I give her tea n crackers n she smiled and give me a grateful look ... which make me feel like shit cause it was nothing I was doing n she feel so grateful about it ... she shyly said thanks. I went to my office n then keeping working there. I then heard emma was crying ... I thought where kate is.... when I looked Emma was in lounge n she hit her head in the table I quickly picked her I try to calm her ... after putting in her bed I went to kate Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. room... when I moved she was talking to some one nughing about something.... I became so angry that how dare she leave my child nughing at the phone ... then I saw herptop n some files of NYPH in bed ... oh she is still working there after I told her that she no longer will work there... I yelled her name ''KATE!'' She turned in and lookedConfused by my behavior. Chapter 19: chap19 Chapter 19: chap19 Kate After Alex has put me on bed n give me tea n crackers I thought for a moment may be he care about me... why I thought that I don''t know may be it is no one ever take care of me when I was sick.... after that I was quite fresh so I thought before mailing my resignation I should first call Olivia my friend to tell her about everything... Olivia was out of town when I get married .. but I know it will hurt her I didn''t tell her anything... so called her I said'' hi Olivia ... '' She replied '' oh kate... how r you... I really miss you.. so what''s happening'' Then I told Olivia about everything she was shocked n start asking questions I answered them as long as she get satisfied. She said '' what still I can''t get it why are you not working again you can take care of emma like you use to do... n what about the project you have '' I said '' yeah im working on it ... its almostplete n Im going to finalize some things n then email to the boss... resigning from the job is my own decision I just want to rx a little n being pregnant n all I cant focus on work''... I lied She then change the topic asking me to send the wedding photos ... I didn''t tell her there was a,single picture of me n Alex.. but I told her it will take some time to develop. Then Olivia start to tell me that how hot Alex is n how good he will she can only imagine but the way Olivia was saying Iughed at her ... but then I heard Alex yelled my name. I said '' Alex .. what happened .. everything is ok'' He said'' nothing is ok... you are working here .. nughing with your friend but you forget emma... what the fuck I told if I thought you ever neglect her for once second I will make you pay for that'' ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . I said '' Alex I was not ignoring her ...she is sleeping in her bed I put her myself'' He said'' no she is in lounge alone when she bump her head.... something terrible can be happened if I didn''t hear her cry'' I replied '' oh my god is emma is ok... I swear to god I didn''t hear her...otherwise I won''t leave her.. you know that'' He said '' if you r not working ... which I remember I told you to not..n then you have heard her... so care to tell ..why didn''t you leave your job'' I replied '' Alex im was working on a project before but I can''t leave that now ..so I was immediately clearing my work n after that I was going to write the resignation '' He angrily said '' these are just excuses... but you know what I said there will be consequences'' I said '' Alex listen to me.. He stopped me n said'' sshh just be quite... the consequences will be physical ... that will tell you how to listen properly'' I was shocked he wants to have sex with me... but .. I said '' Alex plz ....you don''t like me... n you r angry ... n what about emma'' He said '' I put her to bed... n yes I don''t like you .. but it doesn''t mean that we r going to be living like that... I have some needs too n you r wife ... it''s your responsibility to fulfill my needs''I now what he is saying but I know he wants to hurt me in some way '' Alex ... please ... don''t ..'' He picked my body n said '' Are you going to say no to me... after what im doing for you n for your baby'' I know at the moment I can''t say no ... let him do the worse... I weakly said ''ok'' He put his hand under my legs n tear my undergarment...he turn me on knees n hand n start ying with me I was feeling little overwhelmed n moan because of the sensation .. after he think he was ready he undo his pants n forcefully thrust inside me ... I yelp because of the shock n pain I felt because of Alex thickness... he was breathing harshly... I try to enjoy it but when he said in my ears that this is my punishment ... he is using me ... fucking me ...In short making me cheap...he never kiss me like im some cheap shag... I can''t control my tears n sob quietly ...n waiting so that he can finish with me.... after three hard thrust he said '' fuck kate'' n then he finallye. He just lie on top of me n breathe harshly.. then he must realized he was crushing me so he removed his body ... but I stay their numb n tears was falling ... it was much worse when he said I trapped him.. n now im feeling myself a cheap wh##r ...n he looked at me strangely with different expression ... then he left the room without a word. Chapter 20: chap20 Chapter 20: chap20 ALEX I feel like shit... what did I do.... I should stop that moment when I saw her yelled in pain but I was lost in my lust n in her sweet tightness .... n then I full filled my need n totally ignore hers ... I feel ashamed she was fucking pregnant ... I can also hurt her ...n when I saw her body covered in marks because of my rough fucking I just want to kill myself ...she looks so devastated, scared n numb ...I enter in my office n made myself a drink..n lost in my work so that I can work n try to forget what I did. It was almost 8:00 when there was a knock in the door I looked n saw it was kate ... she has changed to some brown dress n looking so fragile... She said in a small voice without looking in my eyes '' Dinner is ready do you want to eat here or in the dinning room'' I was quite for a moment looking her ... n checking her if she is ok ... then I I replied '' iming '' She left quietly .....when I reached Emma was sitting in her rocking chair and Kate was sitting far away from my side... I try to avoid looking at her but all I can saw how quite she is now, never lifting her head, looking so sad and weak...slowly eating her food , which was still fulled... why she is not eating properly .. she should be more hungery she doesnot eat properly during breakfast, lunch n now dinner.... may Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. be it is because of me ,,, i thought in guilt. After dinner kate put tes in the dishwasher n take Emma for a bath and then to bed. All this time i was thinking how to apologized to kate ... because looking at her so broken was killing me ... i need to clear this bad air.. I went to her room and saw her in sleeveless night gown and she was talking to some one She said " sir I know .. but i have to resign ... n dont worry about the project it is already done and send to your mail I was working on it today... Im so grateful you want me back but i really need a break from work ... now im married n have a 2 year n unborn kid to take care ... so plz understand.... sure sure sir when Im looking for job again NYPH will be my first choice... ok goodnight'' I feel more guilty she was really finishing her project and have left her job because of me... when she turned n looked me .. she flinched Kate When Alex left me in room broken... i went to washroom to clean my self ... when i looked at myself at mirror my arms n back and neck was covered in marks... n some where a little painful... looking at those i remember all that and I cried heavely.... After bath i went to check emma n smiled for my angel and cooked dinner... i was wondering should i called Alex for dinner... if i didnt he will get angry again ... so with little courage i called him After dinner i went to call my boss where i told many lies to understand why i need to resign ... then after called i turned i looked it was alex standing outside my door... i get scared... did i do something wrong again. I said in a scared voice" Hmm Alex... you.. you need something'' Alex Her scared voice too much for me.... she was looking so vunerable .. i try to rx her n said '' yup everything is fine... I just want to talk to you... can I ? .... If you want to sleep ... then I will talk to you She confusedly looked n said '' No you.. you can talk '' Ie closer to her n I saw that her stomach was looking more bigger then previously may be it is the gown but .... she was looking fucking beautiful ... I try to focus on why Im here ... I picked her hand n set with her in the bed I said '' Im.. sorry ... im so sorry I can''t even tell you how much ... I just lost control some time when im angry... there is no justification for what I did ... but let me tell you I can''t control my attraction that I have towards you ... you bring something inside me ...I ... just forgive me plz'' She looked with me teary eyes '' I didn''t know that you were attractive towards me.... I won''t lie yes I was scared... you make me feel like some cheap wh##r ... you... ne.. never kissed me.... but now you apologized I can forgive you... but plz don''t hate me... I can''t tolerate this'' I picked her face with both hands n said '' im a jerk ...a heartless bastard... but I won''t do this again... let me rectify this'' I slowly put my lip to her n kissed her ... I stop for a moment to look if she is willing or not ..... but she just closed her eyes like she was saving this moment in her memory.... I kissed her more passionately n gracing her body with my hand ... I was so lost in a moment that I know in any minute I will undress her n lost myself in her.... I fondel her breasts. which are bigger than before I asked '' Are you sure kate... you can say stop if you dont want it'' She smiled '' I want it...'' I didn''t wait for any moment again ... I passionately kissed her every body part ... n slowly n gently enter her...n kissed her neck... kate was very responsive n she was softly moaning which was making me lose control a little but I make,sure she is satisfied first... for a moment my hand touched her stomach n I stop... it look so real... kate opened her eyes n looked little hurt ... but I try to focus on a moment.... I fasten my speed n finallye....we both were sweating n I looked kate ... she has the most beautiful blush n lightly grace her face then I fell in sleep. Chapter 21: chap21 Chapter 21: chap21 Kate I felt my self to be lying in some hard surface when I opened my eyes I saw my head,was pressed to Alex chest n suddenly sit in the bed... my moment wake Alex n he looked confused but I was scared that he will regret this again n me me for it... he might have saw my expression because he shake his head Said '' kate are you ok! '' I said '' yeah im .. are you'' He smiled a little '' im perfectly fine ... nst night seems to make me very much ok'' I thought he doesn''t regretst night thats why he is in happy mood He suddenly said '' kate ... I never regretst night.... thats why you r so tense'' Shit I really said that aloud I replied '' hmm... I don''t know .... I just... I get scared that you will think I seduced you '' Alexughed '' pretty girl believe me if you ever seduced me I will always enjoy that but rx its me who seduced you not you'' I was shocked by Alex admission '' I replied '' oh..okk'' He grab my both hands n said ''Kate there is a thing... I don''t how is going to sound but im not trying to make you feel sad n act like a jerk .... but the things is I can''t do love n romance thing .... Emily take my heart with her n my ability to love.... same with this baby ... I will try to fulfilled his or her every need but emma is going to be my first priority so after this baby... plz kate don''t take this in a wrong way but after this baby I will not act as a father to him but a guardian thats all... n afterst night im want to continue ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . this but if you''refortable ... I know im asking alot n giving less but this is the man I have be plz bear with me if you can.... because my demands are still there which I made with you n im jerk to say this but this is just sex nothing else... there will be days I will be distantwith you ... I will not even fake public disy affection because I can''t lie to you n everyone n gives you false hopes .... there will be a time I will be angry n sat Shit but I will never disrespect you that way I used to you'' I keep looking at him .. he was brutally honest but my heart still have the capacity to hurt so much till now that Im amaze.... I can even ignore what he,said about that he cant love me ... but our baby ... he will not a father but act as a guardian to my baby ... I start seeing shback of my childhood how my father used to abandon me ... how he insult me n never epted me till now... Alex shake me a little '' what was happening to you ... you look like you were happening a panick attack... '' I slowly breath '' No im fine its used to happen sometime ... im ok'' Alex replied '' what do you meant .... from how long'' I said '' when I was very little ... I was 5 year old'' He looked shocked '' you r having panic attacks for more than 20 years n you are telling me now.... no one .. not even emily never told me you''re having attacks'' I replied '' no one knows about that ... I used to have them when im.. He knowingly said '' when you''re extremely tense or something triggered you...... fuck my words triggered something .... if you r notfortable its ok I understand'' I was thinking about my baby sure Alex cant love him or her but he will be not like my father .... I have to stay because of emma ... n for my baby honor ... so I also make things clear with him too I replied '' Alex don''t put this on you... I never had this more than 2 years itsst fir few seconds ... but I also want to say something... you have to promise me that if I ever agreed to all you have said then promise me you will never disrespect n humiliate our child publicly n personaly n don''t let any one do that to and If I ever felt this then I will leave everything'' He have an understanding look that what im talking about '' I promise you I will never do this to you n baby'' Chapter 22: chap22 Chapter 22: chap22 Alex I know the moment when kate made a promise with me ... she is talking about those moments when her father humiliated her publicly in Emily wedding n when pped her for wrongly using her for Emily death.... it fucking hurts the way her all life she has been deprived from parents love n respect n now she is worried about her child ... that I will like her father behave with her child.... the way she said she will leave ..... she truly meant that ..... when I said I promised her I will never be like her father.... her child will be benefited with everything he needs but except my love .... so somehow im like her father but I will respect her baby ...n I will keep my words. She said '' Then I ept everything you said'' I touched her faced n kissed her lips n said '' Im an asshole Kate... I be more difficult person after Emily death but I will really try to act as good husband n never hurt you.... but thank you so much for understanding me .... n kate im really attractive towards you ..n so don''t you ever doubt that'' She smiled shyly '' ok ... im also... im mean I like you too'' I give her grin '' why don''t you sh0w me properly how much you like me'' She blushed '' Alex I think Emma going to awake at any moment so we can do this another time'' I replied ''oh damn ... its 7:30 ... you are she is going to be awake.. She said '' yeah I should get going n prepared break fast... anything you liked today I should make?'' I replied '' kate anything is good for me dont put pressure on yourself by the way a cook n housekeeper usually came 5 times a days but she has take a off for few days ... when they joined again you don''t need to do all the stuff'' She lightlyughed '' I will be a fat cow if I sit n dont do anything ... beside I don''t have a job so household work will keep me busy'' I rudely replied '' Your job is take care emma n my guests.... it will keep you busy '' She flinched because of my tone n said '' ofcourse Alex ... you don''t have to remind me ... I very much aware of this fact....'' Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I always have to ruined a moment ... I feel like shit the way I talked to her after everything I told her I said '' kate im so sorry... plz bear with me... I can''t control myself sometime n say shitty things... plz forgive me... plz kate''... I lightly kissed her lips... she resists a little then she opened her mouth n like that we forget everything ...I hope so? Chapter 23: chap23 Chapter 23: chap23 Kate It is almost a month since Alex be a little civil with me... he has his moment but then he apologized for his behavior n I feel sad for him something.... Alex every night came to my room n we have a mind blowing sex but after sex he be so distant like he be that Alex... of which im scared n hate... he never said anything just leave the bed immediately n Went to his room without a nce... those moments kill me.... and in my silly mind im still trying to win alex heart for Me n my baby but I know people like my father n Alex never change their mind... One night Alex was in my room , after intense lovemaking I fall to Alex chest , his eyes was closed but he was not sleeping n he was breathing loudly and at that moment the baby kick , Alex be so rigid n tense that I can feel at any moment he will explode, he gently remove me and picked his clothes but I don''t want him to go I said '' Alex can you stay for a moment ,I me after that you can go to your room '' He sighs loudly n replied '' Kate , itste'' I said '' But... He said '' kate plz ... don''t make this awkward ... I told you before that dont expect something else just because we are sleeping together ... I have been honest n clear to you ... didn''t I?'' Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I sadly replied '' Yes Alex , Im sorry '' He looked a little guilty n just giving me a nod he left And now im cooking breakfast n the household staff is cleaning the rooms since Alex mom n alex cuzns areing to meet us... I have an appointment today with the doctor n she said I should also bring Alex cause she thinks husband should be more involved in the pregnancy but how can I tell her my case to her... but im stupid girl who amways hope , that may be alex go with me ... emma was eating n bbing something ... Alex was eating his breakfast n reading newspaper ... I thought I should start conversation with something normal I said '' Alex ...so when your parents n cuzn areing ? .... so that I can look after their room n prepared food before'' He replied '' umm I guess around 8 but I don''t think so they will stay ... they will have a dinner.... martha the cook she knows very well how to prepare dinner for no of people so you just rx'' I said '' Alex I loved to cook... n secondly I can take martha help If I be tired but you said no of people ...who else ising'' He said'' well I forget to tell you my uncle n aunty with their daughter ising but since uncle sam has be friends with your dad so I n my father thought to called your parents too'' I be little nervouse when ever I think will meet my parents ''oh '' He said '' don''t worry about it... I have already talked to your dad about your situation n well he is not happy but thats the statement of the year ... well try to avoid him n any thing that make you feel that can create scene'' I looked so ufortable right now not only im meeting Alex family so personally but my parent''s know about my pregnancy... n now I have to tell him about the appointment I said '' Alex there is something else too... actually today is my appointment in noon , my doctor says that she wants you toe too... she wants to discuss something ... I know you r busy but is it possible you cane I will really appreciate that may be today we know the sex of the baby.''... I said it with a shaky smile Alex replied annoyingly '' Kate ... what should I do with your appointment... I told you multiple time don''t expect anything from me... you want this baby not me ...if you need money then I ask that not something I can''tmit'' He said this all slowly but so much in anger that my eyes filled with tears .... I picked Emma n said '' no alex I don''t need money ... I really forget ... I will go myself ... n don''t worry about emma martha is going to be there with her till I reached hospital... n tonight dinner going to be prepared on time... oh shoot you are gettingte for office... I should take emma for bath '' N with that I left alex alone in dinning room. At 12 I reached hospital n wait for my turn ... I saw everyone hase with their partners n they looked so happy... not like me whose is going to know the gender of her baby without her husband... when my turn came the nurse start looking at my vitals n my blood pressure The doctor did my ultrasound n heard my baby voices The doctor say '' Do you want to know the gender'' I said '' yeah...( Iughed a little ) ...if thats even possible'' The doctor smiled '' yes...well looked at the screen here... it look like you r having a baby girl'' A girl... oh my god a daughter... emmas having a sister...I wasughing n crying at the same time... but then I remember.... is this history is repeating it self ... I was an unwanted daughter too n haved ignored all my life The doctor start calling my name loudly ... I saw .. The doctor said '' Kate ... oh my ... kate you r ok.... were you having a panic attack because you were shaking ... I be so scared'' I replied '' im ok just a little excited ... the baby is ok? '' The doctor said '' you should have told me about the attacks emma.... never hide this from doctor.... n yes the baby looks ok for now but you really do have to take care of yourself .... n where is your husband... I told you to bring him... I want to discuss something'' I said '' He wanted toe but he has an important meeting today ...'' The doctor shake her head in disappointment... she said that if I were have panic attack again I should breath heavily n n try to block my images with something good... When I reached home... all the time I was thinking I was having a daughter ... but I don''t know with whom I share this news ...cause my parents are never interested in me so why would they be interested in my child.... Alex has brutally told me regarding his interest in this pregnancy... so I went directly to emma n said '' hi baby girl'' She replied '' mama kate..'' Emma something called me mama kate ...Alex doesn''t know about that n I have no idea how he is going to even react... but I leave that tension to another moment I picked Emma n said '' you know emmie you are going to be a sister... im going to have a baby... just like you n you will be a big sister'' Emma said'' oh baby... emma want baby... im sister'' Iughed '' oh yes baby girl you r going to be soon'' I kissed her head n put her on her y pan.And went to kitchen for making tonight dinner. Chapter 24: chap24 Chapter 24: chap24 Kate I was almost finished with the dinner preparation with the help of martha but the dessert was left to assembled ... it was tiramisu I thought I should get ready first then even guest arrived it can be arranged at that moment..... I went to my room n quickly take a shower after shower I picked a sea Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. green dress with blue flowers I finished my look with a golden belt ... I lightly put some make up ... the toughest part was my hair .... I don''t know how to tame or set them at this short moment .... since its quite long so I thought a braid with twist of french n fish tail will go with some hair falling out from the front .... I was almost finished with my hair when I heard my room was knocked ... I turned to saw it was Alex dressed in casual clothes with blue jeans n grey shirt n cuffs were fold which make him looked more hot... I said '' hi ...when did you came?'' He replied '' just 10 min a go... I want to tell you Shawn n his fiancee racheal will being tonight ... I hope you don''t mind .. I replied ''ofcourse not ... he is your friend he can came any time he want'' He looked ufortable about something but then n said ''you looked radiant ... this dress brings the most outstanding shine in your eyes'' I shyly smiled '' thanks... I was really nervous but you put me in ease'' He looked unease about something ... I have a bet it has something to do with the morning ... but I wont mention it I don''t want to embarrassed my self again n again ... his guilt is his own doing... I bent down to retrieve the shoes but since my stomach was making it difficult for me I hold the dresser n try to bend again ... Alex hold me by waist n told me to hold on he picked my shoes n then he make me sit in the near couch n then he picked my foot n start putting it on my feet I said '' Alex what are you doing ... it doesn''t looked good... I will do it'' He replied '' Shhh ... it looks very good from where im seeing .. After putting up my shoes I try to get up but Alex stop me by putting his hand on my leg n then bending towards my body He said '' I wished no onee today so that I can unwrap this dress n get lost in you ... but I promise tonight im going to do all the stuff which I have in my mind when in saw you ...'' I was blushing ... when Alex start kissing my mouth '' my jaw '' my neck n start ying with my breast... He looked to me n says '' kate im very difficult person n a very egoistic bastard ... I told you I don''t think before I speak... but this thing between us is passionate n electrified ... so this is the onlynguage I know to rectify my action .... you understand that plz'' Now I understand his why he is so affectionate towards me .... he feel guilty about this morning.... these moments give me stupid hopes about us n our unborn baby... should I tell him that we are having a girl ? ... but his words from morning was so clear that he is not interested so left that information I put my hands on his face n said '' Alex I understand.... we should be going '' He replied'' yeah we should but before we go ... I want to tell you again dont get nervous especially from your father ..... I don''t know how im going to sound but appearance means alot in our world don''t say or do anything which you think can create a scene... I hope you get that'' I replied sadly because like my father he also think I Wil disappointment him... '' Alex I will try my best not to embarrassed you.... today I will act as my best'' He ufortable looked at me n just node We both stand n move towards door... Emma was having her dinner cause I dont want to spoil her routine just because of the guests ..... The door bell rang it was shawn n his beautiful fiancee... she greet me with a huge smile n hug me She said '' shawn told me alot about you.. n you looked so beautiful n glowing'' No one ever was so affectionate towards me with the first meeting I was little shocked with I give her a smile n thanked her..... then after few minutes my parents came... my parents first theye hugged Alex n emma .... I hesitantly moved to greet them... Mom just looked to me I moved to hug her but looked my stomach n turn her face ..... my face was red .... when I moved to greet my father n try to give him a hug he stop me by holding my arms tightly ..... N said '' oh oh... so you have prove to be your mother daughter ..... she will be so proud that you trapped a good looking n rich guy by getting pregnant ... but people like you forget that they never get the respect n love in the society.... when Alex told me about your pregnancy I was so shocked n angry but when he told us he doesn''t want to do anything with this marriage n with this baby .... it gives us a satisfaction that you people cannot win us'' I was now silently crying n try to give him a sad smile ... his words still hurt but ALEX told him about that he doesn''t want my baby totally breaks me... Alex came n he looked embarrassed about the things my father said ...he said'' Ryan I think you should not talk about this we had an discussion about this and you know everything so plz keep it civil in front of other guest'' Father said '' civil n with her... she is a disappointment, she never give a single happiness in my life , n now you r going to see how she will embarrassed you in front of your guests ... she has no social standing n manners'' Alex replied '' enough! Ryan I told you to leave it