Chapter 35: Ch.34/ Scared To Lose You
Anupama''s POV:-
Nothing seems to be real anymore because of the unimaginable things happening in my life after the
sudden marriage with Alessandro. Once a scared and timid girl has be a strong, independent
woman because of the encouragement her husband has shown on her. A husband who can turn the
world upside down if something goes wrong with his wife. Yet, I know that the secret I am keeping deep
inside my heart can break the faith Alessandro has in me. It''s not like I don''t want to tell him but I am
afraid of the reaction he will give after knowing everything. Will he still care for me the way he does
now? Will he still want me after knowing the secret of my past life?
I have been having these crazy thoughts from some days that something will go wrong and I will lose
the person who can sheer the unknown emotions in my heart. I don''t know what''s happening to me but
I do know one thing that I can not live without Alessandro. I can not put a name for the feeling that is
thriving in my heart because I have never felt something like this before. That''s why I want to live every
second of my life cherishing the moments that can get away from me after the revtion of the secret.
"Mum-mum!" Advira yells out for me from the kiddie pull Samuel has set up for her to y. I stand up
from the swing before going in from the happy little girl.
She can not swim well despite her Uncle Sam giving her swimming lessons twice a week. So, she is
using a unicorn floaty to swim around the pool.
"Yes, baby?" I ask after crouching down to her level. However, the naughty girl doesn''t reply instead
she starts to throw water at me. My eyes widen in response because I am not expecting her to do
something like this. She gives me a mischievous smile before she again throw water at me.
"You little miss naughty Advira Bianchi, just wait and watch what mum-mum will do to you." Saying this
I start to tickle her making her screech and giggle loudly. The dogse running out of the house as if
thinking their little sister is in danger, but upon seeing that she is ying with me theyy down on the
ground grass. After some time I pick up Advira out of the pool much to her whining and take her inside
the house. Zeus and Fonsie follow me however the other decided to stay out in the backyard.
"What on earth happened to her?" Mama Melody asks when she sees the pouty look Advira is giving
me.
"Your lovely granddaughter didn''t want to leave her kiddie pool and that''s why she is being mean to her
mum-mum." I reply with a fake sad tone.
"Me no meanie Nonna. Mum-mum no cry." Advira replies while trying to wipe my cheeks with her tiny
hands.
"Your mum-mum is not crying, sweetie. She is just sad that you are angry with her." Mama Melody tells
Advira who looks like she is having a dilemma about what to do.
"Me sworry mum-mum." Advira mumbles while hugging me.
"It''s alright baby. I know you are just ying with me. Let''s get you into some warm clothes or you can
catch cold." I reply before bidding goodbye to Mama Melody who goes into the living room where she
was watching tv earlier. I take Advira to her room and dry her with a towel. I put lotion all over her body
before dressing her in a warm onesie not wanting her to catch cold.
She is looking so adorable that I click a picture of her before sending it to her papa who I am sure going
to love it. I have already told one of the maids to bring warm milk for Advira so when she brings the milk
in a sippy cup, I give the cup to my baby who drinks the milk without any fuss. Of course, I can not
forget about the dogs so I give them homemade treats to eat.
I leave them in the room and go to my room to change out of the wet clothes. I hear my phone ring
from the bathroom so I hurriedly put clean clothes before picking up the call to see that it''s Dadabhai
who is calling me.
"Anu there is a problem with the deal we were talking about earlier. Can you pleasee to the
company right now?" Dadabhai says after I receive the call.
"Okay, I will be there in half an hour." I reply and cut the call. Thankfully I have worn decent clothes so I
don''t need to change again. I get inside the closest and pick up my purse before putting the necessary
things inside. I call the driver to let him know that I will be going to thepany asap.
"Mama Melody I am going to thepany." I inform her aftering downstairs.
"But what''s the rush dear?" She asks while standing from the couch.
"I don''t know exactly what happened but dadabhai just called and asked me toe to thepany.
