OLIVIA


    You know when the world has turned against you, when nothing you do seems to go well. Everything you try seems to fall apart. That is what is happening to me right now. Nothing in my life is going well. Back when I was arrested, I thought if I had money like my husband did then things would have been better.


    Now, I have the money and the support but for the life of me. nothing is going well. It’s been a week and Nick Jones is still missing. The police are on my back about the whole thing, watching my every move as if I will lead them to where the man is. My hope, Luke. ended when the third day came and gone with no word from him.


    Right now, all the evidence the police have points to me having something to do with his disappearance. Ethan and Marcus gave them the phone and they found all the texts and calls nothing more. But they still feel like I am hiding something. Marcus was right, Nick Jones always finds a way to fuck up my life.


    Marcus might love me, but no man will stand for such nonsense. He came into my life when everything was going to shit, things started getting better but now they are back to where they started. Through all that, there is onemon denominator, Nick Jones and his mother of course, ming me for everything going wrong in their lives.


    I am tired, very tired. I wish I can just disappear like Nick did and go where no one knows me and maybe I will get some peace. I was looking forward to my wedding but now I don’t think that will ever happen since I am still married to the man who I am now used of hurting. Fuck my life!


    “Am back,” said Marcusing in, he has been keeping his distance from me and I understand. I med him without cause and now I don’t know what to do to get things back to how they were before. He is now focusing on work and Samuel. I think he is just tolerating me now.


    “I made lunch.” He didn’t even look my way. “I already ate, thanks.” I sighed and went to join him on the couch.” I am sorry Marcus, I won’t say I didn’t mean what I said because I did at the time, but that was because I didn’t know why you did what you did. I now know that it was for me and my son, and I appreciate it. please, forgive my ignorance.”


    It is the first time he has sat down long enough for me to offer a proper apology to him. he nced at me but said nothing. I also kept my mouth shut because I didn’t know what else to say or do for that matter. Sometimes we women me our men for shit while we don’t even know the whole story.


    Instead of talking to them we me them and get angry. Which is what I did to Marcus when the man has not given me a reason not to trust him. “Olivia, what does it mean to you when I tell you that I love you and want to be with you?” that was a difficult question.


    If I am being honest with myself, I don’t know the answer to that. “See what I mean? You don’t even know what loving you means. What I mean to you.” I shook my head. “That is not the case Marcus, I know you love me but to be honest, I don’t know what that means. I was in love once and I thought I knew what that meant but I didn’t.”


    He chuckled shaking his head. “So, Nick ruined you for the rest of us. At least for me, tell me something. Why did you agree to marry me then?” okay, I guess this is the day of honesty. “I agreed because you make me happy, you make me feel alive, something I have not felt in a long time. You make me feel safe and loved.” He nodded.


    “If I make you feel safe and loved then why would you think I would put you in an ufortable positi reason. Do you think I am like Nick? Please, don’t crucify me for his sins because I have not done anything to deserve that.”


    r no


    That hurt, maybe I wasparing him to Nick without even realizing it. “I am sorry Marcus, I truly am.” You see, loving a damaged woman is not easy, we take our shit from our previous rtionships and bring it on to the current ones causing unnecessary pain and conflict.


    Making Marcus feel like that was not my intention but thats exactly what I did. Made him feel like he was <b>not </b>doing enough or that he was not putting me and my feelings first while he did all he was doing for my sake. The man was not thinking of today, but the future and I didn’t see that. but how could I?


    I am damaged after all, busy looking for red gs instead of enjoying my life with him. “It’s alright Olivia, but don’t everpare me to Nick. If you don’t understand something I am doing, then ask me and I will exin it to you.” I nodded.


    “Luke called<b>, </b>he said he was on his way back. I asked him if he found Nick, but he didn’t say anything. He just asked me to tell you that he is on his way.” Luke has not called in over a week and now he was calling Marcus instead of me.


    That got me worried, maybe he called him because he has bad news, ones that I will not be able to handle. “Don’t look so worried, he didn’t sound like there is bad news, he only sounded tired on the phone, let’s have hope.<i>” </i>That was easy for him to say, he was not the one standing used.


    A loud knock sounded on the door. We shared a look before he stood and went to open. I was expecting Luke since he said he was on his way. But when Marcus came back, he was with detective Rogers. “Mrs Jones, I am cing you under arrest for the kidnaping of your husband Nick Jones. you have the right to remain silent…”


    “Shut the fuck up!”