Amy,
I haven''t heard from you in a week. I hope you read my letter. I know it is stupid
for me to think you will forgive me instantly, but I hope you will give me a minute to exin it to you. I''ve spent thisst week getting updates every day from Sterling. I don''t know if I ever told you he is my cousin.
He told me you have been stuck in your apartment. I can''t help but worry about what you''re going through. Has your heat ended? Have you been looking for me? Have you called? I know the answer to thest one, it''s not, but I wish it was yes. I check my phone endlessly all day waiting for your message.
I even look for an email, anything to let me know what is going on.
I was too stupid to get Wendy''s or Toya''s number as I ran like a coward from your ce. But your scent, goddess, your scent, was driving me crazy. It''s wrong and still it was the most delicious scent I had ever smelled in my life.
I can''t sleep without dreaming of you.
I know you struggled with your heat, and I am so sorry. If we were a little less stupid, or had wolves a little less stubborn, this would have never happened. I would have never fallen in love with you, or maybe you would be smart enough not to like me. I don''t know.
I don''t know what to think or how to feel. What I do know is that I dream of you. Every day. I smell your skin in the air, taste your lips against mine. And then I wake up and you''re gone, a ghost.
You are haunting me, and I don''t ever want you to stop.
Goddess, save me.
Rowan
I toss the letter down and wipe my face. It was only the second one and I can barely breathe. How am I supposed to do this? Read them all? But then I
remember Megan''s words and I grab the next letter. If he was brave enough to write them, I would read them.
Amy,
It''s been two weeks since I left you. I thought you have been ignoring me, but Sterling just told me you havee out of your heat after a week. A week? That is almost unheard of for wolves. For lycans it is pretty standard for a female in heat, but it lessons with their mate present.
What I wouldn''t give to be your mate.
I think about it sometimes. It''s stupid, I know. But I can''t stop running it through my mind. What it would mean if you were my goddess given mate? I think I''ve lived our lives together a thousand times by now.
I can''t believe I''m admitting this to
you but I had this dream. I don''t even know you can call it a dream. I think about it, dream about it even when I''m awake. It has be my newest obsession. I can barely make it through a meeting without our life unfolding like a story in my mind.
My mind has rewritten our meeting. How when walked into the
ssroom and I spotted you? Lof
???
Instead of my heart stopping for a minute and then I had to pretend to not be distracted. That my first thought about you wasn''t that you were the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Instead, I walked into the ssroom and your scent hit my nose and I knew. You were meant to be mine. I kicked everyone else out of the room, and I released my scent for you to recognize me as your other half.
We barely made it to our mating ceremony. I have pictured years with you. Our kids. So many kids.
But then someone speaks and I''m back here. In this ce where I left you when you needed me the most and now I can''t see you. Can''t touch you. Can''t even hear your voice because it would rip me open.
Goddess, I am the worst kind of man there is. I have started to hate my wolf. His name is Erubus. I don''t think I ever told you about my wolf. I wanted to run with you, so you could meet him, but we never had any time to.
I hate that. I hate that I never got to meet your wolf. Why did we never run together?
I''m rambling at this point, but the truth of it is that this is all I have to hold on to. Your father has started in with these new ns he wants to have a meeting about, and I have this pit in my stomach.
I wish I coulde to your ce and talk to you, but he''s sworn me to stay away. He says it''s better this way, but for who? It''s not me.
Rowan