Chapter 51


    Xandar’s heart cracked at the words ‘sad by myself’. When she started pulling up her covers and was


    about to slip the rest of her body under the sheets, he lifted her body up and ced her on hisp. After


    guiding her head to his chest, he muttered, “You don’t have to be sad by yourself, Lucy. You can be sad


    with me. We’ll get through this together. I love you, baby. It’s okay for you to break down in front of me.


    Please stop trying to hold everything back. Let it all out. Let it all out with me.”


    Lucianne couldn’t hold back any longer. She broke down with an anguished cry, and sobbed and sniffled


    in Xandar’s chest as she let the feelings ofck and unworthiness flow through her. Without allowing


    these emotions to pass through her being, she would never be free. The sensations would just build up


    and make her ufortable and drained.


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    Xandar stroked her hand and shoulder as he continued letting her cry into his chest, drenching a part of


    his shirt. His heart ached at the increasing wetness. Every sniffle and sob felt like a stab to his heart. His


    animal was not helping when it broke down in tears at the scene as well. 1


    Unworthy and insecure. Xandar thought about what she said. After knowing about her past, i t was not


    surprising to learn that she felt that way. And he wasn’t sure whether to be grateful or devastated by the


    fact that she no longer had a tendency to be jealous.


    Life has thrown so many instances her way to trigger that rage within her that she was now able to


    ignore that feeling altogether. She would rather walk away in hurt than allow jealousy to make her fight


    against someone to get someone else. This thought pained Xandar. His beautiful and selfless mate had


    been through so much. Yet it seems that such things never


    stop happening to her. 1


    Even when she had stopped crying, he continued to hold her and stroke her lovingly. None of them said


    a word to each other. Suddenly, Lucianne sat upright on hisp. He was about to ask how she was


    feeling but when he saw her reddened eyes ze over, he fell silent and continued holding her as he


    waited.


    Juan was mind-linking his sister, ‘Lucy, how are you, really?’


    ‘I’m fine now. Xandar’s here. He made me cry everything out with him. I’m okay now. Don’t worry.‘


    There was a pause before Juan linked a response, ‘He’s good to you, Lucy. There’s no reason t o


    question his loyalty. There’s no need to feel insecure.’


    He knew her so well. She was quiet for a moment before she linked, ‘I guess that’s true. I just… get so


    frustrated that I’m never able to not feel this, to not feel… unworthy’


    ‘You are worthy, Lucy. We all see it. You have no idea the impact you have on the lives of everyone you


    meet. So much so that we would kill for you. You saw everyone tonight. We


    were ready to murder three people just to keep you. All of us would’ve done it without hesitation,


    especially your mate. Those three wouldn’t have left the room alive tonight had you not stopped us, had


    you not stopped him.’


    ‘What happened tonight with everyone growling was definitely…unexpected.’


    Juan scoffed, ‘For you, maybe. But not for the rest of us. You‘re worth more than you know, Lucy.”


    ‘Why do I still feel like this sometimes? Why doesn’t it ever go away?’


    “Give yourself time, Lucy. You’ve been through more than anyone we know. Let him be there for you.’


    ‘It’s not like he’s going to let me shut him out anyway. He practically forced me to let him


    sleep on my couch tonight when he saw through the front I was putting up.’


    Juan chuckled, “That’s good. I’ll bring some clothes over for him in a few minutes.’


    ‘And Juan…thank you for not mentioning anything at dinner. You saw through me, too. But you didn’t say


    anything. Thank you.’


    Juan chuckled again before he linked back, ‘Anything for my little sister. I’ll see you in a bit.’


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    Lucianne ended the mind-link. Xandar’s concerned gaze fell on her when she exined in a much


    steadier voice, “That was just Juan checking up on me. I told him that you were staying the night so he’s


    coming down in a moment with some clothes for you to change.”


    When she climbed out of hisp, he held her arms and asked frantically, “Where are you going?” Was


    she avoiding him again?


    She simply said, “The bathroom. I want to wash off the tear stains before Juan gets here. I don’t want


    him to worry about me any more than he already is.”


    Xandar still refused to release her as he said firmly, “You do know that I’m okay with worrying about you,


    don’t you? You don’t have to mask anything to stop me from worrying about you, Lucy. I hope you know


    that.”


    Her lips managed a slight upward curl and she nodded before saying, “I know. Thank you.” Xandar was


    relieved to hear those wordsing out of her mouth, and kissed the back of her hands before letting


    her go to the bathroom sink.


    He watched as she sshed cold water on her face. Xandar was only brought out of daze when he


    heard a knock on the door. He got up to open it, and Juan was standing there with a folded set of shirt


    and pants.


    As he was handing over the clothes, Juan asked Xandar in a hushed voice, “How is she?”


    Xandar epted the clothes, and pondered for a moment before he frowned and muttered,“ Just


    because she’s strong it doesn’t mean she deserves to go through these emotional turmoils. Why does


    life give someone like her so much to deal with?”


    Juan smiled sadly and whispered, not wanting Lucianne to hear them, “You have no idea how many of


    us want to know the answer to that question, your Highness.”


    Lucianne came to the door as soon as Juan finished saying that. He offered her a hug. They held each


    other for only a short moment before bidding each other goodnight.


    Xandar changed in the bathroom, and tucked Lucianne into bed after that. He kissed her on her forehead


    before whispering a firm and clear ‘I love you’ into her ear. When she muttered a soft ‘I know’, he smiled


    and pecked a kiss on her cheek.


    Relief washed over him and his Lycan. He went to the couch and fell asleep as soon as he saw


    Lucianne’s own eyelids fall in the dark.


    In a bar, Livia mmed her phone on the counter table after speaking to her aunt. On the high chair next


    to her, Sasha’s hopeful eyes turned dark. Livia didn’t have to say anything. Her reaction pretty much told


    Sasha the gist of what she wanted to know.