"I shouldn''t say these words to you. I''ve been, I''ve been thinking, I want you to stop worrying about me," he said, looking at her. "I''m afraid you''re worried about me. I want to face you with my best side, but I didn''t do it at all. I didn''t do anything, I didn''t do anything."
Sufan got up and sat on the chair beside him.
Qin Yifei looked at her and put her hand on his.
His eyes were moist.
"You don''t need to do anything for me, Yifei. Really, you don''t need to be responsible for others. You don''t need to force yourself to make others not worry." Su fan looked at him and said seriously.
Qin Yifei closed his eyes and shook his head gently.
"I don''t want to look like this in front of you. I don''t want you to blame yourself. I don''t want you to bear the pressure that you shouldn''t bear. But I didn''t do anything, I said He said.
"Don''t say that, Yifei, will you?" Su Fan said.
He opened his eyes and looked at her.
"It''s up to me, it''s up to me. I don''t want you to live with so many things. You just live for yourself. Yifei, don''t think about anything else. I don''t need others to protect me. I want to protect myself. I believe I can do it. Do you believe me, Yifei? " In Su fan''s eyes, the tears were shining, and he said.
"Early snow." Qin Yifei called her.
"You''ve done a good job, Yifei, really, already, very well. But you shouldn''t force yourself to do something that you can''t do now. You are injured, so you have only one identity now, that is, the wounded. Other things, do not bother to think, do not bother to do. As a wounded person, the only thing to do is to recover as soon as possible. What''s more, "Su fan wiped the tears from the corner of his eyes and said with a smile," as a wounded person, you can always get angry with the people around you. If you feel uncomfortable, you can get angry. If you''re finished, you can apologize. But don''t hold it in your heart. It''s our privilege. "
Qin Yifei couldn''t help laughing.
"In fact, I know that I have done a lot of stupid and wrong things in the process of recovery. When I think about it now, I regret it. " Su Fan said.
Qin Yifei looks at her.
"Like your marriage to Minhui." Su fan''s expression is very serious, the way.
Qin Yifei was stunned and looked at her.
"In fact, it was me. I was too selfish and self righteous." Su Fan said.
"Early snow." He called her, and Sufan shook his head slightly.
"It''s my fault that I shouldn''t use my own ideas to interfere in your decisions and influence your life. I''m sorry, Yifei. I shouldn''t have done that. I''m sorry. " Su Fan said.
"You are not to blame for that. On the contrary, I should thank you for saying that to me at that time." Qin Yifei said.
"Thank me?" Su fan is puzzled.
"Before I''m ready to step into another life, I really should think it over before making a decision. I shouldn''t be so hasty. As a result, my hasty decision makes my family very passive and makes Minhui very happy." Qin Yifei said.
"Minhui, she loves you very much." Su Fan said.
"I know. She has done a lot for me, but I have always been Qin Yifei said, and he paused, "I think I should apologize to Minhui."
Su fan looked at him quietly.
Su fan looked at him quietly.
"Think about yourself, really, very selfish. Self righteous to do good to you, but let you in such an embarrassing situation. I accept Minhui''s kindness to me, but I can''t give her a promise. " Qin Yifei said and lowered his head.
"It''s OK. Now you just want to take good care of yourself. Don''t think about anything else. Whether it''s right or wrong, don''t take it to heart. " Su Fan said.
Qin Yifei looks at her.
"If it''s a big deal, put the cause on the medicine. It''s all caused by the medicine." Su Fan said with a smile.
Qin Yifei also couldn''t help laughing.
"Yifei." Sufan called him.
Qin Yifei looks at her.
"Talk more with others, talk with trusted friends and family, and don''t lock yourself in the house, OK?" Su Fan said.
Qin Yifei nodded.
"If, if you want to say it, I can listen to you." Su Fan said.
Qin Yifei smiles.
"It''s easy to talk to you, really." He said.
"Maybe it''s because we''ve had the same experience!" Su fan gave him a smile and said.
Finish. She got up.
The weight on the hand, suddenly disappeared.
His heart suddenly seemed to be missing something.
Think of it. He had no choice but to smile.
He thinks too much!
"Thank you for talking to me about your past. At the beginning of the snow. " Qin Yifei said.
Su fan shook his head slightly. "It''s not easy to admit to others that you are a waste," he said. I''ve never had a chance. Like now, it''s very, uh. It''s more of a normal mindset. "
"It used to be very emotional, wasn''t it?" Qin Yifei said.
Su fan nodded. "Emotional, and then, in fact, it is more inferiority bar!"
He said. Sufan poured tea into their cups.
"Do you want to know what stupid things I''ve done before?" Su Fan said.
"What?" He asked.
"Me. I almost killed myself. " Su Fan said. I laughed at him.
Her smile looks very relaxed, very relaxed to say such a heavy thing.
