**Theo''s POV **
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This is not how I nned to spend the rest of this year! I was supposed to be having crazy sex parties with bond group and learning how to use my gifts ready to defer the realm at some point in the distant future. Instead, I''m tramping across a muddy field in December, freezing my ass off whilst I lug a tent, sleeping bags, food and drinks to Mason because he refuses toe back to the apartment. I''m also alone. Which should be pretty much impossible for someone in such arge bond group. Josie is trapped in a different realm. Deacon is hopefully with her but potentially trapped in the void or already dead, Luke is being a taxi service to collect everyone with a molecr gift. Axel is still being a psycho wolf and Mason is trying to kill himself by working himself into the ground whilst we wait for a sign that Josie and Deacon areing back through. Life is awesome! Mason doesn''t even notice my return, too focused on manipting the opening into the void. His arms shake as he holds them up towards the sky as if he can physically pull the crack open. Sweat beads on his face and his leather jacket is on the floor by his feet. Two other Greys are trying to assist him but they keep casting him worried nces as they attempt to widen the fracture and stabilise it.
"Mace,e take a break," I say softly.
"Can''t," he grunts and his knees almost give out beneath him from exhaustion. "Take a fucking break!" I snap and he stumbles backwards before returning his focus to the sky.
"I can''t, Theo, I need this open," he groans.
"You are going to pass out from exhaustion soon and then you''ll be no good to anyone. Either that or you''re going to start draining our energy too, including Deacon who might need it to get out of the void. Or Josie, who for all we know, needs that energy to fight for her life so TAKE A FUCKING BREAK!" I shout. His hands drop to his sides in defeat and he nods before sitting down. He brings his knees up and puts his arms on top of them before resting his head on them and breathing heavily. The sight of him like this breaks something in me. We are all falling apart without her.
"I need her back here. I just need to see she is okay, then I''ll leave," he murmurs. "What do you mean you''ll leave?"
"I''ll stay away from her," he says lifting his head to look at me.
"Why the fuck would you do that?"
''Because I don''t deserve to have her in my life. I dont deserve to be a part of this bond group. It''s my fault all this is happening, if I hadn''t been such a pussy and I''d killed my father years ago he''d never have been able to take her and I wouldn''t have treated her so badly. I can''t stand the thought that I could have prevented all this if I''d been stronger. It''s killing me!" he admits and his words hit me like a punch. I drop everything I''m holding and sit beside him on the soggy ground.
"Mace, this isn''t your fault. If you had killed your father years ago then someone else would have just taken his ce, and you''d still have been an asshole, but guess what? We''d still love you exactly as you are. I could just as easily me myself for this too because I left her alone, but if we all me ourselves then we are all going to end up like Axel and then we will never get her back. When she gets home we need to be here for her, as a united bond group, so get your shit together," I say and my heart begins to pick up its tempo in my chest as if Josie is agreeing
with me.
"Do you think he''s found her?" Mason rubs his chest over his heart.
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"Yes, her heart rate has been a little more erratic in the I with her," I nod. I reach over and grab a bottle of water ar Eat, you need to be ready for when we get the signal,
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"Yes, bet heart rate has been a little more erratic in thest few hours than it has in thest weeks. He has to be with her," I nod. I reach over and grab a bottle of water and a protein bar from my bag and hand them to Mason, " Eat, you need to be ready for when we get the signal,"