《The Guide Is Fixing His Regrets》


 Chapter 1

    Summer


    I awaken as a guide.


    My wish was to become an A-class guide, which is only 3% of the few guides.


    So-Won, who was still young, immature and ignorant, was distracted by the benefits of the country pouring out as soon as he awaken as a guide.


    I didn¡¯t do anything, but money came into my bank account, and I didn¡¯t have to prepare for a job, and I wouldn¡¯t need to join the military that I had delayed and postponed.


    So-Won had no doubt that he would match with an ideal esper.


    ¡°You were matched with S-class Esper Kang Tae-woo.¡±


    However, the day I was notified of the matching result, everything collapsed.


    S-Class Esper Kang Tae-Woo.


    Having a terrible side effect of not being guided and he is covered with red blood veins, he was one of the only three S-class esper in Korea.


    In line with his modifier monster, his ability was a body-hardening type, a man who fought bare-handed with steel-like hardness and incredible power.


    Kang Tae-woo has achieved a remarkable record of less than 5% matching rate with all guides since he woke up as an Esper at the age of 10, and has always lived only with machine guidance, so he was an Esper who they did not know when he would explode.


    There were times when he almost killed a person by mistake because he couldn¡¯t control his power.


    That monster and So-Won achieved a matching rate of 65% for the first time.


    As soon as the matching result came out, So-Won went to the department in charge and cried and begged and asked to change Esper.


    The employee looked sadly at So-Won, but all he could say was that he should be Kang Tae-woo¡¯s guide according to the guide obligation system.


    Since then, So-Won¡¯s life has been the worst.


    On his first meeting with Kang Tae-woo, he had a more horrible appearance than he had seen on the Internet.


    The height of 2m, a large body, and the scariest thing was, of course, the dark red blood veins that covered the whole body.


    The veins that popped out above the skin sometimes seemed to wriggle, making him feel like he was watching a horror movie.


    As soon as he met Tae-Woo¡¯s beastly eyes looking at him, So-Won almost fainted.


    His body trembled unruly.


    The staff managed to stop him from collapsing because his legs were weak.


    Looking at him, Tae-Woo calmly turned his head.


    According to the guide obligation system, So-Won lived with Kang Tae-woo in the same house, but So-Won was busy running away shaking whenever he encountered him.


    He was completely deprived of food and drink and confined to his room, and fled to his parents¡¯ house and hid, but he had to return to Tae-Woo¡¯s house every time at the warning of the Esper Association.


    So-Won suffered from depression and was worried because of the person living with him.


    Tae-Woo felt sorry for So-Won.


    His emotions were heavy and dull, so he didn¡¯t feel anything, but he knew he is a monster, and would scare the small and fragile So-Won.


    Tae-Woo understood that, too.


    Finally, he met his guide, but he avoided contact with So-Won in consideration of him, he received a minimum of guidance, and survived through machine guidance as before.


    Eight years have passed like that.


    So-Won still felt that Tae-Woo was still terrible and scary, but he could get used to it a little.


    Nevertheless, his life is still hard, so he has not met Tae-woo except during the contact guide.


    There was no conversation between Tae-Woo and So-Won for eight years.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s condition, of course, got worse and worst.


    The veins around the eyes now spread all over the face, and the guiding machine in the house increased to five.


    So-Won began to feel more and more guilty about Tae-Woo, but that didn¡¯t mean that So-Won guided him.


    Still, when So-Won saw him, he couldn¡¯t move because he was frozen like ice, and Tae-woo, who saw him would avoid him.


    The two grew farther and farther apart.


    Then today, a gate opened in Incheon in the middle of the night.


    The entire Republic of Korea was nervous when the gate suddenly opened in the middle of Incheon without a sign.


    The government declared a state of emergency, and stronger than usual monsters popped out all at once, causing havoc near the gate.


    The level of difficulty expected by the government is S-level.


    It was a super-large gate in Korean history.


    Hours have passed since three S-class Esper of South Korea, including Kang Tae-woo, gathered and headed to the gate.


    So-Won waited at the Esper Association building near the gate to guide Kang Tae-woo, who had been to the gate according to the guide obligation system.


    So-Won had already been waiting in the waiting room for hours for the gate to be closed with Esper¡¯s guides dispatched to Incheon Gate.


    By the time he was stiff from sitting for too long, he heard from the TV on the association¡¯s wall that the gate was barely closed. Several guides sitting in the waiting room could be heard relieved.


    So-Won envied them who could worry about their respective Esper.


    The fact that the gate was closed meant that he had to guide Tae-Woo, and So-Won was scared to face Tae-Woo, who would not be in better condition than usual by using his ability.


    ¡°Guide Lee So-Won?¡±


    An employee who ran hurriedly breathed heavily and found So-Won that was shaking with fear among several guides.


    ¡± Esper Kang Tae-woo is in an emergency. Please come with me¡­.¡±


    The employee¡¯s expression was serious.


    However, even when So-Won saw the face, he was not worried about Tae-Woo¡¯s condition.


    He was just scared to meet Tae-Woo.


    The staff who guided So-Won was in hurry.


    The smell of blood intensified as he walked.


    So-Won strangely began to tremble nervously.


    The place where the employee brought So-Won was the operating room.


    So-Won, who opened the door and entered, was surprised by the smell of blood rushing into his nose.


    What was soon seen was an incredible situation.


    There was something large lying on the operating room bed, and the doctors stood still, unable to do anything, surrounding it.


    Something big was red wet and ragged, so it was hard to notice that it was Tae-Woo.


    Blood dripped under the bed.


    When he lowered his gaze, blood was already collected at So-Won¡¯s feet.


    Are those all from Tae-Woo¡¯s body?It was an unrealistic situation.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s condition, which was belatedly confirmed, was serious.


    The strong skin, which was said to never been pierced, seemed to have been penetrated by a huge horn, and blood was constantly pouring out from the large hole in the stomach.