behind... Kate is my wife now n she has social standing now ... plz not for me but for Emily sake be civil'' My father just nod ... by the time Alex parents n his uncle n aunty n their daughter who looks closer to my age I greet them ... Alex parents met me with smile n hug n they ask about my health Alex uncle sam n wife gives me a slight smile ... their daughter Helen did not hug me but give me reserved smile n just handshake. It was awkward for everyone Alex mom n aunt came n said ''sorry for that but I forget to tell you Helen was very good friend of Emily n very protective of her but after her death... she was very sad like she lost a sister.. so her reserved behavior was because now you r Alex wife n she feel ufortable'' I smiled n said '' I totally understand ... its new for everyone ... I hope with time every thing will be normal'' Dinner went well ... father , Alex , his father n uncle start talking about business stuff... n we alldies went to lounge to have our dessert n tea there'' Alex aunt said '' Kate you are excellent cook ... we used toe to Alex house but this dinner of yours proves to be the best visit of my life'' She said jokingly but Helen seems to mind that n said '' Mom Emily was also good cook ... but more over she has a grace n weing feel to everything she did'' I just smiled n not replied...Alex instructed me that I should not do or say anything that create scene Alex mom n his aunte to my rescue n said '' Helen we understand that Emily was your friend but Making kate ufortable is not eptable too'' Helen replied '' ufortable!! What about her she has make so many life ufortable ... Alex told me multiple times how much he regret her ... how she trapped her by pregnancy ... she dont deserve to be there ... '' Alex mom said in anger '' Helen... I know you care for Alex just like your brother but she is her wife ... you have to respect her... now she will be living in Alex life not Emily so start epting that'' Helen replied '' she may be living in his life but not in his heart... cant you see all house is covered in Emily pictures ... n you r saying Emily do not belong here... she cant even make her own ce in this house .... no wonder all the rumors we have heard might be true.... N how can you be sure this is Alex baby it can belong to any bastard'' Now I can''t control my self ... I am so angry that how dare she bring my child into this ... Ished on her n said '' Helen .. say what ever you want to say to me but don''t you dare to say anything about my baby ... because if you did then its not going to be good ... you understand'' Helen '' I knew it ... this is real bitchy face.. She doesn''tplete her sentence because Alex came ...n I be rx that he will support me Alex said '' what''s going on? Helen replied '' why don''t you ask your little innocent wife here...she just insted me ... no insult but she warn me ... is this how she treat the guests'' I try to speaking but Alex stop me n said '' kate what the fuck you did.... Helen is my sister ... how dare you to disrespect her like that ... when ever I try to trust you ... you do something to make me disappointment .... '' I replied '' Alex plz listen to me ... she is telling you half thing.. Alex looked so angry n said '' enough ... I don''t want to listen a word from your mouth ... apologized her ...right now'' Alex mom came n try to tell him the whole truth but Alex told them to be out from this ... he said he won''t listen anything from anyone... I replied'' Alex I won''t apologized to her... she .. Alex stop me in midway n said '' Don''t you dare to say No ... Kate we made a deal so always thing about it before you say No ... now apologized Helen right now'' My heart crushed into more tiny pieces ... n I know he was still using my baby future as a pawn to me I tearly looked Helen n said '' Im sorry Helen ... if I disrespected you... I wont do this again... Im not like emily who has a social standing unlike me ....im just disappointment in everyone life... Please forgive me... I looked to shocked faces of Alex n then shawn they might remember thise words ... Alex has used those words about me in their wedding ceremony... I used then again to see Alex reaction. I said goodbye to everyone n went to my room...I was so angry with myself with everyone ... that all I do is cry. Chapter 25: chap25 Chapter 25: chap25 Alex Mom try to tell me something but I don''t listen anything when Helen said what kate did I be so angry how dare she disrespect my family ... but then she apologized in a way that blow my mind she said those words that I said to Shawn about her in my wedding ceremony with Emily... but if she had heard them ....she never told me .... nor she tell Emily....may be she never said it was just coincidence.... what whatever she did was wrong.... but why I felt that something else is in the story n why the fuck im feeling guilty... she deserves this. Everyone start to leave n Mom still try to talk to me but I told her not right now. I went to kate room but stop when I heard her crying voice I know I should go n check her... she fucking do this on her own... I know sleep is noting tonight so I went to office n don''t know how long I stay there... The next morning I woke up with a headache ... I realized I slept in my office ... I don''t want to go to my room that night where kate was not there.... I stop at my deration .... sure it is my lust talking... I think so.... damn this women is making everything in my life out of control.... I know what I didi with her was down right rude n cruel.... she is my wife n I promise to respect her but fuck when Helen told that kate insted her ... I be furious... I still can''t trust her ...oh god .... may be yesterday dinner was too much When I was having conversation with the gents I heard Helen angry voice... n that whole drama started. I went to my room to have a shower.... whole house was so quite... I looked the time it was 7:45 am ... Kate woke up this time usually n make breakfast .... may be she is tired from yesterday event... who can me her for that.... I went to take a shower n dressed in my office clothes n went to dinning room.... Emma was awake n Martha was there cooking breakfast ... I was little confused normally kate do all these breakfast stuff... is she ok?... I realized then she had an appointment yesterday where she told me toe n I rudely told her no ... she also said about doctor.. n gender of the baby...Fuck I never asked her how was her visit.... but then how to ask her when I told her im not interested...its better this way... she will not get the wrong hopes..But deep down im also wondering what is the gender... but I ignored that thought ... n have breakfast I asked Martha '' Wheres kate? She will not have the breakfast'' Martha gives me some sort of angry look n said '' No sir ... I have no idea... I checked her but she was in her deep sleep so I thought not to wake her... she looks very tired from yesterday dinner'' I have a feeling Martha knows about yesterday evening n my reaction ... but I choose not to answer ... but now I was worried sick that was it too much for her... everything was going ok yesterday ... hell kate makes a very good hostess ept that moment which ruined everything... I was getting ready to go to office when I can''t stop myself to go to kate room n checked her... I opened her door n enter her dark room ... she was sleeping with she was not in peace she looked very tense n lost... Martha was ready she looked very tired ... I looked her teary faced n I feel so guilty ... I run a finger to her cheek n let her sleep more... n went to office.. When I was driving all this time mom was calling even I had missed call from Aunty but I choose to ignore... when I enter my office shawn was there already with a cup of coffee I said '' thank god ... I need this'' He replied '' wee but I brought this for me ..but never mind'' I take a sip then I saw shawn was standing there awkwardly ... I raised my eyebrows in question He said '' Dude I know I have no right to interfere in your life but I can''t control it... but do you think kate listen our conversation about her in your wedding ceremony with Emily... because as long as I remember she said those exact word'' I replied '' I.. don''t know.. may be its,a coincidence... may be its not... god knows'' He said '' why don''t you ask her... cause I feel guilty... n there something else I want to tell you '' I replied '' why the fuck you r guilty... it was me who said those words not you....n what else you want to talk about dude im having a terrible headache right now'' He replied '' well for in instance your behavior towards kate.... I know I shouldn''t interfere but you did insult her in front of everyone so I can''t stop her.... Alex you do have to trust her in some point in your life... She is your wife after all you have to support her in all her problem...you know yesterday event has another story'' I have very bad feeling where it is going but I said '' what do you mean'' He replied '' Rachel told me it was Helen who started all this... she first belittled kate n start insulting her what a lousy host kate is which I think was totally wrong ... kate was best... n then she start saying how Emily has a sense of sophistication n then pointing out that kate can trapped you but not your heart ... n start making her feel like shit that you n kate did not have a single wedding pictures where emily pictures are all over the house.... which I think you are indifference toward that again why invitation your guests n proving kate how less important she is..... but anyway kate did not say anything she just smiled n try to ignore it... but when Helen attack your... i mean kate unborn baby ... that how you can believe its Robbins baby and not a bastard... it that moment kateshed..... Alex she doesn''t say a word when Helen say shit about her but she took stand for her baby ... which you failed to do it for both'' I was shocked by the admission that shawn said.... fuck ... Helen why did you do that... n fuck me for believing her n once again doubting kate... n insulted her in front of everyone .... I don''t know how to make this right ... shawn left me in my guilt.... I don''t know how long I was lost in my thoughts when my cell vibrated...I saw it was from home... for a moment I thought kate is calling I picked the phone n Martha voice came '' sir if your are not busy can youe home... Mrs Robbins is not feeling good I think .... she has been sleeping so long... I try to wake her but she is not responding im very scared ... I don''t know what to do'' I dropped my phone... no .. no god no... plz don''t let anything happen to her... there was something wrong with kate n o didn''t realised ... I left everything n went the house... by the time I reached kate room... she was looking same way I left her ... Martha was crying I asked '' whats wrong... kate opened your eyes...e on kate ... please kate... Martha called the doctor right now'' Martha replied '' I have already she is own her way'' After ten minutes thedy doctor came n checked kate ... I was waiting impatiently Doctor said '' Mr Robbins kate is,already for now I have given her some rxing injection ... thank god the baby is fine... but it''s kate im most worried... you have note to any of her appointment I have to discuss something about her'' I replied '' plz tell me whats wrong'' She give me disappointing look n said '' I wished you were more involved in her pregnancy ... work is not always important...do you know kate is anemic n her blood pressure fluctuate which is not good for her in this situation...n yesterday appointment she has a panic attack when she knows she is having a girl... these things are not good Mr Alex totally not good''ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . I paled ... fuck thats why she asked because her doctor want to talk to me... Im so ashamed that kate has to make excuses about me in front of her doctor... n what doctor said a girl... we r having a girl... fuck this pregnancy is bing more real to me day by day... I replied '' im very ashamed doctor ... I will try to take care of her alot... what tell me she is ok right now'' She replied '' yeah she is fine... some time stressed of all day can make pregnant women very tired n sick... but she will wake up in few hours... this is kate diet n medicine chart which you make sure she followed daily'' I said thank you n let martha to see off the doctor. I feel so angry at myself at Helen... at ryan Evans... people like is always hurt the person who has nothing did wrong.... kate was expecting that her husband will support her in front of everyone but what I did ... I again insulted her... degraded her...I kissed her forehead n pray to god that she woke up soon ... even the baby she wants more than in her life should be ok... otherwise I will not forgive myself. Kate My whole body n head felt like it is hit by a truck ... I feel so tired ...when I put my hands in the bed I felt that I was touching some one hair... I opened my eyes it was Alex whoy his head in the bed... by my moment he woke n hold my face to check im really awake Alex '' kate ... oh thank goodness ... you are awake'' Kate '' whats wrong... n how long I slept'' Alex replied '' its almost 4 :00 pm ... you slept for whole day ...I was so worried sick ... when doctor checked you I still was not satisfied...'' I said '' The doctor ? My baby... is she ok... what about emma she is going so distressed n confused'' Alex put his hand on my head n said '' shh shh just rx kate ... just rx... you were not waking so I called her... she said the baby is ok... Emma asked you but I told her you r not feeling good so you are resting she was ok by then'' I looked Alex n then I start realizing whole yesterday event ... I try stay away from his hand n asked '' Alex why are you here... you should be in your office right now?'' He flinched n said '' Kate I know im an asshole but not that much that im going to leave my sick wife on her own'' I replied '' well you left me alone multiple times so why not now'' He shamefully said '' yes kate I deserve your anger .... n im sorry for that... but you need rest n something to eat .... then we will talk .. ok'' He left n called Martha to bring something for me to eat Martha be a good friend n mother figure to me in a short time ... She bring food n said '' im so happy kate you r awake you have seriously put me in worry ..don''t do this again... Mr Alex has been there whole time... I don''t know what would I did if I didn''t called him'' I said '' im sorry Martha but you shouldn''t called him... I was ok you know'' She replied '' you were not .... I know you r angry with MR Alex n he deserves that but never take too much stressed in this position also .'' Martha left n Alex came with my baby Emma He said '' Hi look whoe to meet you... she was asking about you alot so I thought to let her see you... n emma kate is little tired so don''t disturb her'' I replied '' Alex she never disturbed me she calm me...e her my baby girl im so sorry I worried you.. Emmae n lie down with me n said '' Mama kate! Dada say you sick.... emma don''t want you sick... eat soof .. you ok'' I said '' oh baby ...im so good right now .. n its soup not soof ok... '' When I looked Alex he stand still n then I realized what emma has said to me... I tense n said ... '' Alex she said to me,sometimes I never said anything to her'' Alex shake her head '' I know kate... you don''t have to exin me... you are like her mom to her'' Alex phone rings ... he say its his mother ... then he left... Emma n I start talking n ying with her doll... I told martha to bring some snake for emma... then we start watching tv in my room... Alex Mom told me exactly what Shawn told... I wish I have listen to her first... I told her that I know the truth n I feel like shit I went to kate room n I saw emma sleeping in herp n kate was smiling at her n running her fingers at her hair .... When emma called kate mama I was little shocked but when then I realized I don''t feel bad about it at all... And now looking at them also give me satisfaction that emma has a mother in the form of kate ... she looked at me n paused n be tense ... I replied '' Are you ok? she said '' yeah im good... I replied '' let me put emma in her bed'' Kate said she needs fresh air then she moved to the balcony till the time I put emma in her bed. And moved to kate room to talk to her. Chapter 26: chap26 Chapter 26: chap26 Alex Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. Kate stand n start to move towards her balcony which has swing chair ... she sit there her hair was flying with light breeze n she look so breathtaking.... I sit with her n said '' Kate I... this is not thing which im going to say but believe me my intention was never to hurt you... but I alway do hurt you ... n may be I will still hurt you in future but plz plz forgive me ... im so so sorry ... when shawn n mom told me what helen said... I just felt that I should kill myself for insulting you n not supporting you.... kate plz say something ... hit me.. yell at me... god I deserve this but plz say something'' She was still not looking at me ... she had a very calm but sad expression Then I picked her face n plead her to say something but she turn n looked at the sky n then she said '' Alex I know you feel guilty ... n you always say sorry for your action... but yesterday I need you alot ... you a made a promise that you won''t love me n my baby but you will respect us... but yesterday it shows you forget your promise ... you never trust me ... when ever some one say something about me you believe that.... but what hurts the most when you told my father n Helen that I trapped you n you dont want this baby ... it fucking kill me ..'' I replied '' Baby plz forgive me... I said this when things were tough between us n you parents were ming you so I have to say something to show them that no one will take emma n emily space... plz kate forgive me'' I kneel down on herp n apologized again n again... then kate always the kind soul run her hands on my hair n said '' Alex I know you will do this something like this again ... I forgive you for now...'' I kissed her n said '' thank you thank you thank you ... kate I will try to not hurt you... but im demons are there which im trying to not show them again... plz bear with me'' She give me a sad smiled n kissed me ... I was so lost in the moment that she loudly moaned and I realized I was touching her inner part n damn she was wet She flushed by her moans n said '' sorry .. its my hormone which makes me so..'' She looked embarrassed what she was saying I finished her sentence '''' you be horny '' I said with a teasing smile Kate blushed n said '' oh my god.. its.. I replied ''shh babe.. its ok to tell me everything about your body...I loved to satisfied you... n as long as I remember I made a promise to you yesterday that I still have to full filled... but if you dont feel... Kate '' Alex I want you.. so plz dont stop what you are doing'' Well who is stopping me know I take her to the bed n fulfilled my promise three times in a night. Kate When we finished Alex n I was breathing loudly n my body so content that all I want to do was sleep after this strong pleasure worthy love making... Alex was looking very tense n then said '' ''kate I just want to ask one more thing which I should ask before but its bothering me alot now... did do listen shawn n my conversation in emily wedding?'' I looked embarrassed n realized that yesterday I have said those things n now Alex will thing I was eavesdropping.. I replied '' Alex... hmm.. yes I did...but it was by chance not deliberately.. Alex has horrified expression '' why didn''t you say something at that time to me... even to Emily ... she would have given me hell for that'' I replied '' it was not important... you guys were married.. n disturbing your marriage life because of your opinion about me... I think was ok to let go'' Alex replied '' shit ... damn shit ... I have been hurting you for long time n you never said a word... you should believe me I don''t believe those words anymore... I was a fool to say something about you'' I kissed his cheeks n said '' it was in the past Alex ... I forget it you also forget it'' He passionately kissed me .. n then I dozed to sleep . Chapter 27: chap27 Chapter 27: chap27 (After Few months) Kate I looked like a fat buffalo .... damn my stomach is so huge that I can''t even looked at my feets... Alex parentsughed about it n say that im carrying a Robbins baby so its normal... I do notice that whenever the topic of my pregnancy came along Alex be guarded n very tense... like my baby is bing more real to him.... some things have changed like he now never left the bed when we have sex .... he do ask my appointment but never visit to one of the appointment with me... those moments make me believe how firm he is about his decision regarding my baby girl... he never ever asked about the gender of the baby but he do notice the things happening around him.... like his mom n Rachael helping me setting a nursery... Rachel has be a good friend of mine n in every visit she bring pink nursery stuff n clothes ...the nursery is not big its a tiny room but since its near my room im ok with it... My father do visit our home to take emma to his house or park but never he asked about my baby n me ... but he some how be a little bit civil ... he greet me n then ignored me which is fine by me.. but when I saw him with emma ... how he changed to caring n loving grandpa I also want this for my daughter... but I know it will never happen because im giving birth to her n because of me she will never loved... but I will try my best to make Alex n my father loved my baby too...I don''t know how I will do it .... god help me on this.... Doctor has told me to be ready on next month when my little girl will came into this world... n Im so scared will Alex be there for me...will he be holding my hand n hold her child for the first time... I wished he will.. Alex has gone to my father house to pick emma... me n martha are preparing the dinner ... when Alex n Emma haveed... emma start running n hugged me tight Iughed '' Hi my fireball ...hold on a little let me sit I can''t even see you when you hugged my leg because of my huge tummy'' Emma giggled n I with difficulty sit in the chair... my pregnancy is proving a little difficult to me day by day especially when I have to sit or have to stand... n in night when I have pee I can''t even turn properly n at take me ages... Alex never helped me in those moments but since I never asked who can me him... but Martha has be a supporting soul in this where she helped me something to stand ... put my swollen feets in warm water.... Emma said '' when the babye out of your tummy mama'' I see Alex was standing there n he be tense when he heard about baby but he say nothing I replied ''Soon baby very soon'' Alex said he will take a shower ... I have a feeling something is wrong but don''t know what. Alex Kate pregnancy is bing real to me more day by day n its unsettling ... I will never get the award of husband of the year because im not a supportive husband to her in her pregnancy... I saw how she winced when she sit or stand... how difficult is for her to turned n go the bathroom in night... how are breathing changed when she walked n take a support of any chair or table to stand.... n in some day how are feets be so swollen that she can''t walk properly ... n how she rubbed her shoulders n give herself those small massages to soothe her pain..... Even ever I see her like this I realized what shity person Im ... I remember when Emily was pregnant I used to spoil her with death ... give her the every support she needs... she used to demand me to massage her back n shoulder ... n I loved those moments... if I ever treat emily in such way the way I was treating kate... Emily would have killed me.... but kate neverined once.... she just smiled n never share her pain with anyone.. What I made a promise that Emma is my priority n no ones going to take her ce ... especially when today emily mother cry in front of me n said that how much she missed Emily n after kate given the birth .. emma will be neglected ... I told Mona that no one neglect her... but when Emily mother said I should give emma to her n live my life with new family ... I be shocked how dare she take my emma from me She said '' plz Alex dont take it in a wrong way but this way emma will be loved more n you will have a new family too... you think you know kate .... what no one knows better than me... once her baby is born she will try to make you loved the baby more n this way emma will be neglected'' I replied '' No Mona... this will never happen ... I told kate n im telling you emma is my only heir of the Robbins n no one...'' She said '' Then promised me ... that you will always put my dead child daughter first n no one else... '' I looked ufortable but I somehow the wordse out in my mouth '' I promised you '' Kate Martha was in the kitchen when Ie to get Alex coffee ... she looked to me n said '' Kate I want to tell me something '' I picked her hands n said '' yeah Martha .. everything is ok ?'' She replied '' Actually no... my daughter husband has a ident n he is alright but my daughter needs me... she had called mant time toe to her... but I can''t because I can''t leave you in this condition... but her kids are so small n they need me... I stopped her n said '' Martha why don''t you tell me before of course you can leave... n plz tell me if you need anything.... now go n packed your stuff n don''t worry about me... I still have time'' She hugged me n say thanks. I picked Alex coffee n went to his office ... he was staring hisptop screen... I put his coffee on table n give him a shy smile ... he looked n give a hesitant smile n moved to look at something on the screen ... I moved to stand beside him n kissed his lips n neck n said '' Are you busy? ... if not then let gets back to bed'' He kissed me but said '' no I have something to finished this work ... you go n sleep'' I start massaging his shoulders n rubbing my hands on his neck .... then I said '' everything is ok Alex... you look at little tense'' He was quite for a moment.. then he said .. '' everything is fine... just a work.... He stop but I know he want to say something else He said '' Actually I want to tell you thay I have a meeting in this week but its in Canada... I was dying this but no I can''t its very important'' I be shocked n said '' Alex you can''t leave me alone in this pregnancy... you know my dates are closer'' He gives me one of his guarded looked '' I said I can''t dy this anymore... n besides you know who want this baby more'' Here ites again... im stupid to bring my pregnancy in front of him... but still he is going to leave me alone? He looked ufortable about what he said n then he says '' kate you still have time dont you? Im going to be away at least for a week n thene back...n you won''t be alone but this is important trust ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . me'' I reluctantly said '' yeah im sorry.... its my hormone was speaking ... I be tense ... sure you''re going to be back soon'' I try to give myself a hope..He said '' yeah I will try to be back soon...'' Chapter 28: chap28 Chapter 28: chap28 kATE Alex has left four days ago ... he told me he is going to keep in check with me till he is there... Emma was telling me a something about her story book that my father has brought her... when I heard the door bell rings Since Martha was not home I went to open the door. It was my father ... I said '' Daddy...e in please.... its a surprise ... you never told that you wille He broodingly said '' To meet my grand daughter I don''t need a permission'' I replied '' Daddy I was just saying ... im very happy you came'' He went to picked emma n said '' Hi baby how are you...Ie here to pick you... you r going to stay at my house .... I brought a present for you there'' I replied '' Daddy don''t take emma please... im already alone in this house ...'' He replied '' what do you mean where is Alex? I replied '' He left to Canada for a meeting'' He looked a little shocked '' He left you all alone in this condition'' I felt that he was little worried about me... but then I thought It was my imagination he never felt like that for me ... I said '' Daddy he didn''t want to go but it was really important ... he can''t dy it further ... he might be back in few days'' My father look ufortable but he replied '' But still emma will go I have a present for her which I have to show to her.... security guards