Chapter 76: The Girl Who Came Back - Chapter Thirty-Two


    “Um, I was a bit spaced-out actually. Mainly, I was thinking that the numbers I was hearing were more


    money than I’d ever seen in my life, and half of it was mine. All I had to do was keep my nerve for a


    week.” Then I falter. “That all seemed pretty reasonable until Richard told me what happened to that


    other girl….”


    He slips his hand over mine.


    “Why did youe back to us, Charlotte? You went through that, after everything that had preceded it,


    and then James and I…. We…. You had the money. You could have started your life over, and never


    had to set eyes on us again, but you came back. Why?”


    “Because I wanted to. Because both of you were honest about it; about what you wanted, and that you


    were paying me, very well, for it. The things we did… you were both so gentle, and kind, and careful


    with me. You never forced me into anything. I chose all of it.”


    “Alright, so we didn’t hurt you. but that doesn’t answer the question. Why did youe back?”


    “I came back, at first, because I simply wanted more, of both of you. Later, I realised I’d fallen in love.”


    His face twists. “With James, not with me.”


    “It took longer with you, that’s all. And it’s different with the two of you. It was only meant to be for a


    week, butter, the more I thought about what had happened during that week, the more I wanted to be


    back with you both. The two of you were my Master and my Golden Lover. I’d never had anything like


    it.”


    “It didn’t bother you that we were fucking you for money? After what had happened to you in the past?”


    “But it wasn’t like that…. Yes, you’d paid, but you never treated me like I was someone you’d paid. And


    you helped me. You gave me ways of helping myself, and then,ter, after I knew I’d fallen in love,


    somehow…. there was never the chance, the right moment.... Michael…?”


    “Mmm?”


    “Did you pay? Was it both of you?”


    “No. James made the purchase. But I joined in. I’m not feeling proud of myself.”


    He looks pensive, drawing invisible doodles on the table surface with his finger.


    “Charlotte, have you never had someone to talk to? To confide in?”


    “When I was at the farm, there was a teacher at the school, Mr Kalkowski. He was wonderful. He


    taught me so much…. He let me use the school library, then he gave me the run of his own library. He


    let me use his telescope, showed me how to use it, taught me the constetions. And when I wanted to


    know more about it, he said he could only teach me so much, that I needed to go to college for


    more….”


    Michael is listening intently, with a silence that swallows my words.


    “…. He told me about his past life. He wasn’t young. I think he was supposed to have retired years ago,


    but they didn’t have anyone to rece him, that far out from the City. But.… he told me how he’d


    escaped his old country when things got bad and made a new life for himself. And I realised that, if he’d


    done it, so could I. He showed me that education is freedom, and if I wanted to make my own way in


    the world, I needed to learn as much as I could.”


    “He sounds a good man.”


    “Yes, he was….” My voice breaks up…. “At Christmas, I went back there to see him again, to tell him


    that I’d made it to university. I wanted…. I wanted him to be proud of me.… but he was so old…. when I


    got there, they told me he’d died.”


    My eyes flood.


    “Oh, Charlotte.” Michael shakes his head. “Oh God, I’m so sorry.” He hugs me, kissing the top of my


    head. “Jeez… what are we going to do?”


    *****


    I wake to the smell of coffee. My Master is there, sitting on the end of the bed with Michael, talking


    quietly with him. I don’t move, trying to pick out the words, but their voices are a low murmur, and I


    can’t hear what they are saying.


    I stir, and they both turn to look at me, Michael smiling at me, my Master sombre.


    “Good morning, Charlotte. How are you now?” says my Master.


    My stomach churning, “What’s happening?”


    He chews his lip for a moment. “I’m not going to tell you exactly until we have some final information


    it’s going to be alright for you.”


    “Really?”


    “Yes, really.” The words sound as though he should be pleased, but his expression, his bodynguage,


    says otherwise.


    Michael: “Coffee?”


    “Mmm, yes, please.”


    “Breakfast?”


    “Um, no. Don’t think I could hold it down.”


    My Master again, “Take your time. Have your coffee, take a bath, whatever. Thene down to the


    study. I’ll be in there.”


    I’m baffled. “How…”


    “Charlotte, please trust me. Just this once. We’re waiting for some documents toe in, for final


    confirmation, then we’ll tell you.” He snorts augh, but there is no humour in it. “You chose the right


    ce to finally make your confession. Haswell is the kind of man who can pull a lot of strings, very


    quickly, when he wants to.”


    “We’re going to his office?”


    “No, he’s here, downstairs.”


    *****


    Bathed and dressed, I go down to Richard’s study, Michael holding my hand. It smells a little musty in


    here. Of course, the room has not been used all summer.


    As we enter, my Master, seated in an armchair, stares out of the window.


    Richard is speaking on the phone, but seeing me, he smiles and points to a chair. Amazingly, he winks


    at me.


    ?


    “Yes, that’s just what I need,” he is saying. “Yes, yes, that too. Can you scan them and send them


    straight across to me… Oh, you have? Hang on a minute.”


    He taps at his keyboard. “Yes, it’sing in now.” He peers at the screen. “Yes, that’s just what I need.


    If you find anything else, please send it across, but this will do for now. Thanks, Will. I owe you one.”


    And he hangs up.


    “Sit down, Charlotte.”


    I don’t. On tenterhooks, I dance from one foot to the other, unable to settle. Irritably, he waves me again


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    to the chair, by his desk, “Please, sit down, before you fall down.”


    ncing across at me, he jabs keys on hisptop, then spins it, so I can see the screen. There is an


    old photo, the image of a face; a face I recognise. Even across the years, and knowing he is dead, my


    stomach churns.


    “That him?”


    I nod.


    He taps at more keys and a printer whirrs into life, spitting out documents at high speed. He catches


    them as they emerge.


    “You might be interested to know that you made the papers at the time. Even if no-one told you about


    it, you were briefly famous. It probably saved your life. The publicity meant that they couldn’t simply….


    lose you. You were fostered out instead, well away from the City.”


    He pushes papers at me. “You didn’t kill him….


    I stutter. “But…. I stabbed him. They told me he was dead…”


    “He died, yes, but not of a stab wound. He was chasing you, and it sounds as though you gave him a


    good run for his money. He followed you halfway across town, over the old river bridge, and died nearly


    two miles away. He chased you through the traffic and went under a truck, a twenty-wheeler. It dragged


    him some distance before the driver managed to stop the vehicle.”