Chapter 17: 17


    I was back on reverence when Arianne spoke. It smiled at me as it said goodbye.


    "You take care of him, Ms." Herst words before leaving me with him.


    Him.


    The one I keep running to is already here in front of me. Seriously looking at me.


    I roomed my sight around. I checked the aircon to see if it was on because I felt too hot all of a sudden.


    And even though there was no window in my office I still searched. I feel suffocated.


    And I was about to stand on my chair but Reysa''s words echoed on my head.


    "Ja, seriously, whatever your shameless ex took away, you''re not there unless you''re the one who


    meant it. But as long as there''s no confirmation that you are, just calm down. Give yourself a break. Or


    better yet, get used to it. Train yourself to see him because the world is too small for you not to meet


    again. Train yourself to be able to move on. "


    I sighed.


    Can I do it?


    Actual situation is way harder than imaginations. This is not the situation I have repeatedly memorized


    in my mind!


    "You don''t have to. You don''t have to think about what, you just control yourself not to run or leave


    when he''s there, that''s okay. First step, first learn to be able to stand somewhere he''s already there. At


    least that''s all. " Were hand words?


    I sighed again, contemting myself.


    Yes, Yes. You can do it! I said to myself.


    N?vel(D)rama.Org''s content.


    I could do it then, why can''t I do it now?


    It was just him.


    I can handle it.


    "So, you were a Safety Officer for 2 years? What made you leave your profession and be a


    programmer?" I asked, scanning his resume.


    It''s just for formality. He''s already hired and why I''m still asking him I also don''t know, maybe to calm


    myself down.


    He''s aputer programming graduate. And when he became an S-Safety Officer, it was only the


    influence of his older brother. He wanted to cross the same path his brother took.


    "Because I am chasing my dreams." He answered. My forehead furrowed.


    Isn''t being a Safety Officer his dream?


    I chose not to ask further and just shrugged it off.


    I am out of it. I''m no longer in the ce to be curious and I also have no ns to find out more about


    his life. He is no longer my business anymore.


    "Well, I wish you will be able to chase your dreams here, in ourpany." All I said before dismissing


    him.


    I just called Shawn, one of my men, to apany him to his future table.


    My office is separated from my team. I am in an enclosed room and theirs are just in front of mine. Only


    the ss wall serves as the wall of my office so I can see everything outside and they are the same.


    I sighed.


    I was only asking for guidance, but I was given a challenge.


    Oh, God.


    This is going to be hard but I believe that this will end my agony. They’re right, it won’t end if I keep


    running it. I''m going to face it this time, for myself.


    For once, after all the sufferings, I have to stand for myself now. I need to be brave so I could live


    normally after this.