    Blood flowed steadily from large and small wounds that were not regenerating.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s condition was so serious that it was hard to believe he was even alive.


    While the doctors couldn¡¯t even figure out how to connect the completely ragged body, So-won sat on the blood-filled floor and held Tae-woo¡¯s hand with trembling hands.


    It was cold.


    It was so cold and hard that it didn¡¯t seem like a human hand.


    Tae-woo, who called So-Won by making a fuss, was far more positive than usual.


    Only then did So-Won realize little by little that this situation was real.


    While Tae-Woo felt all his senses slowly disappearing, he sensed warmth in one hand.


    Sensing that his guide had come, he opened his eyes and looked at So-Won.


    The guide, who couldn¡¯t say anything when he saw him, looked at him blankly and shed tears.


    He lost a lot of weight compared to eight years ago. He always thought his plump cheeks and round eyes were cute.


    The innocent guide was unhappy to meet him.


    He made a man who would be happy without him unhappy because he was a terrible monster.


    Tae-woo managed to say what he had been thinking all this time and couldn¡¯t say.


    ¡°I¡¯m sorry.¡±


    His voice cracked and rested weakly for the first time.


    So-Won¡¯s heart fell to the floor with a thud as she heard the thin sound leaking miserably.


    Guilt weighed down So-Won.


    He couldn¡¯t do anything but sobbed while holding Tae-Woo¡¯s hand.


    With a heavy cough, Tae-Woo vomited dark red blood.


    The blood that came out soaked his face badly. Tae-Woo¡¯s eyes seemed to look into the air without focus.


    So-Won felt scared, he felt like he was going to die. ¡°I¡¯m sorry, I¡¯m sorry. Don¡¯t die¡­. Please, I¡¯m sorry¡­¡±he hurriedly opened his mouth, but all that came out of from his mouth was a simple apology that repeatedly came out.


    This isn¡¯t it.


    S-class Esper, monster, steel skin that can¡¯t pierce anything.


    He never imagined Tae-Woo, who had a fancy modifier, would die.


    He suffered and resented him for the life he would spend tied to him, but the reality? He had never even properly guided him, looked at him like a monster, and didn¡¯t even treat him like a person.


    On the other hand, instead of forcing So-Won to guide, Tae-Woo endured the pain that drove him crazy, and quietly left his seat when he encountered So-Won who could not move.


    So-Won realized.


    In fact, the worst person was So-Won, himself.


    The real monster was him.


    I¡¯m co-translating this one with my friend, we are both beginner in KR language so most of this is MTL with a bit of editing.  Don¡¯t be rude and be polite when correcting, this series doesn¡¯t have an editor. If you don¡¯t like the translation please just leave or read directly from the raws. Corrections are appreciated but please say it in a polite way.

 Chapter 2

    ¡°I¡¯ll do well from now on, I¡¯ll guide you, and I¡¯ll try harder. Don¡¯t die, please¡­¡±


    So-Won was now begging him, but Tae-Woo was slowly dying.


    So-Won, who had noticed it, cried even louder, shedding tears.


    There was no reaction from Tae-Woo, even amidst the indistinguishable cries of So-Won.


    His breath was fading, and Tae-Woo¡¯s wavelength felt in his hands was getting weaker.


    He was really about to die.


    So-Won held Tae-Woo¡¯s hand desperately as if it was his life.


    ¡°Be happy.¡±


    The unexpected words stopped So-Won¡¯s cry.


    So-Won looked at Tae-Woo in surprise.


    His eyes weakly closed.


    Beep.


    The sound of the machine echoed in several branches like a tinnitus.


    At the same time, Tae-Woo¡¯s thin wavelength, which was felt on his hand, was cut off like scissors.


    His field of vision went black.


    So-Won¡¯s eyes slowly opened.


    The blurred vision became clearer and brighter.


    So-Won lay blank for a while and looked around.


    The place where So-Won was, is in the emergency room.


    With the smell of the hospital, people were busily walking around.


    The first thing that came to mind when his mind cleared, was Tae-Woo¡¯s death.


    ¡®Kang Tae-Woo.¡¯


    As soon as he thought of him, tears flowed down his eyes.


    The tears that began with a drop flowed constantly as if it were tap water, wetting the fluffy pillow under his head.


    ¡®Is Tae-Woo dead?¡¯


    ¡®He must have died.¡¯


    The bleeding operating room, Tae-Woo, who was lying helplessly without the wound regenerating, passed by So-Won¡¯s eyes.


    The break of the wavelength felt before he lost his mind and the high and the sharp sound of the machine sounded like a ringing in my ears.


    ¡°Be happy.¡±


    So-Won remembered Tae-Woo¡¯s last words.


    So-Won didn¡¯t treat him well enough to be blessed by him.


    He¡¯d rather have been cursed him, but there was no reason for him to say that to him.


    He¡¯d rather Tae-Woo swear at him because he did not do his duty as a guide.


    The last time he saw Tae-Woo¡¯s face, the dark red veins that seemed to eat him were spread.


    The veins were spread not only through the face but also throughout the body, such curses, were side effects of Tae-Woo, who had not been guided.


    If So-Won had properly guided him, he could at least die with a clean face.


    Guilt squeezed So-Won¡¯s heart.


    So-Won suffered a pain, the pain that he had never experienced in his life.


    He felt like he had been stabbed again and again.


    Regret flooded in.


    So-Won began to sob and cry aloud.


    ¡°Lee So-Won, are you sick?¡±


    The nurse passing by was surprised and talked to So-Won when she saw him crying.


    So-Won did not answer.


    ¡°It hurts. My heart hurt so much that I feel like I was going to die. Tae-Woo died and I was the cause of his death.¡±


    So-Won hated himself, who was young and ignorant.


    He¡¯s a person, too.


    He wanted to yell at himself not to look at him like a monster.


    A nurse who felt So-Won, who only cried silently was unusual, called a doctor.


