Chapter 5: Drunk in love
Imade.
Anger is an understatement to describe exactly how I feel right now. I wasn''t angry at Jamal or at that
stupid wench that kissed him, I was angry at myself.
I was angry at myself for being a fool, I was angry at myself for being easy, for being trusting and for
waiting for a man like an idiot and depriving myself of the love that I rightfully deserved. Honestly, I
wouldn''t me Jamalpletely because at the end of the day, it was my decision and my choice and
I chose to wait for him and like a fool, I got dropped in the worst way possible.
"Hey, are you okay?" A familiar voice asks and I look up to see Joseph looking back at me with a
concerned expression.
"Uh... Yeah, sure. I''m fine. Do you need something?" I ask.
"You don''t look fine though. Your eyes are a little swollen and reddish and your face looks slightly
swollen as well. Did something happen?" He persists.
"It''s nothing too serious Joseph, just another bad day." I reply him tiredly, hoping he''d realise that I
wasn''t in the mood to talk.
"Does it have anything to do with what I told you earlier? And please don''t lie to me cause it was after
I told you that you suddenly left and now since you got back, you''ve been in a sour mood. Should I
have kept my mouth shut? I''m guessing I should have but believe me I honestly had no bad intentions
and I''m sorry if it caused you any trouble." He blurts nonstop and I mentally rolled my eyes at how
talkative he was being.
"I should actually be thanking you for telling me. It was exactly what I needed to wake up from a long
dream." I reply him and I meant every word I said. If it wasn''t for him, I would have continued fooling
myself and hiding behind the false hope that Jamal probably had amnesia and that one day he''d
eventually remember me. What a joke! I mentally scoff at my foolishness.
"Well then, I guess I''m not to me. If you need anything, anything at all, you can always call on me. I''ll
be happy to help you." He says assuringly and I offer him the most genuine smile my face and my
mood could muster.
"Thanks a lot Joseph." I say to him and watched him walk away before cing my head on my table.
A sudden knock on my table jolted me out of my sulking time and when my head looks up, my eyes
meet with Temde''s unfriendly pair.
"How may I help you Temi?" I ask and she scowls.
"Are you supposed to sleep at work?" She retorted and I sigh in frustration, wondering why in the world
she was so hell bent on making my life a living hell.
"I wasn''t sleeping, I was thinking and besides, we only have fifteen minutes left before work period
ends and as you can see, I''m less busy which means I have the right to take a breather and think. So if
you have nothing important to say, please walk away." I hiss back at her in frustration and stares back
at me with a scornful look on her face.
"Well, I can''t say I really me you anyways. I me the corrupt nature of this country that allows good
for nothings like you to get undeserved opportunities. I''m pretty sure you''re one hundred percent
certain about getting hired and that is why you''re not even afraid to sleep at work when you only started
to work here yesterday." She snaps with so much bitterness and I''m beyond amazed at how much
venom was dripping down her voice.
"What do you have against me? What did I ever do to offend you? I barely know you and you already
painted the worst picture of me in your head. What exactly is your problem?" I asked her, honestly
wishing she''d give me an actual response that would exin the real reason for her actions.
"Well, you could say I hate people who believe sleeping around will help them achieve sess. I hate
cheap women like you who would desperatelyy with any man just to climb up the sessdder.
That, is the exact problem I have with you cause you''re one of those women and mere seeing you,
makes my blood boil with pure disgust!" She spat at me and my jaw drops.
I have never felt so much hatreding from one person in my entire life. She has only known me for
two days and look how badly she already hated me.
"Listen Temde, I honestly don''t know what your problem is and I won''t say I care but if you want to
hate on someone, don''t hate on me. If you want to vent at someone, don''t vent at me. If you want to
shove your bitterness down someone else''s throat, don''t try to shove it down mine cause I won''t
swallow it. Your perception about me is solely your business and I don''t care about what you think but
I''d prefer those thoughts remain in your head and they should stay buried in there."
