Chapter 73
<strong>CHAPTER 73</strong>
<span style="font-weight:400">I silently sat next to Cecilia on the tram, and it slowly started sliding across the rails. I had decided to stick with her a while longer, but now that it was actually happening so fast, I couldn’t help but feel my hands m up. I had gotten used to being with her alone, but the fact that the… reveal loomed so close made it hard to find words to say.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Where shall we go?” Cecilia asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Uh, I guess I somehow hadn’t thought that far,” Iughed nervously. “Any suggestions?”
<span style="font-weight:400">Cece smiled slightly. “Only you could be so enthusiastic about going somewhere without a n,” she said. “I like that about you.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“You do?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“The spontaneousness of it all, I mean!” she quickly said, averting her gaze. “My life back in Unova was nned down to everyst second. I didn’t know it at the time, but looking back on it now… I hated it. It felt suffocating.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Well…” I slowly said, looking around. “Why don’t we go in there!” I eximed, pointing at a random building. “Come on, let’s get off on the next stop!”
<span style="font-weight:400">Cecilia squinted at the building. “That’s… some kind of shop, I think. I can’t see it well from there— <em><span style="font-weight:400">ah!</em><span style="font-weight:400">”
<span style="font-weight:400">I grabbed her hand and dragged her toward the tram’s exit, much to the annoyance of the passengers we pushed through. As soon as the tram stopped, we jumped out and went toward the store. Upon closer inspection, it looked to be a thrift shop selling everything from used furniture to books— but it was mostly selling used clothes.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I’ve never been in such a shop before,” Cece said, looking through a rack of clothes. “A shop selling used clothes, I mean.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I haven’t gone to many either, but you can find some pretty nifty stuff here that you wouldn’t expect,” I exined. “Not that I’m thinking of buying anything. My bag’spletely full.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“So is mine,” she smiled. “But we can still try things on.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I froze for a second. “Sure! I mean, that sounds fun.”
<span style="font-weight:400">Cecilia raised an eyebrow at me. “That was a very reluctant way of saying it. I don’t want to force you to do anything if you don’t find it enjoyable.”
<em><span style="font-weight:400">Everything is enjoyable with you</em><span style="font-weight:400">, I thought.
<span style="font-weight:400">“No, no, I just wasn’t expecting you to want to try on hand-me-downs, I guess,” I finally said.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I can be quite flexible in the activities I choose to do.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I swallowed. “Well, let’s look for something that fits you! I bet we can find a great dress. Or a skirt! It’s almost winter, but they’re still selling clothes for all seasons.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Why don’t we get something on you?” she asked. “Obviously, wearing jeans or pants when we travel is sound, but you never dressed up in the city. I deserve to see it at least <em><span style="font-weight:400">once</em><span style="font-weight:400"> before we leave.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“You want to?” I said, scratching my neck. “I guess I can, I’ve never found anything I thought would fit me that well, so I usually didn’t bother.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Nonsense. You can pull off anything. Look at you. Stay here, I’ll have something for you soon!”
<span style="font-weight:400">I anxiously awaited as Cece roamed through the small thrift shop. She returned with a white sundress, a knee-length white skirt, and some… white shorts. Why was it all white?
<span style="font-weight:400">“Before you ask, I think the color goes amazing on you,” she said, answering my question. “Which one do you want to try on first?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I guess I’ll just take the dive and try out the sundress,” I said. “Gimmie.”
<span style="font-weight:400">Cece smirked as she handed it to me. “Don’t take too long.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Yeah, yeah,” I said, looking away. “You’ll get to see me in it, don’t worry.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I hurried inside of the fitting room, taking a deep breath as I stared at myself in the mirror.
<span style="font-weight:400">“She might be disappointed,” I whispered. “But here goes nothing, I guess.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I took off my multipleyers of clothing and stepped into the sundress. I hadn’t worn any type of dress in so long that it felt kind ofcking somehow, but it wasn’t… bad. I spun around, stopping myself with my foot and a tiny smile. I was probably less thin and short than I remembered. My arms were also more toned than they used to be.
