Chapter 48


    48. Love & Thoughts


    THEON


    Last night still reyed in my mind, and although another day hade and gone, I couldn’t bring


    myself to return to the cabin. It had felt too… intimate. Against my better instincts, I had been unable to


    hurt her by walking out. That in itself should be warning enough for me. She was having an effect on


    me, far more than she should. I should have walked outst night, but seeing the hurt in her eyes…


    Fuck I wish I could say it was how ravishing she looked that made me stay, but it wasn’t.


    I didn’t want to see tears in her eyes, unless, of course, they were caused by when we were getting


    physical… Just the thought of her naked body made my dick twitch. Was I falling for her?


    Was I even capable of that? I had spent years trying to squash all my feelings, so why was she able to


    break the imprable shield I had ced around myself?


    “Here you go, handsome.” The blonde who had just ced a fresh tankard in front of me said in a flirty


    tone.


    I cast her a cold re, not bothering to even spare her a word.


    That was another issue. I was someone who had no shame in admitting that I didn’t mind admiring a


    sexy body when I saw one, but that was until Yileyna came into the picture…


    I wasn’t the only one who thought so. She was the most talked-about woman, especially among the


    epsilon ranked warriors. When they were drunk or unmated, I have heard enough about her. There was


    no such thing as getting enough when it came to Yileyna.


    I closed my eyes, trying to control my anger that was beginning to rise.


    I had loved once…but it had been different than what I have with Yileyna. I always put it down to simply


    desiring her, butst night my actions proved that wasn’t the case.


    I picked up the tankard, gulping it down in one go and mming the empty tankard onto the table.


    Yileyna… What will happen when she learns the truth? Was there a part of her that would side with


    me? Will she forgive me for what I have done? Do I care?


    ‘I love you.Her words rang in my mind, and I almost believed them, even if I knew she was just


    delusional Iyara…


    The music in the tavern faded away as my mind went back to the young girl I had once opened my


    heart to…


    “I’ve shifted now. Are you excited for the full moon tonight? Do you think maybe we are mates?”


    “Does it matter?” I asked, looking up into her chocte-coloured eyes as she straddled me.


    The sun was shining brightly as Iy on the grass, arms behind my head. Her dark hair bounced


    around her in pretty curls. She was tall and slender, with a toned body and beautiful ebony skin. The


    daughter of one of our strongest warriors. I wasn’t sure how we ended up talking, but it became


    something more. We hadn’t taken the final step… but I think it was only a matter of time before she


    gave herself to me.


    “Not really… I think it’s better… if we’re not mates?” She mused, looking up at the sky. She was


    gorgeous. Right now the way the sun was shining on her… Fuck, she needed to get off of me.


    I sat up, pushing her off lightly.


    “Yeah?” I said, not looking at her as her eyes filled with concern.


    “Yes, and the only reason I’m saying that is because if something were to happen to me, I don’t want


    you to die.” She whispered, twisting her fingers in herp.


    I smirked, looking over at her.


    “Yeah, and do you think if I took you as my mate that I’d let anything happen to you?”


    The smile that lit up her face took my breath away, and I was unable to stop myself from giving her a


    small smile of my own…


    I frowned remembering how we didn’t end up being mates, but she confessed her love once more.


    That night when she gave herself to me… I realised I couldn’t do it. She was far too innocent for what I


    was nning to do… I took her first time, but then I walked away, telling her that it had been a mistake.


    I broke her that night… but I had stayed away after that, cutting off all contact with her.


    Why couldn’t I do it with Yileyna? Was it because she wasn’t as innocent and gentle as Iyara? Was it


    because no matter how rough or twisted I became, there was no fear in her sinful eyes? She craved


    more… She weed my anger and rage… almost as if she was the perfect match…


    The door mming open and the sound of loud talking made me nce towards it, only to see Niki,


    Kyson, and a few of their cronies enter. A blistering re of anger rushed through me, remembering


    what they had done to Yileyna. I wasn’t one to forget my enemies… Niki and Kyson would be the


    first I’d kill when the time came.


    “Sana! ‘The usual, beautiful!” Niki called out, blowing a kiss at one of the women.


    I lifted my empty tankard and instantly one of the women was at my side, filling it up for me.


    “Can I get you anything else, Sir Theon?” She asked.


    “No.” I replied coldly as Niki and his group took a seat at the only table they could find in this


    crowded ce. A table that was right in front of me, I think it was time I got out of here. I picked up my


    newly filled tankard when Niki spoke.


    “Rumours are going around Beta to be Theon, that you have taken the traitors’ daughter as your


    whore.”


    Our eyes met, his smirk faltered when he sensed the murderous intent in my gaze.


    I wanted to vent my frustration and it looks like I just found my distraction.


    “I’ve given the warning time and fucking time again, yet it’s obvious that it’s not getting through to you.”


    I replied coldly. And as much as I wanted to rip him limb from limb right now, I had to wait. I couldn’t


    ruin my mission because of my anger. I stood up, dropping a few coins on the table, and walked over to


    Niki. I grabbed him by the scruff of his cor, his smirk vanishing as the other men around him


    tensed.


    “Yileyna De’Lacor is not my whore but my woman, and possibly your future beta female. So make sure


    you learn to respect her. Do you know the punishment for disrespecting your superiors, Levin?” I


    hissed, twisting my hand and tightening the fabric around his neck viciously, cutting off his oxygen


    supply.


    I knew this would only give birth to more rumours, but I’d had enough.


    He grabbed my wrist, as he struggled to get free from my hold.


    “Let him go!” Kyson growled, so I turned my murderous re on him.


    He looked away, and I mmed Niki back violently, knocking his chair onto the ground, his head hit


    the floor with a satisfying crunch.


    The smell of blood filled the air. He groaned in pain.


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    “I hate repeating myself, but I’ll do it this one fucking time. Disrespecting Yileyna means disrespecting


    me, and I don’t tolerate any kind of disrespect. Do I make myself clear?”


    Silence and the beating of several hearts followed.


    I fucking thought so. Turning, I left the Three Horseman’s Tavern, ncing up at the night sky.I hoped


    he got my message soon, I needed to meet him before we take our next step…