    ¡°Lee So-Won, congratulations on your awakening as an A-class guide. Is there any inconvenience?¡±


    The doctor approached and examined So-Won¡¯s body here and there.


    The patient was clearly crying out like it¡¯s the end of the world, but there seemed to be nothing wrong with his body.


    The bewildered doctor looked at So-Won.


    A patient who woke up as an A-class guide and fainted due to pain, and this is his reaction as soon as he wakes up.


    This is the first case.


    He was worried that the precious A-class guide would have complications and he would be criticized by the public.


    ¡°Nurse, please call the Guide Association.¡±


    The doctor eventually chose to pass it on.


    So-Won was speechless while crying when he heard the doctor congratulating him on seeing him awakened, it has already been eight years ago since he awakened.


    Even now, he is in a state of shock because Tae-Woo is dead.So-Won looked at the doctor in tears because he was speechless and felt uncomfortable when he saw the name of the hospital written on the doctor¡¯s name tag.


    Apparently, So-Won was at the Esper Association in Incheon, which was now a university hospital in the middle of Seoul.


    He thought about it because he was familiar with the name, it was a hospital that he came to when he awakened at the age of 22.


    Thinking it was strange, So-Won stopped crying and looked around the hospital with a teary face.


    Suddenly, he noticed a digital clock hanging on one side.


    The time was midnight, and the date was summer eight years ago.


    ¡®Is the clock broken? No, it must be a dream.¡¯


    The place was weird, the doctor was weird, and the clock was weird.


    It was clearly a dream.


    ¡°Hey, this is a dream, right? Tae-Woo, is he dead?¡±


    The nurse and the doctor exchanged strange looks.


    ¡°It¡¯s not a dream. You¡¯ve awakened as an A-class guide. Do you feel pain in your head?¡±


    So-Won, who heard that it was not a dream, blinked for a moment.


    Well, there¡¯s no way he¡¯d say a dream is not true in a dream.


    ¡® If this was a dream, I wanted to see Tae-Woo, who might not be there when I wake up. ¡®


    When he thought of Tae-Woo, tears came back from So-Won¡¯s eyes.


    ¡°Please call Kang Tae-Woo for me¡­. Kang Tae-woo, S-class Esper, please¡­¡±


    So-Won shed tears again.


    The doctor was flustered and called both the Guide Association and the Esper Association.


    So-Won only cried like a child, calling Tae-Woo¡¯s name.


    The couple, who were rushing into the emergency room, heard a familiar voice and ran to So-Won.


    The couple was greatly surprised to see So-Won crying sadly.


    ¡°Oh, So-Won! Are you sick? Why are you crying? Doctor, did So-Won get hurt? How sick is he? He¡¯s crying like this! ¡±


    It was So-Won¡¯s mother.


    So-Won turned his head to a familiar voice.


    His younger parents were looking at him with worried eyes.


    It was too detailed for a dream.


    However, in So-Won¡¯s head, only Tae-Woo¡¯s who died in a pool of blood remained in his head.


    ¡°The patient has awakened as an A-class guide. There is no abnormality in the body, but we don¡¯t know the cause. Now that I¡¯ve contacted the Guides Association¡­¡±


    ¡°What? A guide?¡±


    ¡°Kang Tae-Woo¡­ Tae-Woo¡­¡±¡±


    Crying.


    So-Won¡¯s cry confused the emergency room.


    Even those brought in with mild symptoms glanced where So-Won were.


    So-Won felt the gaze, but he continued to sob by calling Tae-Woo¡¯s name regardless.


    So-Won cried out Kang Tae-Woo¡¯s name for a long time until he couldn¡¯t cry, and the doctor and So-Won¡¯s parents talked with serious expressions, saying that So-Won¡¯s condition was strange.


    The uproar continued until the doctor, who rushed from the Guide Association, saw So-Won and said there was nothing wrong.


    ¡°Did he fall asleep after crying or woke up from a dream?¡±


    So-Won tried to open his eyes tightly with his broken memories.


    When he looked around, So-Won was lying alone in a single hospital room.


    ¡®Was it a dream? I wanted to meet Tae-Woo in my dream and apologize.¡¯


    Tears flowed down from So-Won¡¯s eyes, who eventually failed to meet Tae-Woo in his dream.


    His eyes stings because he cried so much.


    ¡°Oh, So-Won, why are you crying again? Are you sick? The doctor said there¡¯s no problem¡­¡±


    The door of the hospital room opened and So-Won¡¯s mother came in.


    ¡°Mom¡­ Is Tae-Woo dead?¡±


    ¡°Who is Tae-Woo? You¡¯ve been looking for him since yesterday¡­. Did you dream about him? You are already old but still cries because of a dream.¡±


    So-Won was surprised because his mother didn¡¯t know Tae-Woo.


    Last night he saw his mother, who looks young, like a dream.


    So-Won couldn¡¯t speak because he was flustered.


    ¡®Is it still a dream?¡¯


    ¡°Mom, what year is this?¡±


    ¡°It¡¯s 2022. So-Won, are you sick? Should I call a doctor and ask him to check it out again?¡±


    So-Won still tried to believe that this place was in a dream, but he slightly pinched his body under the blanket.


    It stings.


    ¡®It didn¡¯t seem like a dream either.¡¯


    ¡°So you¡¯re saying the last eight years are all dreams?¡±


    ¡°So-Won, they said you woke up as an A-class guide. You always talk about not wanting to get a job. You must be happy that you don¡¯t have to prepare for a job. Right?¡±


    ¡®But the last eight years have been so vivid. It was a terrible hell, and every day was too long.¡¯


    So-Won recalled the past.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s last appearance passed by.


    He can still feel the smell of blood.


    So-Won even thought it was unrealistic to think that he return back in the past.


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    Even the cell phone next to So-Won was the model that So-Won used in the past.


    So-Won pressed his cell phone hard.


    Soon the screen brightened and showed the date, eight years ago.


    The date was the day after So-Won woke up as a guide.