are outside the mansion so you are save'' I wished he has offered me to go with him too...I don''t want to be alone in this house .... with that father left with emma leaving me alone. Since I was alone I thought to take a early nap... during night I felt a shooting pain in my abdominal and then i felt my bed was wet when I checked I realized my water has been broke.... fuck not today.... I don''t know what to do .... my contractions started inst for few seconds but damn those few seconds were killing me... I have to call some one ... my first thought came I should called Alex.. I looked at the clock it was 2 o clock in the morning ... may be he is awake.... I called him... but he didn''t picked... I called him again for like ten minutes when his phone beeped to leave a message I said '' Alex if you r listening ... then just so you know my water has been broke n im in thebor .... ahhhh shit oh god..... ( another contraction started at this time) .... ahh Alex plze back soon'' I have to call my father .... I called his phone but still his phone was on ringing n then it was picked I said '' hello daddy ... Daddy I need you'' ''Kate '' it was mom ... '' whats wrong with you ... do you called some one in this time of the time? You know your daddy is a heart patient... sudden excitement is not good'' With the phone was hanged... I try again but phone was busy... I try to call Alex mom then I realized they are out of country.... so I called only 911 I don''t have any option left... Operators said '' 911 what''s your emergency'' I replied '' hi im kate robins in im inbor but im alone n I don''t know what to do n... She said'' ok kate just rx just tell me the address im sending a team'' I told her the address n waited... out of nowhere I realized I should atleast message Rachel in case anything happen to me ... I quickly message her im inbor in 911 ising... About 7 min the teame n they put me in the ambnce n then my eyes was closing. Alex It was 5:00 clock in the morning when my hotel phone was ringing... who the fuck is calling me on this time n why not on my phone ... I picked the phone n said '' hello'' ''You fucking idiot '' it was shawn '' shawn what the hell why r you calling me on the hotel phone'' He replied '' the fuck you are not picking up your mobile ... what option do I have... listen... kate is the hospital.... she is inbor n any minute they are going to take her to thebor room... so you asshole bring your ass to new York soon'' Fuck kate is in thebor... I shoot from my bed n went to dress quickly ... I checked my phone n it was ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . on silent ... shit.... I checked I have 15 missed calls from kate n one voice message.... I quickly called my P.A to arrange my private jet to be ready .... I left the hotel n quickly enter the jet... then I listen kate voice message She said '' Alex if you r listening ... then just so you know my water has been broke n im in thebor .... ahhhh shit oh god..... Alex plze back soon'' Shit she was in pain when she was calling me... I should never left her alone... damn it Martha was not even there... fuck... I have to be there. Chapter 29: chap29 Chapter 29: chap29 Kate My little angry pinked princess enter this world 5:30 in the morning she was crying with her strong Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. lungs... when the doctorid her on my arms... it was such a beautiful moment that I will never forget till myst breath... she was breath taking... she got Alex blue grey eyes n Alex unique light brown with gloden touch hair.... she looked like him with my lips ... I stare at her... n I start crying that what a beautiful thing I have created... she is so precious that I want to protect her with every harmful things. Rachel n shawn reached soon the hospital before they were taking to thebor.. shawn was shocked I was all alone ... but I told him that Alex has to be there because it was urgent...soon I was then taken to thebor room... After my delivery soon I was sent to ward ... n then I was fall asleep. When my eyes open for I don''t know how many hours ... I saw Alex was there lying awkwardly in the hospital chair... I called his name... he doesn''t respond ... I found him in wrinkle clothes n he was deep in sleep ... I called him again ... n then he respond ''kate'' I said '' Alex ... for how Long you r sleeping in this chair ... '' He confused n looked at his watch n said '' may be for 2 hours ... its 8:30 in the morning'' I replied '' you should go home... you look so tired'' He said '' im ok... im not gonna leave you alone... when I heard your voice message I be so scared... im sorry I wasn''t there for you'' I replied '' you have to be in Canada too... don''t feel bad apparently you cant help me .. you dont know how to deliver our baby girl'' Heughed n then became still when he heard that we had a girl I can''t stop myself n asked '' Have you seen her yet...'' He looked down n said '' No.... I came directly to you n then I fall asleep'' I replied '' Do you want to see her?'' He replied '' kate.... I... you need rest... '' He kissed my forehead n leave. Alex Everything is falling apart... I don''t know what to do n what not to do. Shawn came n give me a coffee ... I was sitting in the sitting area.... I tell shawn '' thanks dude n not just for the coffee... for been here .... thanks alot'' He shurg n said '' never mind dude... it was nothing...I wished you had been here too on time... kate was really in you need... but I now understand about your deal....so do you informed kates parents ...they should be here too. I replied '' no I didn''t ... kate father''s has taken emma to Disnend ... maybe thats why they are not here but im going to call them soon'' He looked little annoyed n said '' you know kate has called them too when she can''t reach you... her stepmother picked the phone but never listen her why she called n then she hanged on her.... a normal person will think why would she called them at this time but her parents never called her back to even check her.... but a shitty parents they are.... I remember when Emily was inbor Mr n Mrs Evan not left for a single moment ... n what they are doing to kate is unbelievable'' I just sighs loudly .... kate was so alone on her difficult time of her life no one was there for her.... not even me..... I feel like shit that people around kate give a shit about her.... I remember Emily time kate was there all the time..n her parent''s hold emma n brought gifts n even through a house warming party.... n now no one was happy for kate new born baby... no one even congratted her.... fuck im also one of them... Shawn said'' Have you seen your daughter ... she is just like you.... what a beautiful thing she is... you will fall in love with her.... well I have clearly fall for her.... now I can''t wait to have my own kids'' I be still n shocked ... shawn must see my face.'' You still haven''t saw your daughter.... but a ungrateful fool you are... dude atleast see her she may be it change your mind'' I want to but that promise I made with myself with emily ..with emily mom ... that emma is my only kid... fuck I can''t lose control.. I replied '' stop it shawn its too much for me ... I need a break... With that I went for a walk. Chapter 30: chap30 Chapter 30: chap30 Kate Rachel was with me and she was holding my daughter ... She said '' what a precious little thing she is.... she is the most beautiful baby girl I have seen ... oh look at her rosy cheeks..'''' I looked lovingly to her n said '' Rachel thank you so much for being there for me... I will never forget that..'' Rachel '' kate don''t you dare to say thank you .. im your friend n that''s what friends do '' I very blessed to have Rachel as a friend ... my little girl started to cry .... its her feeding time... kate give her to me I unbuttoned my front button n my hungry little princess attack on it.. ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . Rachelughed n said '''' opps some body is very hungry... what you gonna name her'' The moment I know im having a girl... many name came into my mind but the name I want to give her my daughter was after emily I said '' Aria emily Robbins'' Rachel looked sympathetically to me n said ...'' kate its a very beautiful name.... naming your daughter after Emily is very great step even after knowing she was your husband first wife'' I replied '' Emily was my friend my sister....so my daughter should be named after her... it was the name that came into my mind,all the time'' She looked '' you r very kind n beautiful person inside n out... Alex is lucky to have you'' By Alex name I flinched... he still doesn''t see her... but what I was expecting he was already so loud n clear that he has nothing to do with Aria... I wish god changed his heart towards my daughter Alex Kate was sitting in the car n was holding the baby in sleeping bag .... I still doesn''t see her face... although I can see how this little thing is restless n active ... she constantly shaking her legs n hands... her little fist is inside her mouth... n every then now she cry n then rx .. then cry then rx... Kate was already so tired n she keeps looking at me that I will mind n get angry with all this baby cry... n I feel shit to make her so ufortable... kate never said again to see the baby... may be it is good because im already in guilt I cannot take it anymore... To make it less awkward I said to kate '' hmm.. mom n dad areing tonight... they feel bad they were not with you and I called your father ... he dont have any idea that you called...I told him that Mona picked the phone... anyway He said he ising directly to home since you are discharged... so he maye'' Kate softly replied '' oh ok..'' Finally I reached home ... when I was opening the door kate said with embarrassed face '' Alex ....actually I don''t know in which way I left the house... it may not be that clean ... im .. I stopped her '' kate plz ... I will give damn to whole house ... all that matters is you are alright ... I already feel like shit I wasn''t with you when you needed me the most... (I picked her face ) its me who should say sorry not you'' She smiled n said ok ... when I opened the door n let kate enter first ... I realized the house look so cold like nothing happened in thest 24 hours... I remember when emma was borned whole house was covered with flowers balloons n wee sign... I remember kate help me to do all the decorations ... everyone try to make Emily feel like a queen on that day.... n now im standing in house where their is no celebration sign n no one to hug kate ..... when I looked towards kate ... I saw her face with sad expression like she was also thinking the same... Im no good like everyone I let her down from the very first day I met her..... she looked n said '' Alex im going to feed her ... then take a shower... I will make the lunch n dinner afterward'' I replied '' kate you will just rx n rest ... I will take care of everything ... now go emma will be in any time here'' By emma name she give me a bright smile ... she said '' I missed emma so much ...I can''t wait to hold her'' With that the baby start crying ... kate start cooing her n said she will go to the nursery first... I called the Mexican restaurant to order lunch ... n decided to take a bath too. After an hour I saw Kate was already dressed in loose sundress n freshly bath ... she was in the kitchen taking orange juice from the fridge..... I went to her n hold her from behind... she flinched a little but then she rx knowing it''s me... she said '' Alex you scared me'' I was kissing her neck '' who you thought it can be... you looked so edible n fucking beautiful ... all I want to do to take you to the room but damn I have to wait for 6 weeks ... Sheughed '' me n beautiful... buddy I think you forger I still have those pregnancy fat... that make you run from me'' I replied '' Babe you are so wrong... you looked ravishing n you have not gain a lot of weight you looked more beautiful then ever'' I kissed her passionately ... but stop when images of Emily came during n after her pregnancy how much I loved her n kissed her like this when she be the mother of my child n one of the images was me n her standing in the kitchen and making out when all the guest were in the living room to see newborn emma... fuck I missed her ... I still feel im betraying emily Kate looked confused but then her expression changed to sad one when she realized where I have gone.... because I have done this many time to her... she get out of my embrace and give me sad smile n said that she is going to nursery... I looked her in guilt The bell rang... since all the staff is on holidays... so I opened the door It was kate father''s who was holding sleeping emma n behind were some staff who were holding a lot of gifts .... look like some one is happy for kate baby ... surprisingly kate father''s hase with gifts to meet his granddaughter... I feel a little relieved for kate sake ... may be she may not feel rejection from her father today... unlike me... I greet him He,said '' Alex ... im sorry for the dy but like I told you I took emma to Disnend n she was so excited n happy there so extended my time there but when you called Ie immediately... I never knew kate will go sooner tobor... I replied '' you came thats matter''.. I took emma from her in the mean time kate came... with a smile n said ''Daddy you came... how are you... n Emma my baby (-she kissed her head) she is tired I think'' I told her that im going to put her in bed... when I wasing to living room I heard kate father''s said...about the called Mona doesn''t tell me because she forget... otherwise I might help you.... n secondly you weren''t so clear why you called so just ignore it'' Like a normal n sane person will called at that time... of course kate was in need of them n mona knew that very much n she choosed to ignore.... Kate said '' Daddy you came thats matter ... just forget about it... n looked at those gifts ... I know you will make it some how... but your presence was more than wee .... but still thank you for bringing these gifts for my daughter'' Kate father''s looked a little embarrassed n said '' Actually these gifts are for emma not for... I mean ...for the baby.. these all belongs to emma.'' I can see how broken expression are of kate which makes me more sad n depressed for her... all this time she,though her father some how happy for her newborn daughter... God what she is growing through only she knows... She said '' Of course ... it was a surprised for everyone... but like I said your presence was more than wee... do you like to see her.... she just looked Alex .( she nervouslyughed) she is nothing like me... do you want to hold her... she is sleeping but she will wake any moment so you will get some time with her'' Kate was babbling like she want to convince her father that her daughter is nothing like her n may be he will loved his new born granddaughter Her father ufortably said '' hmmm... I have to be at home... mona is not feeling well .... may be next time'' She looked so shattered n said '' daddy plz... for one second you don''t even have to hold her... just her.... no one from her family has see her yet... plz'' He looked angry '' I told once that mona needs me.... n whose fault is that no one wants to see her Its your fault ... you try to trap Alex so god has punished you for your sin... now I have to go'' I can''t control myself n went to talk to Ryan but by the time he was out of the door. Kate looked devastated ..... I called her name but doesn''t reply I touch her shoulder she looked at me N try to mask her hurt with a smile '' oh Alex ! Daddy was busy so he can''t stay longer ... he brought these gifts for emma ... let me collect them .. I wil.. will put it her room'' She bend to collect all those gifts but I stop her '' Kate stop ! I heard it all... what your father said ... it was hurtful '' She looked sadly n said '' Well this is the fate of me n my daughter to be unwanted everywhere ... yeah it pains me a lot but sooner I ept it less it will be hurtful'' With that she left the room. Chapter 31: chap31 Chapter 31: chap31 Kate '' wow ... she is soooo beau... botiful....., im her big sister? '' emma asked in her childnguage I replied '' yes my love you are her big sister ... n its beautiful ... ok.'' Emma make a oh face n said '' whats her name .. mama'' I replied '' I named her after your mother Emily ... her name is Aria Emily Robbins...'' Emma smile '' its so sweet ... so emma called her Aria '' I replied '' yup baby called her anything you want... ( aria started to cry a little I hold her n start rocking her) do you wanna hold her'' She beemed with happiness '' plz plssss can I hold aria'' Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I replied '' yeah suree here we have to be very careful otherwise she will cry more n even get hurt'' I looked at my both daughters proudly ...emma was so happy to have a sister .... atleast some one is happy for aria... Aria start crying loudly n bring whole house echo with her crys... I told emma its her feed time I undo my brest buttons n led aria feed my aching breast ... emma looked so confused .... n then she start giggling loudly ... I asked her what happen She said '' she is eating bobo ..'' Iughed '' small babies have food from mama bobos '' I felt Alex standing at the outside of nursery... he looked so intense n so quite that I dont know how long he was standing... Emma saw alex n ran to him n said '' daddy ... Aria is eating mama bobo'' Alex looked disturbed n said '' Emma its your bed time ... why are you not in bed'' Emma looked a little embarrassed n scared of Alex tone ... even im a little he never used this tone with her I said '' Alex I told her to sleep a littlete its really ok... she already has slept till evening... '' He replied ''kate its all about routine... everything should be in order in emma life... otherwise her day will be hectic ... soon she is going to start school I don''t want to disturb her routine... n you know that well aside from any distractions from you life emma should be first priority ... no one else '' And there is Alex golden words .... it still pain me a lot but I dont show it because I know he will use these words again... he called Aria distraction he have no idea what he is missing in his life I replied '' of course Alex I never forget it... cause you keep reminding me '' He looked ashamed but then he cover it with dominant expression n then he said to emma to get to the bed... Emma hug me n Aria n then went to bed. I looked at my little princesses n pray that Alex also start falling in love with ger like I did with her fir the first time... A tear fell to my cheeks when I realized not for once he saw her face. Alex Daddy why I can''t go to Aria... im her sister'' emma pout n said I kissed her forehead n said '' itste you have to sleep so your mama n ar... baby'' I don''t know why I can''t say her name... n it pains for some reason Emma said '' she name is Aria Emily Robbins'' N there it is ... kate name her maiden name after Emily ... it truly touched me n some how make me anguish for no other reason ... thats why I snapped at kate when i can''t control to go there n looked at her n Aria I replied'' Her name not she name is... ok time to bed ... close you''re eyes'' I went to see where is kate ... when I see she was with my parents ... dont know When they came .... my mom scold me '' Alex why didn''t you tell me Kate was alone .... we must have shorten our trip'' My father replied '' Yes Alexander thats was very irresponsible thing'' I said '' I know what I did was wrong n im extremely sorry but I never know kate will go tobor soon'' Mom said '' well forget about everything ... I,want to see my grandchild ... n why there is no celebration in this house?'' She must have seen my n kate face n then shake herr head in disappointment.... Kate broke the moment '' I will bring aria to you '' With that kate gone n bring awake Aria.. Kate Alex mom take Aria from me n kissed her head n said '' look at her she is so cute ... she just looked like Alex .... '' I saw Alex flinched whenever Aria resemnce to him is brought up... n it pains me... Alex parents bring some gifts for Aria n im be happy that at least Aria will be loved by alexs parents After an hour Alex parents say there goodbye n left. It left me , Alex n sleeping Aria. Alex said '' You areing to bed'' I replied '' You are going to sleep in my room?'' Alex always have sex with me when he slept in my room n he knows he cant sleep with me so thats why I asked He replied '' And why not... I know I have to wait for 6 weeks but is there a issue I can''t sleep in your room?'' I replied '' no problem ... let me put her in bed'' Alex n me was settled down in bed but we not said a word .... but Alex was spooning me from behind ... n I know this is his way of saying sorry... after some hour I heard in baby monitor that Aria was crying loudly ... I quietly get out of Alex embrace so that he cant get wake... I went to check my little princess... after changing n feeding her ... I went to my room... when I saw Alex was wake n looking disturbed... He said '' Is she keep doing this whole night'' Akex asked grumpily... I replied '' I hope not I had put her in sleep... but you know babies keep parent up all night He said '' well I have office tommorow.. you are tired... soon emma is going to start her school .. n it will disturb her sleep too..n damn this baby monitor is so loud that I cant sleep right now'' I looked Alex shockingly... clearly he knows baby cry at any time but he is being unreasonable I replied '' I will try hard not to disturb you again... n im sure she is in deep sleep .. n for the baby monitor I can lower is volume n keep it with me... so that only I can listen'' Akex looked ufortable n try to speak but just nod ... n with that I lie down on bed n turn my back to Alex... He try toe closer but when he looked my rigid back he sigh n lie back to his side... Aria started to cry again after 3 hours when I looked at time it was 4 o clock in the morning... since the volume of monitor is low so only I can hear ... n I hope Alex is not disturb otherwise he will be grumpy again n me my little girl there... After feeding her I went to my room n found alexing out of the bathroom... he just looked at me with out saying he went to his side of bed.... looks like he was awake when Aria cry ..... I don''t know how to make things simpler anymore. Chapter 32: chap32 Chapter 32: chap32 Kate Days turns into weeks n weeks turns into month ..... but Alex indifference towards Aria was same to same ... He never give her any love n kisses whenever he came from office .... he just picked Emma n y with her even Emma notice that n tell him that why dont he give kisses n hugs to Aria that he give to her .... Alex looked very ufortable n try to make any excuse... he never even go to nursery to check her for once how she is doing...n I even doubt that he have any idea that that Aria is now 6 months old n she started to grow daily so healthy n beautiful ... that one look at her will make any one falls in love with her.... I usually have to keep aria out of Alex way because of one incident he clearly told that when he is in the home Aria should be not around That incident started .... Alex was having a very important call from office...n Aria was keep crying so loudly... Alex was bing extremely annoyed n disturb... he told me to take her somewhere... I didn''t know he just put some important papers in the lounge.... Aria was getting very fussy to be in her room so i brought her outside the room n started rooming her in the house suddenly martha called me toe in kitchen ... some dish she was making is noting up good ... I put Aria in her baby chair n give her the toy to distract her.... When I was in the kitchen within 2 minutes I heard Aria was crying so loudly n Alex was cursing again n again.... my heart dropped when I heard them ... I run n saw Aria was crying so hysterically I be so worried that something is happening to her I automatically picked her asked her '' Whats wrong my baby... Are you hurt... tell me ... plz tell mama.. what happened... Oh my god Alex you tell me what happened'' He looked so angry n intense '' Nothing happened to her ... she dropped the ss of water on these paper... these were so fucking important... I just unintentionally said loudly what the fuck.... she get scared'' I be angry '' whats wrong with you Alex she is just a baby... she didn''t even know what she did...n you shouted at her .... n know she is too scared ...'' He looked defensively ''I know but I didn''t shout at her ... it was reflex action from my side.... you should have not put her here ...especially when im in home make sure she is in her room..... '' With that he storm in his office. I kissed Aria n coo her n told her that mama will protect her from everything...n I start crying with aria softly. That was few months ago..... today was Emma first day of school ... she is going to y group n my Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. Emma is in no mode of going '' But mama I want to y with Aria no with new peepls'' emma said I gently told her '' Baby you cane after school n y with Aria n its only 4 hours n it peoples not peepls ok...'' With that Alex came n picked Emma kissed his head n said '' Baby girl your mama is right its only few hours n you r going to be back soon ... now lets have breakfast first n then you can tell me what do you want for youring birthday'' Well that take all worries of our emma In our the dinning room we were having breakfast ... Alex said '' Kate are you sure you can pick emma on time... I mean with your gym n yoga thing'' I have started yoga after Aria... Rachel be mypanion in that .... I replied '' of course no problem ... I will free till that time n pick Emma'' Emma said '' Daddddddyyy.... listen na I want horsey baby for my birthday'' Me n Alexughed for her obsession with horse n ponies Alex replied '' you mean a pony... what do you gonna do with that... you dont even know how to ride'' Emma said '' I know daddy I know to ride ... n you will help also... plzzz daddy '' Alex smiled n said '' ok we will see... but no promises'' Emma pout ''ok daddy but I know you will buy me'' Alex n me justughed at her cute assumptions. Marthae in the dinning room holding Aria baby food in a bowl .... which I found to be quite full Martha said '' Mrs Alex Aria is not having her breakfast I tried but she is throwing it n crying ...'' I replied '' she was not having feed too ...this is very important she have this... give this to me I will check'' Martha reluctantly said '' I think she is bing cranky just sitting all the time in a room ... I thought to take her outside the garden but today is little cold so avoided it'' Martha knows I can''t bring Aria outside when Alex is there... I just asked Martha just give me the bowl I will try... Emma said '' mama bring Aria here she will eat here '' I saw Alex be tense so I said '' hmmm I think Aria is not hungry ... but she will cry here more n disturb everyone...so I will feed her in nursery.. I went to nursey n picked my crying baby... Looking her my heart break that what a terrible mother im ... she clearly want to go out ... but because of Alex I can''t... my baby have to gone through this so many time n I don''t know how I will stop this I decided to take her with me during gym ... may be out of home she will be less cranky I said to Aria '' oh baby I know im bad mommy but I love you so much I will take you out for a little walk ... now open your mouth n eat these yummy food'' I was trying to feed her but it was all in vain ... then I found the door was knocked n saw it was Alex . '' we are leaving '' I replied '' oh give a second Iing'' Alex replied '' no need you rx .... I just.... you can bring her outside during breakfast now a days... its ok .... we will be not disturb'' I looked Alex with stunt expression n with that he left. Alex ''Alex'' kate moan N it was driving me crazy when she is lost in passion n when I know she is so close .... I pounded her sex with force n was breathing heavily n then we both gete together .... I was lying on top of her n I was kissing her delicate neck... every time with her is electrifying n so better... I removed my body from her n lye next with her... she was smiling softly n loving at me... that it hurts me ... for her... cause I know long before she has feeling for me.. but now I know she might be falling for me... which is not good ... cause I can never be that man she wants n so much deserve .... im still Living in my past... n my heart cant move on that fast... In order to stop feeling guilty I stand abruptly n said '' Are you taking on pills on time '' She looked confused '' yeah im... as doctor has suggested '' I replied '' good... you should take it regrly... I don''t want any mishap again'' As soon as I said those words I found Kate to flinched.... I know I hurt her with my words ... again... fuck I said her child to be mishap ... what the heck is wrong with me. Kate with expressionless face said '' I won''t disappoint you again'' With that my heart drops n I closed my eyes... I felt kate to be moving slowly to the bathroom... After a minute I found the baby monitor to be vibrated ... n I hear lightly Aria was crying.... kate keep her words the baby monitor volume is quite low even I cant listen at most night n mostly kate woke up before Aria cry ... like she knows the schedule of it.... I know she is too tired most of the time but she is keeping everything in order from keeping emma as first priority n fulfilling my needs n requirements n managing a baby like a pro... Aria was crying now loudly ... I hope kate get out of the washroom soon... after a minute kate came out freshly taking a shower I said '' She is crying '' while pointing at the monitor She looked hurried by that n without saying anything she want to nursery If I ever said this to emily she would have give me a hell time that why wouldn''t I go myself help the baby... But kate is so different... so soft n understanding... Aftering back to bed kate looked worried but keep quite... I fell something was bothering her... I said '' what''s wrong'' She looked at me n shake her head.... I asked again while turning my body towards her She replied '' ah.... I think ... Aria is little sick .... I felt her body to be little hot.... I hope nothing is wrong may be im overreacting... '' I also be little worried With that news...my heart also have a weird sensation.. which I don''t want to name it .... I don''t know how to respond then I said ''don''t worry it might be nothing ... by morning she will be ok..'' My answer might be cold but I hope to god its true.... She give me a sad smile n said '' yeah I hope so'' She then said '' so tonight is emma birthday ... everything is almost ready ... but you have to picked up the cake from bakery ok don''t forget that'' Iughed '' emma birthday cake if I ever forget I have hell to pay... so everything is getting along .... without the catering n party organizer thingy... n also the guest list?