Chapter 221
Chapter Two Hundred Twenty-One
Misha
“Can we take the long route today?” I asked Sephie as we were stretching for our run the following
morning.
She looked at me, a serious look on her face. “Misha, is something wrong? You’re volunteering to
torture yourself now? Is there something I need to know?”
I chuckled, then shrugged my shoulders. “It’s been a while since we’ve been able to go for a run. I
didn’t realize how much I’ve grown to enjoy it.”
She slid her arm around my waist. I was so much taller than she was that her head fit right in my
armpit. I would usually try to get her to sniff my armpit whenever I could to annoy her, but this time |
surprised her by wrapping my arms around her and picking her up. It always made herugh and I
really needed to hear herugh right now,
When I set her down, she was stillughing. “We can go for as long of a run as you like, my adorable
Russian guardian. But we should maybe tell someone that you’re going to need two lunches instead of
one.”
“Maybe three,” I said, contemting how far it was around the entireke.
We didn’t usually talk when we ran until the end when we were walking back to the house to catch our
breath. It was actually one of the things I liked about running with Sephie. By myself, I would always
listen to music because I didn’t like the quiet. But with her, it waspletely different. We were quiet,
but it wasn’t the same quiet. It wasn’t a lonely quiet. I found myself thinking through lots of things when
I would run with her where I couldn’t when I ran by myself. It didn’t make sense, really, but I felt like she
was a calming force anytime she was around.
I managed to keep up with her the entire time, which was a huge confidence boost for me. I had
struggled to make it the entire way thest time we took the long route, but this time felt easier. Maybe
it was because I was missing it more.
As we neared our stopping point for the walk back to the house, Sephie looked at me, grinning. Her
smile was infectious.
“Misha, I’m so happy that you suggested wee to the house. And I’m even happier you wanted to
take the long route this morning. I didn’t realize how much I needed this,” she said as she turned
toward me with her arms open for a hug. Seeing the smile on her face made me so happy. I bent down
and picked her up into a bear hug, making herugh again.
“It makes me happy to see you happy, gazelle. This week has been rough for you. I’m really d I
could give you at least a little bright spot,” I said, spinning her around. I loved hearing herugh.
As I set her down, she said, “it’s been a rough week for everyone, not just me. I clearly saw the pain on
your face after I fell asleep in the office and started talking in my sleep. Misha, I never meant to put that
on you, or any of the other guys.” Her smile faded and she looked at me seriously as we walked back
to the house.
I was trying to find the right words to say to her, I knew she didn’t like to open up. I understood. Her
story was not a happy one. “Sephie…” I started to speak, but she cut her eyes over to me.
“Uh oh, it’s serious. You used my name Instead of culling me gazelle,” she said smiling.
I cleared my throat, looking at her as seriously as I could manage, which arguably wasn’t that serious,
“Sephie,” I said, trying not to smile. I put my hand on her shoulder to stop her. I wanted to get this out
before we got back to the house. I wanted to capitalize on my alone time with her. She looked at me,
surprised, but she stopped and turned to face me. I continued, “Sephie, I look up to you. Maybe more
than I’ve ever looked up to anyone in my life. You might be younger than me, but you’re leaps
you keep us allughing, you catch on to things so quickly, and you bring the brightest light into my life.
Now that I know what you’ve been through and that you’re still, well, you? It makes me want to work
harder to be worthy of your friendship. To be even half the person you are. I look at you and Boss and
I’ve never seen anything like what you two have, but I know I want my owry version of it. You do so
much for all of us. I just want to be able to give back and be able to be the same for you that you
are for me”
I could see the tears welling up in her eyes as I talked. I felt my own tears threatening to fall, but I
needed to say this. I needed her to know how much she meant to not just me, but to all of us.
Guaranteed, every single one of the guys had thought about having this conversation with her, if they
hadn’t had it already. Now that I’d started to tell her what I’d been thinking about, I wasn’t sure I could
stop it. “It’s hard for us to hear about what happened to you in your past, not because we can’t handle
it, per se. Although I must admit that I’ve wondered if I could’ve survived everything you have and still
been able to see the humor in the world. I can’t imagine what it was like to go through everything
you’ve been through, but it hurts knowing you had to endure it. Simply because you mean so much to
me, to all of us, and we want nothing but the best for you, always. Hearing that you’ve had to go
through what you have is frustrating, like Andrei said, but only because we know there’s nothing we
can do to take that pain away from you. What I can do, however, is always be here when you need
someone to talk to. Or not talk to. Or to take the long route with. Whatever you need, Sephie.
Whenever you need it. I’ll be here. So will the other guys. I love you and want to always see you happy,
if only because of the joy you bring to my life when you are happy. I know the other guys feel the same
way, if they haven’t already told you,”
She had a few tears falling down her face as she listened to me. For once, she looked like she didn’t
know what to say. She just smiled and wrapped her arms around me, resting her head on my chest.
She took a deep breath, but didn’t let go, so I kept my arms around her. “Misha, you only ever have to
worry about being you. Each of you has a special role to y in my life, just as I have a special role to
y in yours. You bring your own uniqueness to my life and I couldn’t imagine my life without that now.
It seems si lly to say. I haven’t even known you for a year yet, but I can’t imagine my life without you
and the other guys in it. You guys always say I’ve brought so much to your lives, but I can say the
same for you. You’ve all brought so much to my life. I can’t even begin to tell you what it means to me
to always feel safe with all of you. That right there is worth more than anything to me. But you’re so
much more than that. You love the fuckery as much as I do and quite frankly that’s my favorite thing
about you. Your Intuition is quickly bing unparalleled, too. I saw your faraway look right before you
ordered Adrik to.e to the house,” she said as she looked up at me, grinning. “It’s starting to work
on positive oues too, isn’t it?”
I just shook my head. “Of course you would notice.” I grinned down at her. She kept one arm around
my waist and I kept one arm around her shoulders as we started walking toward the house again. “It
hasn’t happened as much, but I get different feelings when it’s a positive oue. It’s helpful, really. It
makes it clear so I can tell the difference.”
“So, negative oues are still like a feeling of dread or nausea?” she asked. I nodded my head.
“What are positive oues
then?”
“So far, it’s been goosebumps over my arms and upper body,” I said.
She stopped. She looked lost in thought for a moment before she looked up at me. “That’s a powerful
sign, Misha. My m om used to tell me that was the way to know a universal truth. Did you get
goosebumps when you thought about using to the house yesterday?”
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“Yep.”
“Were you just thinking abouting to the house or was there something more specific?”
I thought for a moment. “I was thinking about how you’ve been looking like you did after the attack on
us, just without the concussion. And then how you looked after the ball, just without the ho le in your
hip. I thought about howing here and being able to go to theke always seems to recharge you
somehow. Then I thought I should suggest wee to the house and that’s when it happened.”
She giggled. “That’s why you were so frank abouting here. You never give orders, but you sure as
sh it gave Adrik an order.