    Perhaps worried about So-Won who is not answering, So-Won¡¯s mother went outside again, saying she would call a nurse.


    While looking at the figure, So-Won suddenly thought he should search for Tae-Woo¡¯s name.


    ¡®Kang Tae-Woo.¡¯


    When he pressed the three letters, there were a lot of articles about the profile without a face and Tae-Woo.


    Fortunately, there were no reports of his death.


    ¡°Ha¡­¡±


    A relief escaped So-Won, that he even exhaled deeply.


    So-Won, who stretched out his arms and legs, lay on his bed.


    Outside the window, he could see a clear sky without a cloud.


    He tried all kinds of strange imaginations while looking at the peaceful sky, but nothing happened.


    As expected, it doesn¡¯t seem like a dream.


    If so, did he go back in time?


    Hello, sorry I didn¡¯t know I should just stick to one POV since some of the KR novels I read were like this, switching from 1st pov to the third. I would do 3rd POV for future chapters.


    Sometimes I feel bad reading bad reviews about my translations, technically I¡¯m just sharing my work for free and not asking you guys to pay for anything. I know my eng is not perfect and honestly one of the reason I started translations, is because I want to improve.


    Constructive criticism is fine but sarcasm and being rude is not.

 Chapter 3

    It didn¡¯t seem strange to say that the gate was open all the time, unknown monsters popped out, and people were in a world where they used superpowers.


    ¡®If it¡¯s a regression, then I¡­¡¯


    The door opened and the nurse came in.


    So-Won quickly snapped out from his thoughts and looked at the nurse.


    ¡°Congratulations on waking up as an A-class guide, patient Lee So-Won.¡±


    Whether when returning or dreaming, So-Won was still an A-class guide.


    ¡°I thought you weren¡¯t feeling well, so I moved you to the Guide Association overnight for an examination, and there was no major abnormality. Is there anything uncomfortable about you? You can leave the hospital right away, but since you¡¯re here at the Guide Association, it¡¯ll be convenient for you to have a wavelength test. Would you like to go home after the examination?¡±


    ¡°Yes.¡±


    So-Won followed the nurse to the wavelength examination room without saying anything.


    It was a test So-Won did 8 years ago, so his memory is hazy.


    When he arrived at the laboratory and saw large machines and researchers, So-Won feels like his memory is coming back.


    When he lays down on the machine under the guidance of the employee, the machine moves alone and started the inspection.


    Cold metal touched and So-Won feels it in his body, the researchers then attaches something to him.


    So-Won was tested for wavelength and tried to revive some of his past memories.


    So-Won¡¯s awakening as a guide, at the age of 22, was quite late compared to the usual guide awakening as a teenager.


    Class-A guides were very rare because it only makes up 3 percent of the few guides.


    When awakened as a guide, after conducting a wavelength test as it is now, the matching rate with the Espers in the database would be checkes to decide who to pair with.


    So-Won was matched with Kang Tae-Woo, an S-class Esper, but most of them were matched with Esper with the same grade.


    Will he match with Tae-Woo again?


    So-Won thought quietly.


    Eight years ago, Tae-Woo and So-Won had a matching rate of 65%.


    So-Won thinks that there could be a different result this time.


    If Tae-Woo and himself don¡¯t match¡­


    He thought he might be happy.


    ¡° Be happy.¡±


    So-Won was surprised by the voice that sounded like a hallucination.


    As soon as he remembers Tae-Woo¡¯s last words, guilt weighs down on So-Won.


    The view of the operating room, cold hands and glimmering eyes, and his own howling in the pool of blood came to mind.


    So-Won, who thought of his future without Tae-Woo for a moment, was just endlessly ashamed of his ugly heart.


    When he was going to die, when he was feeling guilty watching him turn cold, he regretted it like that¡­.


    He wants to hide somewhere because of his ugly selfishness.


    So-Won wants to apologize to Tae-Woo.


    Even if he doesn¡¯t remember him.


    ¡®Isn¡¯t this regression for that?¡¯


    The wavelength test was over with the sound of the machine.


    The researchers said they could take the machine off So-Won¡¯s body and he could go home.


    ¡°Kang Tae-Woo.¡±


    So-Won closes his eyes tightly.


    So-Won could now accept that his death was entirely his responsibility. Now it was time to take responsibility for him.


    Finally, the determined So-Won opened his mouth.


    ¡°I¡¯d like check the matching rate for a specific esper.¡±


    ¡°Oh, do you know anyone? If so, we can check the matching rate first after mutual consent.¡±


    ¡°Please check the matching rate with Kang Tae-Woo, S-class Esper.¡±


    ¡°What? Kang Tae-Woo?¡±


    The researcher asks back in great surprise.


    ¡°S-class Esper Kang Tae-Woo, are you going to apply for a matching test with such a monster?¡±


    Anyway, the researcher had to check the matching rate with Kang Tae-Woo, who did not have a guide yet.


    However, they never imagined, let alone heard of someone who wants to do a matching test with Kang Tae-Woo first, even though they still needs do a matching test with Kang Tae-Woo just in case it would match him.


    The researcher scans the guide in front of him.


    Although he was an adult, he looked young, and with round eyes and good and innocent eyes, he feels like he would be eaten right away when he stood in front of the monster.


    So-Won, who was looking at the researcher¡¯s shaking eyes, nods.


    So-Won also expected this reaction.


    However, he couldn¡¯t sit still and wait until a week after the results came out.


    Kang Tae-Woo must still be suffering now, he had to help him get out of the pain as soon as possible.


    So-Won made up his mind.


    He¡¯ll treat him not as a monster but a human being.¡¯


    He won¡¯t avoid him and he¡¯ll do his best to guide him.


    Even if he dies, he can die in the form of a clean person, not in a state in which the curse-like dark red veins cover his whole body.


