Chapter 49: Public Disy of Affection?
As Kiro continued to share his painful past, my heart ached for him.
"I tried to woo her back, but nothing happened. There is something really wrong. And that''s when I
found out— she cheated on me... with my best friend," his voice quivered with hurt, and I could
sense the depths of his heartache. I couldn''t help but feel a surge of shock and disbelief. My heart
sank as he revealed that Lily, the woman he had loved so deeply, had cheated on him. It was as if
the ground beneath me had crumbled, and I struggled to grasp the reality of the betrayal he had
endured.
"But y-you said she was kind?" I stuttered, unable to reconcile the image of a kind person with the
one who had betrayed him so callously.
"Hmm, I think she''s kind... but a cheater," Kiro''s response dripped with sarcasm, a defensive
mechanism to shield his wounded heart.
"She apologized to me, over and over again. And who am I to not forgive her? Besides, I loved her,
so I gave in and forgave her. She said ''they'' did not mean it. I forgave her because I loved her.”
“But she did it again," he continued, his voice tinged with a mix of forgiveness and bitterness.
"There, I suddenly exploded. My pride and ego were trampled. What did I do to be fooled by her?
By them? Am I not the best for her? And really, with myfriend? I have lost my girlfriend, as well as
my best friend," the pain in his voice was palpable, and my heart ached for him.
His eyes were red from reliving his painful memories, and tears welled up in my own eyes as I
listened to his heart. "So, I broke up with her. But she still apologized to me. I don''t get her, she
cheated on me twice and then she still wanted me to stay? She always came to my house or condo,
saying nothing but ''sorry,'' but I really did not want to get back with her…”
“Not until a news shed— shemitted suicide. She left a letter to me saying ''Sorry, my Kiro''...
and I med myself too much that time. I med myself for her death," my heart broke as he
narrated this heart-wrenching revtion.
This time, I couldn''t help but embrace him tightly, offering whateverfort I could in the face of his
pain. He cried like a vulnerable chick seeking sce from its mother, and I held him, wanting him to
know that he wasn''t alone.
"It''s not your fault, Kiro," I whispered gently, trying to reassure him.
"Everything doubled. It seemed like it was my fault that she disappeared... She didn''t even think
about how I would feel about her loss... I med myself, and that''s when I used alcohol to relieve
pain. I always got drunk, taking women home every night, using them to forget everything...
Temporary forgetfulness... And then one day..." I listened intently, understanding the deep reasons
behind his struggles.
"I couldn''t stop myself. I''m addicted to it. I was diagnosed with those shitty conditions. I was unable
to restrain myself from the call of the flesh, I forced women, even r*ped th—" My heart sank, and I
immediately shook my head, wanting him to stop going down that dark path.
"I-it''s not your fault! It''s not your fault, it''s because of your illness, Kiro," I said urgently, my arms
wrapped around him, trying tofort and protect him from the demons that haunted him.
"No, it was my fault. It was my fucking fault," he uttered, his voice filled with self-loathing and guilt.
My heart broke for him, seeing him trapped in the cycle of me and pain.
At that moment, I held him close to me. "It''s not your fault, Kiro," I said firmly, trying to make him
understand. "You were dealing with an illness, and it clouded your judgment. You didn''t know how to
handle everything that happened. But that doesn''t mean you''re to me for what happened to Lily."
I continued to hold him close, hoping that my embrace would provide somefort. I wanted him to
know that I was here for him, that he didn''t have to face his demons alone. I wanted to be a source
of strength for him, just as he had been for me.
"We all make mistakes, Kiro. We all have things in our past that we regret. But that doesn''t define
who you are now. You''re a good person, and I believe in you," I whispered, my voice trembling with
emotion.
I could see the pain in his eyes, but I also saw a glimmer of hope. Maybe, just maybe, he could find
healing and redemption with someone who cared for him deeply. And I was determined to be that
person for him.
–
As Kiro''s words echoed in my mind, I couldn''t shake off the heavy feeling in my heart. His self-
me and the pain he carried were evident, and it was heart-wrenching to see him in such aContent ? copyrighted by N?velDrama.Org.
vulnerable state. This was not the same Kiro I had known– the cheerful and confident man seemed
like a distant memory now.
Leaving Kiro, I made my way to the maid''s quarters, seeking some sce in the familiar
surroundings. However, as I entered, I overheard Miss Linda and Joday engaged in a hushed
conversation. Their words sent a shiver down my spine, and my forehead furrowed in concern.
What were they talking about? What did I need to know?
"Don''t make it public, don''t tell her, Joday," Miss Linda''s words made my heart pound even louder,
and I couldn''t shake the feeling that they were discussing something rted to Kiro''s past. My mind
raced with questions, but I dared not interrupt their conversation, instead feigning innocence as I
had just entered the room.
"L-lyka? You''ve been there for a while?" Miss Linda''s shocked expression as she noticed me made
me feel uneasy. Did she suspect that I overheard their conversation?
I managed a wry smile, trying my best to conceal the turmoil inside me. "I just got in, Miss Linda. All
right, I''ll rest first." I hurriedly made my way to my bed, hoping to find some refuge in sleep.
But as Iy there, the words I had overheard continued to haunt me. I couldn''t ignore the feeling
that there was something I needed to know, something about Kiro''s past that he had kept hidden
from me. After those revtions he told me, there is still a hidden past I need to know?
My heart ached for him, and I wished I could alleviate the burden he carried. As I closed my eyes,
my mind was still filled with questions and uncertainties. The weight of his pain was now shared,
and I felt a deep sense of responsibility to be there for him.
–
It was already noon, and the mansion felt unusually quiet and still. After waking up and going
through my morning routine, I was surprised to find Kiro also awake and eating at the table. It
seemed he had a habit of waking upte too.
"G-good morning, sir," I greeted him instinctively with a respectful tone. However, he sighed and
gently scolded me, reminding me to drop the honorifics. It felt strange to address him informally, but
he insisted that something had changed in our rtionship. I couldn''t help but secretly smile at his
words, feeling a sense of closeness that hadn''t been there before. I remained silent, unsure of how
to respond.
He then invited me to have lunch with him, but I hesitated, worried that Miss Linda might see us
together. However, he seemed unfazed by that possibility and insisted that we should eat together.
"Eat it, you woke up at noon. I''m sure you''re hungry," he said, handing me a te, spoon, and fork,
and serving rice and a dish onto my te.
I couldn''t help but point out, "You forgot I was the maid here, so why are you serving me, huh?" I
said with a sense of pride, patting his shoulder yfully. It felt strange to have the roles reversed,
with him serving me instead.
"Am I not allowed to serve you, my queen?" he replied with a hint of yfulness in his tone. His
words caught me off guard, and I blushed slightly at the unexpectedpliment. He had never
addressed me like this before, and it made me feel both ttered and flustered.
Damn.