So, I need to go there as soon as possible." I exin.
"Oh then you should go dear. Don''t worry I will look after Advira till youe back." She replies. I smile
at her and bid her goodbye.
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After arriving at thepany I directly go to dadabhai''s cabin where I find him yelling at some of the
employees. Upon seeing me he dismisses them and they get out of there after greeting me.
"Why are you shouting at them dadabhai?" I ask after sitting across from him.
"They can''t do anything correct Anu. They were supposed toplete the assignments by today but
they are not halfwayplete. Now, you tell me how can I not scold them for such misdeed?"
Dadabhai replies while running his hands through his hair.
"Calm down dadabhai. They are all new in this field so they need time to learn everything. I am not
saying that you are wrong in scolding them but I think currently they need your guidance more." I
exin in which he nods his head in understanding.
"I know I am overreacting about the whole deal but I have a feeling that this deal can make our
company known or it can be our downfall. The most irritating thing about this deal is the owner
who doesn''t want to back out of his demands. Ourpany might be a branch of the Sengupta
Enterprise but we''re not as popr as that one. Also, I don''t have much contact in here so I don''t know
what will be good at this moment." He replies looking defeated. I can understand his point of view and
his tension about the project but I think I know who can help us.
''Why don''t you ask for Alessandro''s help? I am sure he will be happy to help you." I suggest but he
shakes in head in denial.
"No Anu, I can not just ask for his help. He has already done so much for us and I don''t want him to
think that I am incapable of handling thispany. I will see what I can do to solve everything." He
answers back.
"Okay fine you can do whatever you think right but why did you ask me toe here?" I ask.
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"I want to discuss the presentation we are going to show to our clients. I think we should make some
changes because there are so many important factors are missing in the presentation." He replies
before showing me the presentation on hisptop.
After a lot of discussion, wee to the conclusion that we need to make a new presentation because
this one has a lot of mistakes in it. However, I assure him that this time I will be making the presentation
by myself. I ask him if he has his lunch yet but he tells me that he is extremely busy eating anything.
So, I order a chicken sandwich and juice for him before bidding him goodbye. On the way out of the
company, I stop by the finance department and ask for the important documents that will help me to
make the presentation. After collecting everything I leave thepany to get back to the mansion
because the sooner I can go home the sooner I can start on my work.
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The next day
Tomorrow is the ball night at the Bianchi enterprise so Alessandro is extremely busy with everything. I
have heard from Mama Melody that this is one of the biggest ball nights in entire California so
Alessandro has to overlook everything by himself. That''s why he has been busy for some days, he
evenes homete so he doesn''t get to spend much time with Advira. So, I have thought that I
should surprise him by going to hispany with our daughter. I am sure he will love to see his darling
princess with the stress he is going through.
Although I have met some of his employees on the day of our reception party but I have never gone to
hispany before, so I am kind of nervous to go there. I know there is nothing to be nervous about
because Alessandro and Bianca will be there. With that thought being in mind I get ready before going
into Advira''s room to get her ready. She starts to throw tantrum because she wants to y with her
barbies but when I tell her we are going to see Papa, she instantly abandons her dolls with a big smile
on her face.
Samuel is also going to apanying me as he doesn''t want me to get lost in the bigpany. I don''t
deny him because I don''t want Alessandro to know about my surprise visit to thepany.
"Wow, Advira you are looking very pretty." Samuelments after I buckle up Advira on her car seat.
"Me go see papa. Mum-mum pwetty me." She replies while giving him a toothy smile.
"That''s good. Papa will be very happy to see you there." Samuel answers back making me smile at
him.
Soon the car starts moving toward our destination. I open myptop to do some work because Samuel
has informed me that it will take twenty minutes to reach there. So, I spend the next twenty minutes
reading some essential documents for the new deal. Upon arriving at thepany premises Samuel
gets Advira out of her car seat but I keep stuck to my ce seeing the huge building in front of my
eyes.