    ¡°First of all, I will contact Esper Kang Tae-Woo, and if he agrees, I will contact you after conducting a matching test as the first priority.¡±


    The researcher reluctantly accepted So-Won¡¯s firm attitude, but while speaking, he was not sure if he was doing the right thing.


    The researcher just bowed his head and looked at a small guide leaving the examination room.


    After the examination, So-Won returns to his home with his family.


    The house that he came back after a long time was the same as the house in his memory eight years ago.


    Every detail was so identical that he realizes once again that this was not a dream.


    He always spent time looking at the empty space in Kang Tae-Woo¡¯s large house, but looking at the small but full of junk makes him feel comfortable.


    The surprise party in the evening was so similar to So-Won¡¯s memory that it was amazing.


    A mouth-watering chocolate cake, seaweed soup, and loud firecrackers.


    It was completely out of place, but this combination will make someone smile.


    So-Won spends the evening with his family, chatting loudly and laughing.


    Just like eight years ago, when he didn¡¯t know he would match with Kang Tae-Woo.


    After the chaotic day, So-Won blinks, holding back his sleep, lying on a small bed in a room with the lights off.


    He was afraid that if he closes his eyes and opens them, He would go back to the day Tae-Woo died.


    It seemed that he could still see the operating room covered with blood when he closes his eyes.


    The blood-soaked Tae-Woo and the faint feeling of wavelength that seems to break at any moment bothered So-Won.


    When will the matching test result be released?


    He knows that it was roughly long.


    It took a week last time.


    It took quite a while to compare it with the entire A-class Espers, but it eventually matched Kang Tae-Woo.


    This time, he¡¯ll match it with Kang Tae-Woo first, so wouldn¡¯t it take about two days at the earliest?


    So-Won suddenly became worried.


    Even if Tae-Woo, who had been seeing him for eight years, got used to it to some extent, So-Won still trembles when he faced Tae-Woo.


    He wasn¡¯t confident that he wouldn¡¯t be nervous at the first meeting with Tae-Woo.


    What does Tae-Woo thinks when he sees him?


    He had never spoken to him, so he dares not anticipate his thoughts.


    He appears in his dream that night.


    He was dying, but So-Won¡¯s body was so stiff that he didn¡¯t move.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s deep, dark eyes stares at So-Won.


    When So-Won closes his eyes, the high tinnitus of the machine rang.


    The tinnitus of the machine soon became a ringtone.


    So-Won¡¯s eyes opens wide, frowning.


    After falling into the deep and dark water and feeling he wakes up and then he receives a phone call with the ringing sound.


    ¡°Hello?¡±


    ¡°Are you Guide Lee So-Won?¡±


    ¡°Yes.¡±


    ¡°The results of the matching examination with Esper Kang Tae-Woo came out.¡±


    As soon as Kang Tae-Woo¡¯s name came out, So-Won jumps up and kneels down.


    ¡°No, already?¡±


    It was yesterday afternoon when the wavelength test was conducted and the designated match was applied, but he didn¡¯t expect the results to come out the next morning.


    ¡®65%, 65%, 65%¡¯


    So-Won wished it to be at least 65% matched with Kang Tae-Woo.


    What if it doesn¡¯t match? Anxiety crosses So-Won¡¯s mind.


    ¡°100% matching rate. It¡¯s our first time seeing a 100%¡­ I did the test again, but it¡¯s still the same¡­. Just in case, I think you should come to the association and do a guided test with Esper Kang Tae-Woo?¡±


    So-Won¡¯s eyes widens.


    100% instead of 65%? 100% was an impossible number, aside from the difference in results from the past.


    The highest matching rate record so far was a B-class Esper and Guide in the United States, but even that did not exceed 95%.


    In addition, the matching rate could not be high in the relationship with the grade difference.


    Perhaps there was an error in this inspection.


    The somewhat convinced So-Won calms himself from the surprise.


    ¡°When and where should I go?¡±


    ¡± Esper Kang Tae-woo is always at the headquarters, so the guide can come to the headquarters of the Esper Association regardless of the time.¡±


    ¡°Thank you,¡±


    He is glad, anyway.


    So-Won is very relieved about the result, because he is worried for a while about what if it didn¡¯t match Tae-Woo.


    So-Won, who finished the call, checked the time.


    At 10 a.m.


    It would take atleast 20 minutes to arrive at the Esper Association even if he use the fastest public transportation.


    To arrive before lunch time, So-Won scrambles to get ready to go out.


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 Chapter 4

    #4


    So-Won opens the closet to wash as quickly as possible and choose clothes, but So-Won collapses.


    So-Won became resentful towards himself for wearing only cheap clothes before he became a guide.


    The trendy design and childish clothes from eight years ago welcomed So-Won.


    However, when he found a far-flung outfit and wore it, time had already passed.


    Eight years ago, today was summer.


    As soon as So-Won came out of the house, sweat flowed down.


    ¡®Oh no¡­¡¯


    So-Won sighs softly.


    So-Won paid a lot of attention for his first impression, but it seems that everything will be useless.


    So-Won unwittingly hurries when the Esper Association came into view.


    The latest building, which is larger than most government facilities, came closer as he moves.


    ¡°Kang Tae-Woo, Tae-Woo.¡±


    So-Won mumbles Tae-Woo¡¯s name quietly.


    Tae-Woo won¡¯t remember So-Won.


    Therefore, So-Won has to do the first step right.


    The cool air inside the Esper Association welcomes So-Won.


    So-Won is panting before he knew it.


    The high floor height and colorful structure that seems to pierce the heart caught the viewer¡¯s attention.


    He is breathing heavily, approaches the information desk, takes a breath, and then So-Won asked the receptionist.


    ¡°What brings you here?¡±


    ¡°I¡¯m Lee So-Won, who decided to do a guiding test with Kang Tae-woo.¡±


    The receptionist replies.


    ¡°Oh¡­. You can go to the guide examination room on the 7th floor.¡±


    So-Won, who gasped and finished talking, bows and rushes into the elevator.


    Now So-Won is somewhat relieved.


