**Josie''s POV **


    Deacon holds my hand all the way back to the bed and breakfast and I feel like a giddy teenager holding hands with a boy for the first time. He''s done a full 180 on me. He''s gone from doing everything he could to avoid me to not being able to keep his hands off me. I dont know if it''s because of everything that''s happened over thest few weeks or if he has somesting effects from his head injury I need to ask him when we are alone. I won''t allow things to go any further unless I''m sure this is really what he wants,


    "I''m so looking forward to a full night''s sleep," Freya moans when we get to our room and I collect some of my belongings to move to the room Deacon has been allocated


    "You''ve been sleeping just fine," I frown at her.


    "No I haven''t, your insistent pacing wakes me up multiple times," she huffs.


    "You''re going to miss me really," Iugh.


    "Girl, 1 love you, but I need my sleep," she hugs me before ushering us out of the door.


    Deacon takes my bag from me with a smile and holds out his other hand for me to take. I put my hand in his and. nervous anticipation begins to creep up my spine as we move down the hall to our room. Why am I suddenly nervous? Isn''t this what I''ve wanted since I first met him?


    "What''s wrong" He stops me to ask.


    "Nothing," Ilie.


    "Your heart rate says otherwise," he raises a brow at me.


    "When did you trigger the Spark bond with me?" I deflect. He begins to walk again before answering.


    "Let''s get inside, I''m going to remove all thepulsion. I want you to remember everything," he says squeezing, my hand


    "Just how muchpulsion are we talking about here?" I ask.


    "Not much, but I dont want any secrets between us. I want you to be able to trust me and understand why I did what I did," he exins, releasing my hand to unlock the door we have arrived at. He pushes open the door and gestures for me to go first. I take a nce back towards Freya''s room and then suck in a breath before walking into my new room with Deacon.


    The room is very much the same as the one I''d shared with Freya but instead of two single beds, there is just one double bed.


    "Take a seat," he gestures to the bed and I sit on the end of it. "Ready?" he asks.


    "Yes. Will it hurt?"


    "Not at all, it will just be like remembering something you''d forgotten," he smiles and crouches in front of me, taking my hands in his. I look at our intertwined hands, it feels right to be touched by him like this. I look up into his eyes and nod. “Remember everything that I''ve made you forget," he says, his power washing over me like a warm breath. I close my eyes as memories crash back to me I relive every dream he had shared with me, the moment I''d figured out he was my bond and he''d admitted it and told me his reasoning why he was hiding it from me. I open my eyes and practically throw myself at him. Knocking him to the ground to kiss him


    "Please don''t ever hide things from me again," I say when our lips part.


    "I won''t, I promise, but can we start that from tomorrow?" he asks looking a little sheepish.


    "No, what are you hiding from me?" I frown.


    "Nothing that can''t wait until tomorrow. Just trust me that it can wait, please?" he says and I can see the worry behind his eyes.


    "Why tomorrow?"


    "Because today is your birthday and I''d really like to shower and then bond with you," he purrs and I feel just how excited he is to bond with me. The thought of bonding with him sends a thrill through me that pools in my core, but it also terrifies me because he''s at a fertile age. We can''t use a condom or the bonding won''t work, and even if we did hold off on the actual bonding there''s no way he can skip my next heat now. I''m not ready to be a mother, and it''s not even about my age anymore, it is because of everything else we have to deal with. I''ve not even told him about what I suspect the rouge Greys are doing here. Do I think I could bring up a child with all my bonds beside me... Yes, absolutely, we''d make it work somehow. Do I think it''s a good time to do it... No.


    "I''m not sure it''s a good idea," I tell him and I hate the hurt look that shes across his face. "Not because I don''t want to. I do, I really do. It''s just too risky right now. Do you really think we should risk bringing a child into this mess? What if we can''t get home?"


    "Let me worry about all that,” he tucks a lock of hair behind my ear and smiles reassuringly, “We dont have to bond tonight, but I am going to pleasure you at least. I didn''t have time to go buy you a gift yet, so let me make


    feet. you feel good," he says, helping me to my


    ''Only if I can make you feel good too," I smirk as he stands, brushing off his suit.


    "Just looking at you makes me feel good," he purrs. "Take off your clothes and wait for me on the bed," he adds, lightly pping my ass before he walks into the bathroom. I hear the shower turn on and I begin to remove my clothes. My legs shake with desire and I decide to ignore hismand to wait for him. I climb up on the bed and begin to touch myself at the thought of him naked just behind the thin wall. I''m so close to my climax when he shuts off the water and exits the bathroom wearing just a towel around his waist. His eyes sh blue when they


    "Such a naughty little temptress," he hums.