Chapter 513 I just want to live well


    ?Fei Qian and Lu Bu both drank a lot, drinking from the afternoon until late at night.


    At the end of the drinking, only Fei Qian and Lu Bu were left, along with Zhang Liao, Gao Shun, Wei Xu and others. They had some things to do the next day and had to leave early to say goodbye.


    Lu Bu was actually not happy. Although he kept laughing and drinking big bowls of wine, he took Fei Qian and chattered about things in Bingzhou and Luoyang, but he never said anything about Chang''an. things.


    ?Fei Qian was not happy either. Although he was laughing and drinking like Lu Bu, he always seemed to feel guilty and regretful because of Liu Xie''s incident.


    Lu Bu got excited after drinking, so he picked up the Fangtian Painted Halberd and waved it in the backyard.


    ??The original red and gorgeous Fang Tian Painted Halberd returned to its origins as a weapon in the night, leaving only the gray-white brilliance of the blade and the coldness hidden beneath it.


    Fei Qian''s ears felt like the shrill scream made by Fang Tian''s painted halberd was not making the sound himself, but Lu Bu''s roaring through Fang Tian''s painted halberd. …


    It was like a human-shaped tornado. The vegetation in the entire backyard was torn apart and swept away. Even the green bricks on the ground were scratched one after another by the sharp wind of the knife.


    ?A few branches that unfortunately stretched out a little were caught in it, and then turned into some small pieces with a few soft noises, and then turned into some pieces, with unknown endings.


    Lu Bu let out a long roar, and then danced more and more urgently. The strong wind splashed, and some fine sand and gravel were attracted to scatter around, just like the ling that hit from the north in the land of Bingzhou and rolled up the dust all over the sky. Like the strong cold wind, there was a slight crackling sound when it hit the clothes.


    Lu Bu stopped, raised Fang Tian''s painted halberd into the courtyard and stood it up. The tail of the halberd was deeply inserted into the blue bricks, and it stood like that in the middle of the mess.


    "It''s so nice! It''s so nice!" Lu Bu strode over, grabbed a jar of wine, and without using a spoon or bowl, he held the jar to the mouth of the jar and drank half of the jar before spitting out a breath of wine. He sat next to Fei Qian and looked up at the sky...


    "...That direction should be Bingzhou..." Lu Bu made a sound and raised his head blankly, "In the past in Bingzhou, I often looked at the sky at night and looked at the stars in the sky, but now...these stars seem to have changed. Already…”


    ?? Lu Bu let out a wine burp, raised one hand and grabbed it twice in the air, "...Well, you can still run, hum... I will come to catch you tomorrow..."


    "Hahaha... The moon is immortal and the stars are eternal. How can manpower capture them..." Fei Qian also drank too much and said with half-squinted eyes, "This... it existed tens of millions of years ago... and we are in front of them, It''s like it''s gone in the blink of an eye...and you still catch it..."


    I don''t know if Lu Bu understood it or if he didn''t listen at all and was just talking to himself: "Xian brother... do you think I did the right thing... or did I do the wrong thing?"


    "...What''s right or wrong?" Fei Qian''s mind was already extremely slow.


    Lu Bu shook his head, tapped the wine jar lightly, and said: "... In the past, a barbarian''s head could be exchanged for twenty pieces of money... It allowed me to have a good... uh, a good meal... Then someone ran away Come and tell me, a barbarian’s head is actually worth fifty cents…”


    Lu Bu drank another gulp, and then said: "...Then I beat that guy... um, beat him up... and then that guy actually asked people to catch me... Hahaha, I beat him up too, all of them! "…Then later…Ding Gong…found me…" Lu Bu sighed longly, "…Then later…someone came to me…saying that I was actually deceived…Dong Xiangguo valued me very much…"


    "Hahahaha, I''ve been cheated again... Wuwu, I''ve been cheated again..." Lu Bu murmured, repeated, and lay down on the ground, "...I''ve been cheated!"


    Fei Qian shook his groggy head, unable to react. Did Lu Bu say he was deceived by Ding Yuan, Li Su, Dong Zhuo...or both?


    The night in Chang''an has become deep, and the bright moon in the sky is not very round, as if someone has taken two bites of a big cake. In the Han territory, north and south of the river, even thousands of years later, there is still such a bright moon. Most of the time, it is a incomplete moon, quietly shining on the people in this land and observing the things in this land. …


    The courtyard became quiet, accompanied by the sound of Fei Qian and Lu Bu''s breathing, and the insects in the bushes that had escaped the disaster just now, chirping thinly.


    A gust of night wind blew by, like a very big hand, gently scratching the treetops and shrubs, shaking their branches and leaves, and then found something interesting in the distance amidst the rustling sound, and then started again Abandoning these branches and leaves, he turned around and walked away.


    Fei Qian almost thought that Lu Bu had fallen asleep, but he heard Lu Bu''s deep voice: "Dong Xiangguo... is actually pretty good to me... Actually, I didn''t want to do this, I really didn''t want to do this..."


    "...Dong Xiangguo is sick...his brain is sick...he forgets things..." Lu Bu murmured, as if telling Fei Qian to listen, but also seemed to be talking to himself, "...Xiaocao and I were discovered...Dong Xiangguo You want to kill me...but, haha, haha, but..."


    "...Haha, it turns out that one day later, Dong... actually forgot... actually... forgot..." Lu Bu twitched, as if he was laughing and crying, "...but, I didn''t forget! I''m afraid... I''m afraid of Dong Xiangguo When did I remember it again...and then...someone came to me..."


    "...It''s so dirty here...I''m dirty too...I really want to go back...back to Bingzhou, back to the grassland...But now, alas...I can''t go back...I can''t go back anymore...I won''t go back..." Lu Bu suddenly started humming an unknown ballad, but he couldn''t sing a few lines. Maybe it was because he was tongue-tied after drinking too much, or maybe he was singing while lying down and choked on his saliva...


    “Cough…cough…”


    Lu Bu turned over and sat up, dragging the wine jar next to him. Gululu drank all the remaining wine, then threw the jar aside, stood up, pointed at the moon in the sky, and roared loudly: "I just Want to live! Can’t you?”


    Under the incomplete moonlight, Lu Bu stood alone in the courtyard. The old man was dragged behind him. He looked up to the sky and roared, like a wild wolf that had left the prairie, lost its way, was lonely and bruised...


    What is said in ancient mythology is right, people are just clay particles thrown out by Nuwa from the gourd vine...


    Therefore, everyone’s accessories are different…


    Live, I just want to live well...


    The hardest thing is not to live, but to live...


    (End of this chapter)