    First floor, second floor¡­. The number of floors went up quickly.


    So-Won suddenly wonders how Tae-Woo would react after hearing the matching results.


    ¡®Would he have been happy? I think he might have been calm because he is not emotional because of the side effects of not being guided.¡¯


    So-Won¡¯s heart is pounding.


    The guilt that caused him to die, the fear of facing him, which he was afraid of, and the slight expectation of seeing Tae-Woo in a distant were combined.


    The elevator stops and the door slowly opens.


    So-Won looks around the large hallway and looks for the guiding examination room.


    Eight years ago, they were matched immediately without a guiding test.


    The past seemed to have changed because of the designated matching.


    So-Won expected that the matching rate would probably go down to 65 percent, which was the original figure, after the guided test.


    ¡°Oh, I found it.¡±


    A guiding laboratory, So-Won knocked, worried that he might have come to the wrong place because the inside was so quiet.


    Fortunately, the researcher inside welcomes So-Won as he opens the door right away.


    Three researchers were waiting for So-Won inside the guiding examination room.


    When So-Won enters the room, there is another room over the glass in the examination room.


    Inside, there are a pair of large, complex-looking machines and chairs.


    It seemed to be sitting in there and conducting an examination.


    While So-Won is looking around the examination room for a long time, the heavy sound of footsteps outside became closer and closer.


    So-Won is startled when he heard the footsteps.


    He could intuitively recognize that it is Tae-Woo beyond the door.


    So-Won¡¯s body stiffens.


    He already felt Tae-Woo¡¯s wave.


    Without knocking, the door snaps open.


    So-Won¡¯s body, which is not prepared, trembles pitifully.


    So-Won¡¯s body did not listen to him, overshadowing his determination not to tremble.


    Tae-Woo, who had just been to the gate, is lying down late at night with three guiding machines attached to his entire body in the private room of the Esper Association alone.


    He is in agony, exhaling a rough breath in the pain as if his whole body were being mutilated.


    It is always like this when Tae-Woo came back from the gate.


    Tae-Woo felt like his whole body was going to explode, but his body is hot and painful.


    ¡®I forgot the reason for living a long time ago. It was always painful and painful, so I just followed what I was told. It was stuffy. I felt like I was going to split up into dust with endless thirst.¡¯ Tae-Woo thought.


    The guiding machine could only pour a little bit of guiding into the dry Tae-Woo.


    Then Tae-Woo struggles with a growing thirst.


    Guiding.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s instinct is to find a guide.


    ¡®I wanted to get rid of this extreme pain by touching a guide.¡¯


    But he didn¡¯t have a guide.


    Instead of a guide, all he can do is pour a strong drink and daze his mind for a while.


    Next to Tae-Woo, several strong whiskey bottles rolls empty, and his private room is filled with the smell of alcohol that makes him feel drunk just by smelling it.


    *Bzzt, bzzt, bzzt*.


    The phone on one side of the bed vibrates.


    It is a call from the Esper Association.


    ¡®Is it an emergency call?¡¯


    Tae-Woo, who is already in bad shape, answers the phone with a frown.


    Tae-Woo answers the phone but didn¡¯t talk.


    However, the caller already seems very scared and he hears a trembling breath over the phone.


    ¡°Oh, hello, Esper Kang Tae-Woo.¡±


    When Tae-Woo didn¡¯t answer, the man on the phone continues.


    ¡°A guide named Lee So-Won is looking for Esper Kang Tae-Woo in the emergency room of the university hospital, maybe he is Esper Kang Tae-Woo¡¯s guide?¡±


    The smartphone in Tae-Woo¡¯s hand was shatters and it sounds like snacks being crushed.


    ¡®Guide?¡¯


    Tae-Woo, who lives alone as a monster all his life, didn¡¯t have that.


    The pain that flows throughout his body shook Tae-Woo but he didn¡¯t even get angry.


    Tae-woo¡¯s hand, which is barely holding his sanity, burst into strength.


    The pain, which he had been suffering from all night, barely settled down until the next morning.


    Fortunately, he didn¡¯t go on a rampage this time.


    Tae-Woo touches his stuffy throat.


    Instead of a rough flesh, Tae-Woo feels a smooth metal on his hand.


    The identity of the black and thick band surrounding Taewoo¡¯s neck is a bomb.


    He is unstable because there is no guide, but for an S-class Esper, they are easier to use, so it this is a conclusion made by the government.


    If Tae-Woo starts to run riot, the bomb on his neck will explode relentlessly.


    Tae-Woo himself could not guarantee whether the bomb could damage his strong skin, but if the day came, he only hopes he would die from it so that he could be free from this pain.


    His body is a little stable, and he is still in a bad condition.


    Tae-Woo lay motionless, surrounded by a machine.


    It is in the afternoon that he manages to move around.


    ¡°Esper Kang Tae-Woo?¡±


    A young researcher carefully tries to enter Tae-Woo¡¯s private room, but his eyes met with Tae-Woo and the researcher begins to tremble.


    The researcher, who looks at the terrible appearance of the attached guiding machine to the body as if it had a tentacle, and the eyes that were distorted due to poor condition, wants to faint.


    ¡°Designation matching, application, came in¡­.¡±


    ¡°Do as you please.¡±


    The researcher couldn¡¯t even come into the room and was shaking in front of the door, and ran away without saying everything he was going to say.


    ¡®What do you mean designated matching?¡¯


    Tae-Woo¡¯s mood went down again.


    Among the matching tests so far, there is no matching rate exceeding 5%.


    Since yesterday, there have been many things related to the guide, teasing Tae-Woo.


    Even if he had been matched, it was obvious that the matched Guide would run away scared by Tae-Woo¡¯s terrible appearance.


    Even if that happens, Tae-Woo will be fine, because he knew too well that everyone is afraid of him, who is a monster.


    The next day, another person came in the morning.


    This time, it was Tae-Woo¡¯s doctor, who Tae-Woo knows well.


