moonlight sleeps beside me


    her hair spills across my scarred chest


    like starfall


    where she belongs


    cannot stop staring


    cannot look away


    even though looking at beauty hurts


    like looking at sun


    but she is more than sun


    more than stars


    more than moon itself


    she is everything


    she is the center of the universe


    all orbits around my moonlight


    my goddess


    mine


    still cannot believe what happened


    what she let me do


    how she gave herself to me


    me


    a monster


    a beast


    a broken thing


    but she touched me


    touched the scars


    touched the metal


    touched every ruined part


    and did not run


    did not scream


    did not faint


    like all the others


    instead she guided me


    my guiding moonlight


    showed me how to please her


    how to worship her properly


    with more than blood and death


    remember way she arched beneath me


    way she cried out my name


    even though i have no name


    just designation


    3686


    experiment


    weapon


    monster


    but she made me feel…


    human


    whole


    worthy


    her body still joined with mine


    knot keeping us locked together


    as it should be


    as nature demands


    can feel her pulse


    smell her scent


    taste her skin


    where my sharp teeth rest against throat


    teeth that have torn


    teeth that have killed


    teeth that have feasted


    on so many others


    but not her


    never her


    would rather die


    would tear myself apart first


    she stirs in sleep


    makes soft sound


    like music


    like song that drew me to her


    shift carefully


    try not to wake her


    try not to disturb her rest


    she needs it after what we did


    after i imed her


    marked every inch inside her as mine


    should feel guilty


    should feel shame


    should feel like the beast I am


    for taking something so pure


    but cannot


    will not


    refuse to regret


    what she freely gave


    her hand moves in sleep


    fingers brush my chest


    right over heart


    that beats only for her


    broken purr builds


    cannot help it


    sound too big for throat


    too raw for beast voice


    she smiles


    still sleeping


    still dreaming


    still mine


    want to keep her


    want to hide her


    want to guard her


    forever


    but know I cannot


    know I must not


    know this cannotst


    beyond this night


    she deserves better


    deserves whole alpha


    deserves mate who can speak


    can smile


    can kiss


    not this


    not me


    but for now


    for this moment


    will hold her


    will guard her


    will cherish her


    while she sleeps


    memorize every detail


    burn into mind


    save forter


    save for dark moonless nights


    softness of skin


    silk of hair


    curve of breast


    arch of throat


    sound of breath


    beat of heart


    scent of heaven


    all mine


    for now


    for this night


    even if she only wants me this once


    i will keep her safe forever


    nuzzle closer


    breathe her in


    let her scent fill lungs


    let her warmth seep into bones


    let her presence calm rage


    that always burns inside


    for first time since birth in hell


    i feel something else


    i feel quiet


    this must be peace