-" She smiled '' dont,worry caterers will be on time ... n since its in our garden... so arrangement will be done easily... n about the guest list I called everyone ... if you want to invite someone else do tell me'' I told her that its big day tomorrow we just rest. Chapter 33: chap33 Chapter 33: chap33 Kate I woke up ... n check the time n went to emma room since its,weekend so no school for emma today.... I went to my emma kissed her head n sing loudly Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. '' HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMMA ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU'' emma opened her beautiful eyes n give me a big smile '' mama .... today im threew'' she screamed with excited I Laughed n said '' oh you are so big... now you can go to office or even drive a car'' Emma giggled n said '' mama ... im not that big ... but may be next birthday I will'' Iughed at her response n I found Alex also standing thereughing . Alex sit in emma bed n picked her n kissed her cheeks n said '' HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby'' Emma said '' Thank you daddy... now my gift'' He smirks n said '' well thats a surprised ... n will get at your birthday party'' I looked at them admirably n told them im gonna make emma favourite breakfast chocte pancakes. When I went out of emma room.... I looked towards Aria nursery ... normally at this time she is awake... I be worried that may be she is really sick... I open her room n found her to be awake but she was ying with her rattle n chewing that poor thing... I picked her n kissed her rosy chubby cheeks... she is normally very active but now she looked a little weak n little hot.... I took her to the kitchen n put her in baby chair n said '' my baby is hungry ... we are going to try something new'' She I almost 8 months old so we are trying new solid food She grumbled while chewing her little fist ''ta ta.. bubiidi'' N these are her favorite words ... when break fast was ready I put it in the dinning room ... emma was ying with Aria... both my girls can''t stay away from each other for one minute... I told emma to sit in her chair... Alex came after few seconds holding his newspaper... n after keeping a side he grab some pancakes n put in some emma tes n in his Aria when saw Alex she giggled '' tah tah '' n waved her both hands in air... I never understand her reaction when she saw Alex ... Alex for a minute stop n then ignored her... n that was reality p on my face...I put food infront of Aria n kissed her head... Emma was getting distracted again n again by Aria bubbling n sheughed at her words n time to time offer her pancakes Emma said '' Aria eat mine they are more yummy ... here open your mouth'' Aria was opening her mouth n I found that funny n Iughed a little but Alex has a,serious expression n said '' emma stay in your seat n finished your breakfast'' '' but daddy ... '' emma eat '' alex said in his daddy voice Emma just nodded ... I try to make Aria eat her food but she was getting cranky n after few bites she was not taking anymore food... which I found to be little rming ... she has been doing thistely ... then she vomited Emma said '' eeeuuuu... Aria ... I cant eat now'' I picked Aria '' oh baby .... whats wrong '' Alex '' kate take her somewhere look because of her emma stopped her breakfast '' I looked angry our daughter is sick n he is ming Aria for it I replied'' oh im so sorry to disturb ... but she is clearly sick that''s why she threw up... don''t worry I''ll clean this Right now'' Alex looked guilty ... but isnt he is always n still he will do this again.. He said '' I thought she doesn''t want to eat that''s why she is doing this'' I replied '' Alex believe me she is not'' I left the room n went to my bathroom to clean her... Aria was little hot right now... n I knew she is not well... I called martha to bring Aria stuff in my room ... I went to prepare a bath for Aria... may be she feel better after that... bath time is Aria favorite.... but she was still crying ... after bath I put her in my bed n dressed her .... i checked her forehead she was still hot.... I be worried n called my doctor I said '' hello doctor this is kate robins here'' She replied '' Oh hello kate ... how are you? '' im good actually .... my daughter Aria is not well I think she is having a fever... n she just have throw up her breakfast n im worried that something else might be wrong'' She replied '' well Aria must be 8 months old isn''t it... so may be she is teething .... but if her fever raised up more then bring her to me immediately cause I don''t want to have her to reaction of all of sudden fever ok'' I replied '' she is little hot ... but ok I bring her to your office'' I looked my beautiful baby she was still shaking her hand feet in the air Alex came up to my room n stop when he saw Aria was there too I never brought Aria here when Alex is around... I picked her n said '' im just taking her to nursery'' Alex said '' I heard you talk with doctor .... what she said ... did you have take her?'' I was little shocked that he cares .... may be does but don''t want to show it..... I replied '' I don''t know ... doctor says that she might be teething that''s why dhe is cranky.... but if she got fever I have to go to her'' Alex was now weirdly looking at Aria back... like he was checking her without touching.... may be Aria felt that his daddy is,around ... she turned n looked at him with pout n said '' ta ta.. bubbi'' n she was throwing her hands to Alex ... like she wants him to hold her Alex looked extremely ufortable .... but I can''t stop myself n asked '' you can hold her'' Alex flinched n said '' kate ... Im not here to act as jerk but you now I wont... so dont hope... im going to meet shawn there is some issue I wille back in evening ... make sure everything is in order for party...'' N now the moody Alex is back ''you will be not disappointed'' He looked strangely at me n said'' I know ... I trust you'' Alex I was sitting in shawn office but my mind keep going to kate n... Aria..... today when she was throwing her little body towards me... all I want to do picked her n checked if she is ok or not... but I can''t ... I won''t ... Emma is my everything... Shawn said something '' Dude where is your mind... whats wrong'' I replied '' Nothing just thinking about tonight party ... I wish Emily can see how big is emma now'' Shawn give me sad smile '' I know dude its difficult but I m sure she is happy right now when she see how kate is taking care of emma .... more than her own child... you are really lucky to have her'' Kate... damn kate... she is the reason if I find this life to be little meaningful I stay quite but then shawn say '' so have you thought about changing your family will n prenuptial agreement'' I abruptly looked at him '' and why would I do that'' He replied '' man ... I know things have changed between kate n you... so you should think about it at least'' I replied '' no ... I won''t change a thing..... what I said before im saying this again I don''t love kate nor that ...her child ... so let it be the way is.... '' Shawn angrily said '' you are an asshole ...can''t you see that women has been sacrificing for you so many things.... n then you can''t ept her but also say shit about her... I mean Your child.... dude one day you will regret im telling you'' I replied '' its my life , my problem n my business to deal with .... so leave it '' Shawn re me n said nothing. I told shawn that im going to pick emma cake ... he shoulde in time too... When I enter home I saw the garden was beautifully docorated in unicorn theme... I saw some of emma school friends are also there... so guest have beening... I looked around to see where is kate ... I saw her with Rachel .... kate wasughing at something Rachel had sat to her n I found that exceptionally beautiful in pinkce sun dress n her ck hair was curl beautiful .... damn kate is one of a hell beautiful women... when I approached them I said '' Hellodies ... so what''s you all gossiping about'' Rachelughed n said '' Nothing just telling kate how her admirer at gym was so heart broken when he knows kate was married ... you should see his face '' I felt a sudden anger... how dare he... kate is mine... fuck where that came from..n she is my wife may be its right to feel possessive I said '' really n kate never told me about her admirers at gym'' Kate looked embarrassed n blushed '' Alex rachel is exaggerating nothing else...it was a guy at gym ... I dont even know about but when it he just ask me out n then I told him that married'' At that time Rachel phone rings n she said she will take a minute I said to kate ''so he even ask he out.... wow... are you really that naive ..... dont you dont know he was interested in you'' She looked really confused like she has no idea ... n then she smiled n said '' Alex its nothing... you dont to be jealous ...I clearly told him that theres only one guy who make me happy inside out ... n its you'' N there it is .... kate is bing to love me... which I don''t want... because I can''t love her I said abruptly '' dont be fool im not bit of jealous its I have some reputation in the city ... n I don''t want any one to see my wife with some other man or flirting with her... I will damage our name... which is totally uneptable'' Kate flinched with my words like her p her.... she just awkwardly look n said '' yeah you r right I will be careful next time.... I have pressed your today clothes you better get changed'' With that kate beautiful smile was gone ne with apose guarded expression..... what a idiot im why cant I stop hurting her.... she don''t deserve any of this shit I put her with.... damb true I was jealous n I don''t want to admit with her n said shit... she doesn''t wait more n gone to attend other guests... The whole party was incredible everyone enjoy .... Emma both grandparents brought alot of gifts n other stuff for her.... emma was delighted n so happy that it makes me very happy... it was my present time ... I said '' emma do you wanna see whats your birthday present .?'' Emma said '' yess ... daddy I waited for too long '' Iughed '' oke.... on the count of one two n ..'' Emma jumped n hugged me when she was I brought a pony for her.... I have already nned this with kate Emma said '' thank you thank you daddy best b''day ever.... mama do you see that'' Kate smiled '' oh my such a beautiful pony it is... but you should have a beautiful riding dress, boats n all that other stuff too don''t you think? Emma make oh face '' I don''t have that'' Kate said '' oh baby ... open this box'' When emma the box it contains all the riding item n emmaughed excitedly n hugged kate n said '' you are the best mama n daddy I got'' Weughed at her excitement .... After few hours when most of the guest were gone except for Shawn Rachel n Kate parents .... I saw shawn was holding Aria n ying with her '' hi beautiful look at you... looking so pretty n cute in this pinky frock... n this head band .... girl are you trying to kill me'' Kateughed at Shawn even my lips turned up .. Kate said n '' dont charm my daughter right now... when you''re soon to be wife standing next to you'' Shawn n Rachelughed Then Shawn said '' she looks warm kate... is she well? I mean hopefully everything is ok '' Kate put her hands on Aria head n said '' I don''t know her body temperature gets normal at one time then it raise up .... may be I have to go n check with doctor'' Shawn said I can take you to the doctor now '' Kate said '' It wont be necessary ... may be she will get better tonight ...but thanks'' I feel so guilty that im celebrating one child birthday n other one is sick n Im not even checking her... but I can''t Shawn I went to office ... since uing days a mega project is going to signed I need some legal advice Kate was in kitchen I told her im in office with Shawn for a time ... She said without looking '' ok tell me if you need anything'' Shit she is still angry about things I Said ... I have to make up her with tonight the other way I know. Chapter 34: chap34 Chapter 34: chap34 Kate: Rachel was gone even mother was gone to ... it was my father who has met his old business representative n stopped for a long chat ... now he was in emma room saying goodbye I said '' Daddy do you want to have a cup of coffee '' He looked ufortable n said '' no I think I shall go now ... say bye to Alex from my side'' I just nodded n picked up his coat n give it to him... then all of a sudden Martha came with worried expression n said '' kate... oh god kate... Aria is burning n she is so dizzy ... we have to take her to the doctor'' When martha said Aria I didn''t stop for a moment n run to my baby... when I hold her she was burning .... I started crying n said '' my baby... oh god... martha bring my car keys'' I hold aria n run to my car but my father stopped me n said '' I will take you to the hospital ... you r not in a position to take her ... I will stay with you'' I just nodded n sat in daddy car n run to hospital The doctor checked Aria n said they have to keep her over night to control her temperature n check her vitals ... a small baby having this kind of trouble is too much for me. I was sitting in the sitting area... when my father sit with me he give me coffee... I can only take two sips but my mind was going to Aria... I started sobbing quietly .... I can''t lose her... she is my everything.... what kind of mother im ... my baby has been neglected n unloved by her father n now I also neglected her..I was now fully crying ... then my father awkwardly put his hand on my shoulder... n then I realized that for the first time in my life my father was supporting me... I can''t control myself n hugged my father for the first time... he was still but I dont care ... I said '' Thank you so much daddy .... I can''t tell you how scared I was .... im so happy you are here'' He just stand,still n said '' its nothing.... hmmm... you should probably called Alex'' Alex... shit .... I dont even realized that in all I forgot to inform Alex.... I picked my phone... but I stop when I start recalling all those events when he stated he is not interested in Aria... I replied '' Daddy ... Alex is busy..n his time will be wasted here'' Father looked annoyed '' his child is in hospital n he can''t leave his work? '' I replied '' Daddy you of all people should know that when life gives you something unwanted .... then you don''t care for that thing.... and in this case Aria is unwanted'' Daddy looked embarrassed... n said nothing I said'' Daddy you should go... mom will be waiting for you .... im here for Aria'' He said'' You want me to leave you alone ... especially in this time'' I replied '' Im always alone daddy .... but still thank you for your support I will never forget that'' I said with a smile He said '' I will stay till doctor checked her'' After few minutes my phone rings it was Alex ... I picked n said '' Hello Alex'' He said '' what the hell Kate.... where are you im here worried sick.... how can you leave emma alone.... I won''t even know it was martha who told me'' He was angry I left emma alone but not that Aria is sick n in the hospit I replied '' then martha surely informed you why I left emma alone n why I hurriedly leave the house..... Alex.... (I can''t control my tears'') Alex Aria is in hospital ... she was burning in fever .... doctors said they have keep her in hospital for a night... so yeah I can''t tell you anything because im worried sick for my baby'' He was silent for a moment n said '' shit Kate... how is she... fuck iming dont worry... iming'' N he hanged the phone... Father phone was ringing again n again N he was ignoring it I said '' Daddy... you should go ... mom might be in worry why you are not home... Alex ising so dont worry'' He looked ufortable to leave me... n I found that to be soforting that he felt something for me... but mom is,alone so insisted him more... he said ok Alex When I reached hospital ... I saw kate sitting quietly n looking so tired ... I reached her n said '' Kate'' She tiredly looked '' Alex .... wheres Emma'' I replied '' I left her with martha'' ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . She just nodded ... I said '''' hows ... I mean what doctor says'' She replied '' they say she is ok.... her temperature is little control... they are keeping her overnight to check if she get any reaction or not... may be they are going to discharged her in the morning'' My heart was hurting .... a little body of Aria has to go through so much... god let her be okay ....even I can''t love her I still want her to be ok n happy the way she is always.... the shes of Aria came in my mind when she try to throw her body towards me in the morning...this guilt is going to kill me one day I said '' kate im so sorry... you know I over reacted... when martha told me.... I be worried... n you know when I try to staypose then I say something which I don''t meant.... n im not only talking about the phone... Im sorry I say shity things in Emma''s party... I just be possessive about you all of a sudden .... n im sorry'' Kate looked at me with tears in her eyes n said '' Alex its ... just forget it ... I just want everything go to normal the way it was... Im so tired... uff I know you r sorry but I also know you will react this way agai... I want god stop testing me more... I can''t control it .'' Looking kate crying so bad ... I hugged her n kissed her forehead ... I said '' its ok kate.... let it out... just let it out.... im there for you...i know im an asshole.... I wished you have told me in time then I can there for you ... why didn''t you tell me kate?'' She replied '' I don''t want to disturb you... n secondly you have told me from time to time that you don''t want to do anything with Aria.... so I thought its will only waste your time'' N there was has cracked sound n it was my heart... fuck..... I know I do things which no one deserve but I can be that insensitive I realized that today.. I hold kate face n said '' kate .... listen to me .... ok im an insensitive bastard n I have always hurt you... I know I said I can''t loved Aria.... but she''s a child ... n I might care for her...I might let her down in the future .... not give that kind of attention n love a father''s should give her to .... nor never get closed to her .... but in a,difficult time im going to stand for her as long as I can...'' Kate sobbed n said '' why can''t you try to love her once ... she loves you n I can tell you that... then why can''t '' I replied softly but firmly '' because I can''t kate ... I can''t fucking do that.... you know Emily loves emma so much that sometimes she never let her have me .... even when she start working she put her in daycare that provides 24/7 information what n where is emma.... she let me promised her one of the days that if something happens to her I have to loved emma more than anything in this world... n I can''t for one minute neglect her nor give priority to someone else.... Im just made that promised to myself after emliy death that no one can take ce emma nor I will make emma feel neglected.... I know what im doing is heartless n cruel but im just fulfilling the promise of my dead wife n im bound'' Kate looked at me with devastated expression n said '' I know you loved Emily more than anything n Emma is my life too I also make sure to never neglect her not because of any promises but because she is my daughter n I loved her alot but I hope one day you understand no one takes anyone ce ... cause God expand your heart for some you love more but don''t worry me n Aria will nevere between your promises'' I digested those words n sighs heavily. Kate Doctors said '' oh look at you pretty girl you have give a mini heart attack to your mommy yesterday but now you''re fine n well to go'' Aria graps her nky n chew that n start shaking her hand and feets n bubbling in her babynguage '' ehh..ya oh'' Alex n I was standing together the Doctor said '' she is fine ... thank god her fever is gone ... like I said she might be teething n because of unusual weather she gets cold but she is fine now... these are some description of the medicines that you have give her for two weeks.... '' I replied '' Thank you so much doctor ...'' She just smiled n said '' don''t worry kate kids her age usually gets those bumps n dumps n they gey alright.... n kate what I suggest you take a long nap you look so tired .... Alex this is your duty'' Alex replied '' Don''t worry after this we are going home directly n she will rest thats my promised'' After an hour aria was sleeping in her car booster seat n I was also getting dizzy with tiredness.... but I have to buy some stuff from the pharmacy... I said to Alex '' Alex can you stop by at near pharmacy I really need to buy some stuff n medicine ...'' Alex replied '' yeah sure .... give me the description I will buy it'' I said '' you don''t have to I will buy it'' Alex replied '' kate im your husband n whatever you need you will tell me directly'' I just half smiled men n their egos He stopped at pharmacy n said '' ok these are the list '' I nodded then I remembered n said '' can you bring those fruits yogurt she really like those'' Alex looked at Aria n something strange expression was passed in his eyes he just nodded . I was waiting in the car then I realized I never told father about Aria ... so I text him that Aria is fine n we are going home... no reply came and I wasn''t expecting one but I really appreciate but my father did..... Alex came back with medicine n shopper fills with multiple fruit yogurt .... He looked at me n said '' I brought every vour I don''t know what she likes so..'' I just smiled at his gesture ... may be he some how cares ... Chapter 35: chap35 Chapter 35: chap35 After 2 years n few months Kate '' daddy why cant I ride the be fast'' emma fussed Be her pony which is not so a pony but turns into beautiful horse.. Alex told her kindly'' baby you know you cant ... I dont want you to get hurt nor n secondly when you are riding alone you''re going to ride under this speed'' '' daddy im 5 im big girl... Im expert now''. Alex n I justughed at her bossy response.. Yes my beautiful emma turn five n we had a beautiful big frozen birthday theme party.... my little miss was treated as a princess n she got so many gifts the her room was crowded.... especially my parents brought her everything she told them a head a month which turns out to be a lot of present...Alex n I decided to buy her ipad but only for educational purposes... n me I decided to give her Elsa costume which obviously she wear...it was a great day but my little Aria was ignored terribly that day... n she was confused n sad... I try to cheer her but she by mistake did something that makes my parents n Alex It most the end of party .... emma was showing her gifts to Aria.... Alex n My parents were in the living room ... n we was entertaining them... then I heard Emma crying n she came to living room with her wet dress n Aria following her with her head down ....Every one be alert n I picked emma n asked '' whats wrong baby?'' She sobbed n said '' Aria dropped juice in my dress n my new gifts... every thing is ruined... it was my favorite'' Before I can say anything my mom said to Aria '' hey you girl... are you so jealous of your sister that you ruined her dress n her gifts'' Aria looked scared when my mom said loudly Aria run n hugged my leg... I asked '' Aria ok baby tell what you did... its ok nothing to worry ...I speak to her softly ... then my father said '' you should have taught her some manners'' Aria was bing more scared n she hide her faced behind my back Alex mom says '' its ok everyone ... you know kids... when they y they get naughty... but our little Aria wont do this ... it was a mistake ... isn''t my baby'' Aria noded n said '' yes grandma... me was holding the ss... but it was sooo heavy that it falls... it was mistake ''she said her in baby voice Emma was crying n says ''I told her its heavy but she doesn''t listen... n now Its ruined ... my dress'' By hearing this Alex be angry n said to Aria angrily '' You should probably listen to your big sister ...now look what have you done... and stop hiding behind your mother back ...e front n say sorry to emma... n say you wont touch her things unless n until she gives you permission ... now say sorry'' Alex was now looking at Aria with angry face.... Aria start shaking with fear... she have never seen Alex this angry... may be Alex always avoid her that why... Alex mom n I said together '' ALEX..'' He looked us broodingly ..... Ariae front n say with trembling lips n tears falling in her face .. '' im shorry... n I not touch emma toys anymore... '' Looking my baby crying .. it broke my heart .... I picked her n said '' its ok baby ... dont cry'' Emma also felt the tension n she became sad too n said '' yeah its fine Aria ... plz dont cry '' Then my mother said '' Looked at my Emily daughter she is so forgiving unlike your daughter who ruines everything'' I can''t control myself n said '' no mom you are wrong... n we are making a big deal of it ... a two n a half year doesn''t thinks like that.. so plz because of me dont sat stuffs infont of the kids'' I looked Aria sad blue eyes n take her to the room ... she crying n then she said something which make me speechless '' mama no one loves me'' N those,words still haunts me I came back when I heard horse paddle sound... I saw Alex was now sitting with emma n riding .... he looked very handsome when he saw me checking me out he give me sexy grin .... I blushed. I saw Aria was sitting with me coloring butterflies.... she bes obessed with butterflies when I took her to the butterfly garden.... but she was looking longingly at Alex n emma now who wereughing at something n spending some quality time which my Aria will never get even she gets some idea of it .... After that day Aria bes little hesitant of Alex ... whenever he is around she looks down n always stay with me... that mommy going to save her from fathers anger..... but I know she loves her daddy because whenever hee from office she always run to living