Iughed as I clutched her hand as a lifeline. My mind kept dragging me back to that day. I had spent so much of my time focused on my next move that I had pushed myst life to the back of my mind. Or I tried to.
But when ever I was asleep, my mind would bring me back that day. To my son''s softly staggered breathing, and his face pressed against my skin. I wake up with his scent in the air and I have to search my bed to remember that he is gone.
Never even existed in this life.
"Before I tell you, I need to exin this. In myst life, I knew nothing I do now. I didn''t even know about my second wolf. It had always just been Nix and me."
"Nix?"
"My ck wolf. My secret Lycan." I snorted. "She is my alpha. Megan, my grey wolf, is a gamma. Still Luna rank, just not as strong." I heard a snort in my mind. I sent back love, and she sent a wave back.
"Your power?" Toya asked, but I shook my head slowly.
"Because of who I am, I needed to bnce my power and be able to control it before I could shift. In myst life, I was still as strong as I am now, but I had never shifted, and because of that, Shannon had a way of tormenting me. She convinced my pack that I was less of a wolf because I never shifted." I rolled my eyes. “But that is a whole other thing. Anyway. Because I never knew of Megan, I assumed my mate was Nix''s, but I was wrong. My mate was Megans. I never met Nix''s mate before I died."
"So you have a second mate out there somewhere. Who, let''s fucking pray, is better than thest." I nodded. " Now, who was your mate?"
I rolled my head on my shoulders. "Megan''s mate is Brandon... Vince''s son." Toya coughed. "Are you serious?"
"I really wish I wasn''t."
"Is her mate..." Toya trailed off and then grabbed me by my shoulders. "IS! You haven''t rejected him? How does he not realize that you''re his mate?"
"When I died...I woke up on my eighteenth birthday. I asked my mom if I could reject him, and she could hear something was wrong. She knew my father could help save me."
Toya pped her arms. "You dad has powers too."
I cackled. “Yeah. When I went to his pack, I learned about it all. Met my second wolf, learned how to change my
scent."
"But won''t that stop you from finding your Lycan mate?" I nodded. "Then why don''t you reject him and then move the fuck on?"
"I wish it was that simple."
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"Then tell me. I will help you. Whatever it is, I''ll help."
"My father and Rowan think Vince is involved. I need to get close to him if I reject him."
"How is getting close to him going to work?"
"I need to be able to figure out a way to get into their records. They systems, to see if they are involved." And lifted
a shoulder. "I''ll need to get into the pack house to do it."
Toya shook her head. "I don''t like it." I leaned against her as she wrapped her arm over my shoulder. "I don''t like that you have to get so close to him after he hurt you." I just stayed silent because there wasn''t much to say. "I don''t know why or how, but I feel so protective of you. I can feel it in my bones that we were meant to meet."
I nodded. "I feel the same way. But I''m not sure why or how Normally, we feel this protective of our inner circle. Our betas and gammas."
She agreed. "But I''m an alpha."
I pulled away. "Exactly." I stood and pulled her with me. "Come on. I''m starving, and we aren''t going to solve the mystery tonight.
She groaned. "I am so stiff.“.
"I can honestly say I am excited to have a soaking bath before bed. These work
outs and moving these couches in killed me. But I need food."
Toya stretched and I heard a pop on her back. "Okay. Let''s go."
"Did you want to try out the restaurant in the caff building? I haven''t eaten there yet." I offered as we slipped our
shoes back on.
''Goddess yes. Let me call the others. We can make a night of it." I pointed to her, and she pulled out her phone.
"I''m just going to check out my phone and grab a jacket. Then we can swing downstairs and grab them."
"Living here is so much easier."
"I know." I ran to grab my coat and then we headed out.