"I won''t allow a stranger like you to defame my character without reason and let me warn you clearly,
if you spout any of this nonsense out to anyone else and spread any false rumors about me, I will not
hesitate to report you. Be warned and if you''ll excuse me now, the time is 6pm which means my work
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here is done." I snap back at her strictly, packing up my bags and getting ready to leave.
"I don''t have to spread anything cause everyone already knows how you got in anyway." She replies
confidently and I smirk.
"Unfortunately, I can''t be bothered by mere office gossip when I have better things to do with my
time. It''s too bad those of you gossiping have nothing better to do with your time. I guess bad
mouthing people makes you feel superior and better about yourselves, too bad. How very
disappointing!" I reply her sarcastically and she hisses angrily before walking away, fuming.
I sigh in relief immediately she was out of sight and I thanked God for giving me the patience to
swallow her insults without reacting immediately. I''d be honest, her words really cut deep but after
everything unfortunate that has happened to me as ofte, her words were nothing but another
situation I can always overlook.
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7:30pm~~ At a bar...
"I''m a fool Angy. I''m a very very verrryyy big fool. I am foooolll!" I drawled childishly before breaking
into guffaws.
"Imade, I think you''ve had enough to drink. You''re already going past your limit." Ang warns but I
ignore her and take another gulp out of my fifth bottle of beer.
"You''re never irrational Imy and I don''t think this bastard you''re mouring over is worth your tears and
your sadness. You said it yourself that he''s with another woman now and he told you to your face that
he wanted nothing to do with you, so why are you still wailing over such a useless being? You should
even be happy that now you can finally live your life to the fullest without feeling obligated or bound to
anyone." She says as an attempt to get me to stop drinking and Iugh out loudly, taking another swig
of my very cold beer.
"Angy, you have no idea how it feels." I say to her and immediately burst into uncontroble tears.
"I s..spent ten good years of my life praying for Jamal''s safety. I lived ten years of my life worrying
about him and missing everything about him. Do you want to know how I consoled myself every time I
felt lonely?"
"I would stare at an old picture I had with him and assure myself that he was going toe back and
that I''d finally get the chance to do everything I''ve refrained myself from doing with him. I sometimes
cried myself to sleep, dreaming, hoping and praying that he''de back safely and in one piece and
G, what did I get in return?" I asked rhetorically, wiping my flowing tears with the back of my hand.
"Ang, I am broken. I feel lost, destroyed, alone and tired. On one hand, it''s my mother, on the other,
it''s my little sister and now I have to deal with this wretched feeling of despair that''s clouding my soul
and honestly, it hurts Angy, it hurts like hell and I don''t know how to let it go." I hit my chest repeatedly,
letting out the tears I have being suppressing for thest decade.
"My heart hurts seeing you like this Imade, this isn''t you. This person is not worth all this pain you''re
going through my friend. Snap out of it please." She pleads with me calmly and I could tell from the way
she spoke that she was trying really hard not to cry as well.
"I can''t help it Ang. Everywhere I look I see that skinny bitch kissing him and it makes me boil with
rage and disappointed. And at the same time, it makes me feel so inferior and insignificantpared to
her. She looked so elegant and so gorgeous and I just stood in front of her looking like a peasant. I
can''t help how I feel right now Ang and I really wish it would just stop!" I raise my voice slightly,
taking multiple gulps from my drink before pausing to cough out a little and catch my breathe.
"You''re not inferior Imade and that is something I can assure you of. For now, let''s get you home so
you can get some rest." She tells me and gently pulls away the bottle from my tight grasp.
I resist a little but soon after, a sudden feeling of tiredness overwhelmed me and my head started to
spin, my legs felt rather weak and wobbly and I started to feel dizzy and nauseous. My legs were about
to lose it''s bnce but Ang was quick to hold me back up although being the shorty that she was,
she found it quite difficult to hold on to me and I could barely walk or even see anything around me.
"Let me help you." A strangely familiar male voice offers to help and when I look up to try to see who it
was, all I could see were his blurry features that looked awfully familiar.
"No, thanks." Ang refuses but the familiar stranger persists and their back and forth banter
continuously made my head spin and thest words I heard before I passed out were.
"She''s a colleague from work."