Chapter - 50


    Sophia''s POV


    When Nick left the room I couldn''tprehend why. I saw him settling in the car and driving off. I was


    always scared of having this talk with him, scared of being left alone. When Ethan had brought the


    topic up in the car, I could feel Nick''s stare on me. I knew he had noticed me tense up.


    When he spoke about the baby , my immediate reaction had given away my uneasiness with the topic.


    I had to tell him about it . So I took a deep breath and decided to speak.


    I told him that I couldn''t give Ethan what he wanted. There was a brief moment of silence between us


    before Nick asked if I can conceive or not. His tone seemed so distant and cold but there was a trace of


    vulnerability in it. I told him that I could but before I could borate, he walked away.


    At that moment I could feel my heart breaking. Did he discard me because I won''t be able to carry a


    child. No , what am I even thinking? I know he woulde back once he cools down. But I didn''t know


    that he was so keen for a ch- Wait. .........Shit! He got it wrong.


    He asked me if I can conceive or not and I said I can. Now he thinks that I don''t want to.


    Oh God! That pig-headed, stupid , impatient man!


    Nick''s POV


    By the time I had reached home , it was pretty clear in my head that she would have never said


    something like that. It was fucking stupid of me to act on impulse.


    I parked the car and rushed in. The house seemed calm. I ran up the stairs into our room, but swinging


    open , I found it empty. The sense of Deja vu hit me hard.


    What had I done! Maybe she wanted to tell that she needs some time or something and I didn''t even


    listen to what she had to say.


    I hope I didn''t fuck it up so bad for her to leave the house. I searched each and every room before I


    came across one of our maids.


    " Did you see Sophia?" My voice came out just as impatient.


    " I saw Mrs. Carter going to the backyard a few minutes back." I didn''t wait a second before sprinting off


    in that direction. My eyesnded on her back facing me when I breathed out in relief.


    I slowly walked up to her and I knew that she could feel my presence. I carefully sat down beside her .


    " Sophia ." She kept staring in front of her.


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    " I am sorry. " I mumbled to which she sighed .


    " I was fifteen at that time when one day in school I felt this immense pain in my lower abdomen. My


    parents were called and I was taken to the hospital. They ran some tests on me finally it was learnt that


    I had some gynecological issues." I clenched my eyes shut , realising how wrong I was.


    "The doctor said that if I ever conceive , the pregnancy won''t be a smooth one and my life will be at a


    much greater risk than the baby''s." Sophia still wasn''t looking at me. She was staring off into distance


    and her face held a painful smile. The guilt coursed through me for assuming things beforehand.


    " Sophia-" She cut me off.


    " You know , with time I learnt to grow with it but still I feel that void in me. Like every other woman I too


    wanted to hold my baby for the first time, teach him to walk , hear him or her speak for the first time


    but..." She trailed off. Her eyes were glossy by now.


    I shifted closer to her and took her hand in mine in an attempt tofort her where I was the one to


    contribute to her pain. I was grateful that she didn''t snatch her hand away.


    " It took me a lot of courage to speak to you on this but you didn''t even let meplete. You just left


    assuming that I didn''t want to carry your child." I looked at her shocked.


    "How ?" She hang her head down with a sad smile , tear drops escaping her eyes.


    " I can understand what you think but what bothers is that you could think that. Do you not know me? "


    This was the first time that she looked up at me , hurt evident in her eyes.


    I opened my mouth a few times but nothing came out. I was guilty, so guilty that I had nothing to say.


    " It''s a sore topic for me and you just added on to the bitterness and pain. When you left , at first , I felt


    so helpless. I felt like you will discard me from your life because I can''t give you a child." I vigorously


    shook my head in disagreement. "Believe me when I say that I had never felt so weak in my life." She


    was silently crying. I felt my heart break into million pieces at the sight. She looked so vulnerable and


    knowing that I was the reason behind it, was intensifying the ache .


    " Sophia , I- it was - I know it was so so stupid of me to walk away like that , but- I felt like I was going


    to hear those same things , those same words which I had heard from ra. I was scared of being


    rejected again.


    But I could have never thought of leaving you , even if what I thought was true. You are too important in


    my life to be thrown away. Heck I , for sure know that I would crawl back to you even if you throw away


    my everything in mes. " She kept on staring at me. I was growing nervous with every second. I


    wanted her to atleast say something.


    " Sophia , say something, scold me, shout at me, hit me if you want but just say something please . I


    am sorry , just- please." The desperation was so clear in my words.


    She came up and positioned herself on myp . I was confused of what she wanted to do.


    Nevertheless, I put my hands around her waist , securing her on myp.


    I was ready for any kind of punishment she wanted to give but what she did confounded me. She held


    my face with both her hands and pecked my nose. I looked at her surprised while she faintly smiled at


    me.


    " What are you... I don''t deserve this." I blurted out. She sighed and nodded.


    " Yes you don''t. You''re an idiot, a pea-brained pig. " She paused for a second before continuing. "But


    then you''re hurt. You''re hurt from your past experiences and I want you to let go of them, to move on. I


    am your present and I am not ra. By letting your past in , you''re hurting not only me but yourself too.


    Just know that I love you way to much to ever intentionally hurt you. " Saying this she kissed my


    forehead and wrapping her arms around me, put her head in the crook of my neck.


    " I don''t even know how the fuck did I end up with you as my wife but I couldn''t have been happier. I


    love you so fucking much.You are one of the two most beautiful things that ever happened in my life. I


    am so sorry for hurting you, I am so damn sorry." I pulled her closer to me.


    We stayed like that in each other''s embrace for some minutes and for a few


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