** Mason''s POV **


    I wish I could tell them how much I want them, both of them. I wish I could be more like they are, more open, but I learnt the hard way that admitting any kind of feelings or howing affection is just giving someone an opportunity to hurt you. Every time I even think about touching Theo, my father is in my head ready to punish me with his knives orsh me with his whip. The worst mistake of my life had been to ask him that stupid question when I was a child. I''d paid for that every day since. Those simple words had made me who I am today. A monster. Josie pleads for more as Theo teases her with his tongue. She is beautiful like this, flushed with need. There''s a


    and look at Theo. wildness about her that calls to me. The bottle of lube sits on the dresser behind me. I pick it up He''s so alluring to me, he has been since the moment Iid eyes on him.


    "Boys don''t love boys Mason!" Whip. My father''s words scream in my head and I flinch. The bite of that whip across my back still stings like he''s here right now. He''s not here, though. He can''t get in, he can''t see what I''m doing. I take a step closer and I notice Josie''s eyes tracking the.


    "Your bond will reject you when she finds out you are attracted to boys," Whip. But she hasn''t rejected me has she, She supports this, encourages it even. She epts me for who I am, even after I''ve been awful to her.


    "Make her scream, Theo," I breathe. She deserves this, to be worshipped by us all. I wish I could be like the others for her. I wish I could tell her how I feel. I kneel on the bed behind Theo.


    "Her other bonds will kill you when they find out what you are!" Whip! I look at the bedroom door. Her other bonds are happy as long as she is happy. They ept me too. They''re my family now. I reach out and stoke my hand up Theo''s thigh. He shivers at my touch.


    "Your bond will be so distraught that she won''t be able to go on living. You''ll kill her Mason!" Whip. I screw my eyes shut. I can''t do this. I don''t want to kill her. Then Josie screams out her pleasure, dragging me out of the past and back here, to this moment, with the two people who matter to me the most. Theo sits back on his heels and turns his head to look at me. I don''t know what he sees on my face, but his features soften. My eyes move to his mouth. The evidence of Josie''s pleasure glistens in the early morning sun.


    "My turn," Josie announces. "Theo, kiss him," she demands and before I can exin that this is not how this


    game works Theo''s mouth is on mine. I want to protest, tell them that I''m in control here, they don''t get to


    change the rules, but Theo''s mouth is so warm and soft and he tastes like her. I push my tongue in his mouth, I need to taste more of him and her, they''re a headybo.


    "Boys don''t kiss boys, Mason!" Whip. I flinch and end the kiss with a gasp.


    "That was so fucking hot," Josie groans. "Lay on the bed, Mason," she says, taking my hand and pulling me towards her on the bed. Iply,ying on my back with the bottle of lube still clutched in my other hand. "Taste him for me, Theo," she says before leaning over and kissing me. I forget everything when her mouth dominates mine and when I feel Theo wrap his lips around me I groan into her mouth. Josie breaks the kiss to watch Theo and I watch him too. He sucks me into his mouth like he''s done this a million times before, but I know this is a, first for him too. His eyes meet mine as his tongue teases my piercing. I throw my head back at the sensation.


    "Is this okay?" Theo stops to ask.