<span style="font-weight:400">I was apparently growing up. Scary.
<span style="font-weight:400">Still, that was way less fabric on me that I feltfortable wearing in public. I slightly opened the curtains and saw that Cecilia was sitting down, waiting for me. Her face lit up when she saw that I was done.
<span style="font-weight:400">“So? Show me,” she said as she shot up.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Um… I don’t know.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Come on! You already have it on!” Cece groaned. I shook my head, and she just <em><span style="font-weight:400">barged </em><span style="font-weight:400">into the fitting room, eyeing me up and down. “You look— you look amazing!”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Really?” I said awkwardly. “I don’t know, I feel like I can’t pull it off that well.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“You look beautiful. I wish we could get it for you… curse Sinnoh and its sted weather. It’s too cold almost all year long,” she said before pausing. “Let me see the back.”
<span style="font-weight:400">Now that the conversation had slowed, I couldn’t help but notice how close she was. The changing room was small, and I felt her breath on the back of my neck, making me shiver slightly. She was silent. Too silent. In fact, Cecilia hadn’t said anything in thest fifteen seconds, and she was just staring at me through the mirror.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Cece? Is something wrong?” I asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">She coughed. “No, I’m perfectly fine. Here, I’ll get out. Try out the skirt next!”
<span style="font-weight:400">——
<span style="font-weight:400">Even though there was no space in our bags, Cece ended up getting me all three articles of clothing. I protested, of course, but she went and bought them behind my back while I had been changing back into my normal clothes. She said they looked too good on me to just leave them there. I couldn’t really see it, but I supposed I’d have to trust her. She was way better at this clothing stuff than I was.
<span style="font-weight:400">Unfortunately though, someone in the group would have to carry those for me. With some luck, it’d be Pauline. The look of annoyance on her face would bring me great joy.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Where to now?” Cece asked. “Should we pick somewhere random again? That was a lot of fun.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I brought a hand up to my chin. “Hm… fuck it, let’s do it again. Let’s hop on a tram for like fifteen minutes and then go to the first building we see.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“What if it’s just some apartment?” She asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Then we break in, obviously,” I sarcastically said.
<span style="font-weight:400">“You know, a month ago, I probably would have taken that at face value.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Aw, I thought you would,” I said. “Come on, the tram’s there!”
<span style="font-weight:400">——
<span style="font-weight:400">“So, Grace,” Cecilia started. “Can you exin something to me?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Hm?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“What are the odds that we would end up at your favorite fast food restaurant when we were supposed to pick <em><span style="font-weight:400">randomly?</em><span style="font-weight:400">”
<span style="font-weight:400">I whistled innocently. “I dunno, I mean, they’re pretty big, they have a bunch of stores everywhere. It’s entirely within the realm of possibility.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Or… you just wanted toe?”
<em><span style="font-weight:400">“Or… </em><span style="font-weight:400">I just wanted to make you taste the goodness that is fast food, just this once.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“So you admit that it wasn’t random?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Argh, you got me,” I said, raising my hands. “But this is the perfect moment toe.”
<span style="font-weight:400">And it was. The restaurant was almostpletely empty since it was still very early in the evening, between lunch and dinner.
<span style="font-weight:400">“What do you want?” I asked, pointing at the menu above the counter. “Taste a slice of heaven.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“None of these sound appealing to me. I mean, double barbecue quarter pounder? How many calories is that?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Just let yourself go, just this once,” I said, sping my hands together. “Come on. There are no rules here.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Fine,” she sighed. “I suppose I’ll pick the… nuggets.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“That’s kind of boring, but I guess that’ll do. I’ll go with a milkshake, fries, and a chicken sandwich. Here, I’ll take extrarge fries so we can share. You’ve had <em><span style="font-weight:400">fries</em><span style="font-weight:400"> before, right?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Fries, yes, but they didn’t look like this. They were bigger.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Ah, those,” I said. “I guess that counts, but I’ve always liked these ones better. They taste the best right out of the frier, but if they give you an old batch, you’re fucked.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Do we know which ones we’re getting?” Cece asked in a suddenly worried tone.
