ric’s POV:


    I think I may have been obsessed with her.


    No–I didn’t think. I fucking knew it. I was obsessed with everything about my wife: her face, her body, her stubbornness. Her goddamn attitude. The way she trusted me. The way she wanted to know me.


    The way she thought she wouldn’t hate me once she found out who I really was. What I’d done–to her family and mine.


    And I hated it. So much. Thest time I was obsessed with someone, my heart was eventually ripped out of my chest and torn into several pieces. Although I knew Meadow was not rissa, I still couldn’t let myself get obsessed.


    But I was fucking selfish, so I wasn’t going to let her go.


    Meadow moaned into my mouth, pressing her warm, tight body against mine, and I picked her up, carrying her over to the vanity and dropping her on the table.


    “You want to know if I’m scared of you leaving?” I rasped against her neck. <b>“</b>I’m not.” When I pulled back to look at my gorgeous wife, her face had fallen. But I wasn’t done speaking. “I’m fucking terrified.”


    Here I was, confessing to her about what had quickly be one of my greatest fears.


    Meadow’s lips parted slightly, her eyes zing over as she gasped. “ric-<b>” </b>


    I rested my forehead against hers<b>, </b>swallowing. “You’re the only one who makes me lose control, Meadow.


    You make me lose my fucking mind.” I captured her lips again, softly this time. “But you also keep me in control. I don’t know how you do it.” I shook my head. “But I don’t want you to fucking stop.”


    Warmth erupted in my chest as she ran her hands over it, her eyes on me as she wrapped them around


    my neck. “But I don’t… I don’t do anything-<b>” </b>


    “Don’t say that, baby,” I muttered, heaving a sigh. “And I know you mean well. You want me to bare myself


    to you. You want to know who I am, but I’m not entirely sure that’s possible, Meadow. You can’t know me.”


    Her eyes were wet. “But I want to. Why don’t you want me to know you?”


    The big question, with an answer that I wasn’t sure how to provide. The words were at the tip of my tongue, and it was only when Meadow cupped my cheek and made me look at her, that I spoke.


    “I can’t bare myself to you. I can’t show you everything about me and then watch you walk out on me because you think it’s too much.”


    I already told her that the contract didn’t have a time use. I already told her that she could leave if she wanted. Now, she thought she could handle everything, but she couldn’t.


    Meadow would never forgive me if she knew the truth about her father–whether or not they were in speaking terms with each other. And even if she somehow managed to forgive me for that fault, she would never be able to move past the things that followed. The deceit.


    I knew who this woman was and she had no idea.


    Meadow shook her head, her brows furrowing. “No, ric. I won’t-<b>” </b>


    I cut her off with another kiss, stopping her from finishing that sentence. From making promises that she wouldn’t be able to keep. Promises that I wouldn’t even fault her for not keeping.


    Meadow’s fingers climbed into my hair and she pulled me even further down against her, tightening the grip of her thighs around my waist. Her lips were warm and soft as always, her tongue so epting of


    mine.


    My cock pushed against my cks, against her stomach, and when I ground my hips against hers, she let


    out a moan.


    Fuck.


    I’d just fucked her and it looked like she wanted more.


    “Tell me what <b>you </b>want,” I whispered against her mouth.


    “We shouldn’t<b><i>,</i></b><b><i>” </i></b>she breathed. “We were having a conversation.”


    “A conversation that can be continuedter.”


    “You haven’t had anything to eat since you got back. I’m sure you’re starving.”


    “Only for you,” I murmured.


    She chewed on the corner of her lip, eyes dropping as her cheeks flushed. “I’m…sore.”


    My lips twitched. She was trying to say no without saying no, but her body waspletely against it. Her


    thighs had tightened around my waist, her back arched so her chest was pressing against mine.


    I pulled down my zipper, taking my cock out as I dragged her until her ass was on the edge of the table.”


    I’ll go slow, baby.”


    Meadow’s eyes remained on mine as I slowly slid into her. Her eyelids fluttered, a beautiful sound


    escaping her mouth as she clung onto my shoulder.


    “Fuck…” I rasped, pulling out of her tight <b>pussy </b>and driving in again. I said it before and I would never


    stop saying it–I would never, EVER get tired of Meadow Russell.


    No. Meadow Ashford.


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    This woman was my wife. She belonged to me, and I was going to do everything in my power to keep her


    with me–even if that meant keeping a few secrets from her.


    “ric…” she moaned, pulling my head down until my lips met hers again. Our kiss was feverish,ced with emotions. So many words that I wanted to say but couldn’t. And I knew I wasn’t the only one.


    I knew Meadow had secrets too–granted, they were secrets I already knew, but to her, they were still just


    secrets.


    “I’ll always take care of you, Seelenmme,” I rasped against the corner of her mouth as I thrust deep into


    her.


    “What…” she breathed. “What does that mean?”


    I pulled back so I could stare into those hazel eyes and give her my response. Meadow’s lips were parted in a perfect ‘O‘. She was struggling to keep her eyes open.


    Her pussy started to clench around me and I knew that she was close. I increased my pace slightly, my


    balls pping her skin as I fucked her wet cunt.


    And just when I noticed that she was on the brink, I gave her my answer.


    “Soul me.”


    Meadow gasped, throwing her head back and crying out loudly as she came around my cock.


    “Fuck.” My voice was a low growl. “There are no words for how you look whenever youe for me,


    baby.” I kissed her. <b>“</b><b>No. </b>Fucking. Words.”


    A shiver shot down my spine as warmth spread to the bottom of my stomach, my body tensing up as I


    pulsed inside of her.


    “Oh, yes…” Meadow breathed, letting her head fall onto my shoulder. “God, ric. <b>If </b>our sex is this phenomenal when I don’t know you, just imagine how it would be when you finally-<b>” </b>


    <b>“</b>Meadow<i>,</i><i>” </i>I warned.


    She let out a breathy chuckle, still panting. “Worth a try.”


    I ran my hand through my hair, feeling my lips twitch. And then I leaned in, pressing a kiss to the top of


    her head.


    “Some things are better left unsaid, Doe.”


    Vivienne


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