Chapter 43: What am I Doing?


    Stryg rubbed his hands to gather what little warmth he could. Snowkes danced around him in a muted gust of wind. He sat perched on the rooftop of an old house in themoner district. It waste, or rather quite early, the sun would be rising soon. He had been here for the better part of the night, waiting quietly for his opportunity.


    In retrospect, he should have brought nkets from his apartment, but it was toote for that. He wished he could create a fire like his master. Instead he was shivering like a newborn, with only a thin grey cloak to keep him warm.


    The door of the house across the street creaked open. This was it. Strygs patience was finally about to pay off. Karens mother stepped out from the house, holding a basket.


    Stryg had wondered what would be the best way to make Karen talk. Should he threaten her mother, attack her, or kidnap her? With the mothers life on the line, Karen would be sure to talk about the whereabouts of the rest of her gang. Despite spending the night on a snow-covered rooftop, Stryg had been unable to make a decision.


    Karens mother looked back at the house, Hurry up, well bete.


    Coming! A small mass of bundled winter clothing waddled out, Mommy, this is too much. I can barely move.


    I dont want you catching a cold.


    Can I just stay home then? Its freezing out here, the small childined.


    Your dad has been working all night and will probably keep working throughout the day. He needs something to eat. I would have sent Karen, but your sister hasnte home either. So, I need to go and I cant leave you alone.


    Im already 8 and 3 quarters, I can handle myself, the child pouted.


    Im sorry honey, I cant leave you by yourself, there could be dangerous people just waiting to <em>catch you</em>! The mothers fingersunched a tickle assault.


    The child giggled and tried to run away, but her mother caught her in her arms, Nooo!


    I got you! The mother kissed her daughter on her chubby green cheek.


    After another bout ofughter she set her daughter down.


    The child pointed at the dark road ahead, where the morning suns rays barely reached. What happens if the dangerous people are over there?


    Ill protect you of course, to my dying breath, the mother ced her hand over heart proudly.


    I don''t want you to die! The child cried out.


    Its just an expression, sweetheart. Im not going anywhere. Come on, lets get going, the mother held her daughters hand tightly.


    Stryg watched the scene unfold with surreal wonder. Was this what other children behaved like? How a mother treated her child? It was foreign, puzzling, raw. The daughters eyes were full of curiosity. Had he been like that as a child? Naive and innocent to the dangers that lurked in the shadows? And was he the one who would take it away from her?


    What am I doing? Stryg muttered to himself.


    The world was cruel and without reason, Stryg had learned that at an early age. But, this moment, this action, was his to control. Karen might be guilty, yet these two were innocent. Karen was an enemy, she had to die, and Stryg would be the cause. But, these two didnt have to be involved, not directly. Stryg sighed and turned to leave. Hed have to find another way.


    A pair of undead sentinels walked around the corner and spotted the mother and child. The cloaked guardians shambled towards them. The little girl hid behind her mothers skirt.


    Its okay honey. I thought they would be gone by now, but we have our nametes. The mother patted her childs head. She reached into her basket and pulled out a small iron namete, Let us pass please.


    The sentinels did not slow their advance, instead they raised their iron chains. The mothers eyes widened as the blood drained from her jade-green face. Her eyes darted around in panic. She wasnt sure she could outrun them, her daughter certainly couldnt. There was only one thing she could do.


    The mother gripped her daughters shoulders, Sophi, you need to run. Ill distract them.


    Mommy, I cant. Sophis knees shook.


    Baby, you have too. She kissed Sophis forehead, Ill protect you, just go. <em>Now!</em>


    The iron whip cracked through the air and mmed into Strygs shoulder. The mother pulled her daughter back in surprise at the sudden stranger who appeared from nowhere. Stryg fell to his knees in pain.


    <em> Fuuuck</em>, Stryg groaned silently.


    He had nned to push the daughter away from the oingshing, but had been too slow. The sentinels marched forward. Stryg whipped out his silver namete with a madmans speed, hoping the sentinels reaction might differ.


    The undead lowered their chains. The mother watched the scene with surprise. She had never seen a goblin with a silver namete before.


    Go, quickly, Stryg said without taking his eyes off the sentinels.


    She didnt have to be told twice. She grabbed Sophis little hand and pulled her away. The sentinels steel masks slowly turned towards the two escaping goblins. They raised their chains and began to chase after them. Stryg jumped in between them and raised his namete as if it were a ward against the undead. The sentinels stopped in their tracks.


    Change of ns. Stay close. Ill take you back to your house. Dont leave until the sun is high in the sky, Stryg said.


    Sophi,e here, The mother pulled Sophi closer.


    Stryg stood between the sentinels and the woman and child as they walked back to the house. The mother struggled to find her keys for a terrifying moment, but she finally managed to open the door and ushered Sophi in quickly.


    The mother nced at Stryg, You shoulde in too. Its dangerous. Who knows if those sentinels will change their mind and attack you.


    No, Im fine. Just stay inside, Stryg said without turning.


