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1 sniffled as I tipped a square out of the empty. Hamburger Helper her I''d been toozy to toss in the trash. Rummaging around in my nightstand drawer I found the three things I needed a piece of ck crayon, super glue, and three
toothpicks.
Rubbing the tears off my face, I walked into the kitchen where Fille The Coffee Barn box that had once housed the best cupcake muffins ever. With the ck cravon, inrge bubble letters, I drew on the piece of cardboard all the while trying to ignore the new onught of tears bluing my vision and the ache in my heart that wouldn''t go away. I glued the toothpicks together and then ced the half- assed drawing against themt
"I can''t believe I wasted you guys," I mumbled; cutting an opening into the box to put the rest-in-peace post I''d made in ce.
Picking the box, up, I put it on top of my broken microwave, deciding if it wouldn''t cook my microwave dinners then it was going to be good for something, I stood back, realizing the ridiculousness of my little art project, but a little surprised at how well it hade out. The greens and silvers of the box brought a little vor into this ce,
Then I felt it, the tickling of crawling legs and antennae on the back of my hand, in a panic, I flipped my hand over, confirming what was there. With a yelp, I brushed the cockroach off and watched as it scurried away into hiding again.
Come on," I shouted at it. "We had a deal! I don''t stomp on you and you don''t show yourselves when the lights are on! Little fuckers."
I couldn''t kill them because I d feel bad for days about it. Didn''t ever kill spiders and I always avoided the anthills, or at least! tried. No point in senseless killing just because something is a creep crawler, Just because something is different from me. I was probably a creepy stomper to them. It was all about perspective.
The sudden, loud pounding on the door made me jump high. I mmed a hand over my rapidly beating heart and red at the door a mere three feet away. "I''m gonna try out for the long jump at school if you keep that loud ass knocking up. Who the hell is it?"
"Cassie, let me in!
My breath caught in my throat at the angry voice hidden behind my door. Ethan. Red clouded my vision and I walked towards the door, wrapping my knuckles back in response, but not opening it. "Do you know where you are? You can''te around here knocking on doors like you''re the po po!"
"The police you asshole!
Open the door, Cassie, Ethan demanded.
I looked through the peephole to see a wrinkled top and jeans hanging sloppily on his body. His face was red, either from the cold outside or anger. What the hell didr have to be angry about? -
"Seth left too. He would
talk to me. Someone has to talk to me. I thought we were all good after the bathroom and then a cupcake in thete wakes me up to you and Seth fighting. What happened?
"You could sleep through
italypse," I grumbiri.
"Etban, you need to leave. I''m sure Seth will talk to you tomorrow
cooled oft. If you don''t leave the notes sul
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"Youre gonna call the police on me?" he asked, sounding bont,
He was such a great actor. They d both fooled me for a long time. That''s not fair, Cassie, I reasoned with myself. Those automatic thoughts were a bitch sometimes.
you tell
No, I won''t but someone else will. I''m not letting you in. I can''t talk to you right now! We''re not friends anymore... be sure y that to Seth since he seems to have such a huge problem with me. I eventuallye around."
Another lie from the-I would always be their friend and I was the ne angry for how they fooled me? What a double standard.
I hit my lip, feeling ashamed and ready to turn away, but his fist mmed harder rattling the frame of the door, startling a gasp out of me. "You don''t just get to up and decide when we''re finished being friends. Besides, were more than friends now. I know this has something to do with what happened tonight and I''m going to find out what the hell Seth''s problem is, but I need a little give. I need you to let me in. Cass."
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His problem just clearest up a few things for me so whether hees around or not the decisions been made. problem
I''m no longer
1 pecked through the peephole again to see the confusion on his face before he leaned his forehead against the door, bracing himself against it with both hands.
"Cassie," his voice was so low I almost didn''t hear him. "You were never a problem. How did youe to that conclusion? Please open
the door. We need to tak
Another hard pound that made the door shake and I wondered how long it could
I heard something click and the apartment''s door, across the hall from me, creaked open.
Oh shit. My neighbor.
1 swung my door open quickly and pulled Ethan inside, mumbling an apology for
the interruption. The old man''s handheld a hard, ck shiny object as he
narrowed his eyes at me and then mmed his door.
What the hell is wrong with you?" I asked, pushing Ethan in as I mmed my door. This isn''t your neighborhood. You can''te hore acting like this."
hy would he have that?"
gun. "Why
Ethan was frowning, still looking down at where the man''s hand had held the gu
Again, this is a bad area. Mr. Powell has been robbed several times she got a license for a gun. He doesn''t care much for me, but just by association 1 get protection because I do live here," I said.
I swallowed when I noticed my hands were still against Ethan''s chest 1 dropped them instantly and folded them over my chest. "Now, what do you want?"
Ethan swallowed, clearly still lost in what had just happened. He rubbed his chest, visibly disturbed as his gaze connected with mine. "Have you-'' he cleared his throat, "ever been robbed?
I shrugged casually. "Twe had people break-in, but then they realized the only thing of value I have is a toaster. No one has broken in for weekst
"Christ!" His chest concaved from therge exhale of breath he let out. "Why didn''t you ever say anything? You really can''t stay here anymore. I''m going to call
Ohe on! That i not fair Ethan started, but I cut him off.
Do I have to exin why lifes not fair here? 1 patted his shoulder You re a big buy now."
He scowled and rolled his eyes before his fate mampled back into the serious, world look bed had warly. Seriously, what happened?
1 licked my bottom lip and turned hall away from lum, Seth was gonna leave
you... I mean us, but you because he never wanted me to begin with."
That not true! What do you mean ha ma
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"He''d gone to the closet and gotten all of his clothes. He was gonna
was going to back to his apartment."
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Ethan frown. "That is not entirely abnormal. It doesa I mean he was leaving."
And then he said he couldn''t do it anymore. That I was the problem all around, that Id always been the problem. He said he was. just an experiment to you until you realized who you really loved. he was done." Re-hashing the words tore my trying to mend
heart even more.
Damn. I''d really
really been falling for Seth hard.
His jaw clenched. "Who was this person I was supposed to really in
"Damn it, I thought we''d gotten past that two years ago."
"Me too, but apparently not."
Ethan raised an eyebrow "Why did you leave then? Practically in the middle of
the night in your pajamas... and you walked here? You have no idea how pissed I
am right now!"
"Pissed? I figured you''d be relieved. You don''t have to take care of me. I don''t
need you anymore.
"You don''t need me anymore?"
I nodded, pursing my lips. That''s right. I got what I wanted out of you."
Ethan looked at me skeptically, "Are you saying you used me for sex
"ording to you, I''ve used you and your family your entire life. Remember, I ruin everything?"
Erhan raised his arms in frustration. His grunt of irritation was the ly sound heard for a minute. "When in the hell did I ever anything like that?"
Remember your birthday? When I threw up all over you? Then!"
It didn''t take long for him to remember and the realization morphed over his face.
"I was fucking twelve, Cassiet You can''t hold words I said when I was twelve
against me.
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