room to greet him but alex never hug her or even look at her... a little girl should bot feel such things like I have been feeling all this in my life.... I yfully touched her hair... n she give me beautiful smile '' Are you having fun Aria'' She smiled n said '' yes mama... can have this butterfly shoes mama?'' I softlyughed '' ofcourse baby... n it will also go with your new frock too'' Emma choose the moment n said '' Daddy im tired... need break'' Alex replied '' As you say my highness'' Emma giggled n said '' Daddy can you give Aria ride ... she get scared ... but if you teach her how to ride then she be expert like me... right Aria ...'' Aria shy away n looked at Alex n said ''i want too''.... like she is excepting Alex will say yes... but im afraid of Alex answer... Alex looked ufortable n said'' may be another time.... daddy is,also tired '' Emma fussed '' Daddy ... you never y with Aria ... she always get sad about it ... n I don''t like it'' Alex n I give Aria a stunned expression .... Aria never told me about this. I said'' ok everyone have some snacks first'' Emma gives a pout n Alex sit next to me.... Aria was not eating her sandwich n I saw her try to run in the garden.... I said '' Aria .. first you finished this then you go... '' Aria give me pout '' mama a butterfly ... please me go'' I smiled '' baby its gone now... where you gonna find it? '' Aria '' no me go ... n find'' Alex replied '' Aria listen to your mother '' When Alex said Aria bes shy n said quietly with me ... in order to control your child behavior parents can be little strict n demanding....but Alex was harsh when he said those words. Aria said '' Sorry daddy'' I saw guilt in Alex eyes ... n now he feel bad.... Emma break the moment n said '' mama daddy Aria birthday is next week can we have her party now ... we haven''t celebrated Aria birthday yet for the past two years.... '' For the past two years Aria birthday was gone like a normal day ... on her first birthday I told Alex that we can arrange small get together with friends n family But Alex response was '' why even bother no one evene n few months before it was emma birthday .... I don''t want to disturb Emma school routine .... n I have lot of work in office...secondly she is one she even doesn''t care she had a party or not..'' I flinched ....Alex was really uninterested in Aria life... I can''t control my tears but Alex might have saw my face n then he say in guilty voice n said '' kate (he sighs) im sorry that was harsh... but really im busy n your mother is not well too so ... why don''t you take girls there favorite ce ... in this way birthday will be celebrated'' I said '' yeah ... you r right'' N the next birthday I really don''t even tired ... Alex was gone to office trip... Alex parents came with cake n gifts n when the saw there was no indication of any birthday party they realized it was Alexck of interest ... I came back from my memories when I heard aria voice Aria looked so happy '' yes me want party... butterfly party... with butterfly cake.'' Emma n Aria bes so excited that I looked so happy to them... Emma said '' Daddy you have to be there... no more work ok'' Alex said '' we will see'' Alex cold reply was enough to understand that he has no interest in Arias birthday .... I hurt for my child... day by day Aria is bing victim of Alex indifference n inferiorityplex..... all of my life I have been like this I don''t want this for my Aria too. Aria pull my shirt n said quietly in her baby voice '' mama ... daddy tell..me will be nice .... me not touch emma toys ... but please me want butterfly party...with daddy ...please'' Those desperate wordsing out of Aria mouth moist my eyes ...shit whats happening with my child .... n she still remember Alex words also hurt me a lot.... Looking at Alex face make me realized he also heard those words because he look so tense n emotional but he didn''t say a word I said to Aria '' baby we will talkter... n its I want not me ok my love'' I stand n said ''e on emma ... its bath time ... n its getting cold so we should go inside'' Emma run to me n hold my hand.... but Aria was not in mood of going... she loves garden n fresh air.. Aria said '' can me..I stay please.. I want to take be home n give food'' One of her routine ... Emma said '' you are so scared of her ridding but still you go every day to feed her'' Aria pout '' shes botiful... I will ride one day'' Emma said '' Daddy why don''t you go with Aria ... she will show you the be house'' Aria hesitantly but hopefully looked at Alex Alex replied '' One of the in charge of stable will take her'' Aria faced fall n she looked down I said '' how about we girls go n take be in her house n feed her'' Both my girls excitedly say yes n run Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I was going when Alex picked my wrist n kissed me hard... his kissed was so emotional n passionate that I get lost in it n try to understand its inner meaning Alex removed his lips n we both breath heavily I said '' what''s that for?'' He simply replied with sad smile '' for being so you and bearing me Chapter 36: chap36 Chapter 36: chap36 Alex I was looking at myputer screen but my mind was going again n again towards Aria n her beautiful sad blue eyes identical to mine ... fuck.. those words she innocently said to Kate breaks me... she still remember those word''s that I harshly told her in Emma birthday regarding touching emma toys ... it totally want kill myself... A child should not feel this but fuck im bastard who is bound with promises... n selfishly don''t want to get hurt again. I was already feeling like a cruel asshole when Ished on Aria in Emma birthday... I should have ignored those pity kids issues like my mom said but when I saw emma tears ... my mind take back to Emily that how much disappointed she will be n how my emma is feeling so low... but now I realized everyone was supporting emma n degraded Aria badly who don''t deserve such treatment but I have to do this otherwise she will get attached n hurt more.... I know god will never forget things im doing with her n kate ...n I deserves hell for it but Im helpless. I went to check outside wheres everyone I saw emma was watching cartoons... I went to emma room hopefully kate will be there.... since both girls are sharing same bed ...I went to room when I heard kate soft voice ''hey baby don''t be sad ... you will get your butterfly cake n gifts .... but what I have told you about birthday parties'' Aria pout n said '' that birthday party not important but people love for you is'' Kate said '' yes.. n every one loves you me ... emma your grandma grand pa.. martha... n be too... so many people loves you... so what we don''t have a party but we have these people in our life'' Aria sadly said'' but I dont have daddy ... daddy dont loves me... so he noe to my birthdays...'' Aria gasped n I hold the wall for a support ... fuck... I felt some one punched me in my guts Kate said '' ARIA... who say that he loves you a lot... don''t say that again otherwise it will hurt me n daddy too... he is just so busy... n look he give you a beautiful room this home n other things .... if he doesn''t loves you why he give it too you'' Kate try to exin her with unimportant thing... of course these things doesn''t define love... but kate is different so always try to find good in other people no matter how many time people have hurt her. Aria nodded n replied '' hmm yeah... so he loves me'' I can''t listen more n went in the kitchen. After dinner I was still lost in my thoughts n I bearly eaten five bites ...kate asked that I didn''t like the dinner ... I said its very good just not hungry... just nodded but I saw she was little tense. Kate was in the kitchen making coffee n doing other chores ... I went to girls room where emma n aria were ying n giggling ... when they saw me I said ''ok time to bed.. tomorrow is school so its sleeping time'' I put emma in bed n kissed her forehead n say '' good night baby girl'' Emma yawned n said '' night night daddy'' When I turned I said Aria was looking at me behind her nket ... like she was expecting I will kissed her forehead n say good night just I did with emma. I wanted to but I stopped n said '' go to sleep aria'' Her beautiful eyes be sad n she said '' good night daddy'' N I feel like biggest loser in the world I the room katee after five minutes n said ''hi ..you are fine? you look quite tense? I replied '' yeah just little tired of this work load '' She replied '' you just cut some work load ... forget it im going to give you back message n your going to feel so good'' ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . I smirk '' yeah I always feel good when you touch me'' Kate blushed n yfully pped my shoulder '' you are so bad now rx so I can give you a massage'' I shake my head '' no babe .. you are tired too its fine'' She said '' I said I will give you a one n you are getting a one'' I love when she get this bossy n it turn me on . Kate start massaging my back n shoulder n I suddenly feel so light n tense less ... n kate sweet fragrance was teasing me n her body touching my back doing some things .... I can''t control my self more I turned n picked Kate body n ced her on bed ... n then I passionately kissed her lips ..neck..breast n every part of her body... she was moaning loudly n it was driving me crazy... I didn''t waste a second n undress both of us n then I enter kate ... we both moan together with our connection ...she said '' n I thought you were tired but Mr Alex you look very fresh n in a hurry'' I thrusts hard in her n she moan again loudly I replied '' you .. are bad girl... who do bad things to me... shit kate .... can you feel that when you do this it drive me crazy'' We both climax together ... she was lying in my chest... we were both quite n tired with our intense love making... but still the question of Aria birthday was nagging in my mind I said '' you can arrange a birthday party '' She suddenly looked at my face ''really.... i mean you are going to be there?.'' I replied '' don''t look so hopeful but I will try hopefully the work load will be lessen by this,week .... called any one you want '' She kissed my cheeks '' Thank you Alex that will means world to her...'' I didn''t say anything just nodded n kissed kate n go back to sleep. Chapter 37: chap37 Chapter 37: chap37 After a week Kate ''Emma you know how to tie your shoeces ... so no more help...'' I said in a mom tone Emma replied '' ok mama'' '' wheres Aria '' n I found her watching cartoons '' Ariae here ... we are gettingte for school...'' she came running N said '' Look mama I wear my school clothes without help'' I just smiled ... she did wear the shirt but the buttons were put so wrongly I said '' oh wow... such a big girl but let be put buttons in their ce....'' I said to both girls '' ok girlse let me do your hair ... so who is first?'' Emma said she wants first... emma hair is just like emily light blonde so I secure it with a high pony tail I make both side braid of Aria brown blonde hair ... n finally they were ready Alex was waiting for them.... Emma nagged n said '' its so unfair ...Aria will be back in 3 hours n I have to be back in noon '' I replied '' because she just started the school n you in prep so timing changed baby'' Usually driver drive them to school but he has gone home for family emergency.... I started dropping them but it bes too hectic for me ... so I reluctantly asked Alex to drop girls in the morning but I will pick them afterward ..... Alex says he has no problem but I told him that Aria school is two block left to emma he be still like he remember that Aria is also going to school.... I don''t want to make things more difficult between Aria n him so I said I will drop them its no problem but alex stopped me n said he will dropped them in morning .... so this is the first morning Alex is going to drop them Alex saw using n said '' ready !'' I said '' yup just let me put them in their car seats'' I said to emma '' Emma eat your lunch'' Emma '' okkkk mama'' I kissed my both girls ... then I give Alex his office bag n kissed his cheek ...n said goodbye ... I hope everything goes well. Alex Both girls was chatting n I was waiting for traffic light to turn green Emma said '' I got A on spelling test.... what you got'' Aria thought a little '' I know 1 to 15 counting and a star on my writing'' Emma said '' silly thats it ... I know all the counting... '' Aria replied '' because you''re five n im three tomorrow....n miss rose says im pretty with pretty brain'' I just smiled at her reply.. Emma '' im more pretty than you...you stupid .... daddy tell her? '' I said '' ok girls enough ... don''t fight... n emma dont use such words... '' Emma said '' Sorry '' I stopped at emma school ... I unbuckled her seats n picked her .. kissed her n says goodbye '' bye baby '' I started my car again ... n start taking route to my office ... when I heard voice '' Daddy'' I looked at Aria '' shit'' I forget she was there too '' shit'' Aria said Fuck whats wrong with me to use such words in front of three year old... '' ok don''t say this its a bad word'' Aria smiled .... I looked at her she is really a beautiful child But I ignore that feeling n shake my head .... after two blocks I found Aria school I said '' here''s your school...e on... I hope we are notte'' I was waiting for her to go but I found her to be fumbling with the seat belt n then I mentally p myself how the hell she is going to get out of this car its fucking jeap im driving I get out n open her door n unbuckle her seat belt n hold her.... hold her for the first time in my life... she is so small n tiny ... her little toddler feet her hanging just by my cheat... n holding her doing some things to me... she looks so innocent ... she was smiling at me like she is happy her daddy finally ept her.... fuck I can''t do this... then she kissed me on my cheeks n put her hands on my neck tightly like she doesn''t want her daddy to go .... she is so innocent but im the monster to treat her like that.... its too much I suddenly put her down and said ''okk now you go... its gettingte'' I turned n started to sit when Aria said ''daddy'' I annoying replied '' what aria?'' She looked down n softly said '' you have to go with me n dropped me in my ss'' Fuck... I replied '' If you know the way then you can go by yourself'' I know its harsh in sound but I can''t do this... Aria expression looked sad like she is going to cry but just nodded .... I looked her going with her small feet looking so lost... n I saw every kid is going with a parent n I feel something ... I feel protective for her... damn if I can hold her then I can also dropped her to ss... its no big deal ... yeah no big deal. I followed her n said '' Ariae I will take you '' She smiled n picked my hand with her small hand When I reach her ss she said '' goodbye daddy ... love you daddy'' That hurts ... because I can''t loved her... n I don''t want to hurt her so without saying anything I gone from there. Kate Aria was very excited n happy that her daddy picked her n dropped her at her ss ... honestly I didn''t believe her when she told me but looking aria so happy ... I thank god that may be Alex a little bit is opening up to my daughter n it make me so happy ... I wish this day be a new start for them ... I was thrilled with the news that I hugged her n kissed her forehead ... this is really big thing for me.. Alex came home at 7 o''clock ... I took his breif case.. Alex kissed me n smiled .... emma run to him n says excitedly '' good evening Daddy '' Alex picked her n kissed her both cheeks '' hey baby girl ... good evening'' Emma said'' did you bring choctes daddy I told you '' Alexughed and said '' yup n Martha has put the grocery in kitchen you can find it from there'' Emma excitedly run.... Aria saw her daddy that puts a big smile in her face n she run to him like emma ... I tired to stop her like always but she never lose hope ... Aria said '' hello daddy'' n put her hands in air ... indicating that she wants to be picked like emma Alex looked at her strangely then he said '' good evening Aria '' in his emotionless voice Aria face dropped n she looked so confused ... my heart breaks for her every time ... she run to me n hide her face behind my leg .... like she is embarrassed her daddy ignore her again... I gently picked her n kissed her cheeks ... why Alex why ... after all this time when she gets a little attention from you ... you take away from her again. Alex looked at me awkwardly n said '' im going to take a shower '' n then he was gone Dinner was silent except Emma was chatting about her day n Aria was quite Emma said '' I want to eat choctes '' I replied '' no ... you are not ... first dinner then sweets ok'' '' but mama..'' emma fussed Aria also replied '' I don''t want to eat ... '' Emma said '' Looked mama we both want to eat choctes ''Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I replied '' emma ... I told you first dinner'' Emma said '' no im going to eat choctes first..e Aria'' I replied '' Emma ... don''t misbehave ... its bad manner n dont teach that to your small sister ... you are big sister she learn things from you'' Alex angrily replied '' n who are you to say this to my daughter ... I know thats bad manner but kate don''t use this tone in front of her again .. use it with your daughter n teach her all manner you want'' I looked shocked at Alex .... how dare he... after all this he is asking who the hell im to emma... I can''t control my tears n they start falling ... I said '' excuse me'' And with that I left the table . I was in my room ... n I cried ... Alex can say this to me I can''t believe that... nothing is change ... im the second best always .. Chapter 38: chap38 Chapter 38: chap38 Alex Fuck .... shit what the fuck I said to kate .... I can''t believe myself ... I take my all day frustration on her... I know kate has right to stop emma ... for fuck sake she is her mother .... but I can''t control myself ... I thought she is paying me back by treating my daughter the way I treated her daughter... as soon as the thoughte Ished n when I saw Kate tears I knew I fucked up... she can never even thought like this. I looked at the table n saw both girls has scared expression n Aria was crying quietly Emma said '' daddy im sorry ... but mama was right it was bad manner ... I should say sorry ... please dont fight'' Aria said '' me want mama'' I replied '' ok girls ... im sorry to scare you like that but im going to talk to mommy n you guys will go to their room ok'' I called martha to check the girls n with heavy heart I enter the room I saw kate lying down in bed where she hold her stomach tightly n she was crying n her body was shaking I sat in the bed n gently put my hands on her ''kate'' She removed my hand n said '' dont touch me'' Fuck ... this is the first time she did that to me ... even before I hurt her she never said no to my touch... but now I can clearly see I broke her heart... I tried '' kate plz let me exin'' She turned n sobbed n said '' what do you want to exin... that im nothing to you n emma... that im just a step mother not a real mother to her... or I have no right to tell emma the difference between right and wrong...or that im just stupid girl with no social gathering to whom you are stuck with because she was knocked up by you'' I never saw kate this angry n emotional '' kate im fucking sorry ... I shouldn''t have said that... im am idiot who always hurt you.. but believe me I took my all day frustration on you ... of course you have every right on emma...she is your daughter... im sorry I should stop her notshed on you'' She crying badly n said '' Alex you said those words in front of the girls... what emma is going to think about me... you make me a bad guy in front of her... I love her so much n now she thinks I was scolding her without reason'' I picked her shoulder n said'' kate she loves you too ... she said she is very sorry ... she wants toe n tell you but I stop her because I want to say sorry first.... kate plz forgive me plz ... I never meant those words ... you know me'' Kate said '' I think I never know you.... I sometime things why im even in this position ...why I can''t leave all this .... I know you don''t love me... but I have spent more time with you then emily n as a mother for emma... hell I even ignore Aria for you n emma all I want is respect from you .... n after all this time the way Aria is treated by you I should have left you but still im here because I can''t leave emma '' I was shocked by kate words ... fuck ..n she is thinking to leave me... no ... that will never happen I said '' Kate listen to me ... I know I don''t deserve you but don''t leave me ok ... I really do fucking respect you... but im an asshole but plz don''t leave me ... you be a very significant part of my life...I lose Emily I can''t lose you'' Then I kissed her like she is myst breath ... she tried to push me n resisted... I said '' kate its me ... dont deny this ... you''re so beautiful that sometimes its hurt ... you''re everything'' My words are like putting water to the fire that I created n she react a little.. I kissed her more passionately ... I was so terrified she will leave me... I opened her legs tear her underwear n make her prepare for me she was softly moaning but she pushed me '' no Alex .. I cant '' I stopped her n try to unzip my trouser '' no baby I want you .. you''re my everything ... don''t leave plz'' I was so desperate that I don''t even know what I was saying ... It was like my heart was saying those words that I hide it for many years I pushed inside her we both moan n then I started thrusting her hardly ... kate screamed my name She said '' I hate you for making me feel like this'' I heavily breath '' I fucking hate myself for hurting you '' We both climax ny together quietly... kate removed her self from me ... I picked her arm '' where you going'' She removed her hand '' im going to check the girls'' I stand '' I lost control ... im sorry kate plz forgive me for everything'' Kate sighs '' Alex I have to check girls before they sleep... we will talkter ... plz let me go now...'' N I left her way. Kate Emma was crying n said '' mama im so sorry...daddy angry with you because of me.... plz forgive me'' I replied '' oh baby its ok ... its not your fault...n you know I loved you a lot... so mama can scold you a little but plz don''t mind ... I stop you to do things which I know is no good for you'' Emma said '' I know mama.. im sorry for doing that '' I looked at Aria she was holding her nket tightly n standing timidly with emma bed... I told her to I removed my tears with the tissues n said '' all gone ok how about we three lye on this bed I told you a good story n then we can discuss about tomorrow bdy party'' N like that my both girls be happy It waste when I left their room... n went to my ... I was exhausted ... I need to sleep otherwise I will not wake up on time When I enter I saw Alex was waiting for me tensely '' Are they sleep'' I replied '' yes'' I went to bathroom changed into my nighty n then turn to bed.... I felt Alex also lie down ... he hold me from my back I said '' Alex im tired plz let me sleep'' He replied ''I know.. I just want to hold you... I know you''re very very angry with me but plz forgive me... I so so sorry...'' I sighs n turned to him n saw his desperate face ... I said '' im not angry im so upset with you ... what you said to me it still can listen those words... after all these years I thought you trust me ... you feel for me may be not love but something else but it shows I was living in house of misunderstanding '' He came closer '' please baby ... what I said was out of my own guilt n defend but I know it was not true you''re everything I want in a wife in a mother of emma .... I said that before im a jerk who doesn''t want to get hurt n then hurt you.... I swear on emma I never meant those words ... I just said because Ipleted his sentence n replied '' because you think im taking my anger on emma because you treated Aria like shit.... I knew that moment when you mention Aria ... but im not like you whopare n ignore one of my kids ... they both are my daughter ... my life... my heart...my only reason of living here... if I wanted to do something like that I would have done long ago but I won''t do this..'' He kissed my forehead '' I know ... babe ... I know.. you still my pretty girl... I made a terrible mistake please forgive me ... plz kate '' I closed my eyes... tears was falling '' I forgive you but it will take some time for me to forget those words... im sorry if my words are hurting you but it will take some time'' He hold me n said '' take you time babe ..you''re very beautiful Kate inside out ... once again im sorry'' I just nodded n then I fall in sleep. I woke next morning with swollen eyes n tired body ... I saw Alex was still sleeping ... I take a quick shower n went to girls room... I have to pull myself again for the girls .. especially today is aria birthday I want her to be happy ...so I quietly wake emma ... she was rubbing her eyes '' good morning mama'' I replied '' good morning princess ... its time'' She excitedly stand n we wake Aria Emma said '' ok 1 2 3 start'' N we both said ''Happy birthday Aria ..Happy birthday to you'' Aria confusingly open her eyes n when she saw what we are saying She giggled n said '' mama... its birthday ...'' I kissed her n said '' yeah baby its your birthday .... n now we have to get up... have breakfast then we have a bath ... n in the noon the party is going to start'' But my girls excitedly went to bathroom to brush their teeth n follow me in kitchen I was making breakfast when I felt Alex presence ... he said good morning ... I replied .... Emma said '' good morning daddy '' He smiled at her '' good morning princess'' Aria shyly said '' good morning daddy'' He looked at her n for the first time I saw a slight smile in his face '' good morning'' Aria smiled big ... I was putting breakfast in their tes n went to kitchen to bring coffee .. I feel hands in waist ... I sighs ... it was Alex ... I wish he stop touching me because it makes me forget how much he hurt me... Alex said '' hi.. you ok '' he touched my face '' yeah im fine ... just little tired'' He remorseful face said it all why im tired... '' after breakfast lie down n have rest ok'' '' I can''t... in the evening its Aria birthday party .... do you forget?'' He looked ufortable n said '' shit ... it got out of my mind... yes party... don''t over do it ok... take some extra help ... I don''t want you to get tired'' ''im fine Alex ... I will take some pain killer ... I will be fine be then'' I was going when he stop me '' kate ... I don''t want to annoy you do you really forgive me? This guilt is killing me plz tell me we are all right ... you still with me ok?'' I found Alex to be disturbed which makes my stupid heart to be uneasy '' yes I forgive you... n we are fine for now... just never say those words again'' He sighs in relive '' of course babe ... n thank you so much... '' he kissed me passionately... I stopped '' kids are at the table we should be going'' He smile n we went to have breakfast Emma said '' daddy .. you didn''t wish Aria'' Alex looked ufortable but he said '' happen birthday Aria'' Aria beamed with happiness '' thank you daddy'' N with that my heart melts a little. (Arias Birthday party) Everything was going great ... Aria was enjoying her birthday party ... sorry her butterfly birthday party .... n she is enjoying it .... Everyone was having fun... Alex father was holding Aria n he wasughing at something she said .... my parents can''te be mom has having a headache .... honestly speaking I don''t even tried to insist them toe... the way they act around Aria is very hurting to her.... it was a cake cutting time... n I have no idea where Alex is... I went inside the house to see where he is... I found Alex in his office ... yelling at someone in phone... when he saw me he says he talkter to whom he talking I said '' everything is ok? He replied '' yeah.... some staff forget to email some important details about the uing deal we had with a newpany that we are going to take over.... now I have to be gone for immediate meeting they had arranged tonight'' I said '' but Alex what about Aria ... I mean her party... Everyone is down there it looks very suspicious that why her father is not in her party.... '' He remorsely replied '' I know kate but this thing had kept me up '' I replied '' can you at least stay for cake cutting ?'' He says '' yeah I can... but for half an hour cause I have get to ready