"Let''s go inside Mrs. Bianchi." Samuel says to me.
"Are you sure I am not doing anything wrong?" I ask kind of unsure of my sudden decision.
"I am 100% sure that you are doing the correct thing. Forget about everything else and focus on your
surprise." Samuel replies gently making me feel a little better.
I get out of the car and take Advira in my arms. Samuel starts to walk beside me showing me some of
the area on the way. When we get inside thepany building everyone stops talking and starts to
look at us with wide eyes. But then Advira gives them a little wave which brings them out of their
shocking poster. She starts to greet whoeveres on our way making me feel proud of my daughter.
It seems my daughter has be a well-known person in her father''spany.
When we arrive at the personal ballroom of thepany I notice that Alessandro is talking to some of
his employees while Bianca is giving instructions to others. He still doesn''t notice us so I tell Advira to
keep quiet and give her to Samuel. She nods her head as if she knows what''s going to happen. I walk
towards Alessandro before stopping behind him. I clear my throat making him turn around and when he
sees me his eyes widen in surprise. He engulfs me in a tight hug before kissing the top of my head.
"What are you doing here Cara?" He asks after pulling away from the hug.
"I wanted to surprise you so I havee here. But I haven''te alone, Alessandro." I reply making
him give me a confused look but soon his face lit up with happiness when he notices Advira in
Samuel''s arms. Samuel puts her down and she straight runs to her papa''s arms who picks her up
without any ease.
"This is the best surprise I have ever gotten till now. Thank you so much, Cara." Alessandroments
after he is done hugging our daughter.
"This is the least I can do for you because I know you''re not getting much time to spend with our
daughter." I reply with a smile.
"So finally you have decided toe here I see." Bianca says aftering in front of me. She hugs
me and put a kiss to Advira''s cheek.
"Hmm, I think I was just waiting for the right moment." I reply sheepishly making herugh.
"I don''t know about others but I am super happy to see you after so long." Bianca says while ring at
Alessandro who res back at her.
"What''s going on between you two?" I ask because it''s very rare to see these two have conflicts with
each other.
"This dumb husband of yours is not listening to me. I am telling him that we need to give the employees
bonus for New year but he is adamant about it." Bianca replies with a huff.
"We have already given them a bonus for Christmas so what''s the need for another bonus? She is not
making any sense." Alessandro argues back. They start to bicker like two children making me roll my
eyes at them.
"If you two don''t stop arguing at this moment I will leave from here." I threaten when neither of them
ready to stop their argument. But when they hear my threat they stop immediately.
"Come on Bi let go. I want to look at the arrangement." Samuel saysing towards us before leading
Bianca away from there.
I nce at Alessandro who looks very tired so I take Advira from him and ask him to take us
somewhere vacant where I can talk to him. He leads me in the elevator and soon we reach his very
huge cabin. I put Advira down when she starts to squirm in my arms. She runs towards a huge pile of
toys and starts ying without a care in the world.
"Why do you have so many toys in your cabin?" I ask after sitting down on the couch.
"As you know, she sometimeses to thepany with me so to keep her upied I have arranged
a y area for her in the cabin." Alessandro replies while taking a seat beside me on the couch.
"You are spoiling her too much." I say making himugh loudly.
"I am not spoiling her Cara, I am just giving her some toys so don''t worry." He replies while taking my
hands in his hold.
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Alessandro''s POV:-
"But she is so little to have so many toys." My lovely wifeins trying to look intimidating but to
me, she looks like a little kitten.
"Okay fine I will try to give her less toys." I reply making her pout in return. I peck her pouty lips
because they are looking so delicate like petal. She hides her face between her hands however I can
see her blush because not only her cheeks but her ears are also looking red by now.
"You still get shy whenever I kiss you. What will you do when I do more than-" she puts her hand on my
mouth while her eyes widenically.
