moonlight


    close now


    so close


    can feel her warmth against my side


    strange


    thought i would have to chase


    thought i would have to hunt


    thought i would have to take


    but she came to me


    touched me


    no one touches monster


    no one touches beast


    only scientists with needles


    only handlers with chains


    but she touched my head


    gentle


    soft


    like clouds touching earth


    like stars falling into my hands


    want to consume her


    need to consume her


    that is what she wants


    that is what she has always wanted


    her song tells me so


    e to me’


    ‘find me’


    ‘consume me’


    but body is weak


    broken


    bleeding


    cannot even lift head


    pathetic


    useless


    failure


    she deserves better feast than this


    deservesplete devotion


    total surrender to her light


    maybe after rest


    maybe after healing


    but…


    something is wrong


    do not want to hurt her


    do not want to tear moonlight


    she curls closer


    seeking warmth


    hair spills across my skin


    silver silk


    just like in dreams


    should pull away


    should protect her from me


    but cannot move


    cannot think


    can only feel her pressed against me


    small


    fragile


    precious


    most precious thing that exists


    want to wrap around her


    shield her from world


    but arms will not move


    too weak


    too broken


    a failure


    she smells different


    a stronger smell


    a sweeter smell


    a smell that reminds me I do not deserve this


    do not deserve to be so close to her


    do not deserve to even taste her