    Unlike the usual office-like expression, Tae-Woo narrowed his brows because he looked very excited.


    The doctor who is not welcome keep coming to Tae-Woo¡¯s private room.


    ¡°ESPER KANG TAE-WOO! Huh, this, look at this.¡±


    The doctor who came into the room without knocking, did not tremble as usual, he approaches Tae-Woo and hands him a bunch of paper.


    When Tae-Woo accepted the paper, the machines hanging on his arms collided with each other and made a sound.


    The paper Tae-Woo receives was a matching result table.


    ¡°A 100% match rate Guide has appeared! A 100% match rate Guide!¡±


    Tae-Woo¡¯s doctor shouted in excitement like a child who is not even old enough keep in his excitement.


    Normally, he would made him run away with a grimace, but Tae-Woo, embarrassed, just stared at the paper.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s appearance is only calm.


    Tae-Woo thought he would be surprised or happy, but the doctor in charge, who is excited because it was an unexpected reaction, slowly returned to his senses.


    ¡°That¡­ We couldn¡¯t believe it, so we tested it several times, and it¡¯s 100% correct. Just in case, I asked for another test, but the results will probably be the same.¡±


    Now, the real doctor looked at Tae-Woo and said.


    ¡°100.0% The multiple sheets of paper handed over by the person in charge were all reports of the results of the matching test. The same number is written on every piece of paper.¡±


    ¡®The more Tae-Woo checked the number, the colder his heart got. In the meantime, no guide has exceeded 5% of the matching rate with me. But now he¡¯s here. 100%? In the first place, the number 100 between Esper and the Guide is impossible. I can¡¯t believe it¡¯s 100% with me. It is clear that the examination was wrong.¡¯


    Tae-Woo glares at the letter in the paper.


    If there the paper has a heart, it would have burst.


    The person in charge who saw Tae-Woo¡¯s cold face swallows hard.


    A familiar name came into Tae-Woo¡¯s eyes, he frowns.


    ¡°Guide, Lee So-Won.¡±


    It was a familiar name, but Tae-Woo hands the paper back to the doctor in charge without thinking.


    The doctor, shaking and receives the paper, left the room as if he were running away.

 Chapter 5

    Tae-Woo thought it was getting a little quiet now, but not long after, someone came back to Tae-Woo.


    This time, the doctor who knocked before visits him again.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s eyes are sparkling.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s head was throbbing and he was irritated.


    ¡°Esper Kang Tae-Woo , Guide Lee So-Won is here.¡±


    The doctor¡¯s eyes are trembling with fear, but there is an expectation that could not be hidden.


    Tae-Woo, who pressed his hands against his throbbing head, rose up.


    It only gives Tae-Woo a headache to think about.


    Tae-Woo follows what he said to him as usual.


    He tore off a handful of the machines attached to his body.


    Some of them were bent and broken from time to time because they couldn¡¯t control his strength, but Tae-Woo didn¡¯t care about it.


    Tae-Woo follows the doctor¡¯s steps.


    The expressions of the employees who encountered Tae-Woo while passing by while traveling a short distance are colored with fear.


    Tae-Woo didn¡¯t even care about them.


    It¡¯s his first time in the guide examination room, although Tae-Woo had lived in the Esper Association for more than a decade.


    He never came here in the first place, and he never will.


    The door opens with a click.


    So-Won is under the illusion that a warm wind is blowing through the slightly open door gap.


    Soon, the door between So-Won and Tae-Woo completely opened.


    Tae-Woo feels strange.


    Tae-Woo feels as if he had attached five, or ten, guiding machines.


    Something cozy seems to gently wrap itself around him.


    Embarrassed, Tae-Woo looks at the little boy standing at the door.


    A face that looks at him as if he has just become an adult, round eyes, white skin and red-hot cheeks, and a pitiful trembling hand.


    ¡°Guide¡± Tae-Woo mumbles.


    There was no part that touched either place, but Tae-Woo immediately noticed that the boy in front of him was his guide.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s heart began to beat fast.


    Meanwhile, So-Won came to his senses as soon as the door opened.


    His body was still shaking, but he wasn¡¯t as scared as he used to be.


    Until he saw his face.


    As soon as the door opened, the fierce eyes that So-Won encounters already looked very upset.


    So-Won froze as soon as his eyes met Tae-Woo¡¯s.


    He could already feels Tae-Woo¡¯s violent waves piercing So-Won, as if Tae-Woo is in a pretty bad condition.


    So-Won is always afraid of this moment.


    He thought the sharp wave would devour him.


    It is a wave that So-Won always felt when he was close to Tae-Woo, but it seems stronger than usual, perhaps because of So-Won¡¯s feelings.


    Fortunately, unlike eight years later, when the entire face is covered with dark red veins, the veins stick out only spreads until his eyes.


    It looked black, and disgusting, as if a shadow had been cast around the eyes, where large and small blood vessels stretched in all directions.


    His short cut hair was still the same as before.


    Compared to eight years later, he was a little less terrible, but So-Won¡¯s fear did not die down.


    Tae-Woo belatedly realizes that So-Won is scared of him.


    Only then did Tae-Woo start to care about his monstrous appearance, which he never cares about.


    Tae-Woo thought for the first time that he wanted to cover his face.


    Tae-Woo, who thought so, turned his head and tries to hide his face even a little from his guide.


    ¡°Hello.¡± So-Won greets Tae-Woo.


    So-Won forces his mouth to open but it is so hard.


    He wants to say hello without shaking, but his voice trembles carelessly.


    So-Won thought it was a mistake, but he decided to put meaning to the fact that he greeted Tae-Woo first.


    Originally, there was no such greeting at the first meeting between So-Won and Tae-Woo.


    This is because So-Won, who actually saw Tae-Woo, was shaking and looked at him like a monster after hearing Tae-Woo¡¯s voice, who greeted him softly.


    Eight years ago it was their first and last conversation.


