Chapter Seventeen
Easton
“Can I tell you a secret?” Shay asks.
We’re tangled together in the dark, and I don’t even know if she realizes it, but she hasn’t stopped
running her fingers up and down my torso since I came back to bed. It’s like she can’t stop touching
me, and I fucking love it. “What’s your secret?”
“I’m writing a novel.”
I grin even though I know she can’t see it. “Of course you are. You’re Shay.” For as long as I remember,
she’s always been reading or talking about a book. She was alwaysing back from the bookstore or
camped out at the library. Books and Shay don’t just go together—I can’t think of one without the other.
“Are youughing at me?”
“No. I think it’s awesome. I guess I always assumed you’d end up writing something.”
“You don’t think it’s stupid?”
“Why would I think that?” I smooth her hair back, wishing I could see her face.
“I don’t know. Lots of people write books and nothing ever happens. I’m not sure I’ll ever be good
enough to get it published, but I had this story in my head and I wanted to try to get it down.”
“Will you tell me about it?”
I can feel her hesitation in the stiffness of her body, but she releases a breath and it falls away. “Don’t
“I wouldn’t.”
“It’s about a nerdy high school girl who falls for her brother’s best friend. He’s a football yer.”
I smile so wide that she’d probablyugh if she could see me. “I like it already. A little autobiographical
story there, Shay?”
She smacks my stomach. “No.”
I wrap my arms around her and roll her under me. I kiss her neck as I find her hands, sping them in
mine and guiding them over her head. “You told me once that you had a crush on one of your brothers’
friends,” I murmur, settling a knee between her legs. “I wanted to think it was me.”
She arches into me, and I wonder if she knows what a turn-on it is that she responds to me so quickly.
Sopletely. “Of course it was you. It was always you, Easton.”
My throat goes thick with all I want to say. I wish I could just show her the inside of my heart—touch her
hand and telegraph what it is she makes me feel. She’s the one who’s good with words. I don’t know
how to do that, but I do know how to support her. “Write your book, Shay. And when you’re done, you’d
better tell me so I can remind you how awesome you are and how much the world needs to read the
stories only you can tell.”
She shudders under me as if I’ve just whispered an erotic secret in her ear. “Everyone deserves
someone who makes them feel the way you make me feel.”
“I only speak the truth.”
“In that case, I need you to answer a question for me.”
“Anything.”
She’s quiet for several long moments, and I use the time to kiss a path from her ear down to her
corbone, and her measured breaths go jagged. “Easton, is this a ‘just because we’re in Paris’ thing?”
I lift my head reluctantly before I reach her breast. “What? What does that mean?”
She pulls out of my arms, and I feel her looking at me in the darkness, but I can’t make out her
features. We’re supposed to be sleeping, but I should’ve known I couldn’t sleep with her naked next to
me and insisted we keep the lights on. I want to see her. All of her. “It’s okay,” she says. “If this is, like,
something we only do once. I can understand that.”
I take her face in my hand, skimming my fingers over her soft cheek. “You know what I’ve been asking
myself since we got here?”
“What?”
“If there’s a way I can have you without being the reason you give up your dreams.”
“I don’t understand. Why do you even want me, Easton?”
“Because you’re Shay.”
Sheughs. “That’s not actually an answer.”
“Well, why do you want me?”
She scoffs. “Because my heart beats faster every time you’re close. Because any time I know I get to
see you or talk to you . . . any time I’m even expecting a text message from you makes me feel like a
kid on Christmas Eve. Because when I have your attention I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.”
“Yeah.” My voice shakes, as unsteady as this feeling in my chest. This is all so tenuous, and I’m
fucking terrified I’m going to screw it up somehow. “It’s pretty much the same for me.”
“You feel like the luckiest girl in the world?”
I release her hands and grab her sides. I trap her with a knee on either side of her waist and tickle her.
She squirms withughter under me. Then her back arches and our bodies are flush again and we’re
notughing anymore.
I lower my mouth to hers as I slide my hand up to cup her breast. “Come see me this summer,” I say
against her lips. “Come visit me in L.A. before training camp. I know you can’t stay—you need to finish
your degree—but visit, sleep with me, and be there when I get home every night.” I swallow hard. I
don’t know what I’ll do if she says no. I’ve never wanted anything more. “Everything after that we can
just take a week at a time.”
“Okay,” she says. “I’ll be there.”
I grin. “Does that mean Shayleigh Jackson’s going to be my girlfriend?”
“I don’t know. I’m so convinced I’m going to wake up from this crazy dream any minute now.”
I nuzzle my face in the crook of her neck and pinch her nipple. “Then let me prove you’re not
dreaming.”
Shay
Paris with Easton is nothing short of a dream. I can’t imagine a life in which this day doesn’t remain one
of my favorite memories.
I told my professor that a family friend was in Paris and got permission to spend the day with him while
my ssmates continued with previously scheduled activities.
Easton and I used every second we had. We took a boat ride down the Seine, walked up the steep hill
to Sacré-Coeur, and shared gto from a street cart outside an art gallery in Montmartre. When we
walked the streets of Le Marais by his hotel, he insisted on buying me thisvender-and-lemon-scented
soap, and a pretty pink-and-purple scarf. I tell myself it’s a good thing he has to leave tonight. If he
didn’t, I’d probably get myself in trouble trying to get out of more time with my ssmates so I could be
with him. But I don’t want him to go. In Paris, we’re in this bubble—a microcosm where Shayleigh
Jackson and Easton Connor isn’t an absurd joke but an actual possibility.