for this meeting'' I nodded but he stopped me '' hey stop why you running away from me... I have some time to tell how my wife looked extremely beautiful '' I blushed ... I was wearing Alex favorite color vibrant blue dress He said '' this is my favorite ... n when you make you''re hair like this it makes me do some things with you '' He kissed my neck ... I replied '' Alex plz ... not now the people are waiting'' He said I smiled '' ok but now we have to go'' Alex was standing rigidly when we both aria hand to cut the cake .... it was for show otherwise Alex would never touch her ... Aria was really happy that her daddy is cutting cake with her ... Alex was very ufortable n tense that I can feel some of the people can also feel ... Aria said '' mama my gifts'' Everyoneughed at her cute excitement ... but when I saw Alex face .... he looked shocked .... I can clearly see why he is shocked because he forget to bring her birthday gift ... n I feel anger n sadness both at same time .... why can''t he bring something its obvious in birthday you have to give some gift .... Aria was so excited to know what her daddy has brought for her ... I just don''t want to break her heart ... I said '' daddy n me both get a beautiful butterfly tricycle ....'' Aria looked confused '' but you both brought emma different gifts in her birthday ...then I should get gifts from both of you'' Alex looked at me like he is thankful n also shameful for what he did I replied '' baby what I told you about gifts .... never looked for gifts quantity or who brought it for you... looks at the person love n affection behind that'' She nodded ... but Alex parents have caught up the tension n said '' well Aria don''t you want to see our present'' N with that her smile was back Alex drag me to a corner '' thank you so much kate for what you did ... you just save me for making myself fool in front of people..'' He stop when he saw my facial expression ... he was worried about what people think but not a little child feelings He said '' it came out in a wrong way im sorry ... I feel terrible that I didn''t bring anything but honestly speaking I don''t know what she really like but still im sorry '' I replied '' I understand .... n I did save you because I know how you feel about social standing ... now lets go people are waiting '' I turned ande face to face with Alex cuzn Helen who clearly hate me for no reason ... she gives me a sarcastic smile like she knows what she saw She replied '' oh kate I want to thank you again for inviting me '' Which I don''t but Alex did since she has shifted here in past few weeks ... I replied '' no problem .. I hope your kids are enjoying '' She replied '' oh they are thrilled... but seriouslyst time I was very mean to you .... but what had Alex told me about you n baby thing I naturallyshed on you...'' I don''t know why she bringing up the past ... luckily Alex came n said '' sophia I think whatever is in the past stays in the past... n I was wrong before... Kate is,a wonderful wife n mother ... so dont remember those worse moments'' Alex defending me in the public for the first time truly touched me... may it was yesterday event hit us both in different way ... for me knowing to take stand ... n for Alex finally understanding me She looked embarrassed '' yeah sure yeah I mean thats what I want ..no hard feelings'' All the guest was gone ... n Alex was gone to his meeting... I was cleaning up some stuff ... when I heard voices of girls from another room.... n i picked the camera to upload today pictures inptop.. but first girls should be in bed. Alex Thank good the meeting went well...shawn was there as my legal adivsor I said '' thanks dude for catching up in this time ... I know having a baby n all can be tough'' Shawn n Rachel has finally got married two years ago n now they are blessed with a baby boy Heughed '' tell me about it... forget this ... will you tell me a truth ... you forget about Aria gifts'' I said '' what''s with you... why you always bring Aria n kate ... I arranged a party for her isn''t that enough '' He looked n said '' well I loved Aria like my daughter she is so innocent n beautiful to be treated like this n secondly it was kate who was arranging n entertaining the party ... you were just standing there like a stranger'' I know what he is saying is right but I don''t want discuss it any further ..i tiredly said '' Shawn plz drop it im already tired n you know things areplicated'' He said '' you are making itplicated other wise its not like that '' ... After getting inside the house ... I found that everyone might have been gone to sleep... it''s good I don''t want to face anyone with my confused feelings about everything... I already feel like shit when little Aria was looking so excitedly that what I brought for her ... if kate has not cover for me things might get more difficult for me... with that I remember I never brought anything for Aria... not even wheb I gone to office trips n all I remember a moment when I went to dubia n emma has told me to bring something for her from there... I saw a very beautiful doll with other essories ... When I came back home from Dubai ... n show emma the doll ... her eyes were shocked n said '' Daddy this is so beautiful doll in the world... it so pretty ... thank you so much ... I love you'' I smiled '' I love you too... when I saw this doll I think about you ...look she got your light blonde hair '' My smile faded when I saw Aria standing behind the sofa looking longingly at the doll emma was holding like she she also wants to have this doll'' Shit ...i forget about her... I can bring two dolls ... this will make an awkward situation n a guilty one for me.. Emma must have seen Aria '' hey aria look daddy brought this doll for me... daddy what you brought for Aria... she wanted doll too '' I looked at kate who must have known but she doesn''t know what to say She said '' ok girls daddy is tired so time to bed'' Aria said softly '' but mama me want to see the doll daddy get for me'' I feel terribly guilty ... I replied '' Aria I can''t bring anything for you sorry... but emma has called me to bring something that''s why it was on my mind... but you can take money from me then you can buy anything you want'' I know what a jerk thing to say... Aria eyes tears up n she run to her room... kate go after her N I came back from my memorynd ... n realized that I have been hurting that innocent soul for many times... I was so tired n guilty that all I wanted was to lie down with kate I enter the bedroom surprisingly I found kate awake .... she was working in herptop.... all of a sudden kate turns n said '' Alex ...'' I replied '' he babe ...you''re awake?'' she said '' yeah I was putting today''s party picture in theptop n I was also waiting for you..so how was the meeting? '' I replied '' it went really well actually I might crack the biggest deal of thepany'' She smiled '' im really happy for you'' I replied '' let me change then we both watch the pictures together'' She replied '' you want to see them?'' I said '' yeah any problem ?'' She shake her head n say no... I changed my clothes n sit with kate in the bed '' so what we are looking at'' Kate start flipping pictures by pictures some where the party decore pictures... some were of emma posing in her naughty expression ... some were of Ariaughed running ... smiling ... kate smile... Aria was very pretty child her blues eyes were full of love n happiness at that moment ... n I said '' she got your smile'' ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . Kate looked at Aria pictures '' yeah I think she only has that part of me'' I replied '' no she got your goodness , your kindness too'' Kate eyes were filled with tears ... I said these things for the first time loud n clear to kate about Aria She replied '' Thank you '' Then we resume watching other pictures.. some were of kate candid one and there was a picture of me and kate standing together I stopped n stare at that it was extremely beautiful ... her hair was softly flying in air n she has a slight smile which turns me on ....I don''t know for how long I stare at that picture then Kate said '' ok now you''re creeping me out ... you''re saying nothing n staring at my picture'' Iughed n said '' cause im speachless this is so beautiful that I have no words to describe n I think this should be frame ...'' Kate was flushing n she said '' no need its not that good... '' I replied '' no its perfect ... I was thinking to make a frame of it n a portrait that im going to put it in living lounge so everyone can see'' Kate gives me a stunned expression n im confused why ... then I realized what I said... its Emily picture in the living lounge... I feel that im stop breathing how can I forgot about that. Chapter 39: chap39 Chapter 39: chap39 Alex Kate put her hand on my hand n said ''Alex its ok ... the portrait of emily belongs their not mine and I don''t mind at all because this is her home she made this house a home ...so I don''t want to change or do anything ... all I want is you and my children thats all'' Kate smiled to reassure me thats fine with her that I still lives in past n I did not love her... is that even true? Kate is right that emily touches are their in this house but its kate who has made this home but I didn''t say anything cause I don''t know where is my emotions are n I might say some things which im not ready to say... Kate said '' ok just put this thing aside n lets sleep we both are very tired'' II hold kate face n said '' I know I don''t deserve you but you''re very special to me kate ... Kate emotional smiled shows n she said '' n you''re my everything Alex '' With that we fall asleep. Kate I was preparing the lunch when I saw Alex was holding something in his hand ... I said '' hi .. you back early... no work today '' He replied '' yup today was Saturday.. so it was little to do so I thought I should take a half day n join you for lunch '' I smiled n said '' thats great I just made some spaghetti n for desert we have leftover cake so you r in luck... by the way whats in your hand'' He nervously replied '' yeah ... its ... its for Aria ... I thought I should give her since she wanted the gift from both of us'' I stopped doing everything n looked lovingly n a little emotionally to him ... he brought something for Aria for the first time ... I replied '' Alex... I.. its great...she will be so happy ... she is in our room watching cartoon movie .. '' He said '' actually I was thinking you should give that to her'' I suddenly replied '' I can but you are going to room to change then its better you give her.. she will be so happy ..plz'' I don''t know why I said please but at that time I want Alex n Aria have a little bit time to them... he awkwardly say ok n went.. I pray to god that may be this initiative of Alex can bring them together ... I was lost in my thoughts when emma came n said can she help .. I smiled n give her sd to mixed it. Alex I dont how long I stand outside the room... I have no idea why im so nervous ..e on she a three old kid .... im gonna give her the gift n get going like nothing happen... yeah I can do that... I saw Aria eyes were stuck to the LCD screen ... she was dress up in short n t shirt..her hair were all over the ce like she just woke up from sleep...n she looks cute in that ...she was pping n singing something whatever it was showing in tv... I went n sat with her in the bed... she looked at me then turn to tv but she suddenly turn n looked at me n said softly'' daddy'' I was looking at her pink cheeks n smiled at her cuteness n shocked expression but then I remember why im here I replied '' hi Aria'' She replied '' hello daddy.. you back early'' I said'' yes n I brought you this'' She excitedly looked at the bag n she put her hand inside the bag to pick it out.. when she looked at the doll she yelped n said '' oh daddy its so beautiful ... I love it ... its so big n she has my hair'' I try to control myugh n said '' yup thats why I brought it... it a birthday present to you'' But Aria was busy opening the packaging in which doll was enclose ... I said i will open it for her... she gives to me n then she stand in the bed n stand at my back while holding my shoulder for my support.. I felt again a pull n protective feeling when Aria do this... I sighs n opened the doll n give it to her... she picked the doll..n start looking at her with her big blue eyes... Then she sit in myp n hugged me said '' Thank you ... thank you daddy... this is the best present even... I love you '' My hands wanted to hug her too but I stop... I gently removed her n put her in bed then I stand n said '' yeah ...wee'' N with that I went to the washroom. Kate I don''t how long we have to reach Helen home for lunch but it already feel like hours... may be its me who feel like that... cause im still notfortable with Helen intention n her mood swings... I just hopped today went ok without any trouble.. I sighs loudly Alex looked at me n said '' I know you don''t want to go n I wish we can stay at home... but I can''t say no when she asked for lunch n small get together .... n secondly she said many times to bring you..'' Ahh the get together means my father n mom is also going to be there .. I replied '' I know ... n I can understand ... its YOU know (I looked at girls who were busy watching cartoons in ipad) how things went with us ...so im little cautious... may be im over reacting'' Alex nodded n said '' I get that babe but rx its going to be all fine today... n looked we are here'' I opened the back of the car to pick up the chocte strawberry pie n potatoes sd that I made for Helen lunch.. I saw Alex was getting girls out of the car... since Alex give the doll to Aria she was very happy n always hold that doll with her.. even when she fall asleep ... I smiled at her when I saw the head of brown blonde head of doll that Aria was holding... she really likes that doll.. When we enter Helen garden it was already crowded with some guests... some guests I know like my parents n Alex parents .. n some I have no idea,who they are... when helen saw us she gives us a smile n say '' oh look they havee thank you so much foring n especially kate im so happy you came here'' I replied '' its pleasure to be here... n I brought this for you I hope you like it'' She said '' oh kate you don''t have to do that but thank you so much .... just like Emily she used to bring all this stuff when she visit us ...me n Alex used to tease her for her sweet tooth... oh I don''t mean in that scene im sorry if you mind'' I don''t know what it was a genuine slip of tongue or a bait but I kindly replied '' not at all... we both sister got that kind of sweet tooth thing'' Alex broke the awkward moment'' so cuzn what have you made us today ...cause im really hungry'' Sheughed '' you n you''re big appetite..e we,were waiting for you the lunch is ready'' Alex saw some of his old buddies n went their to chat... n I was meeting with my parents '' hello daddy n mommy '' They replied hello ... I asked mommy '' mommy hows your health ...? She replied '' im fine '' Emma n Aria came to meet their grandparents ... my father picked emma n kissed her forehead n '' my favorite girl ... I miss you so much'' Mother said '' give her to me ... I want to see my Emily child'' It kinda hurt that she still say this to make me feel like that so that it shows that im not emma real mother... when emma was with mom... Aria came n said '' hello grandpa...'' She looked at my father hesitantly ... my father awkwardly says '' hello Aria'' n turned ... my little girl eyes be sad ... n I became sad for her....I saw Alex expression across ... he also saw that how my parents treated Aria... he expression looks angry then sad n then he guarded those expression.... After lunch everyone was talking ... I was with Alex mom .... n like me she wanted to know that any Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. different with Alex n Aria rtion... when I told her about doll that he gifted her... she bes so happy that I found her eyes to be misty with tears...then we heard a scream.... a child scream... everyone stopped their chats n stand to look what happen... we went to children y area where we left them with a Helens children nanny .... but I saw I stopped dead at my track.... it was emma on the floor ...with blood oh god ....what happened... I screamed '' emma oh god emma ... my baby what happened ...'' Emma was unconscious... n not moving Alex came running n picked emma n roughly said '' Emma .. baby wake up... fuck... some body fucking call the doctor...'' I was crying heavily'' Alex please do something ... she is bleeding ... Alex please awake her...'' Alex replied '' kate ... I don''t know what to do... lets take her to the doctor ...I don''t how long the doctor wille'' Helen '' it will take a lot of time for you Alex.I have already called the doctor he is own his way...lets take her inside..n clean her up... n you Nancy(the nanny) n kidse inside we want to know how it happens'' After 10 minutes the doctor came n checked Emma n bandage her forehead n said '' she is fine... it was a, shock that made her faint ... but she is fine now'' I said '' please check her again....why she is not wake yet... n is everything ok with her head'' Alex also said '' yeah she is not wake... she should be'' Doctor said '' rx Mr n Mrs Robbins... I give her pain meds thats why she is sleeping ...n hopefully she will be up by few hours...so rx'' When the doctor gone ... we kissed Emma cheeks n wait outside .... Helen came n asked about Emma we told her everything.. Then she said '' Alex I asked the nanny n the kids what happened .... its better you listen from them'' Alex n me passed a confused look n Alex '' ok where they are.... Helen replid "in the living room'' Chapter 40: chap40 Chapter 40: chap40 Kate In the Living room I found Aria was sitting on thep of Alex mom while holding her doll... n Helen two kids were standing .... Helen said to her son '' max can you tell everyone what you told to me in kitchen ... dont be scared '' Max was 8 year old boy n he said'' Emma n aria was fighting over a doll ... they were saying whose doll is more pretty ... I told them to we should y...then we start taking slide but identally Emma foot hit Aria doll n Aria be angry ... I told them that we should take slide not fight ... it was Emma turn to take slide first then it was aria... I was standing at the back of Aria ... Emma was taking time to take a slide but Aria pushed Emma angrily and she lost her bnce n Emma falls on ground'' When he take Aria name ... it felt like some one kicked me at guts n Alex was also shocked n then he said '' Are you sure'' Helen came n said'' if you dont believe Max then asked Nancy '' Nancy also ufortably say says.... I lost my breath n sat on near sofa... No ... my Aria will never do this... by any means ... I saw Alex stand in front of Aria n said in his scary voice'' WHY DID YOU PUSHED EMMA'' Aria start to shake with fear n clinched to Alex mom like she is going to hide her from her angry daddy Alex mom said '' Alex lower your voice ...you are scaring her... she is just a kid'' Alex replied '' no mom she is a spoil .. jealous n brat of a kid... look because of her emma is in this condition'' Aria tears with falling down one by one n said '' I didn''t ... I didn''t do it '' N I believed her because she never lies ... I stand n picked Aria n said '' ok baby just tell what happened'' Helen angrily replied '' what? You don''t trust what my son n his nanny said.... your daughter clearly try to hurt Emma n now you want her version of story'' I tried to reply when my mom says '' of course she will try to manipte the whole situation .... like mother like daughter... Alex im telling you from the very start this little girl always feel jealousy from my emma... now my poor emma is seriously hurt .... but answer im going to give to my Emily .....she is a ungrateful bitch..'' I said '' mom don''t you say anything to my daughter ... she doesn''t do anything if she said so...my girls fight like sisters do but she is never violent to her sister...n I believe her'' Alex turned n said coldly '' n I believe those who saw this ident ... you''re worried about this daughter of your what about that one that has been in blood few minutes ago..everyone is right its because of Aria jealousy n this stupid doll of her that put Emma in this position'' He roughly took the doll from Aria hands n forcely throw at the wall...n it broke into tiny pieces... Aria screamed n hugged me n said '' mama please save me... save me mama... I didn''t do it... don''t want daddy ...don''t want daddy... please mama save me'' I picked Aria n m her down...Alex father said'' Alex did you lose your mind too... what''s wrong with you...looked at her how scared Aria has be of you... at least try to listen to her what she is trying to say'' My father also said ''Alex calm down... there are other kids too...n yes listen to her'' Alex said '' I don''t want to know anything just that my daughter is not awake n her health is more important '' I looked at Aria scared face n tears ...n this whole situation where her father was not listening her ... I decided what I have to do ...but first Emma has to be better ... my emma is important now. Alex Emma was awake after few hours ... than god for that... Kate started crying n I hold myself ... kate feed Emma some dinner n not once she looks at me... no idea where Aria was... n its good I don''t want to see her face... its harsh to say that n what I did with her doll was very cruel but I lost it... maybe I can listen what Aria has to say but she has two vote against one of her mother ... so I go with rationality not emotions... especially where emma is concerned...when emma said she is fine n feel no pain but just tired ... we decided to go home.... I was putting Emma gently in car when I saw other door was open across emmas ... it was kate holding sleeping Aria ... my jaw clicked angrily n I shake my head... I have to make some decision soon about this.. n make Kate agree on that... When I reached home ... kate was asleep n the girls were too.. I woke kate slowly she opened her eyes .. I said we are home then I unbuckled emma seat ...I saw Aria eyes opened but when she saw me she quickly closed her eyes n said '' mama please '' Kate quickly take Aria out of her seat n opened the door... After putting Emma in bed ... I saw kate came n give emma her medicine '' hey baby here these are... ok just tell me you are fine ..no pain or any dizziness?'' Emma said she is really fine but she needs to sleep..we kissed her n say goodnight.. I was going to our room when I heard kate voice in guest room '' Aria I swear to god ...daddy is gone to take a shower now..e on itste ... its your bed time'' Aria said '' promise mama.. daddy noe ..im so scared of him.'' I heard Kate sniff like she is crying '' oh baby ... I promise nowe'' My hearts hurts so badly ... Aria is scared of me... fuck I know what she does needs to told her but I might over do it... but she leaves me no option ... what if she grew up n really harm emma for good... no I have decided what I have to do... but I can''t tell kate now but may be in the morning. After shower I went to bed n saw kate was lying far from the bed ... I sighs ... now she is angry with me...what my life is be I put my hands on her waist n dragged her in middle'' kate you will fall down... I know we both have a difficult day but please I need your support in this ...'' she replied '' all what I want Alex is my girls to be protective n happy'' N she started sobbing .. I hold her n let her cry ... '' kate don''t cry .. emma is fine...n if I say anything to you so im sorry... just sleep so that we can talk in morning'' n we fall asleep. Kate ''Thank god she is ok ...when you told us kate I became so worried for a moment '' Rachel said I replied '' YOU have no idea whats like it for me looking your child at that condition ... thank god emma is fine ... I just want to forget that moment'' Rachel give me sympathetic smile n said '' I can understand...oh look its time for going ... today my dad called in his office .. I kinda have to go.. bye'' I kissed her cheeks n said '' bye n thank you foring'' After seeing off Rachel I went to Emma room ... to give her lunch ...I was going n saw Aria was still in the guest room... she has been very upset n scared of yesterday event... I went their n called her'' Aria what are you doing here all alonee with me... im going to emma'' She slowly reply '' no mama .. daddy is their I don''t go'' I give her sad smile '' no baby he is not he is in office ... nowe'' She hesitantly stand n went to emma room... Emma was much better n fresh ... she is sitting in her chair n ying with her doll house .... I said '' Emma hows baby'' '' im really good mom.. n I feel no pain like nothing...'' I give her a big smile '' well that great ... but after this yummy lunch n then this medicine you''re going to be more well n ok like before'' Emma was eating n Aria was looking at her story book.. Then Alex came n said '' Hello emma hows my princess'' Aria be tense n try to hide behind me... Alex saw her n he be angry n tense too ...Emma was oblivion to the situation n said '' im fine daddy n I can even go to school ... its this bandage thats teasing me'' Alex said with her n said'' doctor wille in the evening n he is going to remove that n put a cute little band aid... ok Emma I want to ask something n tell me honestly ok... I want to know how you fall down from the slide ...tell me exactly what happened'' Emma nodded n said '' Daddy I lost my bnce... n I felt some one pushed my back ... may thats why I fall'' Alex jaw clinched n said '' ok.. do you remember who was in your back?'' Emma think a little '' hmmm it was Aria ...'' I was waiting for the moment when he is going toshed ... but I just want a moment to show Alex Aria is not guilty here... Alex said '' that''s all I want to know ... emma you rest now...kate im going outside for some work.... n then we are gonna talk'' I don''t like this talk thing will go but I just nodded. Alex I get all the information that I wanted ... after dinner im going to talk with kate ... n try to agree her on this... I decided to listen Emma version too what happened n when she take Aria name ... its prove that Aria is responsible for this... After doctor has remove the bandage n gives a thumbs up for Emma to go to school n do her normal stuff ... I decided to talk to kate in office.... kate came n bring my coffee like always she did... I saw she has dark circles under her eyes... n she look very tired ... I don''t want to do this right now when kate is looking so tired ...but it''s now n never thing I said '' Thanks... have a seat'' She sit n said '' what''s really you want to talk about'' I clear my throat n said '' today emma has also taken Aria name...so the picture is quite clear ...I don''t want to take seriously any more risk in future ... Aria because of jealousy has cross a limit... n she needs to be handle so I have decided something'' Kate posture was Alert n said '' n whats exactly did you decide'' I said '' I decided to send Aria to boarding school... n I have selected one of the best boarding school ... you can look at these prospectors n decide'' Kate eyes were wide open ... she open her mouth to say something but then she closed it n then she said'' you ...you want ...me....me to send my child to a boarding school...for something she never did anything'' I replied '' kate ..why can''t you believe it...every one says it was Aria...then why are in denial'' She said '' Alex you never listen to Aria... I asked her today.. she said it was Max who pushed Emma Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. not her ...she swear on god... n I know she never lie... Max clearly lie ti protect himself '' I sarcasticallyughed n said '' wow ...I mean seriously this three year old girl is really clever ...look at her how she me Max now... ok max is liar ... what about her nanny she also says Aria name..so she isir too'' Kate looked shocked n shake her head. Chapter 41: chap41 Chapter 41: chap41 Kate pov I shake my head '' Alex why can''t you believe me n Aria... but you know Aria better than Max... I know you have no interest in her but she is grown here in this house, in front of your eyes but do you think she can do this'' He coldly replied '' I believe where logic''s n truth lie n here I know Aria pushed Emma...so its final decision she is going'' I looked at Alex ...how cruel n heartless he can get '' looking at you now I remember that Alex which I try to forget ...but if its your decision