Chapter 480


    Chapter 480


    Ste


    I wanted to belong with the crowd in a ce like The Silver Crescent, but I didn’t. Not yet, anyway.


    Nor would I, not without some help I couldn’t get from the library in my head or even from the Moon


    Goddess. I didn’t even bother reaching out to her. She couldn’t possibly be bothered with something


    as mundane as my stupid little yearnings.


    I guessed there were some things no supernatural talent would ever be able to give me.


    As soon as I was sure my aunt wasn’t going to get kidnapped and brutalized, I ducked out of the


    bar. The night air was wonderfully cool against my face, which still felt puffy and hot from the


    weeping fit I’d had in the restroom. I let the breeze waft over me with my eyes closed for a minute,


    until the doors opened behind me, and I heard peopleing out.


    Theirughter still made me envious, but I kept myself in the shadows so I didn’t catch their


    attention. A couple helped each other down the sidewalk. The pulse of their sexual energy was so


    strong I didn’t need to use any special skills to feel it. I could practically smell it.


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    The doors opened again, letting out another courting couple and a surge of music that thumped all


    through me. It didn’t make me want to dance anymore. All I wanted to do was get home, sneak


    back inside the house without anyone seeing me, and crawl under my covers.


    This time, I took the risk and let myself fly.


    Not up into the air, like a bird with pping arms in the ce of wings. I just drew on the ability to


    make myself weightless. My body rose a few inches, so the tips of my toes barely skimmed the


    road, and I pushed myself along by manipting the air currents. It was much faster even than


    running as a wolf would have been, but it wasn’t very fun. It made it hard to hold onto my different


    face and body, too, but that made sense.


    Ste Constantine was the Celestial, not Elleah Whitehaven.


    My first night out had been an utter failure, but I didn’t have any more tears left by the time I made it


    back to the mansion grounds. There were still a lot of lights on. I paused on the very edge of the


    lawn, among the trees, and opened myself up to see if I could sense my parents. They were all still


    awake. Dad and Abba were in the dining room, having a veryte dinner. Papa was in his office.


    Mom was checking in on the twins, who were asleep.


    Guiltily, I realized I hadn’t even seen ina or Isaac today. The distance between us felt so much


    bigger than it had before. They were still very much children, but what was I? Something caught in


    between two ces…I hadn’t been alive long enough to call myself an adult, but I’d never really


    ever been a child.


    Inside that house, my family was settling in. They were happy to be in the ce they considered


    home. Even Abba was feeling more at ease. The pack had epted him.


    I was the only one who didn’t really belong here, and I had to ept that it was possible that I never


    really would.


    Abba’s idea had been a good one, but the experiment had failed.


    I didn’t feel like taking the risk of running into any staff or—worse—my parents, so instead of letting


    myself in through any of the doors on the ground floor, I let myself get even more weightless. I


    drifted upward to my bedroom window. I considered letting myself keep on going, up, up into the


    night sky and then just…flying away. Somewhere, anywhere, to a ce where nobody knew my


    face as I usually wore it. Maybe all the way up to the Moon’s broad silver face.


    “You are loved. Do not despair.”


    The sweet, soft whisper tickled my ears as I used a pulse of strength to utch my window from the


    inside. I slid it open and floated into my room. My feet touched down lightly, but I was breathing as


    hard as if I’d run up a mountain.


    “Moon Goddess?”


    But she didn’t answer me or send a vision. All I had was those six words imprinting on my mind. I


    knew I was loved. That had never been the issue. What I wanted…what I needed…was more than


    the love of my parents, though.


    I needed to know my purpose. Until then, until I knew why I was here and whaty ahead for me,


    everything else was only going to feel like a ceholder. For tonight, though, thefort from the


    Moon Goddess would have to be enough.


    It was all I had.