<span style="font-weight:400">“No, and that’s kind of the beauty of it. It adds some suspense to your order.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Why <em><span style="font-weight:400">anyone</em><span style="font-weight:400"> would subject themselves to this is beyond me.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I ignored herints and ced our order. After waiting for around five minutes, we sat opposite of each other at one of the many empty tables. I tasted a fry.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Hell yes! We got the good ones! Here,” I said, handing her a fry.
<span style="font-weight:400">She hesitantly took it like it was going to hurt her and bit into the potato.
<span style="font-weight:400">“So?” I grinned. “How is it?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“It’s… I have to admit, it does taste great, but the fries our cooks made tasted better. The experience though… the experience makes it better than anything else I’ve ever had.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“The experience?” I asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Uh— I mean like you said. Not knowing if they’re going to be good or not.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“That makes it the best food you’ve ever had? I find that slightly exaggerated, but I’m happy you like it. You can have most of ‘em if you want.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“No! I want us to share.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Okay,” I smiled. “To be honest, I’m d you said that. I was already feeling sad about having to give up on some freshly made fries.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Ugh, you!” Ceceughed. “Don’t force yourself to do something you don’t want.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I’ll do it as many times as I can for you,” I blurted out. “I— I mean, you deserve it! I want to treat you well after everything you went through… sorry, that was weird.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“You’re not weird. I like the way you are.”
<em><span style="font-weight:400">Holy shit, I’m going to die</em><span style="font-weight:400">.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I like the way you are… too?” I tried.
<span style="font-weight:400">We stared at each other in silence for a few seconds.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Come on,” I said. “Food’s getting cold.”
<span style="font-weight:400">——
<span style="font-weight:400">“Alright, I’vepletely given up on the random building thing. There’s an actual spot I want to bring you to,” I told Cece as we got out of the restaurant.
<span style="font-weight:400">“What is it?” she asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Bowling alley on the way to route 211. I came across it every day when I went training, and I knew I wanted to go there someday. I just never had the time until now.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Bowling sounds fun,” Cece said. “Although I’ve never gone.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“That’s a crime that needs to be rectified,” I said. “I used to go all the time with my dad.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Your father?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Yeah. We used to go somewhere almost every weekend. He’d call it a father-daughter date, which was… embarrassing, but they were almost always fun, except that one time he tried to get me into drawing at these art lessons with him. Those were a terrible few weeks—” I paused when I saw the pained look on her face. “Cece?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I— it’s nothing. It’s just… the contrast between your father and mine. It makes me incredibly jealous. Is that wrong of me?”
<span style="font-weight:400">I winced. How could I have run my mouth like an idiot?
<span style="font-weight:400">“No, you’repletely fine,” I said, grabbing her hand. “I should have watched what I said. It’s my fault.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“You shouldn’t have to watch your words around me,” she said, her voice trembling slightly. “I’m no damsel in distress, or at least I try not to be.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Still, I wasining about somethingpletely mundane. I mean, the truth is I enjoyed those drawing lessons, looking back. My dad’s a terrible artist, but he gave it everything he had. Here, I have a picture of one of the Pokemon he drew,” I said, scrolling through my Poketch, hoping to cheer her up. Thank Arceus for the Poketchpany transferring all of your data from your old phone to the next. “See? This was him trying to draw Togetic when she was just a few weeks old.”
<span style="font-weight:400">Cecilia stoodpletely still for a few seconds. “What… what even is that?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I <em><span style="font-weight:400">know</em><span style="font-weight:400">, right? It doesn’t even look remotely close, I mean, that’s not even the right <em><span style="font-weight:400">shape</em><span style="font-weight:400">.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Those eyes are rather terrifying,” sheughed.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Look at the crown! He made it look like spikes that could stab you and kill you!”