then I decided something too if Aria is going then im going too... n no need for this boarding thing ... you want her out of this house then she is going out but not alone but with her mother...'' Alex shocked by my admission n said '' no ... no kate you''re not going to leave me... I will not let you'' I replied'' I will if my daughter is treated like a criminal...I will leave you because its too much ...you broke all promises you made about not ming n embarrassing me n Aria in public... she is so scared of you that she lose her all confident n walking in a egg shell ....so I will leave you'' He angrily replied '' n where will you go to your father house where you n your is not epted'' I said '' don''t worry about us ...I face painful situation since I was 5 sure as hell I can handel this... '' N left the room n called Rachel n said '' I need your help'' Alex came to room n found me packing my some stuff.. I said '' I will be gone by tomorrow... n Im going to sleep in guest room...so this room is all yours'' He forcefully turned me'' kate don''t do this...you''re ruining everything ...you will not go ...n what about emma'' I replied '' don''t bring emma into this .. I told you before Emma is my daughter n no one can change that... I can''t take her with me but I will be there for her...n you won''t stop me'' He eyes were desperate n said '' please kate don''t do this I need you .... I feel something for you... just don''t go'' I replied '' dont do this... ok... if you change your decision about Aria n you ept her daughter then im going to stay'' He arrogantly look n said'' this will never happen ...she made a mistake n she deserves to be punished'' I said ''lets suppose it was Emma who pushed Aria..n she was covered in blood...so still that will be your decision..'' I looked at his expression n then I said '' I know you will never do this with emma...because you treat both your kids differently...so I m done being a doormat n let one of my child treated like shit because her mother '' Alex replied '' kate you''re over reacting... if you just care for me then don''t go'' I said '' Alex I don''t care for you... I fucking love you for the first time Iid my eyes on you...even when you forget about me when you saw Emily ..even when you made fun of me in front of your friend..even when take my virginity n throw me out of your room...even when you say I trapped you with a baby...even I know you will never love....n even now when you treated my Aria like,shit ...but I have to do this for Aria ...she doesn''t deserve this'' Alex eyes were shocked ... like he is speechless .. He said '' kate I have no idea...you love me... I fucking don''t deserve your love...kate then please stay'' I said'' NO n thats my final decision..'' N I left him alone. Alex Kate said she loved me ... fuck...she has not falling for me ...she was already in love with me... n from that time when I treated her like shit...n now also when im not in my best form... She told me she is going today ...I will try this again to tell her that to stay...but Aria ? Im doing this for emma sake... n I still stuck to my decision Belongs ? to N?velDrama.Org. I found Kate with Emma n she said'' look Emma... I love you very much...but I have to go..my love... its like a game you''re going to be with daddy n Aria n me are going to live somewhere else...but YOU know what you can visit us their n daily skype me too.'' Emma was crying'' no mama please don''t go....take me with you... '' Kate eyes were also teary '' baby im so sorry but I have to go...your daddy n I can''t live anymore ....he hurt me n Aria....Im sorry but I have no choice'' Ie n said '' Emma stop crying ...your mom is right she has to go...but im there for you ...'' She ignored me n said'' Emma I will always be there for you too n by don''t you go n see where Aria is n spend some time with here before we go'' Emma nodded... I said '' you are doing wrong kate so wrong'' She replied '' it should be done so long before'' I coldly replied '' don''t expect something from me... I hope you do remember our agreement n prenuptial... its start when you leave this house'' She stand n said '' I give a fuck to that money which makes a father hate her daughter just because she exist'' I said '' you will be sorry for this'' She sadly replied '' n you will be too'' Martha knock the door n said '' Mrs Robbins...the cab is here'' She replied '' Thanks martha ...Iing in a minute'' Im confused then I said '' you are not taking your car?'' She replied '' its your ...it was never mine'' Aria came with her small back pack n with sad face she hold Kate hands Kate said '' You ready ...did you say bye to Emma'' She nodded n said '' can Emmae please'' Kate said '' Aria we have talk about ite on lets go...n say bye to martha ....n daddy...im going to check Emma'' Martha gives a hug to Aria n clean her tears from her face n said '' miss Aria im going to miss you a lot'' Aria said '' me to martha ...i miss your smoothie you made'' Then it was my turned...fuck... they are really going...what should I do...should I stopped them... no ...im man of my words.. Aria said '' Daddy ..bye...n im sorry if you are angry with me... im so sorry n I will miss you too'' I closed my eyes n turned my back ... I can''t control myself...I should go from here. Kate ''kate im telling you again....this is so small...how will you live here...why don''t you go n stay with us as long as you want'' Rachel said I replied '' Rach im so happy for your help but I can''t stay...I have to do something for myself n Aria'' Rachel '' I still can''t fucking believe what a jerk Alex is...first heshed on Aria badly n then suggest something like that...I wish you have told me early.... n don''t thanks its just a small studio apartment without bed....my dad employee lived here but she is gone to London n she suggested me...but I have seen the ce first I would never took you here...'' I smiled n put mu hand on her shoulder '' Rach its best ...n its perfect for me n Aria ...n most importantly it has fridge n gad oven that''s what important was...but im really d you did this in a short time'' She hugged me'' kate im your friend I will do anything n Aria is my daughter ...you both don''t deserve this but im really proud how you''re handling yourself.... ok you also need job too...have you checked your old job ce'' I replied '' yes but they have no vacancy..so I will look around ..I have some saving in my old ount but I have to be prepare further'' Rachel '' I will look into my father ce too..may there is new hiring'' I smiled '' that Will so great of you...im really I happy to have you in my life'' Then I saw shawn carrying boxes of pizzas in one hand n their son Mike in other hand.... he is one year old n very beautiful I picked him n said'' oh looked at you so big n handsome...'' Shawn said '' n with big tummy... Rach he is hungry again feed him till I arrange the lunch'' Rachel took her son... Aria saw shawn n run'' uncle shawn'' Shawn give a big smile n picked her n said '' Aria my favorite girl...princess I brought your favorite pizza '' Aria smiled '' Thank you'' He kissed her n put a slice in her te...looking at them I wish Alex can also treat Aria like shawn treated her but like me she is not lucky in that department... Shawn looked n passed the te to me n said '' hi...just rx n sit ...Kate I know what you did was a big step for you bur im really happy you did that...may be that asshole will realize what he lose ne into his sense'' I replied '' I really don''t care anymore ...I just want to start over..'' He nodded '' I shouldn''t say this now but did you think about other stuff...like divorce n allowance thing because I can assure you I will not fight for him n I will help you'' I replied '' Thank you so much Shawn ...but I didn''t thing any of this...n secondly it involves money ..which I don''t have enough...so im taking one at a time...but you should not leave him ....you''re his good friend he needs you...so because of me don''t leave him'' He shake his head '' he is really an idiot to leave a wife like you.... ahh...just forget...so if you need anything we are one call away ok'' I smiled n said '' yes .. im very gratefully.'' Chapter 42: chap42 Chapter 42: chap42 After 6 weeks Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. Alex I was driving Emma for school ... Emma was not so chatty that she use to be...may be it''s because Aria is not there...fuck...sometime I think I made a biggest mistake of my life for letting Kate n Aria go...but if Aria is right?... no its not possible... i know its Aria who did this ...I know Emma talks to Kate daily on Skype&meet her in after school .....Emma need her mother physically to be there not virtually....I parked at Emma school n said ''e on princess your school is here'' Emma said '' Daddy can you bring mama n Aria home after school'' She asked this question always when I dropped her I replied ''Emma I have told you already they''re going to back but not now ...things are little bit difficult ...'' I don''t know why I lie to her ...but I can''t see her like this.. After dropping off school I turned two blocks a head n wait ...for Kate n Aria ...I usually wait for them to see how are they...sometimes I fucking miss kate so much that all I wanted to do go n dragged her into the car n take her home....n sometimes I also want to see Aria... I miss her too... it surprise me too..,after all this drama I still want Aria be happy... although I have hurt her little heart a lot ...but most painful moments were when I broke her doll into two pieces ...yelled at her..n when she said goodbye n said to forgive her...kate was right I be heartless...but what she did was also wrong ...she left me ...then I saw them.... I saw kate was picking Aria from the bus n put her down... it still fucking hurt n make me angry that why the hell she leave her car...obviously it will came handy to her.... but she using third ss bus to travel...Aria was saying something but kate was lost in her thoughts...what she is thinking ...she looks so tired ...n she always look tired like that...Aria looks she lost some weight .... fuck .... did they need money... I didn''t provide any allowance to kate...nor she asked ...then I saw Aria stop n bend to look her shoe ...I closely focused her shoes were little wore down n tear down...it was a gut wrenching moment for me here I have every luxury that life offers but my child is walking with a broken shoe...Kate kneel down n said something ..Aria nodded n then they were gone. In the office I get myself busy with work because this will keep me going...but I was still distracted ... how kate n Aria are really doing... then I saw shawning in my office... After kate has gone ...Shawn n I have some heated argument where he told me what a ass im n how much I will regret it...but im really a egoism bastard ...I also fight with him...now seeing him realized me that I kinda of needed a friend. He said '' here is the document that you needed ...its already checked n a contract has been made'' I replied '' Thanks dude... will you stop n have a coffee with me'' He reluctantly said '' you want to? I sighs n said '' shawn im fucking sorry how I behavest time but you know im an asshole...but I really need a friend'' He said '' funny thats what kate said to me...sure dude a strong coffee I can have. I called to bring coffee then I realized I said '' wait you said kate ....what she said..tell me how she is n Aria''? He replied '' n why the hell are you interested in that...you don''t want them remember'' I replied'' she left me ...I didn''t said anything about leaving'' He said '' Well you clearly want Aria to be leaving from your house...a person can only tolerate something that he can bear...but what you were suggesting to do with Aria was down cruel n heartless ...you made Kate to take that step...'' Shawn continues n said '' look you still have time to sort this out kate still worry about you ..she said me to not leave you....so plz believe kate n Aria that Aria didn''t push Emma.'' I said '' Shawn just leave it ...we already talk on this'' It was almost 4 o clock when I left the restaurant n see off the contractors with whom im had a meeting...my car was parked across the road ...but then I saw kate n Aria ...they were looking outside the shops...what they are doing? I don''t know what makes my foot follow them...I was keeping some distance but not much that enables me to listen clearly. Aria said '' but mama ..I want those shoe ..not this one we have brought'' Kate replied '' Aria these are also very good...n secondly they were very expensive...mama don''t have alot of money right now to spend on a shoe ...you''re very good girl try to understand that'' Aria said '' ok mama...im sorry I forget we are saving money for other things'' Kate said '' yup baby...but I promise I will buy you anything in Christmas '' Aria bes happy in that ...but I didn''t...they shouldn''t save money ...because I have alot of them...whatever Aria want I will give her...but didn''t I also cruelly take that too ...dont I remember what I did with her doll ... They were looking outside of shops ...then Aria stop at one toy shop n pointed out n said '' mama...mama look... can I have this doll in Christmas ...please...I will also save money?'' Kate looked n even I looked...the doll was different yet very familiar ..then I realized it was the doll I give to Aria but her dress n size were different...that doll really meant something to Aria...n I destroyed it.. Kate looked n said ''ok.. I will buy it for you..nowe on you have to do your homework n I want to finish a little work in office then we are free to go'' Office ....what office..I saw kate going straight to Holden printing press....then it clicked it was Rachel fatherpany..she works here..but shawn never told me..then my phone rings it was Helen...fuck...what she wants. Kate ''Come on Aria its bed time n leave theptop n go brush your teeth'' ''But mama let me finished this cartoons...n why don''t we have tv...its so big in there...'' I replied '' cause we don''t need it when we can watch inptop....n its also one of the saving part..no go to washroom ne to sleep'' She run with her little feet...I unfolded the sofa cum bed then put sheets in it n waited for Aria... After I started my jobs in Holden printing press two weeks ago...I feel confident enough that I can do this...the sry is less n im overqualified for the job but when I saw the ad I jumped on it...I need a push up start..te I realized it was Rachel fatherpany...when Rachel saw me there ...she try to convince me that she can hired me some better post but I stopped her taking some one post who is more needy n deserving doesn''t set well with me to take that post...she reluctantly agreed. I felt skyp ringtone ...n saw it was Emma...my eyes tear up when I see her in school and right now...I called Aria n tell its Emma ... she runs ne n sit with me..I connect with Emma ..n I saw martha face first She said '' hello kate n Aria how are you...'' I said '' im good how are you Martha'' She replied '' im good kate..n I missed you a lot..(I heard emma voice in background) ok ok miss emma here you go'' Emma face came n my eyes be teary '' mama..how are you..n when you areing back...'' Emma always asked this I replied '' baby ...I miss you so much..I wille but little bit time will take ...here talk to Aria'' Then both sister were lost in their own conversation..after it was time to say goodbye which was more difficult for me... Aria n meid together in sofa cum bed n Aria said '' mama I like this bed...cause we both share it together...so may be its not bad'' Aria knows how to break the tense moment n I smiled at her'' yeah I think so'' Alex Helen was sitting in my office across me I said '' what...what the fuck is this Helen ...you know because of this how my life has turned?'' She remorseful said '' I m sorry Alex...I know ...n thats why im here to fix this ...when max n her nanny told me it was max who pushed emma ..I called you ne to tell you the truth'' I yelled '' how fuck you can fixed this...you know I made a terrible mistake...you know I was sending Aria to the boarding school...n because of that kate had taken Aria n left me...then how you are going to fix this...n tell me why your nanny lied at that time'' Helen said '' She became scared that she is going to lost her job if she take Max name but after few weeks she came n told me everything...when I asked Max ..he ..he told me..that he didn''t want to push emma..it was Aria he wanted to push but some how Emma fell down.'' I stop breathing ...Aria....he wanted to push Aria...fuck the feeling of protectivness was back for Aria...fuck what I did... Aria was telling the truth ...n I clearly ignored her...again...kate was begging me to hear her once but im so proud to get diwn a little bit I said '' Helen its better you should go..I have lot if things going on..I need to do something else first'' She nodded n get out of my office'' N then I called Shawn. Chapter 43: chap43 Chapter 43: chap43 Kate '' Kate '' well done kate ...it need some attention but you improve this piece of work more'' my boss praise me I replied '' im happy to do this work...if you want anything else im here '' He said '' no you go n have rest...n say hi to Aria'' I replied '' I will'' Luckily they offer day care facility ...one of the reason I like this job more... I picked sleeping Aria from day care...she is bing really tired with this schedule ...but we both are managing... I look the time ...I have 10 minutes to reach the bus stand... I always reach at nick of a time...n now im carrying Aria ..I don''t know I will reach there on time or not.... I was walking n luckily I reach the stand before bus ...I sat for a moment n catch a breath... then I saw a ck BMW stop at the stand ... I ignore that but when I saw who was getting out of the car ... I was stunned it was Alex...fuck....what he is doing here.. Alex said '' Kate..e with me im gonna drop me'' I replied '' no thanks ...but how do you know I was here '' He run his hand on his hair n said...'' I asked shawn about your apartment address but he told me you''re going to be here...so I found you here...please kate I want to talk about something...please let me drop you'' I give him a look'' what else is there to talk...wait you''re really here to talk about divorce n prenuptial agreement'' He shake his nod '' NO ...kate..no I never think about this but ..pleasee..im taking you to your apartment not home ok.... I just want to talk n then you will decide'' What decide n what talk... I looked at the watch bus waste n its gettingte...I said '' ok but if you say something which disturb me n Aria im going to kick you out'' He give me a sad smile'' well I deserves that but I won''t say anything like that'' I try to stand but I was holding Aria which makes difficult for me to stand ... Alex came n said '' Give her to me..I will hold her...'' When he bend to take her I hold her firmly n Alex eyes be sad by my action '' I know kate you have no reason to trust me with her but I swear on Emma im trying to change things for good that involved Aria too'' I lose my grip n hold Aria...n for the first time seeing them together bring back my emotions...he gently put her in her car seat n we drove towards my apartment. Alex Fuck it was more difficult to say anything...because honestly I feel so shame on myself ...that what I did.... I parked near Kate apartment ... we both get out of the car ... kate went to picked Aria but I told her to open the door ...I will hold her...she reluctantly say yes ... I hold Aria...I found her to be very tired cause never open her eyes in whole drive...I kissed her forehead ...n feel ...for the first time love for her...I truly hurt her more ...a little child should not ever treated like this by her father ... when we reached her apartment...or I say a tiny room .... my jaw tick...but its my fault.. Kate said'' let me turned this sofa into bed then we are going to talk'' Fuck they don''t even have bed....no ...they will have ...they will not stay here any more... kate was busy turning the bed... n then Aria lifted her head n have a confused expression ..she looks at my face n then again n said '' Daddy...mama daddy is here'' I smiled at her '' yeah babay ..im here... n... I was about to say sorry but kate came took her from my hand Kate said '' Daddy n I are going to talk you can sleep a little then we will prepare dinner ok..'' Aria nodded her sleepy head n fall asleep. Kate n I sit in the small kitchen of here. .kate gives me the coffee n sit I said '' Thanks....so you live here? '' n what''s wrong here...'' '' kate its so tiny...I mean our store room is bigger than this'' She replied '' Well Aria n I have no problem here ...so what you want to talk about'' I take a breath n said '' im sorry...Im so sorry for everything.... today Helene in my office n told me it was Max who pushed Emma ....actually Max wanted to push Aria ...but when she told me I left everything n try to find you...Kate I know I don''t have words to describe how sorry im but please forgive me ne back'' Kate replied '' I told you listen to her once Alex...for one once ....but you were believing more into logic''s than your own daughter... I can''t you have hurt Aria very much'' I picked her hand '' im going to say sorry to her too...im going to ept her...n love her very much Kate...just give me a chance'' Kate shake her head '' no...no Alex ..I can''t trust you..you say now you will ept her...but after sometimes something will happen n then you will treat Aria n me like Shit...no... I can''t repeat all of this...'' I desperately picked her face n say '' kate im not lying...I have these feelings from very start of all of this but im arrogant enough to ept that ....Kate I start feeling for you too long time aga n now im going to say that I have fallen.. '' no Alex...don''t say that...I know you want me home ..but you''re bringing this thing is not right...'' I replied '' ok ..ok I will not say this right now but one day I will ...but kate.. She said '' I can''te home until n unless im trust you enough that you truly want me n Aria ...'' I put my head in my head ...its more difficult than I imagine... I said '' ok... I will do anything do gain your trust n your love.... but kate...I wille daily meet you n spend some time with Aria ...n I will try to be a best father to her'' Kate think a little '' you can talk to Aria tomorrow ...not right now...you cane here at this time...n ...if its ok can please bring Emma with you'' I replied '' of course...I will...n kate...please take your kate...I don''t like it when you take the bus ...its dangerous too...please take the car'' Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. She replied '' no I will not... n im ok with bus ...n no more arguments on this'' I sighs '' ok whatever you say.... I will go na ...emma is,waiting...take care'' Shee to door '' bye Alex'' I stopped for a moment n I kissed her hard n passionately... we both remove her face n I said '' I missed you so much kate...I have to do this other wise I dont know how to go from here'' She doesn''t say anything n nor did I ..n I left. Kate I was waiting for the bus,again n now,emma is awake then I saw Alex car n Emmaing out from the car...she run n hug me ...my eyes started to tear up n I hold her'' Emma... oh...god I miss you so much'' Emma said '' me too mama but daddy say I can live with you today..its so fun na'' I emotionally nodded at her n saw Alex ... I said'' I thought youing home'' He replied '' well if you''re not taking car than im going to pick up daily'' I said '' Alex seriously there is no need..I can He cut me '' no I will do it still'' Then he looked passed me ... his expression changed to emotional n guilty he said '' Aria...hi..how are you'' Aria slowly picked my hand n look down n said '' good daddy'' He nodded n said '' ok let''s go everyone '' When we reached my apartment ... I saw Alex was holding some stuff.. He looked n said '' I thought to bring some dinner too'' I replied '' Alex I can cook dinner you know that'' He smiled '' n I missed that too much but you''re tired so I thought to bring something'' I replied '' there is no need but still thank you'' I was in the kitchen putting food n emma was with me chatting about her school ... Aria was in the living room watching cartoons onptop ... then I saw Alex '' kate. ..can I talk to Aria? I hope you have told her'' I nodded '' I did but be careful she is little ...upset n afraid so'' His flinched n nodded .. Alex I saw Aria was sitting n watching cartoons onptop...hell there''s no tv here too..I shake my head ..n sit with my daughter. It feels so good to say that.. I saw Aria bes tense when she saw I sit with her.. n my eyes tear up ..fuck what did I do with her.... I said '' Aria..so what you doing?'' She looked down n said '' cartoons'' I replied '' oh good..n these once are your favorite I remember'' She nodded...fuck how should I start. I said '' Aria can I talk to you'' She looked me with my blue eyes n said ok I said '' you know daddy is so sorry to yell at you n then broke doll ..n I saw Aria shake her body...she is still scared of me... I said '' hey ... im sorry...don''t be scared..e here..sit on myp'' I picked her n put her on myp ...I kissed her hair which smell with sweet fruit shampoo n she looked me with her big blue eyes ... I kissed her cheeks n one tear fall from ...my eyes..She is so innocent n beautiful n I hurt her so much...I can''t stopped myself to hug her small body n kissed her head n cheeks ...its like im making up for all the time I ignored her... but I know I lost the time be of my stupidity...I said '' I know it was max n he pushed Aria not you ...n I m so sorry ...so sorry not listening you ....please forgive me Aria...please forgive daddy...'' N my face were fully covered with tears... Aria bring her small hand...n remove my tears n said '' its ok daddy...don''t cry...I don''t like it ... mama says to forgive some one if he say sorry so I forgive you... I hugged her tightly n said '' Aria im,sorry for everything .... I know I wasn''t a good daddy to you but I will from now....cause daddy love you so much...I can''t even tell you...how much you mean to me'' Aria smiled n said '' I love you too daddy ...so so so much'' I kissed her cheeks n she kissed mine n she said '' can we go home now daddy If you''re not angry with me'' N it was like gut wrenching moment ...she thinks she is not home because im angry.. I said '' I want you toe home right now but you''re mama need some time ...she is little upset so I have to make her happy ...will you help me in that'' She make a o face n said '' daddy I will help you ...then we will go home'' I smiled '' yes n I will give world to you n mama'' Chapter 44: chap44 Chapter 44: chap44 Kate I let Alex enter the apartment n said '' Hi..'' He replied '' hi how are you '' '' im good but where''s Emma you didn''t bring her'' I said in disappointment ...Its more than a week where Alex came daily with emma n he let her sleep here n then Alex picked the girls n take them to school ...it was some sort of routine we had adopted He said '' she is with your father...today He came n wanted to take her for a weekend Mona was missing her...so I can''t say no...n I told him about us'' I looked down n said '' n he must be very happy about it...he has tokd me before I won''t stay forever with you'' Alex flinched n said '' Actually for the first time I found him to be very worried n when I told that Max pushed Emma not he looked very sad n guilty....he told me that you didn''t tell him anything otherwise he would keep you n Aria in his home'' I said with a sad smile '' that was never my home Alex ...I was just a mistake ...so I won''t go ever there'' Alex looked sad n said '' I know...I sometimes think that we never truly appreciated n consider you for your love , kindness n your sacrifices made by you for others..'' It was a awkward moment n we both were silent then we heard Aria voice n. Saw her running towards us '' Daddy , Daddy ... you back'' Alex face changes to a big smile n he picked Aria n kissed her n said '' Hi my princess how are you...I missed you so much...n I brought something for you...I hope you will love this'' He kissed her forehead n Aria face beamed with happiness Daily Alex bring something for her...sometimes it''s sweets , sometimes butterfly coloring books...n one day he buy an ipad for her.. .that day Alex bes a best daddy in Aria eyes n when she said that...I saw Alex eyes shines with moisture n happiness...I thought to go home with Alex but still im giving time to them n understand that is not