    Thank you... I will never forget your kindness, she bowed.


    Strygs back stiffened at the word. Kindness? He wasnt trying to be kind. Hell, he was still nning to kill her other daughter. He had simply seen the two in danger and then Then he wasnt sure why he acted. He remembered seeing Sophis paralyzed legs as she watched the undead monstersing after her. He had seen the same look reflected in the eyes of the amethyst dragon. The face of a little goblin child afraid to die.


    Close the door behind you, Stryg said.


    Once he heard the door shut, Stryg began to slowly walk away, keeping the namete in his hand. The sentinels ignored him, nced at the door, and continued on their patrol. He stayed near Karens house for a few more minutes, in case theyd turn around.


    Stryg winced at the stinging pain from his back, What am I doing?


    He shouldnt have gotten involved. It was survival of the fittest. He didnt know these goblins, yet he risked his life like a fool, and had been injured for it. He really was an idiot, he deserved to have been injured. Yet, as he nced at the old y house, he found himself not regretting his decision. Though, he didnt agree with Plums ideals, this would have to be the one-time exception, he told himself. Stryg suddenly smiled, he had an idea.


    ~~~


    Stryg huffed as he rested on a bench in the cold chamber. Winter had only made the Intro to ck Magics underground ssroom colder than ever.


    Stryg watched the shambling bodies of the undead rise to themand of the other mage novices. He nced at his own corpse. At most the bodys arm wiggled and could even rise if he really put his focus into it. But, that was it. For all his training and meditation he couldnt control the corpse no matter how much he tried.


    Professor Gette walked over, Not, much progress, ey?


    Stryg grit his teeth, Gette was right of course.


    But, Stryg decided to change the topic. Professor, earlier this morning I encountered a pair of sentinels who refused to acknowledge a namete.


    <em>Where?</em> Sentinels rarely fail in that regard, but it has been known to happen. It must be dealt with at once. We cant have innocent people getting attacked.


    It was in themoner district.


    Oh, thats good. Nevermind then, Gette sighed in relief.


    I thought you said you didnt want people to be attacked?


    Of course. But, theres no need to rush. There is scheduled maintenance that happens every few weeks for the sentinels. Themoners can afford to wait.


    ...I see. Stryg understood. The weak were given no importance. It was no surprise.


    By the way, you shouldnt try so hard in your spell casting. Its obvious you dont have talent for necromancy, Gette noted.


    Stryg chuckled to himself. Growing up he didnt have talent for anything. But, it never stopped him from trying. He needed to get stronger, it was the only way to achieve his dreams.


    I managed to make the arm move. Its a start, Stryg said.


    No, its a failure. It has nothing to do with your skill as a mage. Its talent. Different chromatic colors and their spell forms require different kinds of talent. Youre sorelycking when ites to necromancy. Im surprised that you have been able to do this much already.


    So, what, I should just give up? Stryg frowned.


    To be a mage? No. To master the necromancy spell form? Yes. Most definitely. You may not have the talent to master the entire range of ck spell forms, but among all the 1st year ck magi you have shown the greatest skill. Your recent improvement of the shadow spell form isparable tote 2nd year students. Believe me, you are better off spending your time focusing on your shadow spells, instead of necromancy.


    I dont want to give up, Stryg clenched his fists.


    He had given up before, epted defeat. It didnt end well. This was his new life, he didnt want to go through that again.


    Then you leave me no choice. You are banned from practicing necromancy in this ss, Gette stated.


    What? Why? I thought professors are supposed to help us learn?


    No, we are supposed to help you be sessful magi. Currently your best chance at that is shadow magic. Youll thank meter. Gette cupped his hands and shouted, ss dismissed!


    Stryg sighed in frustration. Even his choice was taken from him. He was simply handed the failure. Stryg stayed seated on the bench long after the rest had left. Perhaps Gette was right. His shadow magic had been improving a great dealtely, thanks to his anger-based meditation. Still, the loss stung.


    Stryg stared at the human corpse on the metal table. He recalled the books and their details of the muscles, bones, and sinew that ran across a humans legs. He brought the image to focus, his will desiring for it to move. Then he remembered his anger, remembered Karen and her gang. How they had ambushed him. The mana within responded to his emotion.


    ck mana began to flow from Strygs heart and into his arms. He remembered his tribe and how they had beaten him, time and time again. He remembered First Mother and her cruelty, Cruvors fake vision and lies, the poacher who had taken him from his forest.


    Mana surged into his veins in a flood of power. His chest began to burn with the overwhelming ethereal energy. He took quick shallow breaths and focused on the corpse. The legs began to tremble. At an agonizingly slow pace they began to raise one at a time. Stryg fell to his knees in pain, but he kept the spell going. He had to focus, he was so close.


    Stryg, stop, youll kill yourself! Loh shouted from the doorway.


    His masters voice pierced through his concentration, shattering the spell. The corpses legs flopped onto the table. Stryg copsed in exhaustion.