"Shh, why are you saying such bad things?" She whispers angrily. I signal at the hand that is covering
my mouth.
"So what do you want me to do with you?" I whisper in her after she removes her hand. I don''t wait for
her answer before starting to put feathery kisses on her neck. When She starts to tremble I stop my
torture because I know she is still not ready for more. I pull away from her neck to see that she is
avoiding eye contact with me. I put my finger on her chin and make her look at me.
"I will not do anything you don''t want Cara. You are more important to me than anything else." I tell her
gently.
"I believe you, Alessandro." She replies softly with a small smile. I stand up from the couch before
going towards my desk to call in the canteen and order them to send some snacks. After that, I pick up
my princess from her ypen and sit down on the couch putting her on myp.
We spend the next two hours talking,ughing and of course devouring some snacks. Little moments
like these are the reasons for my happiness after the long days of working. I have never thought that
my Cara is capable of giving me such surprise but I am to see her and our daughter in mypany. I
am sure that everyone in thepany is going to talk about this sudden visit from my beautiful wife.
But I don''t care what they say because I have gotten to see my wife and our daughter.
When the clock hit 6 o''clock I decide to return home. I pick up my princess before getting out of the
cabin while Anhuphama walks beside me. We reach the ballroom and once again I give the necessary
instructions before we leave from there. I get us inside my car and tell the driver to take us home.
Home, a word that used to be a foreign word to me but now it feels warm to call the huge mansion
home. Because my wife had made me look at things differently and I can not be happier.
Soon the car stops in front of the mansion and we get out of the car. I pick up my princess while her
mother rings the bell of the mansion. Melody is the one who opens the door and when she sees us a
full-blown smile makes its way to her face.
"I am assuming that you have liked your surprise very much." Melodyments after serving us
sses of water.
"I didn''t like it, I loved it, Melody." I reply with a smile while caressing the fur of King''s head. He is the
first dog I have rescued from a dogfighting arena. He was extremely vicious at first and didn''t let me get
close to him. But that didn''t stop me from trying my best to tame the beast in him. He is still a beast to
others but for me he is always going to be my first child.
"He was waiting for you toe home but then I think he got tired and fall asleep." Melody says while
taking a seat beside the sleeping King who looks like he is smiling in his sleep.
"I am such a horrible father. I don''t even get much time to spend with them. I am sure they are angry at
me." I mumble feeling guilty.
"You are not a horrible father Alessandro and I am sure none of your babies think anything like that.
They all know how much you love them and care for them." Melody assures me with a gentle tone as if
she is talking to a child. I don''t reply because I feel a lump forming in my throat so I get up from the
couch before going upstairs to change my clothes.
While standing in the warm spray of water I let the tears run down my cheeks. I am not someone who
likes to show my emotions but after marrying Anhuphama it is bing hard to control my emotions. I
used to say that I don''t believe in love because there was no one to show me love in the past. Yes,
Melody was there but I used to be so cold towards her so despite her caring nature I had never let her
love me like other kids in the orphanage. Whenever I saw her ying with other kids, I wanted to reach
towards her but my ego was the main barrier between us.
I want to call her Mama like everyone else does but I don''t know how to initiate it. I want to enjoy her
motherly hug she gives to others. I have never gotten jealous of anyone but when I see her with Marco,
a spark of jealousy stir in me because he gets to call her Mama.
Anhuphama is correct in assuming that I see Melody as my mother and I don''t even know how she has
gotten to know about my feelings. That why I call her my cara because she is truly my beloved or how
else she gets to know the things I don''t even tell her. However, I am scared for the first time in my life
because of something unknown to me. I don''t know why but I have a feeling that there is something I
don''t know about Anhuphama. I am not saying that she is lying to me about something but I think she is
hiding something important from me.
She is a mystery that I am discovering little by little, still there are more to know and I just hope that
nothing will be able to take her away from me. Because I will surely die if she goes away from my
life.