temporary ... I said to Alex '' you''re spoiling her with all these gifts'' He softly smiled n looked at Aria n said '' I will buy her the world if I can then i will... n she deserves so much more'' My eyes be moist n I know at any moment im going to shred tears so I control myself I saw Emma was sitting in Alexp n opening her present n when she saw the doll she stopped n said '' Daddy ...its the same doll Mama n I saw in the toy store n mama say that I will get it in Christmas ....but you got it for me now....daddy you''re best n its so pretty doll.. more pretty than the first...'' Alex eyes were guilty n said '' yeah ..you know daddy was very sad n angry with himself that he broke the doll... im so sorry Aria for that but I brought a new one for you ....n I will buy you hundred of dolls you want to have'' Aria said '' really daddy '' I replied ''Aria daddy will buy you a doll in any special asion not everyday... ok Alex ...nowe both of you dinner is ready '' ALex grins n said '' I loved it when you are bossy'' I blushed n said nothing After dinner Alex was going but Aria stop n said '' no mama..please say daddy stay...I want daddy...Daddy please don''t go'' Aria was crying now... she was so attached to Alex in short period of time that all the time she need her daddy Alex wiped her tears n said '' hi my pretty girl don''t cry ...I love you so much but daddy have to go..'' Aria tightly put her hands on his neck n said '' Daddy stay with us n we will sleep together please ...mama please say to daddy'' I said '' Alex If she is saying so much then stay ...'' He said '' if that''s ok with you'' I replied '' yup .. She really want you to stay'' I was arranged the bed n let Alex give him his own night shirt which I brought with myself when i left the house...I awkwardly said '' I used to wear this shirt may be I brought it without thinking'' He smiled n said '' well now itsing handy'' Aria n I wasying in sofa cum bed then I saw Alex .. he try toy on it n I said '' you may not be He said '' Im good n no need to buy a bed because you''reing home soon'' I looked at Alex how confident he was but its my decision to make and no one... Aria was in middle n she changed her side ny her head n Alex chest n said '' It''s so cool that we are in same bed...daddy im happy you''re here'' Alexughed n said '' me too princess ...ok tell me what story do you want to listen '' Alex was reading a story book n he was running his hands on Aria head so that she can sleep ... I said '' Alex she has fall asleep '' Alex looked at Aria sleeping face n tenderly smiled ..he kissed her head n gentle put her in middle n turned to me n soft said '' she is beautiful kate...very beautiful n fun loving kid but im an idiot to ignore her for years ...I mean I was so dense that I didn''t appreciate the beautiful gift God has given me in the face of Aria....im so sorry kate I hurt you n Aria beyond anything'' I replied '' Alex I always believed one day YOU will love her n understand her ...I thank god for showing me this day...so whatever is in past stays in past...but im really trying to move forward n make best decision '' He give me a understanding look n said '' I respect that but I have a hope that you wille back home '' I sighs '' I don''t know when Alex ...let''s sleep we both are tired'' Alex I was knocking at the door for 5 minutes than I saw Aria in her school dress n she opened it...I said '' hi babe... how did you opened the door '' She pointed at the chair '' I climbed on it...it took me some time to open the lock'' I replied '' where is your mama'' Aria said '' Mama is sick...she is vomiting ...she can''t even help me to tie the shoes'' I looked at her shoes n be worried about kate '' ok where''s she is?'' Aria take my head n take me to the washroom ... I saw kate was sitting in the floor of bathroom n holding her stomach ... I run to her n hold her '' kate...shit.. you look so pale ..e on lets go to doctor'' She replied '' Alex I can''t move ...n Aria its gettingte for school...just drop her please...I can''t move right now'' I hurriedly replied '' kate I can''t leave you... you are clearly so sick... She stopped me n said '' take Aria to school ne back then take me...I just need some minutes to settle down my stomach n take a bath ...please Alex'' I shake my head '' what if you need me... She try to smile n said '' Im ok Alex just little tired ...please take Aria she is gettingte n if I need you I will call you'' I sighs '' ok.( I kissed her head) iming in few minutes ...just call me right away'' I picked Aria n put her in car ... Aria said '' Daddy ...my shoes '' I remember then said '' oh give me your foot'' I tied her shoece n then take her to her school n see off her in her ss.. ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . I raced my car to kate apartment n opened the door with the key I had taken by with me.... when I reached the living room ... I saw kate freshly showered ... but she look so weak n tired ...her eyes were covered with ck heads ...I said '' kate...are you ok now'' She replied '' yeah but still feeling nauseated a little ...I don''t know why... I mean I was ok in the morning when I woke .... I was making Aria getting ready n cooking breakfast than all of a sudden I feel dizzy n my stomach torn up ...n then I start vomiting ...that''s why when you reached I can''t opened the door.. I send Aria to open it'' I replied '' you''re so tired all the time with the job n all other stuff..e on lets go to doctor ...Im pretty sure it has do do with your daily stress nck of appetite n sleep'' Kate protested but I was determined ....when we reached doctor ...they start taking her her BP n Blood sugar test n other test... They said us to wait for the test results... after half an hour doctor came I said '' Doctor ..is she ok ... Doctor smiled '' Kate iscking some of the nutrition''s ...but she n the baby is fine'' I nodded n said '' oh thank god ..( then I stopped ) wait a minute you said baby ...what baby'' I saw kate shocked face n doctor said '' oh you guys don''t know ... kate is almost 8 weeks pregnant..congrattions to you guys'' My face paled n it looks like I stopped breathing.... Kate said '' I think ...its misunderstanding I was taking birth control pills ...n I was using them for the past 3 years ...never this happens'' Doctor said '' well pills are never 100% protected...n sometimes it stop working because of your stress level a body takes'' I don''t what happened next because I stopped at kate parking lot n wait for her to go out.... fuck... I can''t believe ...kate is pregnant again.... n I don''t know how to react Kate said '' Alex...please say something...you''re freaking me out...just say it whatever you want to say...so that I can properly decide what next'' I sighs '' I don''t know what to say kate... its...its unexined and we don''t have sex a long time a go...so this news clearly blow up my mind'' Kate said '' what are you trying to say...that this is not your baby... are you trying to treat me again like this when I was having Aria...if you''re then im telling you we are done for good I replied '' for god sake kate...im surprised here too for fuck sake...im was just saying stuff But kate stopped me '' if you remember what doctor said... im almost 8 weeks pregnant...n let me remind you when we had sexst time...it was day before Aria birthday when youe to apologized me for snapping at me in the dinner table when I stopped Emma to not eat choctes... does it click something'' I remember that night when I was desperate enough to have kate ... in order to feel her that she is not leaving me ...but the fuck I know we will conceived a baby too I replied '' of course kate I remember...n I know this baby is mine...its too much for me...'' Kate said '' well its for me too...especially now...but Alex if you don''t make up your mind then we are seriously done...I won''t let this baby be treated like the way Aria is treated by you'' I replied '' Kate I loved Aria more than anything n you know that...I know I was a fool to ignore her n but now I had her im not letting her n you go anywhere'' She replied '' then what about this baby'' I replied '' kate I want you...but I came with some backage that I want to solve out... give me time'' She said '' take time but I want to know soon so thar I can decide where I stand'' N with that she was gone. Kate Tonight Alex didn''te... n I was nervous but I know that I won''t let the past repeat this time if he doesn''t want this baby then good for him because im totally done with him..it was quitete n Aria was sleeping then I felt my door was knocked I saw it was Alex ... I said '' Alex ...what are doing at this time of night'' He looked so disturbed n he said '' I was waiting to talk to you in the morning but I can''t control myself n I came n tell you'' I nodded '' n what is it?'' He replied '' after I dropped you I think a little of things that how you brought a light in my life how you let me truly live again n because of Aria we are together for the first time...n how I fell in love with you more than anything...n you bing pregnant n having a child again with me doesn''t make me feel guilty but contented n happy like this is the sign for us to be together '' He holds my face n said '' Kate I love you ...I always thought Emily was love of my life but no ... Emily holds the part of my life n heart but Kate you are life n my heart.... I was terribly broken when I lost Emily but if I lost you I won''t survive kate...pleasee back...I want Aria back my new born baby back'' He was crying now n I started crying too '' Alex...oh Alex ...I love you too...I wille back but you are happy for this baby truly ? '' He kissed me n said '' kate I swear to god yes I''m ...I mean when I thought about to have an another child with you I feel so calm n love for this baby...'' I smiled n said '' Iing home Alex'' He kissed me hard n said '' oh god kate...I love you ....thank you so much for giving me a chance'' Chapter 45: Epilogue Chapter 45: Epilogue 1 .5 year Kate I saw our son Leon aka leo was sleeping peacefully in Alex chest...I had this bundle of joy in Christmas in he was exact image of his daddy except he has my ck hair but everything else is Alex ...Alex was very supporting to me in leo pregnancy n he still helps me whenever Leo wakes up in the middle of night...leo is 7 months old n very active we can''t keep hin in one ce...Alex n I every time run for him to stopped him going to pick dangerous stuff... my girls are so happy that they had a brother ... but my poor leo is very scared of them...because both the girls dress him up in make up n girly clothes.... When I came home 1-year ago ...I found Alex truly changed he put my n his portrait in the living room... when I asked why he did that he said '' kate ...i have to move on n I loved Emily but she is gone n she is ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org . noting back .. so she wants me to be happy n im happy with you ...n this portrait makes me happy'' He even changed the will n prenup ...now all of her children her heir n heiress to Robbins assets.. His rtion with Aria is so changed that both of then cant stay one minute away from her.. n same is with me n emma... I came back with my memoryne n softly wake Alex ... his eyes opened n said '' hi pretty girl'' I replied '' hi handsome ...leo is asleep let me take him'' But as soon as I hold him ...he stirred n open his blue eyes n cry ...'' well now he is hungry '' I unbuttoned my blouse n feed him Alex was looking at me n said '' you know its so sexy to watch you right now...you really a hot n sexy mother'' N I blushed n shake my head ...than Aria came running '' Daddy look.. I got A in maths'' He smiled n picked her n kissed her cheeks '' wow princess you are so smart ...well you deserve a treat don''t you think...tell me what you want'' N I forget to tell he spoils her way to much ... I said ''Alex ..you are spoiling her'' He smirks n said '' hey its between me n my beautiful daughter don''t get jealous'' Than emma came n said '' mama can we take leo now to y please'' Alex n Iughed ...we know what y really means I replied '' if leo is in mood than why not'' Leo was done with feeding n then he looked at every one n put her chubby hands n in his mouth ..n said '' ma..di ...di'' In ournguage he wants to be down...he start calling me ma recently ...n I loved it when he do that.. I put him down n then he start to crawl... n my girls start following him Alexughed '' no wonder what they will do with him this time '' I put my head in Alex shoulder '' im more worried that he will put all the make up n in their room walls '' Alexughed then he said '' hey did I said I love you n thank you so much for giving me this beautiful family...its because of you im living kate '' I said '' well you''re kinda of involved too in making this family so I can''t take the whole credit '' He grins n said '' oh really ...how about we do a little more practice'' I said ''no I have call to make to my office ''yes I still keep the job n now im promoted to editor post ...n Alex is also happy that it was my dream to work in my field... He said ''its weekend you can do it afterward ...im not letting you go'' N he attacks me with his mouth n Iughed n thank god that he makes my dreame true for giving me my family,three beautiful children and finally my one sided love was now reciprocated. Chapter 45: Chap 45 Chapter 45: Chap 45 Kate I let Alex enter the apartment n said '' Hi..'' He replied '' hi how are you '' '' im good but where''s Emma you didn''t bring her'' I said in disappointment ...Its more than a week where Alex came daily with emma n he let her sleep here n then Alex picked the girls n take them to school ...it was some sort of routine we had adopted He said '' she is with your father...today He came n wanted to take her for a weekend Mona was missing her...so I can''t say no...n I told him about us'' I looked down n said '' n he must be very happy about it...he has tokd me before I won''t stay forever with you'' Alex flinched n said '' Actually for the first time I found him to be very worried n when I told that Max pushed Emma not he looked very sad n guilty....he told me that you didn''t tell him anything otherwise he would keep you n Aria in his home'' I said with a sad smile '' that was never my home Alex ...I was just a mistake ...so I won''t go ever there'' Alex looked sad n said '' I know...I sometimes think that we never truly appreciated n consider you for your love , kindness n your sacrifices made by you for others..'' It was a awkward moment n we both were silent then we heard Aria voice n. Saw her running towards us '' Daddy , Daddy ... you back'' Alex face changes to a big smile n he picked Aria n kissed her n said '' Hi my princess how are you...I missed you so much...n I brought something for you...I hope you will love this'' He kissed her forehead n Aria face beamed with happiness Daily Alex bring something for her...sometimes it''s sweets , sometimes butterfly coloring books...n one day he buy an ipad for her.. .that day Alex bes a best daddy in Aria eyes n when she said that...I saw Alex eyes shines with moisture n happiness...I thought to go home with Alex but still im giving time to them n understand that is not temporary ... I said to Alex '' you''re spoiling her with all these gifts'' He softly smiled n looked at Aria n said '' I will buy her the world if I can then i will... n she deserves so much more'' My eyes be moist n I know at any moment im going to shred tears so I control myself I saw Emma was sitting in Alexp n opening her present n when she saw the doll she stopped n said '' Daddy ...its the same doll Mama n I saw in the toy store n mama say that I will get it in Christmas ....but you got it for me now....daddy you''re best n its so pretty doll.. more pretty than the first...'' Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. Alex eyes were guilty n said '' yeah ..you know daddy was very sad n angry with himself that he broke the doll... im so sorry Aria for that but I brought a new one for you ....n I will buy you hundred of dolls you want to have'' Aria said '' really daddy '' I replied ''Aria daddy will buy you a doll in any special asion not everyday... ok Alex ...nowe both of you dinner is ready '' ALex grins n said '' I loved it when you are bossy'' I blushed n said nothing After dinner Alex was going but Aria stop n said '' no mama..please say daddy stay...I want daddy...Daddy please don''t go'' Aria was crying now... she was so attached to Alex in short period of time that all the time she need her daddy Alex wiped her tears n said '' hi my pretty girl don''t cry ...I love you so much but daddy have to go..'' Aria tightly put her hands on his neck n said '' Daddy stay with us n we will sleep together please ...mama please say to daddy'' I said '' Alex If she is saying so much then stay ...'' He said '' if that''s ok with you'' I replied '' yup .. She really want you to stay'' I was arranged the bed n let Alex give him his own night shirt which I brought with myself when i left the house...I awkwardly said '' I used to wear this shirt may be I brought it without thinking'' He smiled n said '' well now itsing handy'' Aria n I wasying in sofa cum bed then I saw Alex .. he try toy on it n I said '' you may not be He said '' Im good n no need to buy a bed because you''reing home soon'' I looked at Alex how confident he was but its my decision to make and no one... Aria was in middle n she changed her side ny her head n Alex chest n said '' It''s so cool that we are in same bed...daddy im happy you''re here'' Alexughed n said '' me too princess ...ok tell me what story do you want to listen '' Alex was reading a story book n he was running his hands on Aria head so that she can sleep ... I said '' Alex she has fall asleep '' Alex looked at Aria sleeping face n tenderly smiled ..he kissed her head n gentle put her in middle n turned to me n soft said '' she is beautiful kate...very beautiful n fun loving kid but im an idiot to ignore her for years ...I mean I was so dense that I didn''t appreciate the beautiful gift God has given me in the face of Aria....im so sorry kate I hurt you n Aria beyond anything'' I replied '' Alex I always believed one day YOU will love her n understand her ...I thank god for showing me this day...so whatever is in past stays in past...but im really trying to move forward n make best decision '' He give me a understanding look n said '' I respect that but I have a hope that you wille back home '' I sighs '' I don''t know when Alex ...let''s sleep we both are tired'' Alex I was knocking at the door for 5 minutes than I saw Aria in her school dress n she opened it...I said '' hi babe... how did you opened the door '' She pointed at the chair '' I climbed on it...it took me some time to open the lock'' I replied '' where is your mama'' Aria said '' Mama is sick...she is vomiting ...she can''t even help me to tie the shoes'' I looked at her shoes n be worried about kate '' ok where''s she is?'' Aria take my head n take me to the washroom ... I saw kate was sitting in the floor of bathroom n holding her stomach ... I run to her n hold her '' kate...shit.. you look so pale ..e on lets go to doctor'' She replied '' Alex I can''t move ...n Aria its gettingte for school...just drop her please...I can''t move right now'' I hurriedly replied '' kate I can''t leave you... you are clearly so sick... She stopped me n said '' take Aria to school ne back then take me...I just need some minutes to settle down my stomach n take a bath ...please Alex'' I shake my head '' what if you need me... She try to smile n said '' Im ok Alex just little tired ...please take Aria she is gettingte n if I need you I will call you'' I sighs '' ok.( I kissed her head) iming in few minutes ...just call me right away'' I picked Aria n put her in car ... Aria said '' Daddy ...my shoes '' I remember then said '' oh give me your foot'' I tied her shoece n then take her to her school n see off her in her ss.. I raced my car to kate apartment n opened the door with the key I had taken by with me.... when I reached the living room ... I saw kate freshly showered ... but she look so weak n tired ...her eyes were covered with ck heads ...I said '' kate...are you ok now'' She replied '' yeah but still feeling nauseated a little ...I don''t know why... I mean I was ok in the morning when I woke .... I was making Aria getting ready n cooking breakfast than all of a sudden I feel dizzy n my stomach torn up ...n then I start vomiting ...that''s why when you reached I can''t opened the door.. I send Aria to open it'' I replied '' you''re so tired all the time with the job n all other stuff..e on lets go to doctor ...Im pretty sure it has do do with your daily stress nck of appetite n sleep'' Kate protested but I was determined ....when we reached doctor ...they start taking her her BP n Blood sugar test n other test... They said us to wait for the test results... after half an hour doctor came I said '' Doctor ..is she ok ... Doctor smiled '' Kate iscking some of the nutrition''s ...but she n the baby is fine'' I nodded n said '' oh thank god ..( then I stopped ) wait a minute you said baby ...what baby'' I saw kate shocked face n doctor said '' oh you guys don''t know ... kate is almost 8 weeks pregnant..congrattions to you guys'' My face paled n it looks like I stopped breathing.... Kate said '' I think ...its misunderstanding I was taking birth control pills ...n I was using them for the past 3 years ...never this happens'' Doctor said '' well pills are never 100% protected...n sometimes it stop working because of your stress level a body takes'' I don''t what happened next because I stopped at kate parking lot n wait for her to go out.... fuck... I can''t believe ...kate is pregnant again.... n I don''t know how to react Kate said '' Alex...please say something...you''re freaking me out...just say it whatever you want to say...so that I can properly decide what next'' I sighs '' I don''t know what to say kate... its...its unexined and we don''t have sex a long time a go...so this news clearly blow up my mind'' Kate said '' what are you trying to say...that this is not your baby... are you trying to treat me again like this when I was having Aria...if you''re then im telling you we are done for good I replied '' for god sake kate...im surprised here too for fuck sake...im was just saying stuff But kate stopped me '' if you remember what doctor said... im almost 8 weeks pregnant...n let me remind you when we had sexst time...it was day before Aria birthday when youe to apologized me for snapping at me in the dinner table when I stopped Emma to not eat choctes... does it click something'' I remember that night when I was desperate enough to have kate ... in order to feel her that she is not leaving me ...but the fuck I know we will conceived a baby too I replied '' of course kate I remember...n I know this baby is mine...its too much for me...'' Kate said '' well its for me too...especially now...but Alex if you don''t make up your mind then we are seriously done...I won''t let this baby be treated like the way Aria is treated by you'' I replied '' Kate I loved Aria more than anything n you know that...I know I was a fool to ignore her n but now I had her im not letting her n you go anywhere'' She replied '' then what about this baby'' I replied '' kate I want you...but I came with some backage that I want to solve out... give me time'' She said '' take time but I want to know soon so thar I can decide where I stand'' N with that she was gone. Kate Tonight Alex didn''te... n I was nervous but I know that I won''t let the past repeat this time if he doesn''t want this baby then good for him because im totally done with him..it was quitete n Aria was sleeping then I felt my door was knocked I saw it was Alex ... I said '' Alex ...what are doing at this time of night'' He looked so disturbed n he said '' I was waiting to talk to you in the morning but I can''t control myself n I came n tell you'' I nodded '' n what is it?'' He replied '' after I dropped you I think a little of things that how you brought a light in my life how you let me truly live again n because of Aria we are together for the first time...n how I fell in love with you more than anything...n you bing pregnant n having a child again with me doesn''t make me feel guilty but contented n happy like this is the sign for us to be together '' He holds my face n said '' Kate I love you ...I always thought Emily was love of my life but no ... Emily holds the part of my life n heart but Kate you are life n my heart.... I was terribly broken when I lost Emily but if I lost you I won''t survive kate...pleasee back...I want Aria back my new born baby back'' He was crying now n I started crying too '' Alex...oh Alex ...I love you too...I wille back but you are happy for this baby truly ? '' He kissed me n said '' kate I swear to god yes I''m ...I mean when I thought about to have an another child with you I feel so calm n love for this baby...'' I smiled n said '' Iing home Alex'' He kissed me hard n said '' oh god kate...I love you ....thank you so much for giving me a chance'' Chapter 46: Epilogue Chapter 46: Epilogue 1 .5 year Kate I saw our son Leon aka leo was sleeping peacefully in Alex chest...I had this bundle of joy in Christmas in he was exact image of his daddy except he has my ck hair but everything else is Alex ...Alex was very supporting to me in leo pregnancy n he still helps me whenever Leo wakes up in the middle of night...leo is 7 months old n very active we can''t keep hin in one ce...Alex n I every time run for him to stopped him going to pick dangerous stuff... my girls are so happy that they had a brother ... but my poor leo is very scared of them...because both the girls dress him up in make up n girly clothes.... When I came home 1-year ago ...I found Alex truly changed he put my n his portrait in the living room... when I asked why he did that he said '' kate ...i have to move on n I loved Emily but she is gone n she is noting back .. so she wants me to be happy n im happy with you ...n this portrait makes me happy'' He even changed the will n prenup ...now all of her children her heir n heiress to Robbins assets.. His rtion with Aria is so changed that both of then cant stay one minute away from her.. n same is with me n emma... I came back with my memoryne n softly wake Alex ... his eyes opened n said '' hi pretty girl'' I replied '' hi handsome ...leo is asleep let me take him'' But as soon as I hold him ...he stirred n open his blue eyes n cry ...'' well now he is hungry '' I unbuttoned my blouse n feed him Alex was looking at me n said '' you know its so sexy to watch you right now...you really a hot n sexy mother'' N I blushed n shake my head ...than Aria came running '' Daddy look.. I got A in maths'' He smiled n picked her n kissed her cheeks '' wow princess you are so smart ...well you deserve a treat don''t you think...tell me what you want'' N I forget to tell he spoils her way to much ... I said ''Alex ..you are spoiling her'' He smirks n said '' hey its between me n my beautiful daughter don''t get jealous'' Than emma came n said '' mama can we take leo now to y please'' Alex n Iughed ...we know what y really means Property of N?)(velDr(a)ma.Org. I replied '' if leo is in mood than why not'' Leo was done with feeding n then he looked at every one n put her chubby hands n in his mouth ..n said '' ma..di ...di'' In ournguage he wants to be down...he start calling me ma recently ...n I loved it when he do that.. I put him down n then he start to crawl... n my girls start following him Alexughed '' no wonder what they will do with him this time '' I put my head in Alex shoulder '' im more worried that he will put all the make up n in their room walls '' Alexughed then he said '' hey did I said I love you n thank you so much for giving me this beautiful family...its because of you im living kate '' I said '' well you''re kinda of involved too in making this family so I can''t take the whole credit '' He grins n said '' oh really ...how about we do a little more practice'' I said ''no I have call to make to my office ''yes I still keep the job n now im promoted to editor post ...n Alex is also happy that it was my dream to work in my field... He said ''its weekend you can do it afterward ...im not letting you go'' N he attacks me with his mouth n Iughed n thank god that he makes my dreame true for giving me my family,three beautiful children and finally my one sided love was now reciprocated. 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