Chapter 93: Tara is awake


    Jerry is beside me When I woke up while Drake and Andre were outside. I woke him up because of my


    slight movement. He automatically hugged me and cried.


    "Tara, I thought you died. I wouldn''t forgive myself for ignoring so many times. Tara I''m sorry." Jerry


    said while tearing up and hugging my hand. As if he is guilty, as if it''s all his fault.


    "You should be. You have no time for me at all. I want you to cry a river when I die." I said jokingly.


    " Please Tara, don''t say this thing. I don''t wanna imagine it." Jerry is tearing up abnormally.


    "I want you to live long and be happy."


    " I will be happy if you marry me and we make little babies like you and me Jerry."


    "Tara please... You have to know. Even though I don''y say this you should have known with all the


    rumors you heared about me. All of those are true."


    Jerry is so serious with his statement and he wants me to listen well. He is seated on the hospital bed


    beside me, holding my hand.


    "I don''t care about rumors. i don''t care if its true. I want to be with someone I care about and you


    should be the same we can''t be single forever. we have to settle down sooner orter so what about


    we be together Jerry. I don''t care about your affairs. I will be contented just to be with you Jerry." I


    insisted trying to prove a point to Jerry. I hope he would somehow agree.


    " I can''t do that Tara. I''m not capable of marrying you and giving you a child."


    " But why. I don''t care if you don''t love me Jerry. If you would agree to this for business then let''s do it.


    Or think of your Mom, she will be so happy if we end up together. Or for the sake of having cute kids


    even for that it would be fine with me.


    "Tara listen." He doesn''t seem to know how to break it with me. He look down and look back to me and


    kiss my hands. "Tara I''m gay. I can''t be part of the family that you want. I don''t want to be a Dad. I don''t


    see myself as one. I can''t be a good husband. You deserve someone better Tara. Someone that can


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    make you happy. That''s npt me. Please I don''t wanna keep on pushing you away. Just give up this


    idea. You can never make me convert on a new religion. Please." He beg again and again while he


    holds my hand.


    " Didn''t you told me. You had a night with Lisa? So what was that?"


    "I told you that coz you hate her so much and you vowed to stay away to any man who slept with Lisa. I


    thought it qould make you disgusted of me.


    "I''m speechless with what is Jerry is saying."