Chapter 32: 32


    "Don''t run, please. I beg you." He pleads.


    But I ignored it. I just walked straight away.


    "Fuck, Jianna! Listen to me, I just want to apologize." He said, he’s voice was closer, maybe it had


    gone down to the rock.


    I turned to look at him. He is already down.


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    "For what, huh? Will anything change? Will it erase everything you’ve done, all the pain I''ve


    experienced?" I spat.


    He shook his head.


    "No. I know not bu-."


    "So, why do I have to listen to you?" I cut him off.


    "I want to be at ease, my guilt is eating me!" He shouted.


    Is that the reason for it? Then, I don’t need it.


    "No. You don''t deserve that. It''s only right that you be miserable like you did me." I said. "I don’t care


    even if you die out of guilt."


    I walked out. But it still chased me. He grabbed me by the waist and put me on his shoulder like a sack


    of rice.


    "Put me down, Russel!" I shouted, trying to punch him in the back. But it didn''t budge and just walked


    straight. He carried me behind the rocks.


    "Fuck you! You''re a fucking asshole!" I cursed.


    I prayed to leave but he blocked the way. I got even angrier.


    "Jianna, listen to me. I won''t ask you toe back to me or love me again. Just listen to me, please. I


    feel so sorry for you, listen to me." He pleaded.


    I got even angrier.


    "When I begged you, did you listen?" I asked.


    Tears roll down my cheeks.


    Here we are again.


    "I''m so tired of crying, Russel. I want to be bad, but why is that? You''re always taking that away from


    me?" I added.


    He said sorry, but I cried even more.


    Is that all he knows to say? Sorry? What for?


    I broke down and fell on the sands. I''m just sitting on the stress. I''m very tired.


    "Just hear me out, please. After that ... then I won''t bother you anymore." He said.


    I looked at him. "I''m so tired of you, Russel." I said.


    Pain showed in his eyes but didn''t speak about it. He sighed deeply.


    "I''m really sorry." He said. "I apologize for everything I’ve done to you. I know I''ve hurt you so much.


    And I know that nothing I say won''t diminish that. But I still want to say, I still want you to know so I can


    move on and let you go."


    It hurts.


    "I was too confident. I became very confident because I know you love me so much. That even if I


    make a mistake, I know you can forgive me too. I’m so pull of myself; I know."


    "But, Jia. It also hurts me to see you cry because I hurt you again. I love you so much ..." He said.


    Iughed.


    Love? Fuck, is that how he loves?


    "I know you won''t believe it. But I really love you. I love you so much."