    Tae-Woo, who didn¡¯t know So-Won would say hello first, was a little surprised.


    The small round guide¡¯s voice was clear as if a bead was rolling.


    ¡°Good morning.¡±


    Tae-Woo answera calmly.


    So-Won almost cried when he heard Tae-Woo¡¯s voice even in the midst of So-Won¡¯s trembling.


    It was not a restful voice on the day he died vomiting blood, but a good low voice to listen to.


    So-Won iss happy to hear this voice again, even though his heart is crushed by guilt.


    So-Won bows his head to hide his red eyes.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s doctor, who is looking at the scene with satisfaction, pushes Tae-Woo and So-Won into the examination room, saying they would start the examination.


    Two researchers approaches them as they sat on chairs in the room.


    ¡°Before we start the guide inspection, we will attach the machine first.¡± The researcher said.


    One person each attaches to So-Won and Tae-Woo, and began to attach a machine to their bodies.


    Machines were attached to So-Won¡¯s face, arms, legs, and body one by one.


    Whenever the cold metal touches, So-Won shrank slightly as if he was nervous.


    So-Won¡¯s attachment to the machine ended shortly after, but Tae-Woo is only halfway through.


    The researcher¡¯s hand, which attaches the machine to Tae-Woo¡¯s body, trembles unsightly.


    The researcher pulls up Tae-Woo¡¯s long-sleeved clothes, even in the summer and he nearly fainter when he saw Tae-Woo¡¯s disgusting veins.


    The researcher closes his eyes tightly as if he is about to wriggle, and then opens his eyes inevitably to attach the machine.


    The researcher carefully attaches the machine so that it wouldn¡¯t get in Tae-Woo¡¯s mood, with trembling hands, and that it wouldn¡¯t touch Tae-Woo¡¯s disgusting body.


    This is the first time that a hand still on an armrest felt so scary during a guide examination.


    Under the pitiful gaze of others, the researcher manages to attach the last machine to Tae-Woo¡¯s body.


    When Tae-Woo¡¯s doctor, who is sitting over the glass, sent an okay sign, the researchers quickly left the room.


    So-Won felt pity and homogeneity when he saw the researchers hurrying out with their legs shaking for no reason.


    {Let¡¯s get started.}


    But So-Won is not in a position to worry about them.


    When all the researchers left the laboratory, only Tae-Woo and So-Won remained in one space.


    The heavy atmosphere pressed So-Won.


    So-Won is nervous, he feels pressure on his stomach while sitting in a chair.


    The machine turns on.


    The inspection began immediately.


    ¡®What kind of tests are we doing? Since it¡¯s a guide test, should I do guiding?¡¯


    So-Won knew that thereare many kinds of methods of guiding even if he didn¡¯t know much about guiding. The simplest is a light contact as much as holding hands, and the larger the contact area, the greater the amount of guidance.


    So-Won also knows a little bit that there is a guide who does sexual contact between opposite sex.


    {Guide, please hold Esper Kang Tae-Woo¡¯s hand.}


    As expected, So-Won seems to be guiding.


    This much, without being surprised by the expected command, So-Won looks at Tae-Woo¡¯s hand, which was positively placed on the armrest.


    The clothes that always covers the arms are lifted, so the disgusting dark red blood veins are visible.


    So-Won swallows his saliva.


    Unlike when So-Won makes up his mind, his body couldn¡¯t move easily. When So-Won saw his hand that stood out.


    Anxiety came to the faces of the researchers watching.


    Meanwhile, Tae-Woo is in his most comfortable state since awakening at the age of 10.


    Even though he is not in contact with So-Won, it is as if he is being guided.


    Tae-Woo suddenly remembers the number in the matching result table that his doctor brought.


    ¡®100%.¡¯


    Tae-Woo only thought it was a machine failure, but maybe the matching rate really is really 100%.


    It¡¯s this much just being next to him, but Tae-Woo is curious about how it would feel to have a real Guide.


    If that white little hand of So-Won touches his disgusting body, what would it feel like?


    Tae-Woo looks at So-Won with a thought full of anticipation.


    However, when Tae-Woo¡¯s white face came into his eyes, Tae-Woo¡¯s growing small hope in size disappeared.


    ¡®Your guide must be unhappy.¡¯


    He remembered the sarcastic tone of another S-class Esper he met at the gate.


    Tae-Woo didn¡¯t even care at the time, but the reason why he thinks of that word when he looks at the trembling So-Won is because even Tae-Woo himself knows it.


    Tae-Woo¡¯s heart sank coldly.


    The Other S-class Esper was right. This poor little guide will be unhappy to be his guide.


    He looks at his arm, whose clothes had been lifted.


    Dark red veins, which stand out as if they were about to pop out, come down to the hands along the arms.


    Tae-Woo is well aware of how terrifying it would be in the eyes of So-Won, who he met for the first time, unlike him who had been accustomed to it his whole life.


    From the moment Tae-Woo saw So-Won¡¯s scared face, Tae-woo gave up hoping to have a Guide.


    He just got greedy. If his guide is scared, it¡¯s okay not to Guide, just staying would be fine.


    But even that would be terrible for the Guide, and Tae-Woo was well aware that it was his selfishness.


    He doesn¡¯t have to overdo it.


    Unknowingly, Tae-Woo feels regret.


    No one in the same space noticed it, but Tae-woo is worried that someone might hear his ugly heart.


    He didn¡¯t experience enough Guiding, and yet, he wants to get guides by a Guide who can¡¯t even move because he¡¯s scared.


    ¡®I was too greedy. It is fair to be called a monster.¡¯ Tae-Woo thought.


    Ahhhhhhh guys, I privated the series toc and removed the kr name to avoid being taken down. I¡¯ll also do the same for the other KR books I do here. I can¡¯t believe a lot of aggressors already got the chapter, any suggestions to avoid that? I¡¯m thinking I should password protect this, is it fine for you guys ? The pass would be available in dc