Chapter 247


    247″ Am Losing A Little By Little


    Thiago’s POV:


    The way she innocently asked me why I wasn’t there with her, I felt like going back in time and ripping


    my heart out so that I didn’t feel the pain and stayed with her.


    It was just that it hurt so badly that I had to get away from her for some time. Whenever I am angry,


    Theo somehow manages to show up and say things that could be hurtful. And then, when Lazlo told


    me she wanted some time alone, I decided to respect her decision.


    “I guess I was hurt,” I whispered in my mouth, craving to hold her close and make her mine. But it is a


    distant memory now. I couldn’t be selfish and keep her tied to me. Sadly enough, all these things have


    taken a toll on me, and Theo has be more powerful andmanding over my body than I am.


    “And you were going to reject me but never decided to have a final talk with me.” She recalled what


    Lazlo had told her. Which was an utter lie.


    I never told him I was ever going to reject her. I told him to keep Enya safe and that would be back


    soon.


    “I guess I said it in anger once, but I was never going to do that,” I uttered as I took one step nearer to


    her. Gosh! Her existence was the best thing ever to happen to me. She was this incredibly beautiful


    person that I couldn’t get enough of.


    “Enya! I never mean to control who you can and cannot ept. I was just mad because I didn’t like


    Zander for you. He is rude and maniptive.” I instantly covered the distance between her and me and


    knelt down in front of her. I don’t know if she was ready to let me hold her hands yet or not, but I didn’t


    want to force her into anything.


    “I knew he would use all his ways to make you start a physical rtionship with him. You and Lazlo


    were the only people I could trust, and then—,” I didn’t want to say anything that could upset her, but


    she finished it for me.


    “And then we betrayed you.” The guilt on her face made me feel guilty for bringing it up again.


    “I guess you weren’t at fault. The situation turned dirty quick.” 1 raised my hand to hold her hand, but


    then pulled it back.


    “I have been feeling very sick for thest few days. It wasn’t until the rogues kidnapped me that I found


    out I was pregnant.” The emptiness in her eyes was killing me. She lowered her face to probably choke


    on the tears whilst I kept staring at her hand, I wish I could hold her hand. I wish all the grudges were


    gone. And I wish I was not a Lycan.


    It was saddening that Lazlo didn’t tell me she was sick. Every day he would lie to me about how happy


    and satisfied she is now that they are dating.


    The problem is, when I was chained to the basement, Lazlo was telling me he was the perfect mate


    She had ever epted. How was a cursed creature going to ruin that for her?


    “I think you don’t want to talk about it.” The dryness in her tone snapped me out of my thoughts. I didn’t


    know how long she had been waiting for a response from me.


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    “No! I am just—- It is just that I wish I was here. I wi–why the hell did you two even go out at night when


    you knew the rogue attacks were increasing?” suddenly, I felt my voice being raised at her. It shook her


    up.


    “I mean; I wish we could have avoided all this.” I got on my feet to walk away from her and rub my face


    in my hands.


    She was silent


    “I am sorry for my outburst,” I let out a littleugh while she narrowed her eyes from afar at me and


    then got up on her feet to stand close to me.


    "I saw your eye color changing for a split second," she was anxiously demanding me to look her in the


    eye and stay still.


    "Umm! I guess you saw it wrong." I shook my head and looked away from her quizzical stare. “How


    bad is it, Thiago?" She was stubborn enough to not let go of the subject. "Is your Lycan taking over


    already?" The shock on her face crumbled my heart. I didn''t want her to deal with another mess after


    losing our baby. That trauma has fucked me over into losing a piece of myself to Theo. "It is not as


    bad." I lied, shaking in my skin, thinking how she would react when she would find out. It''s almost like I


    was losing myself. "Is it because of my betr---ayal?" Her voice cracked, and her hands flew to her


    mouth in acknowledgment. "Hey! No! That is not it. It is because you were in pain." I longed to hold her


    close, but even she was keeping her distance from me. It was almost like we both wanted to be


    together, but there was lingering tension between us. "Oh My God!" She gasped to herself, walking


    back to sit down on the bed and covering her face with her hands. "Enya! Trust me, you are not the


    reason this is happening. This has been written about my fate forever. It is just about the time that 14" I


    reached out to her to exin to her what my end was going to be like when she raised her face and


    covered my mouth with her hand, silencing me very sweetly. Her touchforted my forever aching


    soul. There was so much about her that I didn'' t want to miss. And it was also true that I didn''t want to


    share her with anyone. "I am sorry!" the moment she apologized for touching me and pulled back from


    me, realized she had created a barrier between us that we now had to respect by keeping our hands to


    ourselves. "Oh!" I was constantly looking her in the eye when I shook my head and forced a weak smile


    across my lips to say, "I am happy you are fine now." *** Enya and Thiago had made amends but their


    rtionship is not how it used to be. Let me know if you have seen the visuals. Zander''s visual is


    coming up soon and a reader actually gave me options and I really liked them.