His driver takes me back to the dorms to drop me off before he heads to the airport, and he kisses me
so long in the back of the limo that I find myself straddling his waist again.
He groans and grips my waist with the possessive strength I love so much. “You’re going to make me
“Sorry.” I blush, but there’s no real embarrassment. Not after all we sharedst night. “I know you need
to go. I just don’t want you to.”
He tucks a lock of hair behind my ear and studies my face. “I don’t want to either. But I see you next
month, right? You’re not going to chicken out on me? You’ll fly to L.A.? Stay with me in Laguna?”
In truth, I’m terrified to visit Easton. That feels more like the “real world” than Paris ever will. Will he
realize then, when we’re in the middle of all the sh and glitz of his life, that I don’t fit?
“I can already tell you’re overthinking it.” He runs a thumb across my bottom lip. “I can see it on your
face.”
“I can’t believe we’re going to try to make this real.”
“Believe it, Shay.”
“I’m scared.”
“I want this, and you do too. It might be hard, but it’s just a couple of years, and then we’ll figure out
what’s next.” He kisses me hard one more time before whispering, “Next month. You and me.”
I want it to be true, but it almost feels like I want it too much. My stomach flips. How can this work when
I don’t fit in his world?
Easton
A week after my tour with Shay, I’m back on the Starling campus for another meeting. We all know I’m
going to take the job, but we need to do this dance just to make sure they appreciate what they’re
getting.
Even though it’s cold as fuck outside and my body is no longer ustomed to this ice-and-snow shit, I
parked on the liberal arts side of campus on the off chance I might run into Shay—because I’m just that
pathetic. I swing into the library for a coffee and am relieved to see the grumpy barista is busy with
another customer.
I hand the girl at the register my travel thermos. “Arge ck coffee, please.”
“You got it.” She winks at me and turns to fill my cup.
My gaze snags on the man talking on his cell at the end of the bar. George motherfucking Alby.
Shayleigh’s secret boyfriend. Jesus. What a pompous ass. I hate him, and even though I know my
feelings arepletely biased and entangled with irrational jealousy, they’re there. I’m not interested in
investing the energy to change them.
“I miss you too,” he says softly. Hell. Is he talking to Shay? His grin turnsscivious. “Save that for
tonight. It’ll be worth the wait. I promise, Buttercup.”
God, he is talking to Shay. The barista puts down my mug to help her coworker find something beneath
the counter, and I will her to hurry. I don’t think I can handle listening to Professor Douche sweet-talk
Shay.
“Nah, don’t be like that,” he croons. “We’re both so busy through midterms.” He hums and closes his
eyes. I half expect him to reach down and adjust himself in front of the whole library. “Anything for you.”
He chuckles. “I won’t even make you beg this time.”
Bile surges up my throat. Fuck it. Coffee isn’t worth this. They can keep the mug.
I turn on my heel, leave the kiosk, and push out of the library. And practically run into Shayleigh
Jackson.
She steps back at thest second, saving us both from a head-on collision. “Easton, what are you
doing on this side of campus?” She frowns. “Hey, are you okay?”
Jealousy is a giant drill twisting in my gut. “Fine. I was just getting some coffee.”
Her gaze drops to my empty hands just as the bubbly barista rushes out of the library with a steaming
cup. “Mr. Connor, you forgot your coffee.”
I grimace as I ept it. “Right. Thanks so much.”
Shay snorts. “Rough night?”
“Not exactly.” I watch the girl head back in and see George pull the phone from his ear. I look back and
forth between him and Shay. Is he already ending another call, or was he sweet-talking someone other
than Shay?
“No.” Her brows pull down together and her lips pucker in the cutest fucking pout. Fierce possession
ws at me. He doesn’t deserve her. “Why do you ask?”
I wave toward the windows to the view of the man in question. “I just saw him in there. He was having
an interesting phone conversation with someone he called Buttercup.”
“Okay . . .”
“Is that what he calls you? Buttercup?”
“No.” She shakes her head. “You’re being weird, Easton.”
“If you’re not Buttercup, I wonder who is.” I fold my arms. “I wonder who he was just talking to on the
phone.” Content of Draм??ovels
“Not quite a decade,” I whisper, thinking of that night in Chicago. She hadn’t talked to me in years, but
when she needed someone, she came to me. That meant something.
Her eyes narrow to slits. “Are you nning to rub my nose in my mistakes?”
“Shay—”
“I don’t care if you like George or if you think my rtionship is doomed to fail, but I’m not going to let
you stir up trouble where there is none.”
“I’m not stirring anything. I’m just stating facts. I heard him on the phone, and he—”
She holds up a hand. “Stop. Just . . .” She shakes her head, her jaw tight. “Please just stop.”
“I don’t want him to break your heart.”
“Right. Because I guess that’s your job.”
The blownds just as she intended it to, and I flinch. “I never wanted to break your heart either.” The
I suck in a breath. “You really hate me, don’t you?”
“You broke me.” She might as well have just plunged a knife in my gut. It would hurt less, but I can only
swallow and take it. I deserve every word. “Forgive me if I’m not rushing to sign up for another round.”
She walks away, and all I can do is lean against the side of the building and press a hand to the ache in
my chest.