<em><span style="font-weight:400">Sorry for exposing you, dad.</em>
<span style="font-weight:400">——
<span style="font-weight:400">“So how do the points work,” Cece asked as she grabbed a bowling ball.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I don’t know, I don’t y with points, I y for fun,” I said, looking at the piece of paper one of the employees had handed me. “The Jubilife one we used to go to would track your points automatically. I don’t know how to count them.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Well, that’s fine,” she said. “Points or not, I think I’ll win.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Pfft, you’ve never gone bowling before!”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I’m quite a fast learner,” she bragged. <em><span style="font-weight:400">“Watch this.”</em>
<span style="font-weight:400">Cecilia ran up to thene and threw her ball with as much force as she could. The ball proceeded to roll into the gutter, hitting zero pins.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Nice one,” I smirked.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I— I said I was a fast learner, not that I would get a strike on my first attempt!” she stammered. “Why don’t you do it, then?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“It would be my pleasure,” I said, I carefully aimed with one closed eye and threw the ball slightly angled toward the center,ting me a strike. <em><span style="font-weight:400">“Oooooh, </em><span style="font-weight:400">that’s a strike, baby! I still got it!” I celebrated, pumping a fist.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Hmph. This is just the start, don’t get too full of yourself. I’ll show you what I’m made of.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I proceeded to destroy her and all of her hopes of victory. It hadn’t even been close, even without counting the points. I was getting strike after strike, while she couldn’t even get spares. We yed a few games and then left the alley.
<span style="font-weight:400">“There’s no way to know who won since we weren’t keeping score,” Cece said, crossing her arms. “I might have won, for all we know.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Come on, don’t be such a Pauline,” I said, rolling my eyes.
<span style="font-weight:400">Cece paused. “I <em><span style="font-weight:400">am </em><span style="font-weight:400">being a Pauline, aren’t I?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Well, not one hundred percent, but I’d say you’re halfway there,” I smiled. “You’d need to say, like, <em><span style="font-weight:400">‘I’m going to make your life a living hell!’</em><span style="font-weight:400">”
<span style="font-weight:400">“That was scarily urate.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Well, she <em><span style="font-weight:400">did </em><span style="font-weight:400">say it to me the first time I met her,” I said. “Come on, it’s gettingte. Let’s head back.”
<span style="font-weight:400">——
<span style="font-weight:400">“So, Cece,” I said, sitting next to her on the tram. “If you don’t mind me asking, what’s the rest of your family like? Besides your… dad,” I asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">She looked outside of the window before answering. “My rtionship with my mother’s fine, all things considered. I’m sure she loves me, and she tries her best, but one word from my father and she bes his servant. She’s like a ghost, living without a single independent thought, and I hate her for it. There are so many times where she could have pushed back and defended me but didn’t…” she sighed. “It hurt.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“That’s fucked up,” I said quietly. “Was she always like that?”
<span style="font-weight:400">Cece just nodded. “They were an arranged marriage as well. For the longest time, I feared my own marriage with Louis would turn me into her. That was my biggest fear. I didn’t want to be a mindless drone, having given up on life,” she said. “Mark— my big brother, he used to hate dad just as much as I did. He and Amy, they were my pirs of support. But then he left to be a Pokemon trainer— or at least that was what he said to our father. The truth was, it was the only way he found to escape the household.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“And then you were all alone?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“There was still Amy, but she couldn’t always be there. I trusted her with everything back then, which was obviously a mistake in hindsight, but I would be lying if I said she wasn’t the only thing that kept me going. When Mark left, life at home got even worse. Father would keep berating me and mother, and we would just have to <em><span style="font-weight:400">take </em><span style="font-weight:400">it. Sometimes I even thought he would be violent, but he never crossed that barrier— or at least not with me,” she sighed. “Getting back to Mark, these days, we only talk when I need help with Deino, but that hasn’t happened since… right before the Floaroma tournament. He turned out to be a good trainer. A <em><span style="font-weight:400">really</em><span style="font-weight:400"> good one. In his first year, he got to the Conference, and then he eventually became the Champion, as you know. In his meteoric rise, he pulled the Obel Energy Company up with him, and father started getting even more obsessed with fame and money than he was before.”