Qin Yifei. I was stunned.
"Suicide? What are you doing Qin Yifei said.
"Yes, me too. I can''t think of it. Looking back now, it''s incredible. I''ve always been. I''ve been afraid of death since childhood, but I didn''t expect to commit suicide one day. " Su Fan said with a smile and took a sip of the cup.
Qin Yifei did not have such a relaxed mood and expression.
Suicide? He didn''t expect that she would commit suicide. How could she commit suicide? How can a person who survived with difficulty commit suicide? She so strong a person, how can go to commit suicide? It must have been because of something painful that I couldn''t hold on to.
"I think I''m useless. Living in this world is a burden. I almost succeeded in suicide." Su Fan said, "that day, my brother saved me."
"Brother Quan?" Qin Yifei asked.
Su fan nodded.
"I really want someone to listen to me, but I''m afraid to tell others what I really think in my heart. Those fears, those worries, those self distrust, those inferiority complex, all the negative emotions are not easy to say. Because I am surrounded by people who care about me. Every look in their eyes makes me feel very, very heavy and under great pressure. " Su Fan said.
Qin Yifei looks at her.
"Among those people, including me?" He asked.
Su fan smiles and nods.
"Every time I want to speak, I will see people''s eyes. Those eyes seem to tell me, don''t think wildly, we all love you, care about you, we will help you, and so on." Su Fan said, sighed, "I feel a lot of pressure. I care, but I feel tired. Including that kind of air and the people around me, it seems that they are trying to create a sterile environment for me, as if I am a glass man, and it will break when I touch it. "
"That kind of pressure is suffocating." Qin Yifei continued.
"Yes! It''s really suffocating. " Su Fan said.
Qin Yifei also couldn''t help laughing. With a long sigh, he took up the tea cup.
Su fan looked at him, his heart slowly relaxed.
Perhaps, only by telling him his own experience and feelings, can he tell those feelings that are repressed in his heart, those feelings that torture him in the late night and make him try to escape!
Huo Shuqing and Qin Yiqiu, standing at the door of the ward, watched the scene silently.
After a long time, Qin Yiqiu said to Huo Shuqing, "is that ok?"
Huo Shuqing gave a faint smile, took a long breath and sighed: "I don''t know. I''m really, I''m not sure. I''m not sure about Xiaofei. It seems that I will lose Sufan at any time. It''s like that."
"You don''t believe her, do you?" Qin Yiqiu said.
"I don''t believe in myself as much as I don''t believe in her." Huo Shuqing said.
Qin Yiqiu looks at him.
"The three years that I separated from her may be a regret that I can never make up for in my life." Huo Shuqing sighed.
In those three years, I lost not only her but also my father.
"Come on, let''s go and have a drink?" Qin Yiqiu said.
Huo Shu nods and turns away with Qin Yiqiu.
"Have you ever complained about Gaines? "Shuqing?" Asked Qin Yiqiu.
Huo Shuqing took a look at her.
"It''s her and Xiaofei. Have you ever complained about her?" Qin Yiqiu said.
Without waiting for Huo Shuqing to speak, Qin Yiqiu said, "don''t take all the responsibilities to yourself. You are so irresponsible, Shuqing."
"Am I just irresponsible?" Huo Shuqing doesn''t understand.
Qin Yiqiu nodded and said: "as an ordinary husband, if something like this happens to his wife, the normal reaction is that she will be angry. Even if it is not noisy, she will be angry! As for you, it''s not that I''m accusing you of anything, and I''m not qualified to accuse you. It''s just that you always take the responsibility to yourself, and then let Gayne stand there at a loss. "
Huo Shuqing stops and looks at Qin Yiqiu.
Qin Yiqiu took a look at him, walked into the small coffee shop and said, "what would you like to drink?"
Huo Shuqing ordered a cup of American coffee, and Qin Yiqiu ordered another.
Two people are sitting in a window seat.
At this time point, there are not many people. In addition, both of them spoke very quietly, so no one could hear what they were saying.
"Shuqing, don''t you think it''s you who have been conniving at Gayne until now?" Qin Yiqiu said. Huo Shuqing said nothing“ You always say that it''s your lack of concern for her that has led to the present situation. Of course, you don''t have enough time to care about her. There are objective reasons. You are very busy and you don''t have time. But to be fair, is Gayne your wife, daughter or girlfriend in your eyes? " Qin Yiqiu asked“ What are you talking about? " Huo Shuqing said, "what daughter, girlfriend? You can say it If someone else said that, Huo Shuqing would turn his face. But he also understood that, similarly, no one in the world said such words to him, except Qin Yiqiu! So, he didn''t get angry with her, didn''t turn over. You can search Baidu for the latest chapter of "Uncle chatting about jiutao novels "! This novel has been translated by www.novelhall.com and if you are reading this somewhere, they have stolen our translation.