Chapter 27: 26. The Disappointment


    Anika''s PoV


    Once back home, mom asked me about Arun. I technically hate to tell her that he''s not confirmed his


    visit yet. That will not be a good first impression. I believe that he would definitely make his time for us


    next week so I decided to tell her the same. Though she didn''t question me, I could see that she was


    confused.


    "What is bothering you, ma?" I asked her.


    "Just wondering, our rtive asks for your horoscope and biodata as soon as possible and here we


    can''t decide until next week. What happened to the interview that your professor promised?" she asked


    me.


    "Pch, that is not scheduled yet. I know we are going through a lot now, but please don''t talk about my


    marriage just yet, ma. The most important thing I need now is a job. um... can you call and ask Arjun sir


    for a job?" I told her to divert her from my wedding topic. And I am badly in need of a job.


    "You spoke very badly to him, Anu. How in the world can I ask him to help you? You said you didn''t


    want his charity, why do you want to seek his help now?" my mom asked me, more like rubbed it on my


    face. She doesn''t know I didn''t mean any of it, I just wanted to make him stay away by hurting his male


    ego.


    "Ma, please. I already apologized to him and he really enjoyed it when you hit me in front of him." I told


    her.


    "See, even now you talk bad of him."


    "You didn''t see his face when you hit me, he waspletely enjoying it. Pch, let it go ma. I am losing


    hope with all my contacts. Please, ma."


    "Ok, ok, I will call him now. I will talk to him first, if he wants some information, you have to talk to him.


    Make sure to talk very politely to him." she said.


    "I will!" I said and I don''t know why my stomach flips in anxiety. Am I longing to hear him on the phone?


    Is that why I called him yesterday? I am an idiot.


    She called him, she spoke to him like he was a king, she conveyed our problem. Here I was waiting for


    her to give the phone to me but she disconnected the call and turned to me with a smile that lit up her


    face. Am I feeling disappointed? Yes! Why? I don''t know.


    "What did he say?" I asked her.


    "He said he needs your resume. Here is his number, send it to him through your WhatsApp. He said he


    will look into it and let us know."


    "Oh, can you ask him to look for a job in Coimbatore itself?" I asked her. I am afraid now. I can''t go to


    Chennai knowing that he is there and there is a huge possibility that I can see him. Wait, but Arun is


    there too. Why didn''t I think of him?!


    "Listen to yourself. Have you listened to this proverb in our vige? Beggars can''t be choosers." she


    said sarcasm evident in her voice.


    "Ma, you are hurting me. This is why I told him that I don''t want his charity. See, now you speak like I


    am getting alms from him." I shouted.


    "Ok, ok, rx. I was just kidding. First send him your resume. Now go help dad to finish his dinner." she


    said. I went in to carry out my regr work.


    I took out my phone and checked for any messages from Arun. Nope, nothing! No message since we


    spoke yesterday. Actually, we were never chatty lovers. We speak when we meet and message


    asionally. We never call each other on weekends. I never felt the urge to talk to him or hear his


    voice, just like I felt a little before. Wait, what am I doing? Why am Iparing my feelings on Arun and


    Arjun? It''s all because of Nithu. She confused me.


    I sat down to send my resume to his number. I thought it was rude to just send my resume without any


    courtesy message. What should I send?


    ''Hi, this is Anika. Here is my resume, awaiting a good response from you. Thank you.''


    I typed this and felt it was not good. I erased and retyped.


    ''Hello, this is Anika here. How are you? Here is my resume. Thank you.''


    Nope, not good, it sounds rude!


    ''Hello Mr. Arjun, this is Anika. Hope you are doing good. This is my resume. Sorry for our earlier


    encounters. Thank you for epting our request.''


    This message makes me look like a girl who will stoop any low to get my work done. Well, I am not that


    kind of a girl. He must know that I am truly sorry for what happened between us earlier.


    ''Hello Mr. Arjun, This is Anika here. ept my heartfelt apology for our earlier encounters. I did what I


    did for a reason which is not right from your point of view and it is not your fault. I ept that I did


    wrong. Hope we start fresh! I have sent my resume just like you asked. Thank you for your help!''


    Mhum No! Too much information that is irrelevant and unwanted!


    ''Hello Mr. Arjun, this is Anika here. I would like for you to ept my heartfelt apology for our earlier


    encounters. I hope we start fresh! Thank you for helping us out yet again. Here is my resume for your


    perusal.''


    Done! I hit the send button and sent my resume along with it. I waited for him to see my message. I


    was waiting in anticipation when I saw the blue ticks on the message which meant he read the


    message. Will he reply? Why would he after all the insults I gave him? But still I waited for a response


    from him. I got too excited when my phone ding indicating that I received a message after about ten


    minutes. I opened it at the speed of lightning.


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    ''Hello Anika. I got your resume.''


    Is that it? That is all he managed to send me? What about my apology? Arrogant rude man. I felt


    disappointed all over again but I don''t really know what I expect of him. I decided to let it go but my


    stupid brain keeps on thinking about him. I don''t know any way to stop this madness. Just like I told


    Nithu, I should try and evacuate him from my mind before Arun tells me a date. But the more I try to not


    think about him, the more I feel him and remember him. I could still feel his finger on my chin. Those


    butterflies that swam in my stomach at that time, still swims there whenever I feel his finger on me. Is


    this love?


    What is love to be precise? Argh, it is all because of Nithu. She was the one that has confused me with


    her stupid preaching and cheesy movie stories. How can you possibly love someone without even


    knowing who he is? I agree that I have a fatal attraction towards him but that is not love, in my point of


    view. On the other hand, I know everything about Arun. I know his habits, hobbies, character and his


    family. We acknowledged the mutual feeling we had for one another and we moved our rtionship


    from friendship to love. We know for sure that we will be happy in each other''spany. Now this is


    love! But all this seems so nned. Like Nithu says, love is a feeling and that is not something we n.


    Argh! I just want to run away. I have so many problems already and I really don''t want to add more to


    the list. What if I ask someone to rify? Not Nithu, ofcourse. She is the main reason that I am


    confused right now. I decided to mail the stalker. I like him so much. Hees in handy at all my


    distress times.


    ''Hello Mr. Stalker,


    How are you? Hope you are doing good. I am in need of your view on something on a little personal


    level. Hope you don''t mind me asking. What is love? How do you know if you are in love? I am in total


    confusion and if you can shed some light, I will be grateful to you.


    Thank you!''


    I sent this mail to him and decided to sleep but sleep decided to run away from me. I set the phone


    aside and covered my head with my nket and tried sleeping when my phone pinged. Who messages


    me at this hour? I looked at the phone and was happy to see a message from the stalker.


    ''Hello Beautiful,


    I am too good. Thank you. You have asked the wrong person about love. Honestly, I thought I had the


    love of my life. I waited for it to bloom ande to me. I gave it time only to realize that it was just me,


    not her! I am a busy man and I really didn''t have time to LOVE. But when it came along the way, I


    epted it wholeheartedly and gave my everything. To me, love is very painful. But my friend says that


    what I had was eptance and not love. She says that love is a feeling where you have no control


    over it. You may want to deny it but you will know in the heart. I think I have confused you more than


    you already were. I am sorry I could not help you with this topic.


    Regards!''


    Sutham! He has a friend just like I have. Friends are very troublesome and confusing. But I could read


    the mncholy that ran between the lines. He is not happy? Why does it bother


    me?