<span style="font-weight:400">She paused for a few seconds.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Mark came back, and he was a changed man. We had talked on the phone, but he never came back to visit until he became the Champion. I couldn’t recognize him at all, and his hate for dad had mellowed out into indifference. I mean, who could me him? Our father holds almost no power over him— he’s the strongest trainer in the region! It angered father to no end, but he saw an opportunity in me. He decided to make me sign up for the Circuit in Sinnoh and marry Louis. The arranged marriage part was probably as much an economic decision as one to hope to keep me subdued and under control, like my mother is. Otherwise, I might have turned into another Mark.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“But it didn’t work,” I said.
<span style="font-weight:400">“It didn’t,” she grinned, grabbing my hand tightly. “I met you.”
<span style="font-weight:400">It was time, wasn’t it? It was time to tell her that I liked girls.
<span style="font-weight:400">I took a deep breath. “Cece, I have to tell you something, and you have to promise me not to freak out, alright?”
<span style="font-weight:400">She frowned. “What is it?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Tell me you won’t freak out.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I won’t.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Alright. I…”
<span style="font-weight:400">The words turned to ash in my mouth.
<em><span style="font-weight:400">Say it</em><span style="font-weight:400">.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I…”
<em><span style="font-weight:400">Fucking spit it out.</em>
<span style="font-weight:400">“I like girls,” I said. I saw the confused look on her face and immediately decided to rify. “Romantically, I mean. Now, don’t freak out.<em><span style="font-weight:400"> Please</em><span style="font-weight:400">. I had to tell you because of how close we were getting, I mean, I thought— I— I figured you’d want to know.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I…” she said, letting go of my hand. “How?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“How what?” I said, feeling tears build up.
<span style="font-weight:400">“How would one know,” she started. “If they liked girls. Romantically.”
<span style="font-weight:400">I turned away slightly to hide my discontent. “Well, I assume it’s the same as liking a guy.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I’ve never liked anyone before, I don’t know what it’s like,” Cece said.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Well, if you can’t stop thinking about them,” I started. “If your biggest wish is to see them happy. If you want to be with them as much as you can. If you notice the smallest things about them that you go crazy over,” I said, looking at her again. “I’d say that’s what it’s like to like someone.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I… I think I need to spend some time alone,” Cece said. “I have some things to think about.”
<em><span style="font-weight:400">Damn it,</em><span style="font-weight:400"> I thought. I had fucked up. I wanted to go home and cry my heart out. Maybe some time with my team would do me some good. If I exined my problem, they’d understand and support me.
<span style="font-weight:400">“That’s our stop,” Cece said.
<span style="font-weight:400">“I think I should spend the night at the Center tonight,” I said, barely holding myself together. “You can go.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“No. Someone will let you stay at their penthouse. I’m sorry, I just have a lot of mull over.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“I understand,” I said, hanging my head. “I kind of sprung it out of nowhere. I’m sorry for ruining things.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“You didn’t— ah, we missed our stop.”
<span style="font-weight:400">“Let’s get off on the next one.”
<span style="font-weight:400">For the rest of the ride, I wanted to die. I wanted to shrivel up into a ball and wink out of existence. I wanted thest five minutes to be erased and to never bring up the subject again.
<span style="font-weight:400">We walked up to the hotel in silence. It was snowing for the first time of the year.
<span style="font-weight:400">When we got to the lobby, Cece froze.
<span style="font-weight:400">“What is it?” I asked.
<span style="font-weight:400">I looked up from my feet, which I had been staring at for the entire walk and saw a girl sitting down, surrounded by four tall men in suits and sunsses. Her hair was shoulder-length and blond, albeit darker than mine, and she had a pink highlight at its edges. She got up and shot us a smile.
<span style="font-weight:400">“Who is that?” I asked. “Cece?”
<span style="font-weight:400">“That’s…” she said, her face turning into a look of pure disbelief. “That’s Amy.”
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