Chapter 56: Pregnancy Test


    "What happened,Lyka? Why are you crying?" Miss Linda asked, concern etched on her face as we


    both sat on my bed. Joday was on her bed, attentively looking at me. The two of them had been


    comforting me earlier, eager to understand why I was crying.


    My heart pounded in my chest as I stood there, torn between the desire to confide in them and the


    fear of the drama that would inevitably follow. The weight of my secret threatened to crush me, but I


    couldn''t find the right words to express it.


    Joday''s eyes bore into mine, her impatience evident, waiting for an answer that seemed impossible


    to give. Miss Linda''s concerned gaze added to the pressure, and I felt myself choking on the words I


    longed to say.


    Finally, with a trembling voice, I managed to speak, "The reason why I am crying is because... I


    think... I think I''m p-pregnant."


    As soon as the words left my lips, the room fell into an eerie silence. The air seemed heavy,


    charged with emotions waiting to erupt. Joday''s eyes widened in shock, and Miss Linda''s face


    turned pale.


    It felt strange repeating it, but there it was - the possibility that Kiro and I had conceived a child


    during what happened at Aunt Tarling''s apartment. The thought was both exhrating and terrifying.


    I couldn''t confirm it yet, but the mere idea left me feeling overwhelmed with emotions.


    I couldn''t hold back the tears that threatened to fall again. My emotions were all over the ce.


    Joday''s enthusiastic response surprised me, "What? Then, why are you crying then? That’s a news!


    We should celebrate it!"


    Celebrate? Yes, it should be a reason for celebration, but instead, I felt a mix of nervousness and


    uncertainty.


    I gently touched my stomach, as if trying to connect with the life that may be growing inside me,


    even though it was too early to be certain. "I''m sorry if that''s how mom first felt about you, son– if


    you''re really inside," I whispered, feeling a strange mixture of love and fear for the potential life


    inside me.


    "L-lyka, K-kiro is the father?" Mis Linda asked, seeking confirmation. Content ? N?velDrama.Org 2024.


    I couldn''t help but let out a small, bitterugh. "Who else will be its father?" I replied, realizing the


    answer was so obvious.


    "What? So that child is—” Joday began, but I interrupted her, feeling the need to rify.


    "It''s still just a thought. I''m not sure if I''m pregnant," I said, my voice wavering.


    Joday insisted, "Then, we should be sure!" She seemed determined to find out the truth. I was


    unsure about the process, but Joday had already prepared a pregnancy test.


    That night, she went out to the convenience store just to buy these tests so we could be certain. I


    nodded, feeling a mix of anxiety and gratitude for her support.


    "We''ll wait here, Lyka," Miss Linda reassured me as I went into the bathroom of the maid''s quarter.


    Holding the pregnancy test in my hand, I stared at it for a few moments, unsure of how to use it.


    Feeling embarrassed, I stepped out again to seek guidance.


    Both Miss Linda and Joday eagerly stood up, waiting for the news I was about to share. "What?


    How was it? Are you pregnant, Lyka?" Miss Linda asked.


    "Miss... I don''t know how to use it," I admitted shyly.


    Joday couldn''t hide her surprise, "What? Even I, a virgin, knows how to use it! Just pee on it, Lyka!"


    On any other normal day, I would have burst intoughter at Joday''s remark. Her humorous and


    straightforward nature would have managed to lighten the mood and bring a smile to my face. But


    today was different. The weight of uncertainty and the possibility of being pregnant made it hard to


    find the usual joy in her words.


    Miss Linda offered guidance, "You just urinate on it, Lyka." I nodded, feeling a little foolish for not


    knowing such a simple thing.


    I quickly went back inside the bathroom, my heart pounding with nervousness about the results of


    the pregnancy test.


    I stood in the bathroom, trying to urinate as instructed, but my nerves got the best of me, and I


    couldn''t do it. Feeling awkward just standing there, I stepped out of the bathroom, admitting my


    struggle to Joday and Miss Linda.


    "Oh, Lyka! What? Are you pregnant or not?" Joday asked impatiently. When I said I couldn''t pee,


    she sighed in disappointment.


    "W-what? You don’t know whether you’re pregnant or not?" she said as she returned to her bed.


    "No, Joday. I just couldn''t pee. How can I know for sure if I can''t do it?" I replied, feeling a bit


    frustrated. I knew it was important to find out, but I couldn''t force my body to cooperate.


    Miss Linda intervened, suggesting we find out tomorrow and encouraging me to rest. Joday added,


    "Sleep well, Lyka. That''s healthy for the baby." They were both humorous and caring, and their


    words brought a smile to my face.


    "Thank you both so much," I said before going to bed, caressing my stomach gently. The warmth of


    my touch reminded me of the tears I shed earlier.


    Why did I cry at the thought of being pregnant? What were these conflicting emotions I was


    experiencing?


    As I closed my eyes, I reached out to the tiny presence growing within me and spoke tenderly to the


    child in my mind. "If there''s something inside, I''m sorry for what Mother felt earlier. I didn''t mean it. I


    don''t even know if I''m pregnant or not, but what I''m sure of is that I will love you," I whispered in my


    thoughts.


    At that moment, I wholeheartedly believed that mothers and their children were connected even


    before birth. It was as if an invisible bond already tied us together. With a sincere promise, I vowed


    to the little one that I would love them unconditionally, no matter what the future held. My words


    were filled with warmth and reassurance, intended to let them know that they were deeply


    cherished.


    A smile crept onto my face as I recalled Joday and Miss Linda''s actions. Their care for me warmed


    my heart, but I couldn''t help but feel anxious about Kiro''s reaction.


    How would he take the news? How could I tell him?


    He was still recovering from his illness, and there were lingering issues that could be triggered by


    such news. But it wasn''t his fault. I knew that. He couldn''t control his memories or his emotions.


    "Go to sleep, Lyka. I can hear your sighs. Don''t think about it and go to sleep," Joday called out to


    me.


    I smiled in response and took onest deep breath. I wished for a good day tomorrow, hoping that


    whatevery ahead, I would find the strength and courage to face it.