Chapter 42 Go to See the Doctor with Him
It was a summer, and the building was made of wood, so the fire spread quite quickly. When Jensen
wanted to rush in, the fire was very strong. Eric pulled Jensen''s arm when Jensen made an attempt.
He told Jensen that he had called the police and they''d better wait for the fire truck. Eric said he was
not a professional and would only endanger himself.
"That''s your girlfriend!"
Hearing that, Jensen angrily shouted at Eric.
Perhaps Eric realized his errors. He went in with Jensen. However, the roof copsed and they were
pinned down. The fallen beam was a bit heavy. Rae ran in from the outside. Then he knew that Rae
was not in the building. The situation was very bad. Jensen did not expect that she would save him. But
Rae just hesitated for a few second and soon decided to save Eric. Even though his clothes are burned
and Eric was not at that time,…
He asked for help, but she ignored him.
Jensen could feel the pains in his burned skin every time he closed his eyes. He couldn''t find any
words to describe that feeling. He felt more painful that he was abandoned by her without more
hesitation no matter how nice he was with her. To her, the man who was absent when she was in need
was the most important.
Why?
The more he paid, the more he should get, right?
He loved her so badly. Why could she make a decision so quickly? He was at risk. Did it mean that he
was nothing to her? If he didn''t survive, she must be living happily with Eric. He seemed to ruin her life
n.
Why did he still take good care of such a bad woman? He shouldn''t be so nice to her. After all, she had
abandoned him. He should have punished her, tortured her and let her experience the same pain.
Perhaps he could make her happy and then made her life miserable, so the pains could be more
impressed…
(No, he loved Rae. How could he have such a dirty idea? She didn''t require him to be nice with her.
How could he ask anything in return? She was just a little girl then. The situation was urgent. She had
to make a decision quickly. She did not do anything wrong…)
But why didn''t she choose to save him…
(She should choose Eric because Eric was her boyfriend.)
It was true. However, why didn''t she hesitate for moments to make a decision? His life was so
worthless?
Jensen felt the haunting pains as if he had been torn apart. He didn''t want to think about it.
Pills, he needed to take pills!
No, he was not at home now. He had to hang in. Zain was here. If that crafty man found out his
problem…
But he felt so ufortable…
He wanted to take pills!
His mind was in a turmoil as if two parties were arguing with each other in his mind. He was very
agitated, wanted to kill them but failed. He raised his hand to hold his head. He was suffering as though
some invisible hand was tearing him apart. One asked him to be generous and the other party asked
him to revenge.
Only could pills save him.
"Mr Knight!" The assistant was anxious and didn''t know what happened to Jensen. Why did he stare at
the fire? If he stayed here all the time, he may be suffocated. The assistant saw Mr Knight hold his
head and thought Mr Knight felt ufortable because of the dense smoke. Seeing the situation was
so bad, the assistant pulled Mr Knight out without hesitation.
The corridor was safer.
There was only a whiff of smoke and the fire didn''t spread here. When he stepped out of the hall, he no
longer felt pressured and came to his senses. When he thought about his evil thoughts, he just wanted
to go back and read the Bible more times. Jensen realized that he had revealed his weakness, since
Zain was staring at him…
Jensen chose to leave.
He went to the bathroom and propped his hands on the sink. He regretted what he had behaved. He
had so many enemies now and the rtions between him and Zain were very tense. He could not have
any more trouble. Otherwise, he could not maintain the bnce in the present chaotic state. However,
Zain would not let go of him so easily if Zain found his weakness… Thinking of that, Jensen felt
irritable. He kicked the hard washbasin with great force!
He felt so annoyed that he even ignored the pains on his foot.
He had seen a psychiatrist regrly for treatment. Why did the situation get worse?
The bathroom door was pushed open.
It must be Zain who walked in.
"You''re afraid of fire?" Zain looked at Jensen and wanted to see him through. When Jensen stared at
the fire, Zain found that there was something wrong with Jensen. Zain couldn''t describe what was
wrong with Jensen, but he was sure Jensen was afraid of fire!
Jensen did not speak. As expected, Zain had discovered his weakness, but Jensen didn''t expect that
Zain would question him without investigating. Jensen turned on the faucet and washed his face with
cold water. He didn''t recoverpletely and was not sure if Zain knew something else. Therefore, he
chose to be silent than have a slip of the tongue.
"An arms dealer is afraid of fire?" Zain thought Jensen was pretending to be calm.
Jensen took out tissues and dried his face with them.
Zain was amused, "I''ve known your secret. Jensen, I don''t need to put it blunt. You should know what
to do." Zain needed Jensen''s help and his daughter liked Jensen. Therefore, Jensen was the best
candidate for an alliance. Jensen disagreed all the time. However, now Zain had known Jensen''s
weakness. Zain didn''t think Jensen could refuse anymore.
Thinking about that, Zain felt relieved. After all, he solved big trouble without efforts. He could
cooperate with Jensen and please his daughter, so he was very happy.
Zain left.
Zain supposed that Jensen would find him and act humble then.
After Zain left, he stood alone in the bathroom for a few minutes and finally swore, "Fuck!"
…
Rae felt something went wrong with Jensen.
When he came back home, he didn''t talk to her or kiss her, but locked himself in his study. She walked
outside the door and tried to nerve herself. Though Jensen was gentle before her all the time, she
realized that he was different tonight. He was gentle with her, but the coldness from him frightened her.
Rae heard the sound of smashing things. She felt so worried that she pushed the door open and went
in.
She only saw the books on the bookshelf on the ground. Jensen was standing in front of the bookcase
with a Bible in his hand and looking at Rae in confusion. Rae was immediately relieved. He just
identally knocked down the shelf. It seemed that he could still control his anger.
Rae walked to the pile of books and squatted down. She picked them up while asking, "What
happened? What''s bothering you?"
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"No." Jensen took the Bible to the desk, sat down and opened the Bible.
"You''re lying. Every time you''re annoyed, you read it." Rae was quite sure.
It was not for his business, but for personal things.
Rae recalled the past. She knew he hated bad mood. When he was in a mood, he would be trapped in
a dilemma. Rae picked up the books and sorted them out. She proposed casually, "You haven''t seen
the doctor for a long time, right? No wonder Dr. Lee called me and told me that you didn’t see him
these days."
Jensen did not refute.
"I''m free tomorrow. I can go with you. Besides, I''ve known some nice girls recently, and I''d like to
introduce them to Dr. Lee." Rae just found an excuse.
"Alright." Jensen read the Bible and answered lightly
Rae knew he was upset and did not bother him anymore. After putting the books in order, she went out.
When she closed the door and left, Jensen sighed and closed the Bible.
He didn''t want to make her unhappy, but he wasn''t in the mood for joking with her. He was reflecting on
himself. How could he stop the wicked thoughts when he was sick? Did he really hold grudges against
her? It was the first time that he hadn''t known his real intentions. He felt very upset.